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RGENerationX & High Velocity Dec 13th

When:
Saturday, December 13, 2008

Where:
High Velocity
226 Atlantic City Blvd. (RT 9)
Beachwood
07921

Description:
You can now invite YOUR friends list to events you are attending!!!!! Click on the "invite more people" link at the top right of this event page and invite your friends too! this is a new feature from myspace

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From March 15 thru to the 31st I'll be out of the country. This being the case, don't be alarmed if I don't respond to messages, phone calls, ect. I'm not ignoring you nor will I hopefully be dead (thats pre airplane jitters talking). So yeah that being the case I'll get back to people once I'm back in the country. 

Haha, where to begin on talking about Rae's Birthday, I can't. So the next best thing is to check out some of the pics I posted cause that does a far better job of explaining everything...

Just to appease the ladies since I've been getting complaints that my user picture didn't have enough of my boobs cause theres been some recent fascination with them (why is the question) but alas I put up new pics, so enjoy them and if their not good enough tough...

So I've made my profile public again we'll see how it goes. Basically if I start get ridiculous amounts of activity again especially like in blog hits I'll be convinced that some people are continuing to stalk me. Like who reads my fucking blogs other than the five people who subscribe to it, it's horrible bedtime reading, and overall in general it is. But the end result is I can't live my life in fear of those who are out to hurt me, can't leave me alone, and whatnot. Yes its creepy as all hell to know there are people out there constantly watching me from behind drawn curtains but I really need to just live my life as though nothing is amiss, otherwise I will always be this paranoid, which is an issue that overtime has only gotten worse, sometimes I fear that it will eventually debilitate my ability to function properly in society. 

Right now I would like for copious amounts of dopamine to be released in my brain. I feel nothing as of right now, well nothing as much as is possible to not feel...hell I'd rather feel like a clusterfuck of emotions to a point that my heart it seems would explode. It's better than the concept of feeling nothingness...

Why the hell can't I get on a regular sleeping schedule. It's 3:28 in the morning and I'm no longer tired despite my having run around like the chicken with its head cut off all day...damn.