Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 37
Sign: Libra
City: Miami
State: FLORIDA
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/5/2006
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November 27, 2009 - Friday 7:09 PM
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Current mood:  amused
Category: Life
Ah, the holidays......  Okay so, we all know what this day brings, don't we? >Smiles, and joy, and warm memories, and maddening traffic, and anger, and sales, and crowds, and death threats to under-paid-this-time-of-year store managers who are forced to push through crazed hordes of shoppers determined to be one among the 10 in the crowd of 10,000 to get their hands on the once-a-year sale on magic, super duper, futuristic, life-altering coffee stirrers sure to shame every coffee stirrer ever made, simply by the once-a-year price, which in the end, said shoppers will find were not worth the 12-hour wait on line and which they now know they could have easily lived without, despite the promises of the corporate elite's attempt to woo the sale-hungry shoppers of the consumer world.  First off, Happy Thanksgiving to you all, my dear friends:) I hope yours was one full of family and friends and good food and warm memories, and a few extra so-worth-it pounds and dreams of pumpkin pie parades. I cooked this year, and it went fantabulous! With one of my hubby's uncles in town from Chicago, and one other coming over for dinner, throw in my mother in law, my hubby, and myself, and you get one loud dinner table full of laughter and good eats. So yeah, one of our uncles was set to come, and when he called, he made clear his aversion to turkey with a cemented, "I DON'T LIKE TURKEY!" And there I am, still winded from doing all the shopping the day before, and now awaiting the ceremonial removal of the turkeys from their 14-hr jacuzzi in a most delectable brine. And at hearing his refusal to eat the turkeys, yes one whole turkey and one whole turkey breast, my shoulders slumped in anticipation of the blog I knew was coming shortly thereafter. Yes, I'd been through this before, as you may recall from The Man, The Meal, and The Pain They Both Brought MeSo our uncle, last night, made claim to not like turkey, and so, as I laid it all out, he proceeded to slyly serve himself a little of this and lots of that....including said turkey. And, as he HHMMMed his way through the meal to end all meals, I readied myself for having to pack up some food for him to take home, and just as I picked out the tuperware in my mind, I hear, "I'll take some home." And I look across the table, and there he is, mouth full, smile on his face and a glint in his eye. Summing up, it was all great! And, surprisingly, unlike my five-hour cooking stint from 97', my back was smiling too, pain-free and loving it! And then, today, at 5am, my hubby and I were both up and talking about Black Friday....and then I remembered....BEST BUY....OMG...THE SALES...THE SALES!!!!!!!! And so, I leaped up out of bed with the bounce of a four-year-old anxious to open his long-awaited surprise that wasn't really a surprise considering the pestering he made sure to stir up every time he entered a store with his parents......and I jumped in my car and headed out to Best Buy at 5:15am, giddy as frick and imaging that there would be at least one hundred less people there when I arrived, just so I could find a parking spot...... And as I drive up the already-packed Pines Blvd and pull into the parking lot, I see it packed to the hilt, and I laugh, thinking to myself, "Yeah, I'm gonna find a choice spot here...." And then I see the line, and I outwardly say, even though talking to myself is not a practice I often take to (this was a moral imperative!), "No! No!.....No! NO!" It was as though the entire state of Florida had gathered to stand as one, in one looooooooooong frickin line, just to say,  This line went to the end of the store, down about 200 feet or more to the warehouse area, extended right about five hundred feet, up the other side of the parking lot another 200 feet, and wrapped around the entrance of a neighboring store, which, no doubt, wished at that moment, that they were of the inventory of magic, super duper, futuristic, life-altering coffee stirrers sure to shame every coffee stirrer ever made, simply by the once-a-year price. And I drove through the crowds if only to memorize the sight of those responsible for my not staying there for 10 years to be one among 10 people in the 10,000-strong crowd determined to be the lucky ones to get their hands on the limited supply of 10 this or that, which in the end, was most likely only about 2$ off the regular price. So I went home, empty handed, but not devoid of a blog that will forever remind me of why I love the 21st century.... Wolverine Blue-Ray, $9.99. Gas for trip to store I couldn't get into, $who the frick knows? Thoughts of 21st century shopping online while standing witness to those people waiting in line since they downed their last bite of turkey, for something that will have most likely run out 2 days before they actually get their turn to enter the doors of a store they lined up to get into on Black Friday.......PRICELESS!
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November 9, 2009 - Monday 4:34 PM
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Current mood:  tired
Category: Life
Okay so, our kitties.....they're so adorable, I know. But
let me tell you, they are driving us mad. Mad, I tell ya, mad! Why? Because
they are so cute, that's why. Cute, but a handful!
First of all, we have Shadow, the paper towel roll attacking kitty who we are affectionately starting to call Mr.
Claws (and only because the holidays are soon upon us. After Dec 25, he'll don the name FREDDY!). And then there's Tabby, who's been Mr. Shoes for a long time now because
of his love of laying at our feet when we try to walk. And Boots, who is a
wrestler at heart, taking on the nearest kitty in an all-out ubber-playful
brawl. And then we have….SHADE, the Mistress of Gas!
We call is SPECIAL! And it floats through the air several
times a day...usually when one of us is holding her? You should see my hubby's
face twist and turn when....

"Oh, she farted again! Here, you take her."
"Yeah right!" I say, and then I pet her head and kiss her.
Add to that, each day, I've taken to bringing all four
little ones in while Minxie the mom struts her stuff around the neighborhood.
Call it being a bit over protective of us, but hey, they're so little. And,
after what we just went through with losing, and happily finding Shade, I'm
worried about something happening to them, especially since they've taken to
hanging under the cars in the front of our house.
And so, they've gotten used to me opening the front door each morning, at which
time, they stroll in as casually as if saying in kitty-talk, "Top of the
morn, Mom."
We have a fountain in front of our house, just outside our living room window,
and Boots and Tabby have picked up the adorable habit of laying in the top tier
until I open the front door, and then they jump down and waltz right in, which
I welcome.
But now, things are starting to get a bit out of control. See, when we found
Shade, we bought her a litter box since we're keeping her inside now. And it seems like now they know it's there and they know how to use it, they're determined to at any and all stinky cost!
Before that fateful purchase, everyday we had already been bringing in Boots, and most times Tabby
as well, and just letting them out at around 5pm. Shadow, however, only came inside about three times a week at most
because he loves to venture out into the neighborhood, usually with Minxie. But
now, he's gotten used to coming inside also. And at no point, did they make mention that they needed to "go." But now they don't ever seem to stop "going."
This morning, I didn't see any of the cats out back at feeding time, so I
checked the front, and still they weren't there. I figured they had all decided
to go off together. BOy was I wrong! An hour later, I opened the front door
again to check if they were there, and the instant I did, Tabby ran into the
house and proceeded to rub against my leg. Boots was still on the fountain but
he climbed down and laid on the front porch. And as I whistled for him to come
to me, Shadow jumped down out of the tree at the edge of our sidewalk where our
mailbox sits. He almost came running inside, but not quite.
