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Gender: Male
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Age: 46
Sign: Sagittarius

City: BUENA PARK
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 3/24/2006

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Saturday, February 28, 2009 

Current mood:  determined
I can't believe I forgot to post this yesterday...




I’ve got a confession to make.  I’m tired of saying how much I miss Bill Hicks. I’m tired of saying I wish he’d been here to comment on Clinton/Bush shenanigans.  I’m tired of me and other people trying to imagine what he would have said about Katrina, Gitmo, Iraq II: Electric Boogaloo, etc. He’s not here; he’s not going to be here. He’s gone—gone fifteen years now. We need to deal with that.


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Would Jesus Christ be any more remembered if he’d lived threescore and ten? Or Martin Luther King? The latter said, in his final speech to the world, that “longevity has its place.” But some aren’t built for the long haul. Or, rather more accurately, some come here to learn what they need to learn, grok in fullness, tell the world and leave for the next place. We’re the slow learners in that scenario. And Bill was one of our best teachers.


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He was one of the best because he could bring spirituality into a place where it was never meant to be: a nightclub. Sure, he made jokes about stupid wars, Presidents and kids who shot their faces off because they thought a Judas Priest song told them to, but it was all to point us away from those evolutionary dead ends and towards our true purpose as beings of mind, body and spirit. “It’s just a ride,” he kept insisting.


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Sure, it all seems real: the unjust wars, the rollercoaster economy, the wondering what new horrors will thrust themselves in front of us as we rub sleepdust from our eyes. But in the final analysis—as both spiritual and quantum physics texts agree—it is all samsara, all illusion. Convincing to be sure, but we’re all pretty good magicians when it comes to fooling ourselves.


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That’s really why Bill was dangerous: he really wanted us to squeegee our third eyes so we would see the veils of so-called reality lifted and thus glimpse the true reality of existence, and thus discern our true purpose as “the pure and holy children of God.” Bill was a preacher in a nightclub, with a cigarette in one hand and a shotgun (in earlier days, a shotglass) in the other. He warned us not to mistake the appearance of reality for reality, and reminded us of what Nietszche said: “We are all greater artists than we realize.”


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We still need Bill’s words, because not all of us realize that it’s just a ride, and even those of us who do can still get caught up in the drama.  But we don’t need Bill in the flesh, just as we don’t need an octogenarian Dr. King. We have the words. All we have to do is have the courage and insight to see where they lead us, and act on it. Just keep telling yourself: it’s only a ride.


