So! Its almost Christmas, yay! Im starting to believe this is my favorite non alcoholic Holiday. lol. The lights make me happy, the songs are okay (when not playing for 8hours straight).I just like it. Plus New Years is right after and its always a blast :):)

Well I have 14 days until my last day at Pecan. Then like 17 or 18 until I move. I dont have an exact date that I am moving yet, just after the 27th and before the 31st lol. Its so crazy that its so soon. And I am soo excited. But its weird, now that its finally happening part of me wants to stay. But I know once i move and get down there everythink will be alright :). I hope it will anyways. I plan on starting the packing process when I get home tonight. Which means ill most likely just be washing clothes and cleaning my room... but hey its a start. lol.

I feel like I havent really been hanging out with everyone lately... but of course it seems like not everyone is hangin out :/ at least not like we used to! Of course I guess everyone is busy with work and some moved and others are moving.... ugh its crazy.

I found an ice cream i absolutly adore... and im not a huge ice cream person. Phish Food!! Its love! i think i would marry it if I could.

So, i really wanted to put blue in my hair... turns out I cant :( Because they would have to bleach it first. And since I fried my hair a while back, when bleach is put on my hair... it melts... freaking sweet right? lol. Yeah so Ill have to wait a while before i can lighten my hair :/ Good thing there is plenty of darker shades for me to experimnt with lol.

Theres a boy... I like him :) enough said.

I wanna go shopping again on tuesday... but early so I can sleep during the day before working audit. Anyone want to join? Leave around 9am be home by 3pm???

My brothers are coming over tomorrow to mow our yard!!! At least they are supposed to... :p

I wish I could play guitar like the boy on August Rush lol.... Seriously he's a badass.

Mmk... enough for now, I always start these blogs with things I want to say, then I forget what I wanted to say as Im typing... ugh. Im an idiot.




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SO Lately I've noticed how immature people can be. Im not just talking about one person.. I have like 5 names running through my head as I type this. And like most of my blogs... its probably not going to make much sense, my head is a jumbled mess.

But all the petty things people get upset over in high school is supposed to stop after 20! Right? And then there are the things you get upset over, are angry for a while, and then GET OVER IT! Why doesnt anyone ever make it to that last part. They just cling to the anger (as if that makes life any easier). Why cant we all just get along? Im not perfect, i've held some pretty dumb grudges, but I at least give those people the opportunity to redem thereselves. Or in the very least ACT CIVIL! I just wish people could grow up. So here is my rant to you (the ones I speak of....and no I wont include names, they will be numbers...)

1. Im sorry that my very existance seems to trouble your life. But trust me, YOUR existance used to bother me, but Ive finally let that go. And for god's sake its been a YEAR!! i know I said some nasty things about you, but you've also said some nasty things about me, plus the whole original situation was pretty fucked up on your part. I know we both think were not at fault.. but we both are at fault for different things. I dont want to be your friend, but for you to sacrifice your friendship with a mutual friend (one who you used to consider your VERY BEST FRIEND) is ridicoulous and selfish on your part. We could at least act civil for her sake. And the whole texting drama about me being outside the other night.. also pretty ridicoulous. She did nothing wrong, and did not lie to you. you should have came and hung out with one of your best friends, I would not have said a word to you, or shot a dirty glance your way. In fact I told her it was fine to invite you. For someone who used to talk so much on forgivness and Karma, you dont seem to care about the bad karma destined to come your way. And monthes and monthes from now, your gonna look around and realize you lost one of your only best friends over something stupid, and childish.

2.  Your heart broken, and sad, I get it. But if you really loved her then you should want nothing more than for her to be happy, even if it not with you.

3. The silence thing is gay. i considered you a friend above all else. It makes me sad that for some reason you've decided to ignore my existance... even when we're in the same room. Its pretty much rude. I hope one day you grow up.


Anyways, thats my little rant. Sorry for the venting, but if you read it all the way through thanks for listening! 

Love ya'll

Amanda 

Things i hate...

el caminos
linkin park
one word text messages
arrogance
metallica
fish
closed minded people
liars
double standards
unpainted toenails (my great aunt Pat put this is my head when i was lil)
crickets
roaches
when people can't forgive and let go after many years
the band Creed


Things I love/Enjoy

staying up late at night
destroying paperclips
driving
Hanson
queso
fast food sandwich places (ex subway, quiznos etc.)
Grannys meatloaf :):)
sitting on the porch swing at night
random useless facts
bright colors
IKEA
Audrey Hepburn
dancing
strawberries
Texas
Boots :)

more to come later

havent posted one ove these in... ages! lol. I deceided I would give a lil update :)

Chello moved into the house, its great :) Though I hardly get to see her between our opposite schedules and her schooling :( but its ok we still make time here an there lol.