So there I am, wobbling on my feet, half asleep, my hair unable to decide which
way it wanted to fall, my eyes still feeling the need for closure and my head
still needing that trip to the Sandman's night club. Meanwhile, Shadow's
running under the cars, back and forth, happy as a hummingbird tasting it's
first flower, and Boots is laying in the porch watching him. And as I approach
to pick Boots up, he runs after Shadow not knowing that Shadow had taken to the
underside of a different car. And, again, still in the land of those in
desperate need of some deep and powerful REM cycles, I went out to get them. I
grabbed Shadow right away, and then Boots came to me.
Then, I took them to my bedroom, which they love because they have a king-sized
bed to dominate. And my hubby goes to get their food. And I swear, they
attacked that plate like it was their last meal, and when it was over, the poop
assembly line began!
Yes folks, what do you get when you bring together four cats that seem to have
a direct line that goes from their mouth to their other exit point? A LOT OF
FREAKIN' POOPIN'!
I'm telling you, I just watched them in awe! Amazed at how organized they were!
One went in, the next sat in waiting, then the second went in only to have
number three watch and wait, and so and so.....And I say and so on because they
minute they're devoid of the stench from hell, they head back to their plate to
load up again and back to the litter box!
I now have to clean out the box several times a day...either that or hand them
the deed to our house and move. And then they jump on the bed, and converge on
my pillows.....and if I try to snack on something, they take turns trying to
figure out what it is and what it tastes like and ambush me in order to get
their fair share.
Hey, I've only got two hands, and you know one of them is trying to protect my
plate, moving it higher and higher above the bed, while the kitties stretch further
and further up my chest.
It's so much work having four kitties. Oh god, I always knew that Midnight was
an angel, and these are too, but darnit to frick if they kittiehood isn't
riddled with enough energy to power a small nation!
Well, I'm off to see
what they're doing? Probably breaking something or running around the house
they've taken over or farting their way back to the bedroom! Frick, why do they have to be so freakin' adorable?!!!!!!!
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November 7, 2009 - Saturday 11:34 PM
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Current mood:  thankful
Category: Life
Okay so, as many of you know, I've been away for
a little over a month. Well, a lot has happened, and frankly, I just couldn't
bring myself back here just yet.
First off, I was swamped with planning the trip to Europe. Two weeks in Paris,
Madrid and Barcelona, three hotels, one hop-on-hop-off tour bus, one train, two
private chauffeurs, and a killer itinerary. Yup, took a lot of planning. And
worst of all, it wasn't even my trip.
My mother-in-law went with her brother. My hubby and I were to go also, but we
decided to wait til next year. I wasn't in the mood to go, to be honest.
Well, as it happens, two days before they left, one of our new kitties went
missing, the littlest one. Our little Baby Shade.
We had already gotten kinda used to them coming and going, since they are
outdoor cats. And I use the term kinda very loosely, let me tell you.
Well, the Wednesday before, as I said, Shade didn't come back. We waited,
expecting her to come back the following day, but she didn't, and then the
panic set in, especially since Shade is so tiny and a cold front had blown in.
By mid-day Thursday, Minxie (their mother), along with Shadow, Tabby, and
Boots, all went out looking for Shade, only to come back each night with no
reward.
My hubby and I were going crazy wondering what had happened. I mean, Shade,
like the others, had gone off before and come back with no problem. So you can
imagine where our imaginations ran to right out of the gate. But a larger part
of us, the part that loves her so much, refused to allow ourselves to believe
something had happened to Shade.
So we spent the next week and a half driving around all the local
neighborhoods, calling out for her, whistling for her (which she tends to
respond to since she doesn't really yet know her name, being so young), and
generally crying the whole time over where our little girl had gone.
I felt so bad for Minxie and the others, watching them look for her around the
neighborhood like we did, day and night, for hours on end. And each time they
came inside, they would scour our house in case Shade was there. But she
wasn't. Eventually, we all came to the conclusion that we would never see her
again, and we would always wonder what had become of her...you know, the eternal question mark I so despise. And again, we found ourselves in the midst of heartbreak.
Well, let me tell you...the night before last, our phone rang at ten o'clock.
My hubby answered the phone (I was in the bedroom, nowhere near the phone).
Suddenly, I hear him running, I mean literally running, to our bedroom.
"Babe! They found Shade!"
My heart nearly stopped. "WHAT? WHAT?!"
I ran to the phone, picked it up so hard I smashed my hand into it.
"Hello? Hello? What? You found her?" And then I started crying.
And a man's voice, that of an angel, spoke. "Yeah, she's right in front of
me."
I had to take a moment to compose myself. "Is she okay? How did you find
her? Oh my god! Can I go pick her up now?"
"She's fine. You'll never believe where I found her! My car broke down on
I-75 in Miramar, and when I got out to check the engine, she was at my
feet."
Again, my heart almost stopped. "She was on the highway?"
Now, you have to understand why I was so surprised to learn where she'd been
found. I live in Miami Lakes, which is a good fifteen minutes from the closest
point of Miramar.
So we hopped in the car, and drove the longest drive of our lives to go pick
Shade up. The man was at a friend's house in South Miami, about half an hour
away from us in lite traffic. But, I laughed in the face of each and every
speed limit sign that told me I was breaking numerous laws. When we got to the
house, I stopped, and the man came out, but all I could focus on was the
silhouette of a tiny pair of ears.
My hubby and I jumped out of the car and ran to her. She came to me
immediately. She was so thin and frail. She was always the smallest in the
litter, but truly, it was apparent she had been through hell. I thanked the man
so much through a sea of tears.
Now she's home, she's eating a lot, and yup, while we had decided against
taking anymore pets in permanently, Shade officially became a permanent member
of our happy abode. She has not left our side since. The night we brought her
home, she slept on the feather pillow two inches from my face, and in the
morning, when I tried to get up, she grabbed hold of my shirt with her little
claws, meowed with a longing in her eyes that I not leave her, and then she
followed me to the bathroom, where she waited as I washed up and brushed my
teeth. And then she followed me out. In the morning I showed Shade to the
others, and they surrounded her with love, rubbing against her, sniffing her
and showing her love. It was so sweet and tender, I nearly cried.
She's doing very well now. She's even gained some weight, she was that thin. I
still can't believe we got her back. She'd been gone for three weeks. How she
survived on her own we'll never know. For sure, she wasn't finding that much to
eat or drink, but to have traveled close to 15 miles, only to wind up on a busy
highway where the limit is 70mph?????
So as you can see, I couldn't bring myself to jump online. But now, I'm back,
and as promised a couple of months back, here are the pics of the new furry
little ones. By the way, I thought they were all girls, until Boots, Tabby and
Shadow surprised me with the appearance of their furry little...er, um...boy
parts. Yup, Shade's the only girl among the pack.
........................  Meet Shade. She's so cuddly and affectionate. And when she meows, it's like an angel singing.
Meet Boots. He's
so adorable it kills me, especially when he's sleeping. He loves to flip his head
and bring his little legs close to his chest, and if I caress his ears when
he's sleeping, he meows so sweetly.
