ARE YOU IN LOVE?

well how do you know?

some people say that if you question it then no you are not in love....but everyone needs clarity....a clear view of how things are and what possibilities lie ahead. So don't feel stressed if you are unsure....

There are actually stages that people go through.

First part:  "OMG" I met this amazing (f/m)!

of course we get excited when we meet someone new...who doesn't? you get to fantasize about things....or if you're like me rush in to it with a "I'm getting some ass tonight!" (not something to do with everyone...but sometimes its safe to have fun) either way the unfamiliarity of a person is very intriguing for a lot of people. This stage is more of a lust thing....specifically when there is a sexual interest. Lust is awesome....unfortunately it is also a confusing problem for newbies in the relationship world. What can be considered love by one person is maybe just an attraction by another.

So chances of getting your heart smashed to pieces a couple...or a hundred times before finding the right person is (for some) a highly likely chance.

So basically lust is something that can confuse you because you have a great desire to be with that person all the time...you can't bear being away from them.....and well the sex is something you reallllllly reallly look forward too....

i'm not saying that there are not people who love sex and are just glad to have found the right person to share it with.....but what you shold look at in this confusing stage is..."If we never had sex again....would I still care for this person as much as I do now?...or will I find myself...wanting to be with other people?

well let me clarify something. In my own relationship I considered those very things. And in the begining the sex was what interested me most..since i wasn't sure if I even wanted another relaitonship yet...but after taking it slow in the beggining getting to know one another and finding myself thinking of them constantly in a non-sexual way....things took a turn for the better and we fell in love. At first it was a "i love you" meant in the way of I care about you, and want to be there for you. Now its a "i love you and you're the person that I plan on spending the rest of my life with"

see theres a difference between loving someone and being in love.

when you love someone you care about them, you consider their feelings, show them compassion and patience...or at least try to.
 
when you are in love with someone...you do all that and consider a future with them. Not just a happy thought of "oooo geeez we could have kids someday! wouldn't that be great?" but more of the thought, "I would want this person to be the f/m of my children" or "I want to spend the rest of my life with this person"

they are slight differences, but differences none the less.

just remember...falling in love and loving someone comes first.

being in love comes second.

I wish the best for anyone who is venturing in to a new relationship...or who is in a relationship.

Remember without trust...you can't build a future.

And lies will only destroy it.

Its a sudden spasm of pain,

I feel it to the depths of my soul.

Its not physical just psychological.

A severance of a bond.

It was never meant to last.

It hurts when you know for sure.

That that day was the last.

no need to try to understand it. it only makes sense to me i’m sure.

What it cuts down to is a reality check. and finally losing someone.

love is only as great as you make it out to be...whether its the love for your lover or your friends.

in this case its the love for a friend.

that friend died. Not physically, just mentally...theres not even a fragment of the person they used to be, nothing left to hold on to.

everyone changes.

everything happens for a reason.

i accept her for who she has become now

All i can hope for is her happiness and safety.

And watch from the outside as she erradically moves on in life.

I'm bored so I thought I would vent a little. I'm bummed out, but o well i'll get better. I miss my buddies. You guyz rock. sometimes. lol jkjk.

So many different things go on here. Sacramento is a place of random shit. But I guess it gives people something to talk about.

I really can't wait for the weekend to roll around. It will be fun. well which weekend I'm talking about...it could be any. but I think this upcoming one is going to be entertaining. lol

O and buddies in posa. Let me know when it snows, and the water freezes up.

it will be soon. I can feel it in my 18 yr old bones. ..riiiight.

Oh and my loving kind friends, who like to use certain terms so loosely...well I'm still not any of those lol. maybe the h**** asian, but that is it. wanna know why?

well i'll tell you later. its cute. but i wouldn't ever do anything stupid. I've done that once. never again.

well enough of my typin. peace out people.

I wanted to do it.

I did it, I'm done.

I have no regrets, the moment is gone.

The past is the past.

In my memories it will last.

But I will never let it hold me back.

A lesson, an experience, a once only chance.

No 'could have', 'would have' or 'didn't.'

There is no use for wasting my time.

I will not regret my past.

I can reminisce.

Laugh, cry, and dismiss.

I know that I have lived life well.

And each day that I gain.

Is a day that will remain, a memory once it has past.

A smile, an escape.

A sound suffussing into the air around it.

Traveling quick, disturbing the silence.

Making a ripple through the air.

Light and cheery.

It is contagious.

The sound passes from throat to throat.

Transforming depending on how its disclosed.

A smile an escape.

What a funny course laughter makes.

