Thanksgiving has come and gone once again ..and this year the feeling has lasted me into this week which is becoming a great memory-as you know I am a big girl ,aBBW,a built for comfort not speed kinda girl. What ever I have both been comfortable and have come to battle with the candy loving cake munching diva with-in she has grown and changed into many forms depending on who I needed to be to survive. Kind like the verse from the Abba song,"I've been to Paradise but I've never been to me...." that seemed to play in my mind these last few months , as I am making alot of changes in my life.I have issue's as we all do and growing stronger helps tear down walls that reveal the scary reality that sometimes blocks us in life.My friends are important to me both the real ones here and the ones I visit in myspace you guys help me more than you all know I peek in to your page for a smile-to hear your songs to see your moods and it makes me feel less alone sometimes.I want to thank you all for being there-consiously or not each one of you is like a mini vacation .We are all different but yet the same I wanted you all to know you are in my blessings and you matter to me-thank you for the smiles the bonding and the friendship.I know my picute is getting old I am stuck on the halloween pumkin I carved with my very good friends Denny & Marie it was a great time and I am not ready to let go ....lol that pumpkin has long been gone after being a fabulous snack for the local squirrels.I am working hard at weight watchers -not that I could'nt "work it as a big girl' but because my Dad had to have an emergency stint put in his heart a few months ago and that is an unfortunate road I do not wish for myself he is doing great he is a strong man but being so scared for him at the time was a wake up call for me.I have lost 30 pounds since making my commitment September21st- I am proud of mself and it is myspace visits  I turn to when  need to destress where before I snacked on the couch  and ate out of sheer anxiety.This holiday season may you all be blessed with peace and happiness.Thank You -all my love~Alison  aka Empress