Meet
Shadow. He's obsessed with showing off his freakin' claws, which make
scalpels look dull, but we love him anyway, despite the numerous reminders that
his claws have got to be trimmed
Meet Tabby. He's
so affectionate. He rubs against my nose when I ask for a kiss, and he throws
himself at our feet, whether we're trying to walk, or just standing
around.
Hugs and Utter Happiness
Me ....
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September 20, 2009 - Sunday 10:38 PM
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Current mood:  cheerful
Category: Life
Okay so, I know it's been a while, but with good reason. A lot has been changing in my life, and so quickly that I've barely had time to breathe, much less blog, which you all know I love to do. But, that said, I'm not remotely complaining about it since the change has all been on a ginormous OMG level! First off, we just recently finished a two-month remodeling job of our bedroom and bathroom. We're talking MAJOR change there! I even have pictures, which I'll post soon. And now I can, seeing as how we just bought a totally amazing digital camera, which I LOVE! It's also a vid cam as well, and so tiny it's shameful and I love it! Also, we have finally taken that technological leap into the 21st century. Yup, we just bought a 55" LED (super thin - 1 inch thick) HDTV for our bedroom, plus a surround sound system for the sake of hearing everything sneak up on our ear drums with great bravado, AND an awesome blue-ray player. We also just made the switch from Comcast to Direct TV. Finally! I mean, I can't begin to tell you how thrilled I was to say adios to the scurge of our humdrum and often yawn-worthy quality of TV viewing life. I will say this though, when the DTV guy left, my hubby and I were like kids in a candy store, both looking forward to plucking at the strings of our new HDTV viewing experience. Alas, we soon found ourselves lost in a sea of...well, Direct TV menus, limited guide size, and an exuberant amount of channels to sift through, having chosen the Premiere package with all the oohs and aahs that come with said package. Seriously, later that night, I woke up in a cold sweat, plagued by nightmares of channels and guides and menus all flying at me like a horde of hungry bats desperate to suck the life out of me. Realizing I was not even in the neighborhood of getting anything close to a restful sleep, I got out of bed, determined to figure out this enigma we now call Master. Then there's another matter.....one I don't feel like talking about just yet, but I assure you, it's major!!!!!!!!! And when I do, I hope you will all be as thrilled as we are. And NOW........one last announcement.......My hubby and I are now the proud parents of....wait for it......FIVE CATS! Yes, Five! See, about two months ago, my hubby and I went out to our terrace, don't remember why, and who cares anyway. So there we are, stepping out, and what do I see, but a large gray something rush by me, causing me to scream at an inhuman decibel. And when the calm set in, I followed it to our shed, where I came face to face with a sweet, albeit frightened cat. I fed her, and within two days, she was cozying up to us nicely. Then, after said two days, I went outside and heard this tiny little squeak of a sound. I knew it couldn't be a bird, don't ask me how, but I knew. And when do I see when I sneak over to the shed, you ask? I say two tiny blues looking right at me.....two blue eyes belonging to a tiny black-as-night kitten. My heart stopped, not only because of how adorable she was, but also because I had been feeling a longing to see my little Midnight again and we had been toying with the idea of getting a new kitten...a black one! And, just that morning, I wrote to a woman I'd been emailing back and forth with about our adopting her black kitten. We had, just that morning, decided we weren't ready yet. And there I am, a few hours later, staring into the eyes of this beautiful little kitten that looked EXACTLY like the one we came within inches of adopting that day had we not decided against it. I called out to my hubby, who came running thinking, by my shouts, that something was on fire. And then I saw the kitten's sisters....two tabbys (identical except for one having white boots and one being all tabby), and another black kitten, this one with a stripe on her forehead exactly like the coats of the tabbys. So now, we have five cats. Cuz you know we had to keep them all. So, there's Shadow (the all-black one), Shade (the one with the stripe), Boots (nuf-said) and Tabby, not to mention, Minxie (the mother). I've taken so many pics of them already, and those are going to get posted soon. These little ones and the mother are soooo adorable! You know, a funny thing happened though. I thought they were all girls, and it turns out, all but Shade are boys. Go figure. Then there's the matter of Writers Together. A lot of you have written to me about being part of the website. And I have been working hard on getting some amazing authors together for some new spotlights and short stories. So, this week I will be updating the website, I promise! I know I've said that before, but I really have not had time. But now that everything is calming down, I'm on it. Well, now that I'm not going to Europe anymore. I was going to go to Paris and Spain, but I decided against it for now. I'm just not in the mood, so we go another time. Anyhoo, so that's the skinny on what's been going on in my life. Hugs and peace Cindy
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August 5, 2009 - Wednesday 4:45 PM
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Current mood:  anxious
Category: Life
Okay so, I know I've been kinda gone for a while, but with good reason. My hubby and I have been remodeling our master bedroom and bathroom for the last month and a half, and let me tell you....IT'S BEEN HELLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!! After four trips to the paint store, three to LOWE's Home Improvement, and Walmart, we've painted the walls, all twelve of them! We've painted three ceilings, and boy was THAT *so much fun*.....stretching and reaching up nine foot ceilings, around smoke detectors, recessed lights, edges....oh the frickin edges in our room, and oh yeah, all under the always vastly entertaining splatter of paint on the floor, our clothes, and our faces. I really went to town on this room! I went as far as taking out the bathroom drawers and cleaning the frickin' hinges! Yeah, my hubby was none to excited to see my OCD side bubble to the proverbial surface. We've built two new computer desks, installed two new computers, organized the three bookcases, thrown like 50 bags of stuff out, replaced electrical wall plates, cleaned the ceiling fan (even between the blades and the bowl and on top of the blades (the part no one will ever see), painted six doors (TWICE!) and their frames, cleaned out two walk-in closets (going through ten years of paper and letters and fragments of the past that made me wonder why I ever thought to keep it all). We even lifted our king-sized bed and cleaned the frame and underneath the bed with such detail it would make Monk blush and coo like a school girl. Now we're re-caulking our bathroom, which includes a walk-in shower AND a big tub! Plus, I have to hang a new medicine cabinet, hang curtains, rehang paintings, touch up the doors, and when it comes, marvel at the new 50-inch plasma tv we're getting for the room. OMG, we have been living off those tasty little shots from the heavens called 5-hour energy drinks. LOVE THEM!!!!!!! There is not one inch of this room that hasn't been either replaced, repainted, rehung, or cursed out to all hell. This whole thing has been about moving things from one end of our room, to the other end of our office, which is attached to it, and then back again. I swear, when one spot seems in the clear, it's suddenly swallowed up by something new! ARGH! But now that I can taste the finish line, all I can say is.....NEXT TIME TIME I GET INSPIRED TO DO THIS, THERE'LL BE A SLEW OF CARS FLYING OVER MY HOUSE, ALL HERD BY THE ROBOT CLEANING IT. No, in fact, I'll just hire someone to do it all so I can bask in his hard work! Yup, nothing looks nicer than when it's done by someone else! Call me lazy, but hey, I cherish my lazy side. We all have one, after all. Mine just creeps up when manual labor knocks on my door and says USE ME. Funny thing though, when I do do it, I do a damn good job. I'm very meticulous, to say the least, which is why it's taken us so long. But, as I said, it's almost done...in fact, should be done by tonight!  So I leave you with one final thought.......anyone who says this is fun, clearly had someone do it for them! And now, when it's over, I'm going to revamp Writers Together.....AND, I will be making a big announcement with regards to my book. YEAH! I can't wait!!!!!!! Hugs and Desperation to taste the finish line Cindy
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July 18, 2009 - Saturday 8:05 AM
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Current mood:  infuriated
Category: Life
Okay, so there I am, checking my email, and this is what I found. My mother sent it to me so I could pass it on. Below this brief article is a link to a website where you can speak for every woman in America. I signed it, as did my mother in law, who is a breast cancer survivor. Please read it and tell everyone you know about this.