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Monday, February 02, 2009 

Current mood:feisty
from http://www.theagitator.com:
Dear America,
I take it back. I don’t apologize.
Because you know what? It’s none of your goddamned business. I work my ass off 10 months per year. It’s that hard work that gave you all those gooey feelings of patriotism last summer. If during my brief window of down time I want to relax, enjoy myself, and partake of a substance that’s a hell of a lot less bad for me than alcohol, tobacco, or, frankly, most of the prescription drugs most of you are taking, well, you can spare me the lecture.
I put myself through hell. I make my body do things nature never really intended us to endure. All world-class athletes do. We do it because you love to watch us push ourselves as far as we can possibly go. Some of us get hurt. Sometimes permanently. You’re watching the Super Bowl tonight. You’re watching 300 pound men smash each while running at full speed, in full pads. You know what the average life expectancy of an NFL player is? Fifty-five. That’s about 20 years shorter than your average non-NFL player. Yet you watch. And cheer. And you jump up spill your beer when a linebacker lays out a wide receiver on a crossing route across the middle. The harder he gets hit, the louder and more enthusiastically you scream.
Yet you all get bent out of shape when Ricky Williams, or I, or Josh Howard smoke a little dope to relax. Why? Because the idiots you’ve elected to make your laws have have without a shred of evidence beat it into your head that smoking marijuana is something akin to drinking antifreeze, and done only by dirty hippies and sex offenders.
You’ll have to pardon my cynicism. But I call bullshit. You don’t give a damn about my health. You just get a voyeuristic thrill from watching an elite athlete fall from grace–all the better if you get to exercise a little moral righteousness in the process. And it’s hypocritical righteousness at that, given that 40 percent of you have tried pot at least once in your lives.
Here’s a crazy thought: If I can smoke a little dope and go on to win 14 Olympic gold medals, maybe pot smokers aren’t doomed to lives of couch surfing and video games, as our moronic government would have us believe. In fact, the list of successful pot smokers includes not just world class athletes like me, Howard, Williams, and others, it includes Nobel Prize winners, Pulitzer Prize winners, the last three U.S. presidents, several Supreme Court justices, and luminaries and success stories from all sectors of business and the arts, sciences, and humanities.
So go ahead. Ban me from the next Olympics. Yank my endorsement deals. Stick your collective noses in the air and get all indignant on me. While you’re at it, keep arresting cancer and AIDS patients who dare to smoke the stuff because it deadens their pain, or enables them to eat. Keep sending in goon squads to kick down doors and shoot little old ladies, maim innocent toddlers, handcuff elderly post-polio patients to their beds at gunpoint, and slaughter the family pet.
Tell you what. I’ll make you a deal. I’ll apologize for smoking pot when every politician who ever did drugs and then voted to uphold or strengthen the drug laws marches his ass off to the nearest federal prison to serve out the sentence he wants to impose on everyone else for committing the same crimes he committed. I’ll apologize when the sons, daughters, and nephews of powerful politicians who get caught possessing or dealing drugs in the frat house or prep school get the same treatment as the no-name, probably black kid caught on the corner or the front stoop doing the same thing.
Until then, I for one will have none of it. I smoked pot. I liked it. I’ll probably do it again. I refuse to apologize for it, because by apologizing I help perpetuate this stupid lie, this idea that what someone puts into his own body on his own time is any of the government’s damned business. Or any of yours. I’m not going to bend over and allow myself to be propaganda for this wasteful, ridiculous, immoral war.
Go ahead and tear me down if you like. But let’s see you rationalize in your next lame ONDCP commercial how the greatest motherfucking swimmer the world has ever seen . . . is also a proud pot smoker.
Yours,
Michael Phelps..
Friday, January 30, 2009 

Current mood:  sad

“They say that half the lies he tells you are not true….” – “Glorious Fool”


And now, as of Thursday, John Martyn is gone. And the bottle’s practically down to the lees.


Too many of you reading this won’t know who he was. That makes me mad and very sad. Probably more of the latter than the former, but who cares? John was just one of those quietly brilliant songwriters you never hear enough about, like Elliott Murphy or Duncan Browne or Peter Hammill, who can pull on your heart strings with the delicacy of a weaver.



 

Even with friends like Phil Collins and Eric Clapton helping out on his albums and covering his tunes, people still don’t know the name. They don’t know tunes like “Solid Air,” the quiet elegy he wrote for Nick Drake, or “Grace and Danger,” or “Glorious Fool” (his backhanded tribute to Ronald Reagan) and his scintillant rendition of the old folk song “Spencer the Rover,” just him on acoustic guitar and vocals and the great Danny Thompson on acoustic bass. They also don’t know his playful side, his cover of “Big Muff” and “the man who taught you how to dance,” aka the “Perfect Hustler.”



 

It had been known for years that John wasn’t well. You know, being on the road and the toll that exacts. Having to have a leg removed a few years back didn’t help either. Once I heard that, I knew there was no chance of him ever playing in the US and thus virtually no chance I’d ever see him perform live. Another regret to add to the list.


Well, maybe more people will hear him now. That’s the real bitch about being in this business: you’ll probably be more popular after you kick off. Just ask Van Gogh or Bill Hicks or Jimi Hendrix about that. At least his kids and Beverly will see some money from any future sales of his albums. I think they call that saving grace.



 

Oh, by the way he wrote a song about John Wayne. Maybe some radio station somewhere could throw that on. Maybe even one here in Californa, if the irony in his voice isn’t too much to take.



 

God bless ye, John. "Sit you down, father, rest you...."

Thursday, January 22, 2009 

Current mood:psyched
From billhicks.com:
"The Late Show with David Letterman" has scheduled a telecast of the never-aired October 1, 1993 Bill Hicks appearance. The program it will be shown on is currently set for taping in New York City on Monday, January 26th for airing Friday, January 30th on your local CBS affiliate. We'd like to acknowledge and thank Bill's many fans and everyone who has had a hand in keeping Bill's comedy and philosophy alive. We hope everyone can tune in and experience what you may have missed or what you may barely remember – Bill Hicks performing for a national audience on network television.

