fear and desire~ afraid of exposing too much, but wanting someone to console and understand. 

pride and vulnerability~ too stubborn to accept handouts yet needing the constant reinforcement to make up for what is lacking.

tired and restless~ when motivation has diminished, emotions are drained and physical stamina is at a record low, insomnia will prevail.

forgiveness and remorse~ accepting life's lessons and moving on from mistakes,  but holding on to the memory that keeps the pain alive.

comforting and distant~ offering open arms to anyone in need and shying away when personally wounded

strength and addiction~ depending on a substance or human to aid in mental stability or personal growth.

love and pain~ no explanation needed here

does it ever end or will we continue to compromise our happiness at the cost of the human ego, God forbid.

Sometimes my conscience has a british or french accent... does that happen to anyone else?

anyone who has tried quitting smoking.. cold turkey., does it EVER get easier??? 2 days, and im about to put a fork in my eye.  I hate addiction. 

sometimes, when Im feelin weak.. and I feel like Im about to jump off the second story of my building, ill find a cigg and talk shit to it.... is that wierd? Ill tell it that its a dirty little asshole, and that its a weak little bitch. then ill spit on it.... and call it a whore.

god i love nicotine