so, is it just me...or did wes from 'the real world-austin' get EXTREMELY dreamy? i don't even like the fucking show but i've been staying up till 5am watching it on demand and actually TUNING in to that new reality show he's in so i can just watch his sweet ass.

 be still, my heart.

"Love & Death"-The Stills

I'll make my own way; I'll make my own way
Don't bother counting on me, loving me, just act like I'm gone
Well this sorry joker joke, it's all we really need
There's nothing that I need

Too late and too bad, I'm stuck feeling bad
Without you, I'm a mess, without you, you just don't know
This is really not a joke; you're all I really need, you're all I really need...

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dear karma:

you more or less have fuckd shit up. thanks once again. awesome.

love, meaghan. xo

sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy sketchy.

.. why do i even bother getting to know people? they all turn into fucking sketchbags.

 

put an x to the things youve done (x) smoked a cigarette () smoked a cigar (x) made out with a member of the same gender. () crashed a friend's car () stolen a car (x) been dumped (x) shoplifted () been fired (x) been in a fist fight () snuck out of my parent's house (x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back () been arrested (x) made out with a stranger () gone on a blind date (x) lied to a friend () had a crush on a teacher (x) skipped school () slept with a co-worker () seen someone die (x) had a crush on one of your myspace friends (x) been to Canada () been to Mexico (x) been on a plane () thrown up in a bar () purposely set a part of myself on fire (x) eaten Sushi (x) been snowboarding (x) met someone in person from myspace (x) been hxc dancing at a show () been in an abusive relationship (x) taken painkillers (x) love someone or miss someone right now (x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by (x) made a snow angel (x) had a tea party (x) flown a kite (x) built a sand castle (x) gone puddle jumping (x) played dress up (x) jumped into a pile of leaves (x) gone sledding (x) cheated while playing a game (x) been lonely (x) fallen asleep at work/school (x) used a fake id (x) watched the sun set (x) felt an earthquake (x) touched a snake (x) slept beneath the stars (x) been tickled (x) been robbed (x) been misunderstood (x) pet a reindeer/goat (x)won a contest () run a red light () been suspended from school (x) been in a car accident () had braces (x) felt like an outcast (x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (x) had a deja vu (x)danced in the moonlight (x) hated the way you look (x) witnessed a crime () pole danced (x) questioned your heart (x)been obsessed with post-it notes (x) squished barefoot through the mud (x) been lost (x) been to the opposite side of the country (x) swam in the ocean (x) felt like dying (x) cried yourself to sleep (x) played cops and robbers (x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers (x) sung karaoke (x) paid for a meal with only coins (x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't (x) made prank phone calls (x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (x) caught a snowflake on your tongue (x) danced in the rain (x) written a letter to Santa Claus (x) been kissed under a mistletoe (x) watched the sun set with someone you care about (x) blown bubbles (x) made a bonfire on the beach (x) crashed a party (x) gone rollerskating (x) had a wish come true () humped a monkey (x) worn pearls () jumped off a bridge (x) screamed penis in class () ate dog/cat food () told a complete stranger you loved them (x) kissed a mirror (x) sang in the shower (x) had a dream that you married someone () glued your hand to something () got your tongue stuck to a flag pole (x) kissed a fish (x) worn the opposite sexes clothes () been a cheerleader (x) sat on a roof top (x) screamed at the top of your lungs (x) done a one-handed cartwheel (x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours (x) stayed up all night (x) didn't take a shower for a week (x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree (x) climbed a tree () had a tree house (x) are scared to watch scary movies alone (x) believe in ghosts () have more then 30 pairs of shoes (x) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say () gone streaking () played ding-dong-ditch (x) played chicken (x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on (x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger () broken a bone (x) been easily amused (x) caught a fish then ate it () made porn (x) caught a butterfly (x) laughed so hard you cried (x) cried so hard you laughed (x) mooned/flashed someone (x) had someone moon/flash you (x) cheated on a test () have a Britney Spears CD (x) forgotten someone's name (x) slept naked ()French braided someones hair () gone skinny dippin in a hot tub ()been kicked out of your house

just so you(and you know who you are) know, i'm alot fuck'n better than you. &you're a bloody joke; in a way it's almost quite tragic. but the thing is, i just don't really care anymore, so you can continue on with your pathetic life of manipulation and weird head games knowing that i'm fucking over this. and you missed out. yeah, so im the fuck out. kthxbye. UNRAVEL while you are away my heart comes undone slowly unravels in a ball of yarn the devil collects it with a grin our love in a ball of yarn he'll never return it so when you come back we'll have to make new love oh, and on an unrelated note: PIERCE JUST TOLD ME BNO ARE COMING IN THE SPRING..yussssssss.

What color is most reflective of you? i guess if i had to pick one it'd be red. Red is a really passionate colour and realy vibrant, which is alot like me. It can be really soft or really hard looking, which reflects me in the sense that ican be really really nice or a really really big asshole. uhh yeah. What time were you born? i think it was around 6:30 or so? What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing? there;s nothing playing at the moment, but ive been singing Frank Sinatra non-stop for about a week now. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry? yeah..even though i never really cared for Princess Diana when she died i was crying because i was watching some televised shit about it &it was sad. plus i was alot younger.. i dont think i woulda cried if it happened anytime recentlyy what color underwear are you wearing? navy Do you want a baby? yeah, i adore kids..just not anytime soon. What does your mom do for a living? she works for the Ottawa Citizen and deals with all the ppl placing stuff in the paper like death notices &stuff..and wanting to buy photos printed in the paper &stuff like that. What does your dad do for a living? he's some pay specialist or something for Agriculture Canada. What is your pet's name? boxer &nigglet What color are your bedsheets? pink &white striped <3 What are the last 3 digits of your phone number? 065 What was the last concert you attended? the killers i think? Who was with you? cat her ine :) What was the last movie you saw? theatre: something with cat &alex.. rented: napoleon dynamite &anchorman What do you dislike most at this moment? worrying. and cellphones. and exboyfriends. What food are you craving right now? CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE DOUGHHHHHHHHHHHH Did you dream last night? nopers, i haven't in a while..it's really odd. What was the last tv show you watched? i haven't a clue.. i rarely watch tv. What is your fave piece of jewelry? my heart necklace. What is to the left of you? a mostly empty cup of tea What was the last thing you ate? club sandwich yesterdaay Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? alex probably. or lee. Write a song lyric that's in your head? "...it's better to be stepped on than left alone.." What song is that from? venus &bacchus-saetia Who last IM'd you? andrew Where is your signifigant other right now? haha..probably passed out in some dodgy alleyway? or sleeping at home. Do you have a crush? not really What is his/her name? sddfkmdkjgtn What shampoo do you use? dovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvve When was the last time you cut your hair? about a week or so ago.. it looks pretty well the same though :/ Are you on any meds? just antibiotics. Do you have a mental disease? do YOU have a mental disease? What shirt are you wearing? this old black tee shirt with all these coloured star outline dealies printed on it. What time is it? 10:52 What color is your razor? pink and whiiiiite What is your fave frozen treat? chocolate chip cookie dough icecream <3 Are you sexy? depends who you ask. Whats your favorite shopping store? i dont really have one Are you thirsty? FUCKYEAH! i need more iced teaaaa!!!!! Can you imagine yourself ever getting married? yessss. i used to always say i couldnt wait till i got married &got a house &all that stuff..but i don't really feel the same now, even thoughi wanna EVENTUALLY get married &settle down and all that.

k..so my liver kinda died.

which is quite tragic n stuff.

i'll have to lay off the booze for a month or so. :/

i think i may be dying. for serious.

note to self: go see doctor.

<3