I wont be at good ole Tarleton this year... apparently they felt me habing a full time job would interfere with school. But seriously i'm 22, how could I NOT have a full time job??  Whatever though. They suggested I go to a community college for a couple of years. Which really may be a blessing in disguise. I've been dying to move away from here.. for like EVER! And not having school to hold me down I think i may. once the lease is up of course!  But that wont be til after the first of the year :) And im pretty damned determined to make it happen this time. Though the only thing holding me back is my friends ... Id miss you guys :( But ya'll could always visit! ... Or move with me, whichever :D lol.

Work is okay. Nothing awful, nothing fantastic. But in this economy I'm Thankful to have a job.

Im saving up for a car :) I get to use the Jeep until i get a down payment (or until the 1st of the year!)

Im considering a second job to save up more money, HOWEVER , they are scarce in Granbury, PLUS it would have to be part time and work with my Pecan Schedule... but im keeping my eyes open.

I want a puppy... like bad :( But ill wait til I move.... cause I will for sure need a dog if I move somewhere all alone... which Im currently thinking Austin ( about 100 percent) and ill go to ACC (they have open enorollment so theyll accept me) plus I freaking Love that town!! have since I was a wee lil one!

My Love life is empty lol. Not that thats a bad thing... lol. Boys are stupid... Thats my thought. And they need to grow up.... I know who Im talking about.. though i doubt they do :p. Maybe one day...

And to all my true friends...I love you guys! For always being there, listening to me Bitch, telling me the truth, and never lying to me or excluding me. I cherish your friendship more than you know. :)

I know, it was sappy and gay :) But hey it happens from time to time.

Dedicated to the movies made after books. Mostly how the movies suck. What brought this on, Twilight. Jan finally saw the movie after i warned her she would be greatly dissapointed! And she was. What we want to know is how ao many of you "so called" Twilight enthusiast can actually enjoy that movie? And how the hell did the author not absolutley hate it. Ive said it before and I'll say it again, I could have made a better twilight movie with sock puppets in my bedroom. The movie sucked, and we want to make a website dedicated to how much it sucked and how much we adore the books. And we figured we would throw in other Books that have been turned into movies. It not all of them, some of the movies turn out well, example: The Notebook, loved the book, and LOVED the movie. Then there are the books that are mediocre and the movies are great, example: Tuck Everlasting. lol. (Just a personal favorite). Problem is, how do we make a website? lol, i know you can build free ones via yahoo and such, but they suck... i've taken webmastering but its been a few years, I dont knowwhere to start lol , or how to actually put it on the web, so... any ideas or helpful hints? lol

So, its been a few weeks since I've blogged, but here I am. Nothing horribly exciting going on in my life.. I pretty much just work and sleep... Maybe throw down a few beers somewhere in between lol. I need to start saving money...bad. Im pretty sure I want to move to Austin when out lease is up. And i'm tryingto Convince Chello and Jan to join me. :D I'm sick of Granbury and everyone in it (not my friends). I feel like there is nothing for me here and for me to grow to my full potential I need to be elsewhere. Kinda like in Big Fish lol. SO ... thats that. Point is I need to save my money for deposits and moving fees etc.
Also quick note... if you hear me say anything about he who's name we shall not say... hit me in the fucking head. Like for real! That boy needs to be erased from my memory. I'm not kidding ... you can literally hit me!
I want a day off from both Jobs.. its been forever since I've had a WHOLE DAY to myself... with nothing to do!
But I'm getting a few more hours at Pecan for Training... so thats a plus :D
 

So, I was just thinking about boys (go figure) But More Specifically, Ex Boyfriends (not any one in particular, but them all as a whole). And along with Ex's i also started thinking of those who never became anything. And then I think of those who are still up in the air. And you know what they all have in comon? The fact that in the beggining they tried so fucking hard to not admit to having feelings. Like really, ALL OF THEM! Is it a boy thing? Or a ME thing? Why would you try so hard to fight the way you feel about someone? What would be so terrible about giving into those feelings and seeing what could happen? I'm not that horrible! Geez. So if you have any input on this subject... please feel free to comment, I'd like to hear all of ya'lls thoughts on this. Cause this hasnt been a one time case its been a multiple boy offense. And it continues to be repeated in my life. And I refuse to beleive its because my bad judgement in men... because they are all sooooo different!

