I apologize for...

1. Not knowing when to shut my mouth

2. Not caring about others feelings

3. Being a stubborn Jackass

4. Not controllign myself

5. Being dumb

6. Being stupid

7. Being completly ignorant

8. Not being a good friend

9. For being an all-around terrible person

Now let me tell you about me...

I am a streight-forward person. I don't spend tiem reading signs. If something is wrong with you, tell me. I get streight to the point. No beating around the bush or playing with my words.

I am understanding, even if you are with me or against me. I take into account what you say so that I can get a correct judgement or the situation. If I am wrong, then I accept that I am wrong and just let it go.

I am not a person to hold grudges either. I'll be mad for a couple of minuts, maybe even hours. But the next day I forget all about it and move on. Holding grudges does nothing but make you miserable and make life hard, so I like to just forgive and forget.

I am generally a nice person. I don't let the little things make me mad. I can find humor in the worst of situations to relieve the stress. Sometimes I get mad and frusterated, but I let NOTHING keep me down. I am always looking at the positives of a situation to keep myself up and going.

I AM a very intelligent person. I think I hide it because when I was in Elementary school I was teased about it, so that may have affected me psychologically. But I know I am intelligent. I think about the most complex of problems to solve them and move on. I love thinking to get things done. It fills me with a sense of accomplishment.

I think the reason I am so cocky is that, to get by sanely in school, I would just tell myself I am better that the people who picled with me because they only picked with me to make them feel better. WRONG IDEA. I just need someone who understands me

I hope this explains alot. If you acually tried to get to know me, not just what you see at first glance, you'll see I am a wonderful person who is a great person to know. I dont like to get fresh or get in arguments.  I hate them. I have heard enough yelling in my life. I am generally kind and caring about EVERYONE, no matter how much they hurt me.

I know this seems cliche, but I had to go into detail about this. I also understand that my friends will probably read this and say to themselves "yeah same old shit. It'll happen again soon." and I do not blame them. I just had to express myself.

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nigga  ---

(ethnic slur) extremely offensive name for a Black person; "only a Black can call another Black a nigga" [syn: nigger]    So what is the difference? Black people being lazy enough to not say the "er" in "nigger" makes it alright for us to say it? NO. It is still a derogatory term that derived from an even worse term. But becasue we are black makes it alright to say it. It isnt right. It is a wrong word to use. How can you even think being called a "nigga" is a complement? Oh, but when you say it, you are calling that person ignorant. Yeah, you keep telling yourself that. When we use that word, we are degrading ourselves for no reason. If we use the word it won't offend us? But if a white person says it, we kick their ass? What we are thinking isnt logical at all. It makes no sense. Either way we are belittling ourselves, and that is even worse because that shows others how much we care about ourselves, what we think of ourselves. Dang. When are we goign to learn that that word NEEDS to be killed. Done with forever. When we learn not to use that word, we will have taken another step towards finally being completely accepted in this harsh world.

Certain Styles

Certain Flairs

Cartain Ways

Certain Airs

These are the conformity of life.

But my way is full of dreams.

And asperations to be all that I can be.

We all have our own personal schemes.

Things that we want to be but cannot see.

I go out to make my dreams a reality.

If I want to box, I'm going to box.

I want to build, I'll build a clock.

I want to create, I'll create a monument.

Nothing is written in cement.

So go out there and become what you want.

So when you're old...

You can look at you kids...

and you grandkids...

and proudly say...

I FULFILLED MY DREAMS.

Don't be fooled by my loud exterior, my obnoxious laugh or my big cheeks.

I can show you the romance.

Take a look at my loving interior. My unigue path, my heartbeat.

I can show you the romance.

I can take you to another world. Full of love, full of care.

I can show you the romance.

And when it's all done, you'll know I'm the one.

Because I can show you the romance.

Here's to being ignored.

Here's to be rejected.

Here's to no one paying attention to me.

Here's to feeling useless.

Here's to being in no one thoughts.

Here's to the name calling, laughing and taunting i'll have to endure.

Here's to being alone for the rest of my life.

The new year isnt a new beginning, its a continuation of what u have now. So your new year's resoulution is pointless, because you'll never live up to it. People don't change who they are. It's just fact. So don't celebrate the new year, because if you are miserable new year's eve...you'll be miserable on new years day. You dont go through a warp or w/e. Its just the next day. We just start the months over again. We don't get to change what we've done or how we were treated. Time doesnt start over. Just get over it.

I had just got off of work today. I am standing outside my job waiting for my dad to pick me up. Unbeknownst to me, the CVS next to my job was just robbed. So I am tlkin to my cuz while I am waiting and the cops ride up and look at me. I didnt know what was going on so I waved back. They park in fornt of me and asked me "what are you doing out here? Where are you coming from? Who are you talking to? Do you have any I.D.? So I tel them "I'm waiting for my dad. I just got off from working in this building behind me. I am talking to my cousin. and I dont have any work I.D. cuz I have just started but I do have my School I.D." So they check it out then frisk me down. Then they tell me that the CVS next door was robbed. I bet they wouldve taken me in if 1. my dad didnt pull up. and 2. My supervisors had walked out and confirmed that I just walked out. Man that was crazy. But I wasnt scared. There was no reaosn to be. I was just a Young man trying to make a living. Oh well. What ya gonna do?

In time order: My friends got his DS taken by the Vice Principal, there was another Racial fight at school (blacks and russians), I had to go from 1pm til midnight w/o eating cuz I was helping my cuz and unc move after school, we got caught in that rainfall at 1030 last night, i hit my hit hard on the U-haul truck, got soak, and I was tired as crap when it was all over only to have to come home and get yelled at by my mom and sis. But you know what? I still had fun. Even from all of that bad stuff. But manyesterday was very trying