YOW! I can hardly wait!
Thursday, January 15, 2009 

Current mood:  drunk

Patrick McGoohan (1928-2009)


            Patrick McGoohan taught me how to think. He taught me how to question. He taught me there are no easy answers. He taught me that defiance married to intelligence, while it might not always win out, was far, far better than conformity married to ignorance. And the most amazing thing is that he did it through a TV show.

            When The Prisoner debuted on American television in 1968, as a summer replacement for The Jackie Gleason Show, I can only imagine the stunned reactions of viewers, especially when confronted with the two-part series finale, which offered no pat answers and no wrap-ups of any loose threads. It was a Chinese puzzle-box, complete with pop culture images and Beatles music, whose depths--soaked in allegory and metaphor--could never be fully plumbed.


            One of my earliest memories is of this show: a vague, shadowy image of the menacing watchdog of The Village, known as Rover, as it corners and smothers a victim. I remember having nightmares afterwards and, many years later, seeing the show as an adult, having a chill run down my spin every time Rover appeared on screen. It was the embodiment of George Washington’s famous quote about government: “(It) is not reason, it is not eloquence — it is force! Like fire, it is a dangerous servant and a fearful master. Never for a moment should it be left to irresponsible action.”


            As with my other TV hero, Bugs Bunny, I pepper my thoughts and essays with quotes from this most wonderful and influential show: “I will not be pushed, filed, stamped, indexed, briefed, debriefed or numbered!” “My life is my own.” And, of course, the most famous one from the show’s opening credits: “I AM NOT A NUMBER! I AM A FREE MAN!”



            As far back as the 1960’s, McGoohan saw how multi-dimensional man was becoming, in Herbert Marcuse’s apt title, one-dimensional man. A point on a graph. A datum on a spreadsheet. A face in the crowd. No more important or meaningful than a grain of sand, and perhaps less. In making THE PRISONER, McGoohan, to quote a famous World War II general, said “Nuts!”  God love him for it. And yes, God love Sir Lew Grade for putting up the money even though he didn’t understand the show’s premise. Would that more studio heads had such faith in creators...


            So, we say Goodbye to Patrick McGoohan. I personally will raise a glass to him and wish, in the words of the old Irish blessing, that he be in Heaven half-an-hour before the Devil knows he’s dead. God rest ye, sir.

Thursday, January 08, 2009 

Current mood:  bummed

A rock god is dead, but you can still hear the echoes from his amp. Ron Asheton died last weekend at his home in Ann Arbor. So far, all that is being said is that death was apparently due to that boilerplate term "natural causes," although there is speculation that it was a heart attack. Whatever the cause, radio stations all over the world are playing Stooges music. Practically every Stooges video on YouTube has noted Ron's passing.

Unless you know the history of punk rock, you can't know how important The Stooges were. In an era of hippies and flowers and free love, Iggy, Ron, Scott Asheton and Dave Alexander were snarling, sullen, smartass punks who had their amps as loud as possible and songs about unhappiness, anger and other teenage emotions not buried under pot or acid. The Stooges didn't want to hear about the new world—they knew it wasn't there, that it was much a sham as the straight world. They wanted liberation—on their terms.

Ron was critical to the band's sound. On the first two albums, THE STOOGES and FUNHOUSE, his guitar is raw and menacing--the perfect complement to Iggy's lyrics. It demands your attention; you can't be in the same room with that sound and ignore it. When RAW POWER was being recorded, Ron ceded guitar duties to the equally talented James Williamson and switched to bass. In the process, he and his brother Scott (aka Rock Action) became one of the most powerful rhythm sections in rock. If Iggy was having an off night, Ron and Scott could push him into a frenzy, a Dionysian state in which he might cut himself, contort himself, throw himself into the audience—anything to express the energy inside.


The Stooges imploded after that album, due to internal strife and burnout on Iggy's part. When they reunited in early 2003, the energy was still there, waiting to be tapped. Finally, people like me who missed the Stooges the first time around found out what the excitement was all about. I was lucky enough to see them play at a daylong festival in New York City in 2004, with Mike Watt on bass and Steve MacKay on saxophone. I remember people seemed to be saving their energy for the Stooges, knowing they'd need every erg of it. I remember this guy—he was about 4 feet tall—dancing madly, and me with him, thrusting our bodies in crazy directions, whirling like dervishes. It was an hour I wouldn't trade for anything in Paradise.