So I had a pleasant weekend. Went to the Ridglea and was WAY drunk. Resa and Shawna had to save me from almost getting molested by some guy. lol. Thank you! I owe yall big. I woke up suprisingly still beautiful with sticky hair... compliments of spilt Dr. Pepper. Haha. Saturday Night No one was doing anything so me and Resa went to the Casino... it was fun :) Wish we would have had more money... but it was still a good time.
Sunday -- I had a mini encounter with a certain someone I wish I didnt see. It was small and across a parking lot but there was eye contact (the first since we split) i think I probably would have vomited if I hadnt been on the phone with my grandmother... You think I wouldnt be so shocked when I see him, but i mean its been almost 6monthes and I can probably count on one hand how many times ive passed him on the road. I have yet to actually end up at the same place as him or anything... and Granbury is NOT that big of a town. So this was the closest encounter by far... and I dont know why it still makes me sick.. all of it... him, talking about him, seeing him... nauseous.... ...Will it EVER stop... like really... Im over him, its not that there are still theses feelings there, because I have moved on. I dont want him or anything... and its not like Im angry with him... I dont know why, but Im not... Its just this feeling that I cant describe...and its awful. Jody says its because he was the 1st person I had fallen for since Corby... which would make since... but I never got that feeling from Corby after we broke up... then again... mine and Corby's break up was much more drawn out with on agains and off agains... I think we both knew it was over when it was. I guess maybe its the lack of closure... yeah its done but there is still SO much unsaid... maybe thats it... I dunno... its gay. God only knows what it will be like if/when we finally do run into each other (like closer than 60ft.) The weird thing is the night before I saw him I had a dream that I had run into him somewhere... and we talked...like just chatted... Strange I know..and when I saw him (in real life lol) I really wanted to go talk, say hi, or something... I didnt cause I can only imagine how awkward that would have been... plus the rejection (cause I doubt he would have acknowleged my existance) would have been brutal. i dont even know why I'm still talking about this... its pointless...
Moving on,
So I really wish I could get more hours at Pecan... 2 jobs is kicking my ass. its tolorable.... but...still.
Jose is out... no goodbye note or anything.... which we thought he would for sure leave one.
I got my cd player out of the LeBaron... so now I can put it in the Jeep :D Anyone that knows how want to help me?? -- And for those who know Barbara (LeBaron) Ya'll should know she is in pretty bad shape after sitting in that field for ..oh...3 1/2 years now... It was a sad sad sight :(
Well I think im gonna get off here... or stop blogging. Maybe i'll have something interesting to write about tomorrow... though it is doubtful. :D
 
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MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities - Collage - Morph

So I did my Celeb look alikes... lol :)

Sometimes I wish I was as stupid as people play me for. Like really, I wouldnt be as completely insulted! But sadly im not an idot! So why do people continue to treat me like one? Hell if I know. I choose to believe that they are just morons and dont realize that everyone else is beyond their mental capacity. Tony is a fucking douche... that is all i really have to say about him. That and it is guys like him that make the whole "Nice guys finish last" true. Because he was the type to shower with sweetness and compiments... which apparently none of it was sincere. And then guys wonder why girls laugh at them when they are called beautiful... its because they dated one of these losers and refuse to give into the bull shit again. Like really thats why. There I have now solved one of your great "guy" mysteries. Other than that things are going swimmingly. Work is alright, just tiring. i should sleep more. So have you ever liked someone that seemed completly out of your reach, but at the same time seemed within your reach. But everything was kinda simply complicated... more so you just dont know what is going on in their head? I think everyone should be more bold with their feelings and lay them out there... in a non creepy or stalker way. It would make the guessing a lot easier. lol. Im at work right now... I still have at least 2 and a half hours to go... and I am running on 4 hours sleep from the night before... i didnt sleep after I worked at Arbys today. And now I am kicking myself in the ass for it. I plan on dying when i get home... for at least 5 hours.. then I may wake up for a bit lol. Me and Chello are supposed to go shopping for our mardi gras outfits :). plus it is pay day at arbys. Well I suppose ill close this for now... who knows what will come later :D
 
Amanda