I'm tired of this game. I feel like I'm more emotionally invested in this than you. I feel like you could care less. I tell you I'll miss you and you shrug it off. I express my ideas to you and you scoff. I create all these things for you and you seem less than impressed. Nothing I do seems to matter; my words seem to fall on deaf ears.

All I've ever wanted was someone to devote all these words and pictures to. Instead, I find myself at a loss for words.

I promised I would never let myself feel like this again.
I'd like to meet someone who doesn't second best me to nothing at all.

Maybe some day you'll realize how much I could have meant.

xxxx