i hit 5000 profile visits... yay!

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my september, up 'til and including now... has probably been the best month ive had in a long long time.... soo many things have been going my way, and im not really sure i was expecting it. but thats ok, because im just really happy now.. my life seems to be coming together pretty well at the moment.. i have the love of this amazing girl... and i couldnt ask for anyone else... i started working again, so money is on the in-bound... rugby started up and i landed the Aside spot... not to mention along the way ive done some of the impossible... its going to be pretty hard to top this month... i mean,yea.. it HAS had its negatives :-.. ... but what month doesnt? all in all, im going to mark this month down as un beatable at the moment... ive been made into the happiest guys on the planet this month... and if i have a batter month later down the road, i will be completely blown away....

finally reached 3000 profile visits!!!! i suck at life

ok.. so this is why i think valentine's day is lame... why is it, that this ONE day of the year, you are supposed to do something special for your significant other? why is it that you need a holiday devoted to them? maybe its just me, but shouldnt you do something special for your significant other when you feel you should? cards dont just appear in stores.. they are there every day... why not, in june or something, do something special? you shouldnt need a holiday that sparks this type of thing.... if its truely from the heart, it will come whenever.. and multiple times a year... and speratically. valentine's day is just another example as to how corrupt society is... its retarted... seing comercials for CHOCOLATE in heart shapes.... dont you think candy companies make enough money on halloween and easter? card companies make plenty year round because of birthdays, mothers day, fathers day, and others... all im saying is... for Valentines day.. dont give into comercialism... i agree, if you do something.. it should be special... but dont limit yourself to this one day of the year to express your love... do so all the time... Valentine's day isnt about the chocolate... the flowers.. the stuffed teddy... the cards... its about your feelings... and it seems like people have forgotten that... it also seems that valentine's day really is just a day for businesses to make an extra buck... so yea.. im not saying its a bad day.. just saying valentine's day has changed in my opinion... and you shouldnt need a day to point out you should do something special....

aparantly i didnt make myself clear the last time... you want to talk about hypocracy? i can talk about hypocracy all day long about you... thats fucking pathetic and childish... and its almost not worth my time saying anything.. but i need to confront this. there are 2 of you in which i direct this blog towards... you damn know who you are. telling people that i am all nice to them, and then behind there backs i say shit? FUCK YOU... you want to talk about hypocracy, there it is.. RIGHT THERE... because you are nice to me when you bump into me... but as soon as im not there, you feel it ok to start saying shit.. well fuck you. i didnt say ANYTHING... you need to fucking understand the difference between TALKING SHIT... and VENTING. because there is BIG difference, and they seem to have a thin line between them.. its the same shit as in my previous blog about PC... its not what is said, but the context in which it is said... i may say something... but its in no way hostile...someone asked me if i stilled talked to you guys.. and i pointed out that i did not talk to one of you because ive lost respect for, i talk to the other one just about one common intrest. and that was that... i dont talk shit to anyone.. i have no one to talk it to anyway!!! and fuck both of you.. because one of you is nice to me all the time, but then go and talk more shit. i said it once, and ill say it again.. im glad im not associated with you, because you are assholes... and i do not want to be associated with assholes... you did it to a few others who used to hang out with us because you seem to be too imature to handle things... i saw it coming, so i got out, and i dont think you all liked that, too much. but dont go trying to spread more shit around, ive dropped it... MOVE ON. stop fucking crying over something that isnt relevant to you now.. i dont stick my nose in on your lives.. so what the fuck do you have against me now? i noticed you're trying to destroy the few friendships i walked away with.. does that make you feel tough? are you all macho now because you go around and try and ruin my life? its funny because you go around telling people that i am a hypocryt because i am nice to people to their face but then talk shit behind there back.. in doing so makes YOU a hypocrit as well.. which when you think about it, really doesnt do much for your argument... im aware that a blog isnt really concidered confronting.. even in the off chance you get around to reading this... and if youve noticed, ive kept all names and subjects nameless, allthough im sure some people know what this is about... but please do take note of that. all i have to say is, fuck you, and you can expect me at your house in the near future, because unlike you, im going to conront this with some balls and do it right.

people, people... SHUT THE FUCK UP... im sooo fed up with all this politically correct bullshit that has everyone's panties in a bunch. im not pointing fingers.. because every race, gender, species, whatever has made a comment along the lines of "that offends me" and for what? WOMEN are complaining that names such as: Snowman, classmen, and anything else ending in 'men' is offending because it neglects women... JEWS are getting offended when a christian mentions Christmas... Blacks are offended when you refer to them as black... its gotten to the point where you cant say ANYTHING without offending SOMEONE because people are SOO wrapped up in what some one SAID and not the CONTEXT of HOW they said it! our society needs to lighten the fuck up.. there are more important things going on in the world rather then sitting around complaining about who said what and how much it offends them... you realize there are people out there who dont know what freedom of speech is, right? because the rest of the world doesnt have that freedom.. SO LETS USE IT... theres a war going on out there.. that involse the US... AMERICANS ARE DIEING.. and they dont care if the person next to them is black, jewish, white, muslim, purple.. or a monkey... as long as they are an AMERICAN.... people are starving out there... oh.. and heres one.. GLOBAL FUCKING WARMING... stick your head outside tomorrow.. notice its going to be like 45 degrees... LOOK AT THE CALENDER!! ITS JANUARY... jesus christ... if we cared about what people were doing to our enviroment HALF as much as we cared what people were SAYING... MAYBE we wouldnt be fucking our planet up. GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASSES, GROW SOME BALLS, TAKE A JOKE... AND MOVE THE FUCK ON...notice its not the words some one speaks.. but the context in which they speak it... im far from racist...I SHOULDNT EVEN HAVE TO POINT OUT THAT IM NOT>> BUT BECAUSE OF SOCIETY I HAVE TO... but if my black friend and i are fooling around... and he calls me a cracker.. whitey.. whatever.. and i call him a nigger in return.. and some one over hears me... im concidered a racist.. because someone didnt understand the context in which i spoke... this politically correctness needs to stop.. its gotten WAY out of hand... spread the word...

