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http://alexansary.blogspot.com/2009/05/this-worlds-going-insane-i-think-some.html


This world has lost it's mind.

At least it seems that most of the people living in it have.

Everything is backwards. Orwellian. Confusing.

Stupidity is in and sexy as hell.

Intelligence and Wisdom is frightening with a dangerous reputation as a guaranteed buzz kill.

I walk into a restaurant, a bar, a supermarket. The eyes of the crowd find their way to me as my face is recognized by the local cable TV viewers and it's as if I can actually read their very thoughts and sense their feelings.


And the feelings do not feeling loving, they do not feel empathetic. They feel like FEAR and SPITE.

"There's that crazy motherfucker from TV. WTF! Dark Skinned fuck who thinks he knows something. Asshole, talking to me reality, who the fuck is he?"


Welcome to my life. Welcome to my little world (Or nightmare as Alice Cooper put it in the 1970s), My passion and intensity for liberty and spiritual freedom is SCARY to the fellow mammals living with me in this technological / hypnotic control grid. The poor things have had their mind raped, they lost the ability to recognize a friend that trying to help them and their children.

Maybe I should walk around going "Boo! Hey you! Boo!"

Often I cannot find the words to describe how strange all of this is.

It is not easy to articulate how bizarre it seems to live in a world where we have access so much information about our planet, ourselves, and situation, yet.....Our peers do nothing and scoff at our desperate acts to get them to wake up to something larger than their own little world.

Is it the victim mentality?

Something else?

Perhaps they are in amnesia?

Is it that they subconsciously want to learn a lesson about the errors of their ways? Like the drug addict that keeps going and going until he loses everything?

What the hell is it? The chemtrails?! Ha!

Without a doubt something is going on on this planet that ONLY a small percentage of the population is aware of. I speak not only of the plot to create an official World Government or New World Order run by a criminal elite. I speak of the nature of the universe and the potential new cycle that may be underway which could literally change (not end) our world as we know it. In all honesty, I believe these changes are coming and that the shift in consciousness that so many speak of will not come with a soft landing, but with a series of bangs, and booms. Sorry folks, I wouldn't wager your weeks check on the space aliens coming to save you either......

Our comfort zone will change rapidly and the old world will fade as our ability to survival will now INSTANTLY be based on our ability to come together with like minds, people who can increase our changes of making it through the raging storm. And some storms have already arrived. It will come down to survival and the ability to adapt to working together and coming into a greater harmony with nature and mother Earth. This will be like a splash of cold water to the prisoners still living in this machine like colony of robot humans that falsely believe they are free.

I have many goals. Some goals have yet to be created. Some goals have yet to be fulfilled. At this moment in time, I feel the desire to articulate my vision to bring people together of like minds before the crisis begins.

We all know about the crisis. We all know about the problem. What we don't all know is what to do about it, where we are going to be living, if we will still have a job, if we will be single or in a relationship, if we will be living in a conventional home, a car for a home, or a tent. Somethings in life, WE JUST DON'T KNOW! Take a deep breath.

While many things coming in the future may seem OUT OF OUR CONTROL, we need to be able to develop the foresight to zone in and identify the things that we can change. We have to develop the eyesight to see the things that we are meant to see. We have to harness the ability to truly quiet our thoughts and hear the things we are supposed to hear.

In these coming years, our world is likely to be turned upside down and this is not a time to be twiddling our thumbs at the local pub whining to ourselves, "Poor me, poor me, pour me another drink."

New information about the nature of reality is flowing like a river. Stick out your hand and grab what you can. I can only show you the door and invite you into my world. I can't do it for you and make everything right for you, or give you the perfect solutions. No one can do that for me, and when we as humans realize that we are Independently responsible for own growth and salvation, that is the moment when we begin to grow.

Let us kick our fears to the cold hard curb and welcome into our lives the person we were supposed to be. Allow the sheeple to drink their poisonous Kool-aid in their own self created Jones town. Take a deep breath and send them the love that they are lacking in their world with a deeper understanding of everyone's free will.