 I want to share an honest, thought out opinion to all the people out there who think that they are not influenced in any way by any other person or thing in this world.

Trust can be broken, but unlike other breakable things,

Trust shatters.

It shatters into an irreversible mess,

Just to be swept up and thrown away.

Something that can meet unfathomable accomplishments,

Can be destroyed so easily,

Just by a simple lie.

A lie that slithers its way into the thoughts and opinions of its host

Wrapping around truth, squeezing tighter and tighter,

Crushing every ounce of this struggling Truth,

Until it dies and becomes the lie that it tried so hard to break free of.

Then this False truth hunts for the one victim,

That will cause the inevitable demise of its hostTrust.

False truth finds its victim and wraps around it, squeezing tighter and tighter,

But to no avail Trust stands strong.

False truth seeks out Trusts weaknesses

And succeeds

Trust can be broken, but unlike other breakable things

It shatters

It shatters into an irreversible mess

Just to be swept up and thrown away.

Think the youth of today are a bunch of good for nothing, arrogant little bastards that need a swift kick in the ass?

Well...who brought up the kids (insert 5 generations) that raised the little punks of today?

Take a look at the bigger picture.

Somewhere along the line kids decided that they would or wouldn't be like their parents.

Some of them created the laws that prevent people from disciplning their children in a way that is fit for their behavior. Maybe they had a shitty experience or know someone that did. But not EVERY parent is ABUSIVE when they discipline their kids.

Then someone wanted to require all children to have an education. Maybe they didn't get one or they thought that people weren't civilized enough.

Not a bad thing and really not negotiable since you usually have to own a highschool diploma or G.E.D to vouch for your worth.

Then you have to go to college to get certification that you are qualified for whatever job you're interested in...

Or you can go into the military, where they discipline you, like parents should be able to....

A veteran of vietnam once told me, "People don't realize that when you're fighting a war, making it out alive is your main goal. Not all of the people who were there wanted to serve their country, but they wanted to go home alive. Kill or be killed. That was the choice that we had."

I do believe in Peace, but that can only be obtained by Compromise, which in a world such as this one, isn't always the most available option.

People are putting so many laws and restrictions in to action, that doing things the old-fashioned or old school way has become more of a problem. ...ONLY BECAUSE THEY MADE IT A PROBLEM. ~ding~

Take a look at the last century. Look up what laws and acts were created in order to protect the people. See how it gets more strict? Do you see how more people start doing wrong (by law)...maybe it was all just to strengthen the justice system.

"For the people by the people"....yea right. WHAT PEOPLE ARE WE TALKING ABOUT HERE?

It's kind of like taking alcohol away from an alcoholic and telling them they can't do it because it isn't good for them.

THEY"RE GOING TO DIE ANYWAY WHY NOT LET IT BE FROM THE POISON OF THEIR CHOICE?

Just like ciggarettes,  They are bad for people but they smoke them anyway. Just because people frown on it doesn't mean that people aren't going to do it.

Of course there are laws that are great. Like don't drink and drive, not that they are abided by all the time, Let me see...yea thats the only one I got.

But in all honesty if people were allowed to beat the shit out of each other or if everyone carried a weapon (gun)...maybe knowing that the next person you meet could kill you just as easily as you could kill them would make you consider a kinder disposition.

also if someone tries to kidnap you or rob you...then you could shoot them in the ass.

but most likely you wouldn't have to worry about a robber or kidnapper...no one wants to get shot.

*******And personally, I feel that a person is going to die when they are fated to and it doesn't matter what precautions they or someone else takes. Its been that way since the begining of humankind. *******

            I can't believe very many people these days

 They like to chase you around,

 like how you chase around the words on this page

                                    Though so few are intelligent,                                                                                                                                                    the dim ones like to speak up

As if they have a right over the time we waste trying to ignore their conniving words

Ohh, agonies and pains I wish they would have

            Just shut there mouths

                        Silence

                                                Even the word is intriguing.

Ssssss IL Eeeeeee Nnnn Cccc Eeenssss

                                    S-il-ly non-se-nse only I can understand,

if I were to point it out to you

                                                                        It wouldn't remain intriguing.

Scatter or disperse

                                    Either way you are gone

Oh silence, ode to you

                                                                                    Never hurting my ears

Never a false wordor a truth

                                                            Just the thoughts in my head

            Swirled into a frenzy of diverse emotions

I have no issues with you

                                                                        Only when you break does my heart sadden

Back to the gushing bursts of profanity

                                                                        Back to the boring lectures that I wish not to hear

Why? WHY! Whydid you leave me

                                                            Here.