They want to pass a law that says a mastectomy should be an outpatient procedure. That is absolutely CRIMINAL! These frickin' insurance companies are so unbelievable!!!!!
You can pay your bill every frickin month without failure so you're covered....but don't you DARE need it or you'll be dropped, or your rates will go up (in the case of auto ins.). So what are we paying for, huh? The luxury of being able to JUST SAY we have insurance?
Please visit the link below and PLEASE sign it, and tell everyone to as well.
I feel very strongly about this.
Thanks Cindy
Proposed Mastectomy Law Change
(written by a surgeon);
I'll
never forget the look in my patients eyes when I had to tell them they
had to go home with the drains, new exercises and no breast. I remember
begging the doctors to keep these women in the hospital longer, only to
hear that they would, but their hands were tied by the insurance
companies.
So there I sat with my patient giving them the
instructions they needed to take care of themselves, knowing full well
they didn't grasp half of what I was saying, because the glazed,
hopeless, frightened look spoke louder than the quiet 'Thank you' they
muttered.
A mastectomy is when a woman's breast is removed in
order to remove cancerous breast cells/tissue. If you know anyone who
has had a mastectomy, you may know that there is a lot of discomfort
and pain afterwards. Insurance companies are trying to make
mastectomies an outpatient procedure. Let's give women the chance to
recover properly in the hospital for 2 days after surgery.
This
Mastectomy Bill is in Congress now. It takes 2 seconds to do this and
is very important. Please take the time and do it really quick! The
Breast Cancer Hospitalization Bill is important legislation for all
women.
Please send this to everyone in your address book.. If
there was ever a time when our voices and choices should be heard, this
is one of those times. If you're receiving this, it's because I think
you will take the 30 seconds to go to vote on this issue and send it on
to others you know who will do the same.
There's a bill called
the Breast Cancer Patient Protection Act which will require insurance
companies to cover a minimum 48-hour hospital stay for patients
undergoing a mastectomy. It's about eliminating the 'drive-through
mastectomy' where women are forced to go home just a few hours after
surgery, against the wishes of their doctor, still groggy from
anesthesia and sometimes with drainage tubes still attached.
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Sign the petition by clicking on the web site below. You need not give
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July 5, 2009 - Sunday 11:24 AM
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Current mood:  bouncy
Category: Life
Okay so, last night, my hubby and I were playing BioShock
(awesome game once you get into it...thank god!) and we were having a blast! It
was around 8:15pm, and we had decided to go see the fireworks display at
Milander Park, which is a must-see in these otherwise ubber dull parts.
And then 8:25 rolled around, and I turned to my hubby and said, with a longing
in my eyes to stay in, "If you want to go, we have to start getting
ready."
And he looked at me with a disappointed flick of his eyes. "You don't want
to go, do you?"
How could I say no? We used to go every year when we lived in our last house,
but that was ten years ago. Now, we live A LOT further from that park, so for
the last several years, we've been hanging in our front yard, eyes to the sky,
taking in the massive fireworks display going on around the neighborhood, which
really does it up, and YAY for that!
But I didn't want to let my hubby down because earlier yesterday morning, I heard
him say in that soft way he has when he wants something but doesn't want to ask
so as not to appear as though he's asking, so when I do it it's actually my
idea he can say, "Great idea, Babe, let's do it!"
And so we went, and OMG am I glad we did! We got near the park at about 8:55,
but as every time in the past, we refuse to go in because I could care less
about the hard bleachers, the target that is our heads as seen by the
"fabulous" weather that Miami tends to bring about, and the
impatience I know I'll feel in waiting for the singers to go home so we can see
some colorful explosions over our heads.
So we drive around the neighborhood behind the park, and let me tell you, it
seems all of Miami had the same idea because traffic was at a standstill. I
mean, there were cops, people hanging around in the front yards of the
homeowners in the area who, no doubt, wonder every year why they bought a house there, and there were people walking around, and even a freakin' ice cream
truck that was playing "It's a Small World After All, a song I was sure I
was going to have stuck in my head all night later. It didn't, but I'll get to
that in a minute.
So, in an effort to avoid the traffic, I pulled into the parking lot of and
behind the JFK Library and got out of the car to lean against it. And we wait
and wait until I decide to get back into the car on the passenger side to wait
some more in the comfort of our leather seats as I leaned out the window, and
we wait some more and finally, waaaaaaaaay off in the distance (about 20 min
later) we caught a glimpse of a lazar light show, and my hubby's face wilted.
"Great! The show's gonna be so far away," he said in his disappointed
little boy voice, which broke my heart. "Don't worry, Sweety, we have a
clear view of the sky from here. I'm sure we'll see it fine."
HA! Not a minute later, an explosion rocked our car not twenty feet from where
we were.

Turns out, the fireworks were going to be launched from the field that
lay on the other side of the fifteen foot high fence we parked next to; us and
some other cars that the owners had parked and left behind for our audible
pleasure. Thanks you Butt Muches! As soon as the first BOOM hit the sky, the
alarm on one of the cars, the one right next to ours as the not-so-funny lady
luck would have it, went off. Yup, with every explosive POP and Thunderous BANG
that hit the sky, that damnable alarm, it seemed, was intent on providing all
of Miami with an annoyingly LOUD string on neverending shrill wailing sound effects that
eventually had one word prancing through my head in sync with the frickin'
alarm, "KILL! KILL! KILL! kiiiiiiiiiiiillll kiiiiiiiiiiiiil KILL KILL
KILL!"

And my hubby and I laughed in between my rants about the idiot who thought to
arm his alarm right under a fireworks display and walk away so he could enjoy
his night.

I can't tell you how many times we laughed between my curses, until
finally, I think that sound just became part of the show.
Now, annoying car alarms and idiots who thought they were a good idea aside, the
show was incredible! OMG! It was so loud and powerful it shook our car, and
dotted it with fragments of the fireworks; one was even so powerful and large
that when it exploded at near-ground level, it blew a still-burning ember over
the fence five feet from us and almost landed on the head of a woman who leaped
back just in time to see today. I mean, the damn thing was still burning on the
ground in front of us, we were that close to the action.