There are mysteries about this reality that keep us awake in the dark of night, there are many questions we may ask ourselves that we would never do in front of our family or peers. A few key questions remain in the back of countless minds:

"Did we as souls choose to come into this particular time / space reality to achieve a certain goal?"

"Are we here collectively as souls to witness some amazing change in our society that will evolve our soul into the next level?"

"Is there a reason why humans have a unique consciousness and understanding of self that is so very different than the rest of the animal kingdom?"

"Is there a reason we have such an amazing imagination?"

"Where did it come from? Where did WE REALLY COME FROM?"

"Are we alone in the universe? Are we also ants in an ant farm living under a larger system to big for our minds to comprehend?"

"Are we Gods or Masters in training?"


For now, some things in the world may continue to remain a mystery. But for myself, in this phase of my life that I am now in, I am locked and loaded on one thought and one thought only:

I'M LEAVING THIS PLANET WITH NO FEAR BECAUSE I'LL BE LEAVING WITH NO REGRETS. WHEN I GO MAY NOT BE UP TO ME, BUT I'M GOING WITH AN INTERNAL PEACE AND I WONT BE LOOKING BACK. I'M GOING TO DO WHAT i WAS BORN TO DO.

Perhaps you may choose to do the same. It's up to you. Talk to again in the near future my friends.

Alex Ansary

Nothing in this universe stays the same, and even our own lives appear to be going through cycles, some of them dramatic, just like our world.  A deeper level of joy and understanding comes from accepting some of the realities of this dimension and being able to objectively look at all the information without becoming emotionally out of balance or depressed.  The real challenge lies in our ability to overcome any feelings of powerlessness or worthlessness and I feel our strength is greater than what we are currently aware of.  I suspect we all have much to learn about the other dimensions of strength that are beyond the physical realm.

Those delusions about our collective lack of power come from our culture and world of mass media which is constantly bombarding our subconscious mind with feelings of lack or loss unless we assimilate our behavior, personality, and appearance only to move on to  consume a particular product, idea, or belief system.  For most our society, the information about how the global elite is destroying sectors of our planet and our traditional cultures is hard to deal with because it's traumatizing and upsetting. It rocks their world view about how the power structure is set up.  It brings up some of their prized belief systems about not only their leaders, but about themselves and where they are going in their own lives.  This pain needs to be looked at instead of disregarded for another pill, drink, smoke, pair of shoes, car, trip, movie, etc. Without this internal alarm system, how would we even know that something is wrong in the body? How would we know that the stove that we accidentally just put our hand on is burning the skin on our palm? We wouldn't.  Pain is the very thing that can shock people into making a change in the world. If we numb our instincts and overly mechanize our actions and feelings, aren't we becoming less human and more robotic? By being more aware of our feelings and warning systems in the body, we have a greater chance of surviving the modern urban jungle, present day Babylon. 

 

We live in a country of abundance and overindulgence. The challenge is getting the monkey off our back and in this case, the addiction to constantly feeling good all of the time. We are living in the age where material wealth and your ability to get what you want - when you want it appears to some people to be a reflection of someone attaining a high level of spiritually based upon their ability to manifest things for themselves and their ability to smile ear to ear at the spa while bombs are dropping on villages somewhere else. It comes down to an obsession with the self, particularly a deep attachment to physical pleasure. At times, it  reminds me of the controlled scientific experiments where mice would be wired and  set up to administer themselves doses of pleasure enhancing drugs by hitting a button over and over.  Their addiction to the dopamine producing drug eventually caused their own deaths. I see this country coexisting in a bubble with people living in a  reality not too different than the movie, 'The Truman Show'.  Is America living in a similar experiment on a level that we don't fully see yet?  

