well, its about that time of the year again...the end, that is.  I just re-read my 2006 review and I can't believe how much has happened in just one year.  2007 started off with a really great time, between doing great in school, my totally amazing friends, and my quickly approaching 21st birthday.  I ended a relationship I was in, unsuccessfully attempting to maintain a strong friendship.  I would wake up in the morning and drive to get my coffee, just thinking about what else was out there for me, and I knew in the back of mind someone amazing was waiting.  The winter was full of partying...somewhat too much partying I guess.  Somehow, I managed to keep myself grounded in studying, and ended up on the Dean's List again.  It seemed like every single night was spent at one of my friend's apartments playing drinking games or pregaming before ending up at one of our amazing clubs/bars.  Days were spent in class and then straight to work.  I tried, unsuccessfully, to save money.  In march I came to terms with something I'd be thinking about and acting upon for, hmmm, my whole life.  I finally felt comofortable enough to talk to the people who needed to know.  It went amazing, better than I could have expected.  I love my family for supporting me and loving me unconditionally.  Then came the apocolypse aka my 21st birthWEEK.  I literally celebrated for the entire week of my birthday.  My friends and I did everything, drinking at Tina's, Cryans, Black Thorn, TFeaths, Halligans, and ended with a giant party at my house.  The craziness at my birthday party can't even be put into words but I'll try.  I gave into temptation, let my guard down, and ended up letting a friendship turn sexual.  My best friend suprised me with, lets just say the most unexpected move I ever thought she would make.  My little sister also made an "unexpected move" that literally shocked my entire family.  MB handled her role as the peacemaker, as usual, and oh yeah, two of my exes went home together....SKETCHY.  Summer brought the biggest emotional rollercoaster of my entire life.  Memorial Day, the traditional beginning of summer, led me to probably the most difficult weekend of my life.  I was faced with a decision that would inevitably effect my life and the lives of my friends in a lot of different ways.  I learned that life is fragile, and sometimes you can't let yourself become responsible for people.  You can't save people.  But my friends and I did.  I learned that sometimes you have to let go, in order to let life happen.  In this situation, it was for the best.  I also learned that people are not always what they seem, and just because I am an honest person, does not mean that everyone shares the same honesty.  Just because you give people the benefit of the doubt does not mean that you are being treated with honesty in return.  No one deserves to be deceived.  Thats when I exited.  Summer 2007 was literally the most redic summer of my entire life.  I think I was sober for like, two days maybe?  I met amazing people...my friends are fabulous.  We know how to party, and that is exactly what we did every night of summer. Again, I learned about deceptive people, who claim to be your friend.  The minute you give someone what they want is the minute they show their true colors.  Too bad in this case the true colors were really ugly, like literally disgusting. Ever meet someone and your entire life falls into place? Yeah, thats what happened to me in July.  My mom always said,"Kelly, you're gonna marry your best friend", "When you meet the one, it hits you like a ton of bricks", "if the butterflies don't go away, they're not going to", "its okay to fall fast when its the real thing".  And thats exactly what happened.  I fell. Fast. The butterflies wouldn't go away.  And a ton of bricks def hit me in the face.  Only problem was that person wasn't mine.....that person was one of my best friend's.  I kept it all to myself, until I couldn't anymore.  Know what happened? Turned out the feelings were reciprocated and I ended up with that very person that my mom told me I'd find one day.  It wasn't that easy though, lol.  Nothing ever is.  Friendships got challenged, for both of us.  Unfortunately, sometimes friendships go sour....but thats how you know they aren't REAL friendships.  Lets be serious for a minute: If you're best friend fell in love, wouldn't you be happy that person was genuinly happy? Real friendships, the solid ones that last your whole life, would not fall victim in that situation.  Jealousy is a motherfucker, and holding grudges against people gets you nowhere in life, just brings you down.  Saying goodbye to summer meant saying goodbye to a lot.  I let go of the party scene, aiming to save my money and continue to do well in school (which I did...holla deans list)!  I spent the majority of nights in, spending time with my family.  I love family time, to me there is NOTHING better.  I also continued to build on that relationship I formed back in July.  Just this past month, a friend of mine passed away.  She was so young, only a little older than myself.  A sudden and unexpected in any way death.  It woke me up to what is important in life.  Life is so short guys, honestly.  Tomorrow could literally be your last.  It made me overwhelmingly grateful for my family, for my TRUE friends, and for the love of my life, Allison.  The little things in life are so stupid to get worked up over that it literally makes me sick to even THINK about certain people and the way they function in this world.  If your best friend died tomorrow out of nowhere, what would you do?  Would you want to be on the terms you are? Would you have any regrets? Would you wish you could change anything?  If so, it is time to wake up.  If anything can be learned from death, I hope it is that life is so precious and its important to never burn bridges and show love to everyone you are involved with.  At this point in the year, I am so thankful for falling in love.  There is nothing better than falling asleep with the person you love wrapped in your arms, listening to the sound of their heartbeat as you yourself fall asleep breathing in sync with her.  Ever feel like you are completely set in life? Yeah, thats where I am right now.  I am so set on forever.I've got the best friends anyone in this world could ask for, the most supportive family, and a beautiful girl who takes my breathe away every single time.  When I graduate, I'm ready to take this world on full force and get the most out of what this world has to offer me, my family, my friends, and my Allie.  Thank you, 2007, for being the year where I learned so much and the year that I found my soulmate.  And 2008, I'm ready for you and everything you are going to bring to my life.

