First off I don't want to alarm those close to me. I am well, just change in thought. Perhaps my naivety or arrogance has gotten the better of me; I think certain things just have become clearer.  I continue to strongly believe that we as a race are capable of so much more.  Our decision making ability is unlike anything else on this planet. We can choose at any given point to choose two opposite paths: One presumably "good" and the other "evil". I constantly get challenged with the obvious question of what is good and what is evil? But it is not that complicated. Deep down we know what is good and evil.  Both are very much present all around us in our everyday lives.  And that is just my problem.  Since as far back as our history shows, this conflict has existed. And my question is why!? It then hit me: it's vicious cycle which if continue as it is, will truly never end. When they say the war of good and evil will never end I understand why now. To put it simply, good won't eradicate bad because it is good. The moment it was to truly take drastic measure to eradicated evil, it would become evil.  Evil won't completely eradicate good because it needs someone to explore so it can survive. For evil to survive it needs something to prey on.  I realized I'm fighting a never ending pointless war.  No matter how hard good fights evil, it doesn't have what it take to truly end it.  In a way, they have given each other a false sense of purpose. We could all be so much more productive, if we all joined forces, one central goal. Things could be so much better, but alas that is not the case. So I thought, perhaps the solution is just to let evil take over.  I'm not saying I will partake in this; I'm simply removing myself from the cycle, not all at once I know drastic measures are never wise.  I figure at least one of two things can happen, either evil will destroy everything and worst case wipe out the human race, which if we continue down this destructive path it's probably better for earth and down the line the universe. Or less likely but nonetheless an option: evil finally realizes it could be so much more productive being good. And we all finally realize that if we put our silly differences aside, and use our great minds to work together, not destroy things, not worry about what brand of shoes I'm going to buy or get high or drunk because it makes me feel good we could achieve so much more.  I have tried to understand why people do and worry about these futile things:  appearance, money, religion, alcohol, lie, smoke, drugs. I have partaken in a few of these things in the last few years; but I have yet to truly understand why it is people do this. I used to think; perhaps they didn't know any better, if shown a different way perhaps they too would choose a different path.  But it is not the case. I have often asked why people do these things, and their answer is the same "it makes me feel good".  But that in itself is a lie. Because no alcoholic drink makes me feel better than seeing the happiness of a child when you play or teach them something.  No amount of cigarettes gave me a bigger high then when I learn something for that first time.  With that said, I guess I have given up in the current state of humanity.  For those of you that know me know how hard it is for me to say that, because this goes against all that I say. I have so avidly argued that there is hope in the current state. And here I have admitted it otherwise. The way I see it, let evil take over.  I for one will not take on any more good projects; I'll finish what I've started… but nothing new.

10 years ago: god damn.. uhm... i was in highschool, starting my junior year!? damn. i think so... uhm.. busy with all kinds of school activities I was in, chillin with my hommies casey and roberto and marcos.. living it up in good ol newberg!!

5 years ago: uhm.. 2001, I was done with college and started my first real job!! good ol IO Software, lets see by now, id of met jimmy, cassey, erica, chris, todd... good friends till today :) you guys rock my world!!

1 year ago:   uhm.. last year?!  haha.. workign at IO...  going to the BI.. chilling and parting with cassey, chris, todd, ooh enjoying our pool... think das about it... hopefully didnt forget anyone or anything important..

Yesterday: worked, then worked, and went to bed... this new project is cool, cause im sucked in ..hehe.. its a good chalange :D

5 snacks I enjoy:

1. ourinhos ( brasilian )

2. chex mix

3. anytime of fruit, specially mangos in brasil

4. nuts, specially cashews

5. BBQ baked lays

5 songs I know all the words to:

hahhhaa..... uhm... sorry, i dont think i know any song by heart.....

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:

1. start up a company, and make great cheap software

2. build a school in brasil, well, like private school chain... really good yet cheap.