In the coming years, the old structures and old ideas need to be removed from the planet as well as the old energy itself.  In the new age / metaphysical movement,  the misconception that a lot of people have is that the shift will be a gentle and light one, full of pleasure,  and that exposing the  darkness of the world gives the evil ones more power. This is a narrow perspective of how the universe works and a misunderstanding of the law of attraction they many in the world claim to be an expert on.  Its like looking at the stars in the sky through the lens of a  McDonalds straw.  I see a world where the way to the solution is to first begin speaking out about the problem, so that there is awareness of it. Darkness cannot exist in the presence of the light and what we are doing is shinning the spotlight on the shadows that people couldn't see before as angels in human bodies are being called to awaken and begin activation.  How can a cure for a disease be found unless the primary root cause of the problem has been discovered? How can we connect the dots until we take the time to open our awareness to each individual dot, no matter what we find?  What we need is a greater understanding of the universal laws of cause and effect.

If we are to change the world as we know it, consciousness has to be higher than the consciousness that created the problem. A lot of people have an unseen psychic potential deep inside of themselves; it's where our powerful human imagination seems to draw from at times. Unfortunately, people are very attached to certain belief systems and outcomes in the future.  This can disrupt any information trying to come through from source because the mind shields itself from ideas that may appear to run contrary to their current operating system. But we cannot run from the feelings we are having inside and the dreams and visions we are having at night.  The more that part of us is suppressed, the more inner turmoil is experienced. We also have to admit that the systems of control didn't build their supercomputer run police state nightmare overnight. It took some time to build and it's going to take some time to remove. That cannot happen without consciousness raising to the point of being able to face the reality that there are dark demonic forces in our world projecting layers of deceptions on the human population to keep in a state on mental, physical, and spiritual bondage.

When I look at the world today and see the chaos and shake up in relationships from the macrocosm to the microcosm, I can't help but wonder what changes are taking place in the human body and where it's coming from.   When we step back and take a look at the big picture with loving compassion and without fear of what will happen to us, our understanding and empathy increases.  When we can learn to breathe, face reality as it is with an attitude of non attachment and equanimity, our awareness expands. It's time to get as honest as we can about what we need to change about ourselves so we can be that much more effective at changing the world. In the end truth is self evident. It is a lie that needs an argument. There is no army that can stop an idea whose time has come.

Tossing and turning throughout the dark night.  I lay my head down at 8:34 PM  for I feel like Im in a state in between being awake in this world, and AWAKENING in a different world. I awaken and fall asleep a dozen times in a hour, all the while keeping attention on the illusionary cycle of time presented by my digital clock. We are all feeling some of these feelings, some have felt them their entire lives, only to see them escalate during the times we are living in now.

I don’t feel like screaming or yelling through a bullhorn in these moments. I feel something else right now as I become convinced that a shift of some sorts IS taking place through many of us as our perceptions are expanding. We cannot get caught in the illusionary loophole of time and age when it comes to these feelings, for in the future you will meet more young children who know what’s going on. Its being something that can be felt on the  linear time dvd of life, although it does seems that the closer we get to 2012, the more intense the energy and/or emotional state within us appears. That is why we feel a lot of pain and depression in our lives that we can’t explain. Something in our BS-OS, has to go.  (belief system / operating system).

Dreams of high technology, things from beyond this world, feelings of flooding continents, feeling of watching the world from on high with OTHERS.  Concerns floating my head about the true nature of weather control.  I’m not frightened. Im more or less asking myself in my own private space how far down the rabbit hole am I willing to go, and am I really willing to discipline myself to do the work I need to do in the "waking" life to evolve to the point where I can consiously process that level of information. I mean, I can feel the  negative things that have to leave my life, perceptions, actions, etc, for my own evolution in the body machine vehicle I occupy.  For the system to ditch an obsolete operating system for another requires me to let go of major illusionary  belief systems about possibility.

I don’t see  a world limited to gloom and doom and we can’t move ahead into the unknown great abyss unless we create the world of light at the end of the tunnel instead of expecting it to come galloping to us as a rescuer. We have to become our own hero and let that energy flow out of our bodies into our community so others can see that they are not forgotten and that someone still has the ability to love. Then when the real terror hits the streets, those tapped into this frequency will know why they were given this information and wisdom long ago.  This is the real never ending story and I’m honored, sometimes a bit frightened and shocked, but still proud to be a part of this collective journey.