 

 

 

So I decided to sum up 2006 in this little blog thing here. It has been a year of growing ups, letting gos, moving ons, and maturing.  2006 started off amazing, not going to lie.  I didn't go to school spring semester, which freed up a lot of time to work and save money, but I really wanted to go, I just couldn't afford it at that point.  However, as winter progressed, so did life.  My mom was diagnosed with cancer, which scared the living shit out of me.  She's my BEST friend, and it made me realize that life is so precious, and in the blink of an eye it could be gone.  She got surgery done and spent my birthday and mothers day in the hospital recovering.  But here she is, healthy as a horse(not sure what that really means..), fully recovered and completely cancer free.  I love my mom.  Right before my birthday, my Uncle Tucker passed away.  It took a lot out of me, but I realized that death is a part of life.  I still miss him everyday.  Thanks to all my friends who were there for me during that time of my life, I don't know how I would have gotten through without you guys.  Summer was insanity, pure insanity.  I worked three jobs, but pissed my money away on alcohol, gas money, concerts, and food.  I saw amazing concerts: Kelly Clarkson, Bon Jovi, Nickleback, Steve Miller Band, Mariah Carey, Sean Paul. Alaina, Erin, and Jeanine aka my best friends EVER, pretty much gave me hope this summer, that life is good, life is amazing, and as long as you trust and accept your friends, everything will be okay. When school rolled around, I missed the hell out of them.  But school was amazing this semester (well not my grades). I got my braces off! Crystal decided to come home from the dirty south and hang out with me and Marybeth every day.  So basically we get wasted every night and crack up laughing at the dumbest shit. Its really good times. As for relationships, I learned this year that nothing is ever what is seems.  My first relationship in my life, which I thought were the most pure emotions a person could ever feel, turned out to be nothing but a sham.  Its like Billy Joel says "we all have a face that we hide away forever and we take them out and show ourselves when everyone has gone some are satin some are steel some are silk and some are leather they're the faces of the stranger but we love to try them on".  I realized I was in love(yes, love, I said it) with a complete stranger.  Someone I considered my soul mate, was really just wearing a mask for me….but that mask can't hide anything anymore, I'm on to it, and to be honest, for the first time in my life, I'm okay with it.  My second relationship, well that ended pretty shitty.  Sometimes, people really don't know what they have and they take it for granted.  But hey, I have no regrets because I gave it everything I had, and I still smile knowing that.  My third relationship (if you can even call it that) well that ended almost as soon as it started.  That relationship taught me that people are scumbags by nature and depending on how you are brought up and the people you surround yourself with, is who you will inevitably turn out to be.  Luckily for me, I have an amazing family who taught me morals and values.  Basically, I learned that I'm too good for everyone at this age, because I've always been way more mature than anyone I've ever dated.  I've never been shut down by ANYONE that I've ever been interested in, and that hasn't changed.  I mean, I'm not gonna lie, I pretty much always get what I want, or who I want.  Taking it to the next step is usually where it goes sour.  2006 was no exception..I got who I wanted but not how I wanted it.  However, I met some amazing friends this year, people I'll never forget. Last month my dad was rushed to the ER with what sounded like symptoms of a heart attack.  THANK GOD it wasn't, and after a night in the ER and lots of tests, they have still not determined what happened.  All I know is that he is okay now, and it made me wake up to whats really important in life.  I love my dad, and I thank God every night that I have been blessed with the amazing family and friends that I have. As 2006 comes to a close, I have high hopes for 2007.  I've been a good girl and things are looking really bright tonight, I have a feeling I'm into something good!  This is Kelly C, signing off.  Happy New Year to all of you, and I hope this year brings all of you beautiful things.