Right I really need to get this off of my chest, and no it's not my breasts, it's been playing with me for quite some time.

It's not a biased opinion so please don't take it as one whomever reads this, I am indeed a very open minded person of other's views and opinions and accept them as the Yin to my Yang, I also except those who have a straight forward opinion and think i'm just being childish, but that my dears is fine.

But when the words "Teenagers" and "love" are put almost hand in hand in a sentence it does make me chuckle and also annoys me quite a bit.

It's not the fact that I have a grudge or have had bad experiences throughout my few years of adolescence, far from it, you can also make your assumptions of:
1. I'm just jealous
2. I have no romantic drive
3. I'm a selfish bitch who needs to get a life rather than intrude on other's relationships.

However I would like to point out:

1. I'm not a person who suffers from jealousy and would not be interested in being in someone else's relationship.

2. I do have a romantic drive, and when in a relationship I can by all means be romantic.

3. I'm not selfish, I have a life however restricted it might be and I do not pry into other's love lives unless asked to do something for someone when they can't contact or talk to their lover or offer advice on a certain topic.

I just feel that teenagers shouldn't go 'starry eyed' or 'heart-shaped eyed' about a member of the same or other sex between the ages of 12-19, not the fact I feel it's weird or something but rather the confused hormones from the change during puberty make them express confused emotions or 'love' to others, leading them to feel 'heart-broken' when the relationship doesn't last for months (true some survive for years during adolescence but still you may not be with each other for the rest of your lives).

Honestly if you can't stand the 'torture' of being turned down after some time then focus on something else rather than boys/girls. Also when you think 'you'll die if you don't see them in the next hour even after you've just said goodbye to them' the words 'Dependency and Melodramatic' doesn't cross your mind, seriously you can live, eat, drink and breathe without having them be stuck to you like glue 24/7.

the phrase "I love you" Is Over-rated and Under-appreciated during your teens, in my opinion, and when told "I love you" makes me feel sick to my stomach at the moment because I am a teenager and can look past the obvious, hence why when I've been told "I love you" I can't say it back because I know that right now I don't mean it.

And yes, maybe you're saying to yourself "well she just hasn't found the right person to have a spark with" and this is true, I haven't, at least not yet but hey I don't have to say some teenage lad that 'I love him' this very second, I have the rest of my life to find that certain someone, I'd rather just experiment, pick up skills and enjoy my free time before I start my soul-seeker search for Mr. Right.

So yes thank you for reading my spur of the moment rant of mind and try not to think of me as a small minded person because of it.

 Lets set the mood: Mr Y and miss X are in a rather large park going halve-sy's on a bottle of wine (sadly not allocated within a brown paper bag) laughing merrily away whilst the alcoholic fumes of fermented grapes escape into the surrounding atmosphere.

The two sit somewhat semi-drunk in a park laughing and discussing random topics no sober man would dare dream of. After deciding to make their way around the intriguing area Mr Y suggests that they go on the children's swings on their return from exploration miss X turns to Mr Y, to the swings and back to Mr Y again before commenting that "If she sits on one of those child support swings they'll be waiting hours for her to get back out again."

 After this comment Mr Y begins to crack up in hysterical laughter, inbetween gasping breathes he goes "Pisss...!" on their journey around the scenic area they make a quick stop into a local pub for a quick bevvie and talk about how miss X's arse would get stuck in a kiddies swing with The band playing around her in a music video, what other things she could get stuck in did also arise in conversation.

But it was a memorable day indeed... *cough*GayMagazine*cough*

Friday Night was very amusing to say the least...

First of all Met up with Guy and the rest of [The Problem Being] and was their roadie for the night carrying around bags for their gig at The Peel.
(Got free entry as well for it, score!)

Next became part of the decor when I got covered in Glitter, and when I say covered I mean covered (might of had some in my knickers as well after the amount splashed on me.); Loved it though, sound check ran fine and dandy for both bands playing that night so everyone was good to go. Got stamped (on hand and chest- thanks Lee even though I would have preferred one on each breast).

Wore fluoresent nail varnish which I only figured out was fluoresent a few weeks ago so (ooo yay stayed under the black light for most of the night.) Tia and Lara's exchange pal then came which was good as I felt lonely whilst [The Problem Being] were getting ready; Tia was a party animal!

So yeah had 2 beers and felt like fuck after decided to take some videos and piccies of Guy and the rest of the band (Weakling. Even though I had more booze then that on wednesday) the sound system fucked up during their performance though (Bummer.) then started dancing once all gigs were finished and before the Cabaret act started, Fell on my arse after a while of dancing: which was alright public humiliation is something I live up to. Just went off for about 10minutes and then went back with a smile on my face.

Met Vivid Angel from Swetbox (A band my sister knows very well) and introduced myself to her after her 'Freak Show' act which I actually became interested in: Either due to being a pissed lightweight or the fact I'm a Little Sado Dominatrix deep down.

Stayed the night at Guy's house due to the fact he was too pissed to take my home and he had to go to Nottingham today so it would have taken ages for him to get back: Tried to sleep but couldn't actually however I eventually managed to get in like 2hours kip before waking him up at 9 in the morning. (Buckled on the stairs going down at the station in these bloody platform shoes and gave Guy a heart attack from it... One sentence: So Natural Of Lucy.)

Felt like death warmed up though so I looked and felt like shit throughout my journey home; Actually was so tired I fell over on my road in my tall goth shoes (my road being a flat surface): had some toast, went to bed (Ahhhh bed... Love that word) woke up, had a shower and complaining to myself that my throat feels like fuck. Still I had a smashing time giving the night an overall rating of 9/10.

It's Christmas time
There's no need to be afraid
At Christmas time, we live in clubs while muggers lurk in shade
And in our world of plenty we can spread a drunk smile of joy
Throw your arms around some weirdo at Christmas time

But say a prayer
Pray for the weaker ones
At Christmas time it's hard, but when you're having fun
There's a world outside the strobelights
And it's a world of dread and fear
Where the only fluid flowing is the bitter sting of sick
And the Police sirens that ring there
Are the clanging tunes of doom
Well tonight thank God it's them instead of you

And there won't be snow in London this Christmas time
The greatest gift we'll get this year is crime
(Oooh) Where nothing ever grows
Just rain and river flows
Do we know it's Christmas time at all

Here's to you buy a pint for everyone
Spare a thought this Yuletide for the deprived
If the table was turned would you survive
Here's to them underneath that neon sun
You ain't gotta feel guilt, just selfless
Give a little help to the homeless
Do we know it's Christmas time at all

Feed the girls, feed the girls, feed the girls
Feed the girls, feed the girls
Buy them a kebab and dance again