We are all on this ride for a reason, even if some of the key questions about the nature of reality and our lives have not yet been answered. For now, some of us will continue to have the veil lifted internally as the heat is turned up. Strap yourselves in and hang on. We may be going into hyper drive.

I don't have all the answers, no one does. I have lots of questions about life.  I don't always know where to start with the questions, but once as few get rolling, there seems to be no end to the stream of thoughts in my head. Why are we here? Where ae we? Why do I feel so much pain in this world? Why am I so alienated to a certain degree from the mainstream and alternative world, while at the same time reporting some of the biggest stories of the globe? Im in the everyday world, then again I'm not. I don't recognize this planet as my own, I don't completely understand the human species, I don't truely know myself. I know layers of this and that when it comes to the world, when it comes to knowing you, when it comes to knowing myself. But they are just slivers of truth. In essense, our perceptions make up our belief systems and that affects a whole lot. Funny to hear myself say that, for I don't totally internalize everything that comes out of my mouth. Its like, through pain and suffering, I found myself on the path I am now, as if  it was laid out for me,  a force or energy greater than my own, perhaps a greater consiousness that goes beyond my own ego and sense of self?  I try to remember that when the world is a large scary place with broken relationships, a sickening police state, etc.That I may be here for something as hard as life seems right now, as depressing and cold as the world feels, this is not in vain. Where will I be in 10 years? How much will I have grown as a result of the challenges I face right now? When will the pain stop? Is it meant to stop? Can I progress toward the manifestation of enlightment while feeling no pain?  These are questions I ask everyday. 

I wish I could tell you when this ride was going to be over. When we all can dance (I dont dance but I could try) in victory as the systems of control come crashing down is a date I cannot see in my minds eye.  Nor do I think that the police state is the center of our troubles, its just another symptom. I dont know when it will end, but I know we are being tested right now and the only thing that brings me peace when I have no one and nothing to turn to for help, is to remember than I'm living a lie, in an illusion if I expect something outside of myself to make me feel complete. It's the cold hard truth I feel everyday, that I have to become stronger and more self sufficent in every way. I must develop a new consiousness where I no longer am affected by the silence from my parents, no longer affected by my job as a busser, no longer affected by the lonliness I feel wishing one day she would just call me and want to get together like old times, I dont want to be a slave to my emotions, but I entered into this world very aware in terms of emotions and vibrations, energy. I now believe emotions to be a part of the human experience as actually something to rise above in many cases. Its a part of human expression, its beutiful at times, but hurts when you get the wrong side of the stick. How can I be free from myself? I go from being concerned about elite, to wondering, how can I be free from my own mind? My own desires? My own passions?  When can I live balanced, seeking out the right people, experiences, relationships, realties, without becoming attached to them?

It's as if emotions are within our own body as part of the body machine software that is used to test us. To see if we can override our own sensations, our own cravings, and pull out what we truely need. That spirit within. I have always dreamed of truely living through my spirit within, since I was a little boy. Well Im still there now, and so are many of you. Until we go into the depths of our own psyche and remove the crap, it will fester.  My myspace rants on this blog may continue, not sure, does it matter? not really. only this moment matters right now.

Guests: Stan Ezrol with www.LarouchePub.com, Matt Kazee reporting on the Ed & Elaine Brown situation and Noah reporting live from an anti-racism protest on Portland, Oregon


http://mp3.wtprn.com/Ansary/0710/20071006_Sat_Ansary1.mp3

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Outside the Box 122 (Featuring Daniel Pinchbeck)
Alex Ansary
58 min 16 sec - Oct 4, 2007
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Alex covers his usual 'choice picks' news headlines which include the following: Blackwater's problems, the situation in Burma, An alleged ... all » CIA plane that crashed carrying 3.2 tons of cocaine, economic updates, police brutality, and much more. Tonight's guest is Daniel Pinchbeck. (Breakingopeninghead.com) He is the author of 2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl.
 

Alex covers some of the top stories of the week followed by an appearance by 2012 researcher, John Major Jenkins (alignment2012.com). John focused on the upcoming galactic alignment of December 21st, 2012 and his own research into Mayan Cosmology.