"OMG!" we shouted together, and we laughed, and the show took off so
high above our heads we were forced to spend the next half hour looking
straight up. And then the finale! OMG! OMG! OMG! My heart was pounding with
every explosion.
"I'm so glad we came. That was incredible!" I said to my hubby as we
drove away. And I meant it. You know, it's little moments like last night that
make us stop and bask in the fact that we're alive. We're not here just to
work. There has to be playtime. There has to exist those times when life
becomes about just having fun and being with someone you love. It's moments
like last night that I will cherish and one day look back on with a ginormous
smile.
So I say this: "Go out and have fun. Make a mess. Throw a party. Be a kid
again and enjoy the moments you have, because one day, you may find yourself
wishing you could go back and experience them again. And do it when there are
no car alarms around that make you say to your significant other in a voice
that speaks only truth and longing, "See, if this was Grand Theft Auto 4,
I'd blow that car up already!"
Hugs and Explosive Smiles:)
Me

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July 3, 2009 - Friday 11:36 AM
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Current mood:  confused
Category: Writing and Poetry
Okay so, I'm thinking of taking the the plunge and taking that proverbial turn on the crossroads of publishing. As many authors can absolutely relate, I'm sick to death of this close-minded, elitist industry; an industry that would rather accept a book about a kid eating worms, than other books by talented authors who, unfortunately, don't "know" the right person or the right "moment" to hit up an agent or publisher. I have been trying to get my book out there for over four years now, and my nightmare with that cantankerous loser that will surely never amount to anything more than the pathetic thieving leech he is by mooching off the hard work of others....let's say it together, shall we? Starts with a V and ends with an F (U).......he knows who he is and wherever he is, I hope he is rotting in his own poison. Anyone from "the company" will understand what I'm saying here, as will anyone who was robbed by this waste of human space and thief of our oxygen.  Okay so, I veered away from the topic at hand, but can you blame me? Anyhoo, I'm thinking of taking matters into my own hands. So many people contact me everyday, asking me where and when they can buy my book. Sadly, I have the same response to them all: It's not published yet, but I'll let everyone know when it is. Going the traditional route, and hitting up the big publishers who actually give authors a chance outside the norm of using an agent as a filtering system, will lay ahead of me at least 1-3 yrs before the book comes out, a pathetic 10% royalty rate, and a whopping 30-days on the bookshelves with the stress that if the book doesn't make their money back, no future publisher will touch the author. And then there's self publishing. Sadly, the self publishing market has, in the past, been tainted with crap that some so-called authors threw together because they suddenly woke up one day and decided their thoughts were so important to the world at large that said-authors COULD NOT deprive the world. Hence the stigma that is tacked onto the self pub industry as a whole. Now, everyone who self pubs is considered a hack? Come on! Despite the stigma of the past and in a number of present-day instances, there are countless authors who, right out of the gate, decide to forego the "game" and do things their way. Personally, I know a lot of authors, and most of them are great at what they do, so I say to the elitist, close-minded industry, WAKE UP! And so it goes, I'm tinkering with the idea of self publishing my book. I already have my cover (pursuant to some negotiation with Doron).  Now, what I need is some guidance. I've checked Lulu.com and Lightening Source, but honestly, I'm so lost! First off, how the frick do I use my cover when LULU offers "templates" that don't fit my needs? Can I upload my cover and be done with it? I mean, there are so many need-to-knows, and how-to's that I'm absolutely overwhelmed. Lulu talks about bleeding and dimensions and ISBNS (I know what they are, btw..LOL), and copyrights, and making a PDF and blah blah blah, and all I can think is, I just want this done for me, for Pete's sake!  So I'm reaching out to my dear and cherished friends here. Any advice on how to go about doing this? Any and every bit of info and advice will be ever-so appreciated:) Hugs and Humble Huh's Me
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June 22, 2009 - Monday 10:57 AM
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Current mood:  accomplished
Category: Life
Okay so, I know it's been a while since my last blog. I
needed some change and organization. It really does help with what my hubby
laughing calls my OCDLD (OCD lite disorder).
So, we've been doing some Spring cleaning to the extreme. I'm talking nine and
a half years worth of Spring, Summer, Fall and Winter cleaning, and it's
driving us nuts!
You see, when my hubby and I moved into our house, we bought it brand spanking
new from construction. I remember my mother helped us move about a hundred
boxes into our office, which is attached to our master bedroom. We took down
the wall that separated our room from the one next to it, so it's actually the
size of two rooms (one massive master, and one bedroom that can only be
considered a gesture, at best). Honestly, what the frick is up with these
numbnut architects who think it's even the slightest bit okay to make every
other bedroom in the house the size of a prison cell?
I remember my mom telling me it was going to take me six months to unpack, and
I looked around the room, where the boxes were literally covering every single
inch (no exaggeration) of the office floor from the back wall to the edge of
the arch that we had built, just barely grazing the floor of our actual master.
And I looked at my mom and laughed. "Don't be ridiculous!"
Of course in the back of my mind I actually believed it would be a breeze. I
mean, this goes here, and that goes there. No problem.
Well, nine and a half years later, I've almost finished unpacking. Yup! See,
what I did back then, was put all the boxes of books and comics (hubby's a
collector of every comic ever made, it seems), into our closets, and ever since
then, we haven't been able to use the closets because we didn't have enough
space to put everything. So as I sat there, preparing to go through the boxes in my closet, I opened the first and found video tapes from back when VCRs were the thing to have. We had so many video tapes. Every time I opened a box, it was full of more tapes.

OMG, if I never see
another one it'll be too soon. I threw away eight, count em', eight garbage bags
full of videos.
And time did it's thing and trampled on our lives like a horny teenager. And
only Saturday did I finish unpacking the last of the boxes in my closet. I also found pictures and remnants of our past, and old love letters from my hubby, and letters to him that I wrote when I was 17 and still in HS. That part was fun. I read them to him, and OMG, did I both cringe and laugh. And as I openly marveled at how I've definitely grown into my writing, my hubby and I laughed so hard, we had to take a break from the trip down memory lane to catch our breathes.
Today we tackle my hubby's closet.
After it's done, we're remodeling our office to
build a wall to wall, floor to ceiling bookcase that will hopefully house all
our books. The comics are going into protective boxes, and we're remodeling our
closets, which are both walk-ins. So there's still painting and cleaning to be
done, and my god in heaven, I can't wait to finish.
You know, I bet that who ever coined the term "Spring
cleaning is fun" never actually had to do it. Clearly their idea of the
very notion was rummaging through one lonely box of like four books. "Ah, now I can go on
with my life," they probably said as they wiped away that little bead of sweat.
Well, I'm dying to get on with ours, so I can sit back and
finally say, "Wow, we're finally moved in, and it only took nine and a half years."