i was just curious as to whats wrong with me... could some one answer? my physical traits... my personality... what about me makes me lonely? what about me is so bad? obviously theres something... i just dont know what... im sick of being called "the nicest guy" or "the greatest" or "the sweetest" or "awesome" because its bullshit... its bullshit because the nicest, greatest sweetest awesome guy shouldnt be alone.. he shouldnt be avoided by people who come up with excuse after excuse not to talk to him.. or hang out... i hate how people are so fake... and its just getting to me.. so can you PLEASE take a break from being fake.. and tell me straight up.. whats wrong with me? and its not like i dont try... i constantly throw myself out there and express my feelings... and get fucked over in the process... whether its a broken heart, or loss of a friend... or something.. people cant seem to stay around me... i dont know what i do wrong... i dont know what happens...but im obviously not what everyone says i am.. and im sick of hearing bullshit... i sent 5 random messages to 5 random girls... i expected some of them wouldnt respond... but all of them?!?!?! makes me think its something physically wrong with me.... whatever it is, please let me know... because this is just pissing me off that no one can be straight with me and just tell me... i can handle whatever you have to say.... and in the mean time... cliche compliments are going to do shit to cheer me up.. the only thing that is going to make me happy at the moment is 100% non bullshit... i want the truth and i wont be happy until i get it... so please just grow some balls and tell me.... thats if anyone reads this anyway... which i have my doubts...

did you ever wonder "if i were to die right now... who would be at my funeral?" ive been wondering that a lot lately... i kinda made up my own quote.. that goes: "a deadman knows no lies" it sounds familiar, so maybe i heard it somewhere and am just repeating it... but not sure... anyway, what i mean by that is, no one bullshits to a dead person...if they care, they go to their funeral... i just wanna know what people would say at my funeral... i wanna know who would be there... and i think about people ive met online... how the hell would they know? if they care that is.... or my friends who moved to texas... or anyone. it just feels as though no one cares anymore... a lot of "oh yea, im gonna call you this weekend to chill" but they dont... i dont really feel like going into all the details of why i think all this.. just want to state it as it is...whatever, though. ive taken that as a sign to get off my ass, now... im trying to get 2 or 3 jobs and just work... since i dont do anything on my weekends anyway except for sundays... i might as well get out there and make some more money... screw this sitting at home shit on the weekends...you know what? whatever...

Would you? Will you? [_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _ [_] kiss me? [_] let me kiss you? [_] watch a movie with me? [_] take me out to dinner? [_] let me drive you somewhere [_] buy me a drink? [_] take me home for the night? [_] Sing car karaoke w/ me? [_] re-post this for me to answer your questions? [_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? [_] let me make you breakfast? [_] help me with homework? [_] tickle me? [_] let me tickle you? [_] stick up for me if i was being put down? [_] get wasted with me? [_] instant message me? [_] greet me in public? [_] hang out with me? [_] bring me around your friends? [_] cuddle with me D0 Y0U... [_] think im cute? [_] think im pretty? [_] want to kiss me? [_] want to cuddle with me? [_] want to hook up with me? AM i... [_] smart? [_] cute? [_] funny? [_] cool? [_] loveable? [_] adorable? [_] sexy? [_] compassionate? [_] great to be with? [_] attractive? [_] mean? [_] a tease? HAVE Y0U EVER... [_] thought about hooking up with me? [_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me? [_] wished I were there? [_] had a crush on me? [_] wanted my number? [_] had a dream about me? [_] been distracted by me? ARE Y0U... [_] happy you know me? [_] mad at me? [_] thinking about me? [_] going to repost

im getting really tired of people spreading shit around... its FUCKING CHILDISH... if in fact, you have a problem with me.. any member of my family.. or my friends (the few i have left) by all means... TELL IT TO MY FACE... BRING IT TO ME... IM TIRED of finding shit out through some one who heard something... this is bullshit... TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK YOU NEED TO SAY... EVEN THIS SHIT thats none of your business in the first place.. FUCKING TELL ME... cause if it isnt your business... thne 9 and a half times out of 10 its none of the people who you tell's business.... AND GET THE FULL STORY BEFORE YOU SPREAD MORE SHIT... IF YOU HAVNT TALKED TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING THEN YOU DONT HAVE THE WHOLE FUCKING STORY... IM TIRED OF ALL THIS HALF-ASSED SHIT GETTING SPREAD AROUND... or are you too pathetic to tell people the truth? so you spread your own propaganda to make it so im the bad guy in all this... thats pathetic... If you want to be a decent person for once, why not let the "public" since you seem to want to drag into this shit to the public eye... COME TO THEIR OWN CONCLUSTIONS... HAVE you noticed that you havnt heard shit from myside? thats cause im not SPREADING THINGS AROUND... people have asked me.. i express my disliking... and thats it.. i dont tell people whats going on.. THIS IS NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS... i was willing to just drop this shit.. i was willing to let some of your shit slide... but now, im not sure im willing... i give you one more fucking time to DROP THIS SHIT... i dont care what happened.. i care about whats gonna happen... DROP THIS SHIT.. and if you cant.. bring it to me and bitch me out.. by all means.. you wanna talk shit about me among yourselves... fine... but STOP FUCKING TALKING SHIT TO OTHER PEOPLE... thats the most pathetic thing you can do...