I'm happier than words that Ron lived to be part of that reunion, lived to receive his due as a true punk pioneer. Anytime a guitarist plugs a fuzzbox into his amp and turns the gain to full, Ron will be there in spirit. Even now, I can feel the feedback raising the hair on my arms, tingling in my fingers. What the mind perceives, the body channels into motion, into passion, into—no other words will suffice—rock action.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008 

Current mood:  pissed off

*Answers come to them more readily than to real cops—much too easily.


*Their smugness sets my teeth on edge.  They're so sure they're right, unlike real cops, who are full of doubts: Did I get the right perp? Or was I in such a rush to judgment that I overlooked evidence that might disprove my conclusion (i.e., selective inattention)? I wish TV detectives were more like Petrovitch in Crime and Punishment or O'Rourke in Henry Miller's Rosy Crucifixion trilogy and much, much less smug.  To paraphrase Colin Wilson, "I wish I was as sure of anything as (fill in the blank) is about everything."

*Attitude towards perps is uniformly (pun intended) superior and condescending. (Well, it seems they got that right.)

*We rarely get to see them as human beings, mostly as tools of the state. (One of the things I loved about Homicide: Life on the Streets was how real the characters were:  full of doubts, sometimes tormented by guilt, willing to be right even if it cost them—emotionally and/or professionally. I especially treasured the bar scenes, where you really got to hear their thoughts and feelings with less editing.)

*In an increasingly fascistic society--and even under Obama that won't change much, at least not soon--deifying police is especially dangerous. As Orson Welles wrote in his script for Touch of Evil, "A policeman's job is only easy in a police state." That is as it should be. (Please note that that line was spoken by later-NRA spokesman and Second Amendment defender Charlton Heston. Heston, as an A-list star, could have used his influence with the studio to soften or eliminate that line. He didn't.)

*There are too damn many of them. Also, there are too damn many doctor shows (although at least some of them show real doctors dealing with real patients.)

*I think—based on my experience and research—that most cops are either on the take, ex-jocks/military with an itch to beat on those less fortunate, or just in it for the money and benefits. Too few Serpicos, too damn many fill-in-the-blanks. 

The good news is that the images of cops solving crimes and protecting citizens on TV are being countered with numerous, widely-circulated vids of cops attacking and shooting unarmed suspects, dogs and anyone else they don't like.  In other words, lots of folks ain't going for the okey-doke anymore. They're echoing the words of NWA: "FUCK. DA. PO. LICE."

Monday, December 22, 2008 

Current mood:  cooky/wacky

            One of the things that's always disturbed me about Christian doctrine is its continual references to humans as sheep or slaves ("Ye were bought at a price," "shepherd tending his flock," etc.).  Humans may not be the brightest creatures on the planet or the universe, but we're not as dim as sheep and—as one of the Pythons once remarked—"sheep are very dim." It would seem that God is, amongst other things rather patronizing, a flaw that would reduce his impact amongst potential believers. You'd think he would know better how to appeal to Humankind's better nature than to call us stupid or slavish.

            I was puzzling over this while watching Craig Ferguson's show and hearing his nth reference to his audience as "my cheeky monkeys." That set a train of thought off on my mental tracks: humans and chimpanzees have 98-99 percent of their DNA in common; it would be much more apt to compare humans to monkeys than to sheep; ergo, Craig Ferguson is God. We are his cheeky monkeys, and he is a loving God who only wants us to laugh, love and—if we choose—smoke herbal cigarettes. Q.E.D.

 

Go in peace, my friends. And Craig bless you.

 

 

Saturday, December 20, 2008 

Current mood:  lazy
Saturday, December 20, 2008 

Current mood:  catalyzed
been wearing the same clothes for three days
the privilege of the invalid
finally caught up on sleep
(though scientists say you can't)
now I'm back w/ energy & passion
been running low on both for months
 
here's a thing poets know:
you leave someone alone for three days
w/out having to go to work,
pay bills, answer phone,
or listen to anyone
and s/he could turn this world on its ear.
that's why telemarketers
that's why bill collectors,
neighbors, delivery trucks,
construction, mothers-in-law.
they fear the earth-shaking
silence in the soul.