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May 30, 2009 - Saturday 5:37 AM
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Current mood:  sad
Category: Life
It is clear you have noticed, I have not been able to yet update the Writers Together website. Sadly, I have been otherwise preoccupied. As you all know, we recently lost Midnight....one of our little girls. My husband and I have been absolutely devastated by our loss, and now, we lost Muffy as well. Less than one month after losing Midnight, Muffy was also diagnosed with kidney disease, and the other day, pneumonia as well. This poor little girl was hit with everything. Even an eye infection. She no longer ate on her own, could no longer walk or even sit up without help. She had lost nearly all her body fat, despite all our efforts to feed her and help her gain weight. My husband and I, along with my mother in law, have all been by Muffy's side since this all began. We fed her every few hours with the use of a syringe. We gave her water, took her to the vet nearly everyday, just as we did with Midnight. And just like Midnight, we were there with Muffy until the end.  Somehow I knew Muffy would not make it through the weekend. She was getting weaker by the day. Last night, my husband and I did not sleep. We stayed up all night watching Muffy in case she needed anything. We shifted her when she seemed uncomfortable in her little bed, which we placed beside ours. And Friday morning, I fed Muffy, gave her water as usual, and even gave her a haircut on her ears and top of her head because the hair was getting into her eyes. She took the food well, and for the first time I truly felt she might get better. And then, in the afternoon, I fed her again, and before I could even finish, she threw up everything she'd eaten. An hour later, my husband called out for me in a panic. I had gone to our room for a moment, and when I got to him, my mother in law was holding Muffy in her arms. Muffy was taking her final breaths. I immediately broke down. I looked at her little face, her lost eyes. I was dying inside, watching the last of our little girls leave us. And then it happened. Midnight and Muffy were so amazing. We loved and will always love them both so much. Before they got sick, they were both so energetic, so excited about everything. I find it hard to believe that this has happened, losing them both, and so close together. You know, after Midnight passed, I told my little sister Jenny. We were talking about what had happened, and I was crying. I told her I never wanted another pet again. I told her it was too hard to lose them. I've lost so many, and it destroys a part of me every time. And then Jenny said something to me that has haunted me ever since. She said that my husband and I love animals so much, and we care for them so well that couldn't we possibly find it in our hearts to have another pet one day, to give them the love we have to share. I'll never forget what she said. It was one of those moments that just stay with you, you know? Perhaps one day I can let myself let another pet into my heart. Perhaps. But not today. Today I miss my babies, and I can't imagine a new one coming in and taking their place. Not in our home and certainly not in our hearts. So to Midnight and Muffy I say this. My precious little girls....Daddy, Grandma and I love you so much. Thank you for bringing such joy into our lives and our hearts. Thank you for making us laugh. Thank you for filling our lives in a way that has changed them forever. We love you. Now and always.
Rest in peace, Midnight, our sweet little Baby Bear
Born Aug 1992 - Died April 20, 2009 12:36 am Rest in peace, Muffy, our sweet little Muffy Girl. Born 1997 - Died May 29, 2009 9:15 pm.WE LOVE YOU
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May 14, 2009 - Thursday 1:31 PM
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Current mood:  calm
Category: Life
Okay so, I know I've been away awhile, and you all know why. My hubby and I have been struggling with the loss of our little girl, and well, frankly, it's been beyond difficult to even think about blogging. It's still difficult, but I can't keep torturing myself like I have. I love Midnight, and miss her beyond belief....and I always will. But it's time to get back into the game. So here I am. And before I start the ball a rollin', I just want to extend my warmest thanks to everyone who's contacted me about Midnight's passing. I can't begin to tell you how touched I was and still am. Honestly, it means so much to me and my hubby that you are all so amazing. That's really what this particular blog is about. All of you. My friends. The most amazing people on Myspace. You have always stood by me in ways I never imagined when I began my journey here. You've made me laugh, cry and think. You made me smile when times were dark. You supported me when I succeeded and offered me your shoulders when things fell apart last year. I can't thank you enough for everything you've all done. Believe me when I say that when I started on here, I never expected to find what I found. True, everlasting, amazing friends that I and anyone would be beyond proud to call just that. Friends. Just know that I love you all, and I miss you. I miss your snarky comments, our constant back and forth. Everything. Well, now that I am back, I intend to rock this joint again. I will be getting back to Writers Together. To those who've submitted material to be posted, please accept my apologies for the delay. On another note.....just to update you all a bit on what's been going on here, apart from the obvious......I just landed what could be a very cool job. I'll be paid to blog from home. Can you imagine? OMG! I've always wanted to work from home, and now, not only do I get to do that, but it involves doing something I know I can do in my sleep. Also, while it may seem that I have not posted any updates on David Thorne, rest assured, I've been hard at work querying agents and, rejections aside, I'm okay. I know I will find David a good and loving home. I have a plan. Now I just have to see how it plays out. As far as agents go.....don't even get me started on the abundance of pet peeves I have with regards to the ridiculous finickiness that coincides with the very notion of the proverbial literary agent. and honestly, while I know I have a helluva ranting blog about them hidden inside me (thoughts I have every frickin' day, btw), I'm bound to silence for fear that those pending will be upset, and that the one who finally says yes will one day become annoyed. In the mean time, I'm well into book 2, which I can not wait to share more about. I think I'll wait though. It's bad enough you haven't been able to read book 1 yet. The last thing I'd want to do is give something away that I want to keep tightly secured in my arsenal of surprises. I have many planned with each consecutive book, and trust me, even after you've read book 1, you will NEVER see coming what happens in book 2. Never! HAHA! I'm also working on an entirely new venture. It's going to be for the YA market, and it's going to be really amazing, deep, thought provoking, and action packed. So that's what's been going on. I hope you've all been going forward by leaps and bounds. I look forward to helping you authors out there, through Writers Together. Dont forget to email me your info (book covers, author pics, bios, synopsis', and excerpts) for Book Watch, and if you would like to be considered for an Author Spotlight. Email it all to my attn (using a clear subject header as to what you're sending. No subject header means no consideration. I hate spam). The email addy is editor (at) writerstogether.com.
Ginormous hugs and warm smiles to you all:) Cindy
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April 20, 2009 - Monday 10:13 PM
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Current mood:  depressed
Category: Life
Let me start off by stating that this blog is more for me and our little girl than anything else. Today has been the saddest day of my life and I wanted to write it down so I never forget.  Back in 1992, shortly after I moved in with my (soon to be/only) husband, I found a beautiful cat in the back porch. So I fed her. She was so gorgeous, and a little skittish. I put food out for her everyday, and eventually, she was brought inside and let out when she wanted. She even got used to hearing me whistle for her, and she'd come running. Then, after our other cat was hit by a car, I brought Midnight in permanently and that was it. She was our furry little girl. On April 4th, 2009, Midnight developed a urinary tract infection (the second one in a week). Since the vet was closed, we had to wait until Monday to take her in to get checked out. The rest of the weekend, she refused to eat or drink and didn't want to bathe herself. Come Monday, we took her in, and my heart collapsed when, after a blood test, I was told Midnight was suffering from kidney failure. Her blood values were really bad, and it appeared there was little hope. You can imagine my surprise because up until two days before, Midnight seemed fine. She was running around, sleeping on top of me, and waking up every morning when I did just so she can find and be with me.
