okay so a few days ago daniela wrote a blog and like its the exact way i feel so im gonna copy hers n paste it here. props to daniela!

So yeah I was just looking at something and it made me think how fucking shallow and fake some people are. Okay If you don't like people WHY MUST YOU ACT LIKE YOU DO? you say you're not afraid to speak your mind. but you talk about everyone behind their backs and then you act all sweet and nice to them. You just suck people into your little life and make them like your slaves and yet all you do when they aren't around is say how much you don't even like them. That's really nice. Just think about what you are doing to these people. I wish some people would just realize things. It's sickening to me when I see it happen. Seriously I'm just like wwwwhat? and then you wonder why I don't like this person. If you would see what I see and actually believed it, then you would know. At least I'm mature enough to not go and say shit about this person to other people so they don't like them. But seriously, this person really needs to change because one day everyone is going to realize it and then they are going to have NO ONE to turn to. And I'll feel really sorry for them.

on another note, school has been pretty chill. It's hard, but I'm trying to keep my grades up. I can't believe i'm actually studying for MATH tests. I thought I would never see the day. But whatever. I realized that I cannot take any test on history. I can do so well in the class and during a test I just don't do well at all. Why do teachers write the most complicated questions? whats the point? it's just making us dumber. Oh well!

Dance has been fun of course. I cut back a lot so I hardly see the people I used to which makes me sad. I feel so fat because I'm not dancing as much. I'm going to start working out more at home. I used to go on the tredmill every once in a while but now I'm really going to try going 2 or 3 times a week. It's just hard with school, dance, homework, and drivers ed and juggling it all.

Dance is different. It's just..i don't know different to me. I feel like the oldy now. I feel like I grew up A LOT and now I'm watching the 13 year olds grow up and stuff. It's so weird to think next year I'm going to be TEACHING. It's like where has everything gone? People would say that as you get older the time goes by faster and I would always say it's not true. Um wow was I wrong. The first quarter of school is already over. It's like what a month and 2 weeks to christmas?! I still owe someone a birthday gift from october (hi nicole. yeah I know. soon). I can't believe that I'm starting to look at colleges. It's like schwattttt? college? ew. It's so weird to think that 5 years ago I was in 6th grade. It seems like forever ago and that so much has happened since then, but it also feels like yesterday. I'm still in such awe that school is 1/4 over with. Weeeeeird!

I want to go to Croatia. SO bad. This summer we might be having dance at a performing arts camp at SUNY Old Westbury. Random I know. But I don't know. I was thinking if we do that, I might want to take an acting and singing class, but obviously dance as my main focus. I've always wanted to do acting and I figure why not? what would I have to lose? and Singing. okay I'm not that great and I don't have a good voice, but I can sing. I mean I think I got a lot better in like the past 2 years. And that's the point of the class is to get better. And if we have it there you get to pick the weeks you want to go so that means I could go to Croatia ANDDDDD camp. How sick is that?! And oh my gosh after that senior year?!! and we're back to "where did time go?"

so I'm kind of tired and I'm going to start ranting on some other random shiaaat.

I've never been to subway or quizno's. How sad is that? There's 2 subways in plainview and one really close to me and still haven't gone. I'm a deprived girl!

okay yeah I'm really tired now. I'm going to bed. I'm not exactly excited for this open house but, hey it's an experience.

OH OMG WAIT! One more thing!

So last saturday, a bunch of us from CDT went to a Hofstra Dance Day event. Basically, the Hofstra Dance Team teaches you a dance and then you perform it at the half time show at the football game. It was sick. It was one of the best dance experiences of my life. I realized that I don't even care if I mess up anymore. It's about the experience and just doing it. I knew all the steps in practice and then we got onto the field and I like screwed up so bad. But honestly, as we walked off Miss Camille and I were just cracking up and we hugged each other. Everything from the summer drama just like went away. It was awesome. I'm not going to go into that but yeah everything just didn't matter. We had to do a toe touch. That was something let me tell you because she would make fun of me for mine and I would make fun of her for hers because we look like dying birds when we attempt them. Oh and mind you I was the dumb girl in the back line that went on the wrong count for the toe touch. GO me! But yeah. That performance was just like waifhaasdfkjasdf. The adrenaline rush was just like nothing ever. There weren't that many people in the bleachers but just like. Ah i don't know. It was crazy.

And then that Sunday we performed at the Annual Friends Of the Library concert. It was in a new auditorium which was sick with speakers all around. The stage was like the size of my foot (k not really) and I messed up but again. WHO CARES! it was just amazing as always. I realized how much I love performing. Just being on a stage in front of people is just amazing x 345098354. I guess I'm kind of an attention-wanter. but actually I don't think I would be able to do a solo. But being on a stage with my best friends is just amazing. Oh yeah and Janine hit Penny in the head during "Sandstorm" and Kaity told me she saw us trying to not crack up. That was quite interesting. And after we went to the diner which was obviously a lot of fun. And Nicole and Miss Camille make fun of me because that Friday I tried on a shirt that was too tight and I go "WHY IS IT SO LONG ON ME" and my boobs were popping out of the shirt. Miss Camille goes "we're not THAT kind of a dance team." haha It was so funny. And obviously our 7/8 joke found it's way in there.

Ok now I'm really going because I'm really really really tired. I hope someone actually reads this. If not OH WELL! I just had to write that all out. I kind of want an lj again. Hm? i don't know!

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