3. help all my friends and fam with whatever

4. I could finally take up my goal of walking from here to brasil

5. go to the poorest areas of the world (prob africa, heiti... and build infrastructure... but not just give my money to some charity... i want to build and plan it myself 

5 things I would never wear:

hmmmm honestly, id probably wear anything hahaha... das silly... i put anythign on.. if anyone can think of anythign I wouldnt wear... please notify me.

5 bad habits:

1. can be arguementatives at times... argue just for the fun of it. 

2. day dreaming !? 

3. cursing too much maybe.. ? 

4. asking dumb questions 

5. getting frustated at people...

5 favorite toys:

1. my computer

2. all my consoles ( i have too many hehe )

3. Motorcycle

4. pool/hot tub !? not sure if its a toy, but its an expensive toy.. and I play in it alot!! :D

5. cell phone

5 people to tag:

1. Tabi

2. Siems

3. Sarah

4. amanda

5. Britnee

Way to throw a kick ass party!! looks like everyone had fun!! i know I did :D  check out the pics :)

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Three names you go by:

1. mateus
2. matato
3. teus

Three screen names you have had:

1. mateuscb
2. mcbros

Three physical things you like about yourself:

1. My hair 
2. My smile
3. hmm... I like my tan now, even tho is gonna go away soon :(

Three physical things you dont like about yourself:

1. abs
2. arms
3. chest

Three parts of your heritage:

1. italian
2. mut

Three things that scare you:

1. poison
2. ignorant people
3. dispointing others

Three of your everyday essentials:

1. breakfeast 
2. water 
3. at least one email to cassey

Three of your favorite musical artists:

1. killers 
2. coldplay
3. black eyed peas

Three of your favorite songs:

1. toxic -  dancing
2. the scientist - sad 
3. somebody told me - anytime

Three things you want in a relationship: (Love should be a given!):

1. Trust 
2. Fun 
3. Stability

Three lies and three truths in no particular order:

1. I hate drinking water
2. Im afraid of ending up alone
3. I made out with a guy before
4. I like moving rocks 
5. Ive made lots of friends online 
6. I miss brasil

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:

1. Stomach
2. mouth
3. legs

Three of your favorite hobbies:

1. Pool
2. Bowling 
3. video games

Three things you want to do really badly now:

1. jump in the pool 
2. hold somebody
3. fix this dumb bug in my project 

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:

1. pilot 
2. marketing 
3. 3d artist

Three places you want to go on vacation:

1. brasil
2. asia
3. east coast

Three kids names you like:

1. elle
2. xavior
3. brea

Three things you want to do before you die [no particular order]:

1. retire 
2. sky dive 
3. walk all the way to brasil ( yeah, i know seems crazy.. thatd be a fun adventure tho)

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:

1. like to horse around, wrestle
2. play/watch sports 
3. dirty

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:

1. I wear victoria secret
2. I love pink
3. I like good smelly things, like.. vanilla.. hmmmmmm

Three celeb crushes:

1. selma hayek 
2. jessica alba 
3. adriana lima

It had been a while.... i missed doing these.. and this was a good one :D

1.What color is most reflective of you?
reflects me!? hahah.. uhm.. If I say pink it might come off kind of weird, but pink does stand out.. how about bright orange. It still stands out... but lil less girly :D

2. How did you get the idea for your profile name?
thats my name
3. What time were you born?
8:20 AM

3. What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing?
somebody told me, by the killers its a catch song!

4. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
No

5. What color underwear are you wearing?
white

6. Do you want a baby?
hmmm leaning more on the no...

7. What does your dad do for a living?
retired

This is what I like to call the ol' switch-a-roo! with a lil modifications... can you see whats new!? heheheh :D

ok finally had a lil break... here you go folks! enjoy :-D

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

BI entrace fee ( I dont have college ID, so I pay):  5 dollars.

A few beers to get the night started: 10 dollars.

A yummy blue shot (which we had a few of that nite): 5 dollars.

the look on everyones face after a few shot:  priceless!