And then the vet, a female doctor I'd never met before who was on call since my regular vet wasn't there that day, brought in a form, and I knew in that instant what it was. I felt my heart break. It was a form explaining the process of putting pets to sleep. I was already balling my eyes out, and I insisted the vet take the form away because there was no way I was going to do that to my little girl. They began a fluid treatment on Midnight that involved pumping fluid under her skin to prevent dehydration and hopefully flush out her kidneys.
And that is what we have been doing everyday since April 6...going to the vet every morning, feeding Midnight with a syringe, giving her water. That first week's Friday, I went in and my regular vet was surprised to see how well Midnight was doing. She was more like herself. She was eating on her own, drinking on her own, and while she wasn't running around, she was overall better, it seemed; she had even gained some weight; we were feeding her every few hours and she was drinking a lot of water.  The vet took her blood, and pulled the records from our previous vet (the man who knew only two numbers: $250 and $500). The records showed that last year, Midnight was diagnosed with kidney disease and liver disease. I was enraged because the other vet never told me. For Christ's sake, I bring my girls in for hiccups! You think I wouldn't for something more serious and life threatening?! But the fact that the other asshole (yes I'm cursing!) didn't bother himself to tell me what was going on with my little girl, is neither here nor there. There was nothing I could do about it now, and I had more pressing matters on my hands. The (new) vet told me it was an uphill battle, and Midnight would still never be healthy again.
But, he also said she had pretty much used one of her nine lives because he had ever seen a cat bounce back like that. He even said we could very well skip a day between treatments. I was elated. My little girl would be saved. And then Sunday came, and with the vet closed, I couldn't take her in for her treatment, and while feeding her that night, Midnight had a seizure. It was the single scariest moment of my life.
My husband and I screamed and cried, calling her name, shaking her. It lasted about 15-20 seconds I think. I immediately called my vet's emergency line and rushed Midnight to the 24hr hospital, where I was again advised to put Midnight to sleep because she was in such bad shape. They said Midnight's seizure was most likely due to stress. She was severely dehydrated, so they pumped her with fluids there. They suggested I leave her there, but we didn't want to. It was a strange place that was far from our home, and we refused to leave our little girl alone.
The next morning, I took her to my vet, who did a blood test, and sure enough, her blood values had spiked. It was a matter of time, we realized. And so we continued to take her everyday that week, and last Friday, we were told the vet's office would be opened by the tech who gives Midnight the fluids, so she could feed and care for the animals there. They said I could bring Midnight in Sunday morning, which we did. That was yesterday. After her treatment, the tech spoke with us. She had seen me cry so hard so many times since this all began, and I was crying at that moment too.
My husband had, for the past week, been going with me to the vet since the pet carrier was unnecessary. He would hold her the whole way there, cuddle her and talk to her. I knew he wasn't crying, but he was tearing up. I knew he was trying to be strong for me. That's just his nature.
The tech spoke, and explained that Midnight was only going to get worse. She would eventually stop eating, even if we attempted to feed her with a syringe. She would weaken and throw up, and then just "stop". I just looked at Midnight. I was dying inside. Finally, the tech said something that made us realize we were in fact being so unfair to Midnight. She said, "You also have to think about her quality of life." And it was true. Several days back I had asked my husband if we were being selfish putting Midnight through all of this (the fluid treatment, force feeding every 3 hrs through a syringe, and trips to the vet everyday). I mean, her life had become about the vet, the fluid, force feeding, and sleeping. We just were not ready to give up on our daughter.
But then last night, we decided that we would finally let her be at peace. We would take her in this morning to put her to sleep.
And late last night, as we began feeding her, I noticed she looked like she was breathing very heavy and her tongue was peeking out of her little mouth. So we stopped because we were afraid of her having another seizure from stress. We spent the rest of the night, watching her, holding her, caressing her. Telling her we loved her. Thanking her for being such a great daughter. She was always so sweet, loving, gentle, never bothered anyone, was always playful, and never had a sick day in her life (except a few urinary tract infections, which we obviously discovered the orgins of).
And, after several hours of my husband and I just sitting there with Midnight, her struggle to breathe got worse, and we knew it was nearing the end. I cradled her on my chest, and caressed her little face and neck, and cried. My husband fell apart but never stopped holding her and telling her he loved her, and again thanking her for being her. And when she began pushing away from me, I set her in her little bed, and a few minutes later, she stopped breathing.
 "She's gone," I told my husband through the biggest flood of tears I'd ever let go. And we said goodbye, and cried, and spent the night kissing her and comforting each other. This morning, I said my final goodbyes before my husband took her to the vet. I just couldn't do it, so he went with my mother in law. When they left, I screamed so loud I would sure someone would think I was being attacked. I'm crying as I write this. I can't believe my little girl is gone. I feel like I'm stuck in this nightmare that I can't wake up from. One that if I was able to wake up from, would show me that Midnight is fine and happy and with us. You know, like those nightmares you have that are so real that when you wake up, you're still not sure, but are relieved to realize it wasn't real?
You know, I knew the day would come, but I just couldn't picture it happening, or picture myself handling it. My husband is so broken hearted. I know he's trying to be strong for me, but I see him struggling with the reality that our baby is gone. We try to distract ourselves, and the only way we can deal is to distance ourselves from this nightmare until we can handle it.
 Midnight was always so healthy, lively, and energetic. She was the most amazing daughter in the world. And for those of you who are offended by such a comment because Midnight was a cat, believe me when I say that just because she was not a human, to us she was, and it does not make her less than our little girl. She was still our daughter. She never left our side in the ten years we've lived here, and before that, for the seven years we had her, she was very attached to us.
It just doesn't seem real that she's gone. It breaks my heart to know I'll never see her again, hold her, or feel her sleeping on my chest. Whenever I would sleep on my right side, Midnight would climb on my arm and put her paw on my cheek, or lean her little face in so I could kiss her cheek. She loved that so much. She also loved when I would kiss her head, her paws, and her eyes. She purred so loudly when we did any of that. Her fur was like silk and she was so cuddly. When she wanted to play, she would flip her head and flash me one large green eye to let me know. And she loved to play.
 My husband and I took some pictures with her the other day after realizing that despite how many pics we had of her, we had none of the three of us together. I think I need some time before I can go back and upload them here.
I know it was her time to go, and I'm happy to say she had a very long healthy life. She had a great life, full of love, playtime, and two parents who loved her more than anything in this world, and who will love her forever. Two parents, who, despite the odds, never gave up on her. We know in our hearts we tried everything we could, but, as the vet said, it was an uphill battle. I'm just glad Midnight passed away at home, with us, and not with strangers or alone in a room after being given a shot. It happened the way it should have.
To my little girl, we will always love you. We will miss you forever, and think of you everyday. You will always be my Baby Bear. My little Boo. Thank you for being you and for finding us that day back in 1992.
We love you so much more than you can comprehend, and we glad you're now at peace, our baby girl.  Born August 1992 (when we she entered and changed our lives), Died April 20, 2009 12:36 AM. Rest in peace, my sweet little Baby Bear.
