I been at home for a couple days now sick...been thinkin alot about my past present and future...I dont regret anything n my past because it made me who i am today...as far as the present goes im goin thru my issues just as everybody else is but even past all of that i think im pretty content with it....i realized that u cant dwell on who your real friends are because in your search to find the phony links in your chain u put a strain on ur solid ones...domi cece whitney i love yall soooo much...yall have been there for me at three in the morning when i called myself bein heartbroken...a friend JUST told me that life is too short to compromise my happiness for anybody...and i wont...even though i will continue to put the ones i love before myself i kno that if my happiness health or well being is on the line that my decisions need to be more rational...and my future....i kno that my future will be bright regardless who's in it...where i am...or who im wit...i kno who i am and nobody will EVA change that...nobody will get in the way of wut im tryna accomplish or the goals i set out to achieve...so with all that said...im HAPPY!! im happy with the people in my life...im happy with the fact that the people who were once in my life arent anymore...im happy with me bein who i am...so if u dont like me i hate it for u because i may jus be the most interesting person u will eva meet lmao and for those of u that do like me i love yall!!
"You can write me down in history with your bitter twisted lies, you can trod me in the very dirt but still...like dust...ILL RISE..." - Maya Angelou
Friends...definition being what?...supposedly a friend is somebody who is by your side at all times and never leaves u alone in a situation...but yet people change, grow apart and life goes on...if thats the case then how do you know who your real friends are if you always find yourself alone and starting from square one with somebody else...Last night i was thinking about all of the "best friends" ive had my whole life...then i thought about where they all are now and where they all were when i needed them...then i thought about my best friends now...where will they be when i need them the most...there are only four people in my life who i can trust with anything one being my mother...to the other three you kno who u are...if you're not sure then maybe u should re-evaluate our friendship...
God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change...
The COURAGE to change the things I can...
And the WISDOM to know the difference....
In Jesus name I pray....Amen