The notes flow through my brain constantly.  They rip, they roar, they tear, they push and prod.  They are not mine.  They never are.  I want them, inside me, beside me, like a lover, like a friend, I fear I'll never create such beauty.  I could sing for eons and never have words of my own flow from my mouth.  It pains me, sickens me, pushes me further and further back.  Where does it come from, is music created, or is it just, there?  Like a god or diety, it always has been.  Or like a god and diety it never was, only made up, by some crazed and insane brain who thought they'd never see such things brought to light.  Melodies flooding, bringing life and death and happiness, and sadness.  Make me remember, make you forget.  I can hear it now, wrapping it's way through my consciousness, each verse of the music a new vine, each word a new leaf.  Portions poison, portions the most rare and beautiful flower.  None the less not owned by me, it's not my flower, it's not my poison, no matter how badly I crave it, or wish it, or write and sing, it's never mine.

Hey and Howdy Folks!

I've never taken the time to write a blog here, haven't had much occasion to, but I've come to a desicion that I want to share with everyone.

This is going to be a group project, one that requires just as much out of my "fans" as it does out of me.  As most of you know, I'm a "Cover Queen."  It's what I do.  I'm not against original music, but I can promise you 9 times out of 10 when I am workin in a club or bar, with 100 drunk people listening to me they want to hear something they know.  That's why I usually do top 40 Country and on occasion throw some rock or pop in.

As comments to this blog I'd like each of you to find your favorite country song and leave the title and artist as a comment below.  I'll keep track of them all, and in the next month I'll start recording and posting the song(s) that is/are requested most.  They'll fully be available for download, so you can take em anywhere you want, and I'll even have them posted on my website, www.heathfitzgerald.com

So, everyone put your thinking cowboy hats on, decide what you want to hear from me, and if humanly possible, I'll get it out to ya.....

Let's get the music going folks.....

Big Excited Cowboy Hugs,

Matthew Heath-Fitzgerald