Love, Mom and Dad ps: I want to thank everyone in advance for their kind words. I hope you can understand that I can't answer the comments, as right now, I'm just trying to deal with our loss.
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April 2, 2009 - Thursday 4:35 AM
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Current mood:  aggravated
Category: Life
Okay so, let me start off by shouting at the top of my lungs and with much fervor FRICK! FRICK! FRICK!
At around 11:20pm tonight, I headed out to a certain mega store that shall remain nameless in the event they might one day be sitting around a conference table deciding whether to carry my books. But, for the sake of not having to keeping referring to said store as the mega store from hell which will remain nameless if for no other reason other than I'm still so pissed at them.....I'll just call them Stallmart. You'll understand why in a few minutes........a vast difference from the amount of time I had to wait on a certain cashier who will also remain nameless simply because I never got to the register, thus I've no idea what her name is. I'll call her Ms. Frickhead! So there I am, needing to head out to buy dental floss after pulling out an entire inch of string from my last little box of floss. "Honey, I have to go to Stallmart to buy some floss. I'll be right back," I say as a give my hubby a quick kiss. And so I get to Stallmart and wander for a whopping five minutes, all the while minding my own business. Ready to pay, thinking, "This should be quick," I head on over to the front of the store and what do I see but lines so long and congested, it was as if the store was giving money away at an exponential rate. I hear, "OMG!" in my head, and the panic sets in. My fingers take to twiddling like I'm a serious contender for the newest anti-caffeine poster. I bow my head and take my place behind at least ten shoppers who apparently felt the need to buy every ounce of stock the very night I need only two packs of dental floss and a small calculator (my hubby, Mr. Math, is short one, so I picked one up on my trek to the registers). So there I am, three little things in hand, behind a crowd of ravenous shoppers, some of whom have apparently been there so long, they felt the need to play games on their phones, call people to talk about the lines, and catch up on the latest who-ha and goings-on in Hollywood via the ubber-reliable Star Magazine and National Enquirer. From what I read on the cover of one of the mags someone was holding so long that even her hands were shaking, Angelina Jolie has banned Brad Pitt from their bedroom. Whew! Now I can breathe easy....now that I have that bit of info under my belt!  Anyhoo, I wait, and wait, during which time I notice that out of 32 (yes I had time to count them) registers, only one sells cigarettes, and lucky me, I hadn't realized until it was too late, that I had taken place in THAT frickin line that, it seemed, every smoker in Miami decided to pay a visit to tonight. And I sigh and gasp and sigh, and count the ceiling tiles, and study the surveillance cameras, and admire the hair of a girl standing in an adjacent line, and examine my fingernails (note to self: get manicure), and I wait some more, and I glance forward at the customers ahead of me, and on and on. OMG!  I shift from one foot to the other, and look down at my pending purchases, and let out a deep breath every few seconds that causes the phone gamer ahead of me to throw me a cornered eye each time. And then I notice the person the cashier, Ms. Frickhead, is currently ringing up, and I see her cute little daughter sitting in the carriage looking around at the store with much wonder and awe. She couldn't have been more than three years old. Cute as a button. And I wait some more. Every now and then glancing at the little girl......And I swear she was growing up before my eyes! It was at that point that I looked down at my own phone and realized I had been standing in the same frickin spot for over 25 minutes! And all I could ask my self was, "Why had I chosen to hit up Stallmart, when I could have gone to Walgreens half an hour ago." Clearly, upon realizing this little nugget of time had been stolen from me, I threw my little items on the nearest shelf, stormed out and drove to Walgreens, where I spent a whopping five minutes. Needless to say, I'm home now and seething as I recall my attempt to care for my teeth! HMPH! Obviously, despite the deceptive Smiley Face logo, which can be seen bouncing around their merchandise in their baloney-wreaking commercials, SHOPPING IS A PLEASURE is NOT their motto. Yeah, that would be true only if it meant that every purchase came with a complimentary rotten tomato supplied for the sole purpose of heaving it at the cashiers who seem to think we have all the time in the world as their ring up one item every five minutes in between the sensational tales of their exciting life as a Stallmart cashier! Maybe THEN I'd go back.....until I get my rotten tomato, I'm a Walgreens girl all the way.
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April 1, 2009 - Wednesday 5:53 PM
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Okay so, the time has come, my dear and cherished friends. I've decided to leave Myspace and every other networking site. I've taken this journey and it's been amazing, but truth be told, I need to make some changes.....which will include the decision to give up writing and blogging completely. It's been great. Hugs  APRIL FOOLS!!!!!!!!!
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As if I would ever leave?! OMG! hahahahahahahahaha What? Did you really think I could let this day pass without making at least one lame attempt at a practical joke that on any other day would be tasteless and not at all make you go WHAT? Hey, what can you do, right? This was a moral imperative! I'm not going anywhere! I'm here to stay! Love you all:) Cindy
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March 27, 2009 - Friday 10:35 PM
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Category: Life
Okay so, there's a little something I've been dying to blog about.  The Metrosexual
Okay, I know Tom Welling isn't classified as one, but doesn't he look so ungodly yummy?! OMG! Hey, I stand by what's in my Who I'd like to meet section of my profile. I'd love to meet Tom Welling just so I can sit and stare and make him uncomfortable enough that he has to call security and throw me out of the studio (or his dressing room *wink*) and I can say "I was escorted out by security who was called by Tom Welling cuz I was staring at him.
Alright. Enough of the dreaming of the dreamy man in the suit.....
The point is, I just don't get this whole idea that just because a man takes care of himself, he's automatically gay. Sometimes they are. But not always. And no, this isn't another blog about the gay issue. It's about the Metrosexual issue. Sometimes a man just wants to look good. And my eyes thank them with much hunger and wonder.
So why is it that we women are bred to hone our looks, care for our skin, bath, and actually maintain some semblance to beauty, when men can just get up, throw on the least offensively odious duds and head out the door?
And we're supposed to swoon? Come on! Yet, when a man actually takes the time to moisturize, wash up and wear cologne, he's gay. Am I to believe that a "real man" is someone who would prefer to smell like beer and sweat and sport a gruff "Couldn't find the razor today" mask?
Oh yeah, because any woman in her right mind would prefer this:

Over this:
 Get a clue, my masculine counterparts. There is nothing wrong with a man smelling of exotic oils and soap. There is nothing gay about wearing clean clothes and the occasional hair product as a defense against the wind. And there is nothing unmanly about moisturizing one's skin to prevent the onset of raisinitis that stems from reaching the golden years.
Instead, men who scrutinize other men who care for themselves are walking around with their beer bellies and mussed hair calling themselves "Real Men." And to get them to wear a suit.....well, that's a whole nother fight...and even then, they'll protest a spritz of cologne...."cuz that's just a woman thing..."
In my book a real man is not one who has to proclaim their "real man" status on the heels of insulting others who simply care about their looks. You're only young once. So why not take advantage of that time to create memories of when things were just the way they should be? Anti-gravitational and sweet smelling. Who wants to look back on photos and times of dishevelment and body odor as they point out that them were the good ol' days?
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