while most people secretly worry that they'll never find a requited love,

i, on the other hand, sometimes wonder if i'll ever meet a person who i am even capable of loving to begin with. you see, i can't imagine myself feeling anything more for a man than an instinctual sexual attraction. this is mostly due to the fact that i do so much for myself (so much more than anyone else ever possibly could) that it's hard for me to see anything advantageous about being in a relationship, or furthermore, about being in love. 

and while most people ask themselves if they are good enough for others,

i, on the other hand, ask if others are good enough for me. i have never concerned myself too much with how i appeal to the opposite sex because there isn't an opinion out there that i put before my own. the only person who i ever ask if i'm cute enough or smart enough for is me. i only ever strive to impress myself. but do not misconstrue my way of thought! i am not arrogant at all, i am merely self validating. i have no delusions of self grandeur, i'm just confident that i've done the best with what i've been given. as nietzsche said, the trick to being happy is to desire nothing more than to be who you are and to accept yourself completely as you are. i love who i am, and all i'm trying to say is that i sometimes wonder if i will ever love someone as much as i love myself. 

i would be lying if i said i wasn't lonely.

but loneliness is so enlightening that it becomes enjoyable to a certain extent.