http://blog.mattalgren.com/2009/09/hospital-forces-lesbian-to-die-alone/

What in the world gives any State Judge the right to go against the 14th Amendment like this and discriminate anyone from the LGBT Group by just turning the other cheek and disregarding all moral signs to life and love? It's ridiculous and I hate these kind of things. It's heartbreaking and it makes me want to move to a state that supports the LGBT Group with no questions ask. So Massachusetts, Vermont, Connecticut or Iowa HERE I COME!

It seems the North has more morals than the South, go them!

And Screw you Southerners! SCREW YOU!

A Love that knows no bounds, I love that knows no evil, a love that cannot hate, A love of old from the past, a love of blue within nature, a love that is borrowed from friends, a love of new to overcome even the toughest obstacles to come. This is a powerful love, this is a powerful heart that can love even in death. To Love or To Love, there is no question to it.

A powerful heart can withstand even the most ignorant thoughts, it will forever bloom in the language of flowers. True enlightenment is accepting the odds, the downs, the negativity of others, and welcoming the peace, the grace, and the truthful comings of the world. The mind is feeble and close-minded leaving many scars of ignorance and opinions that keeps it from growing and maturing. It will forever wither away and die long before the heart begins to stop beating. Even those who have achieved enlightenment are still as mortal as those who haven't, leaving them simply human like the rest of us.  Human is not a state of being or identity but a state of mind. We are only human because we consume the sins of ourselves and leave ourselves blinded by the world and close-minded to the possibilities that life has to offer us. Without a true open-mind and an welcoming heart, the body cannot function properly without a balance between the two. With balance, love, wisdom, sense of calm, peace and truth, the life of any vessel cannot function properly within this world and without any aspect of these six qualities the life will forever rot within the Earth, only to replenish the new and never live on without a source of purpose. A powerful heart is the source while the mind is its corrective reasoning and guide to the vessels limited actions. However, a soul clinging to both the source and the guide, will follow one or the other, and sometimes both, but never at the same time.

Enlightenment, in theory, is in the eye of the beholder but always corrected by the master. It will forever be judged and misinterpreted by a higher being or source, one of which remains on Earth known as the one who has already reached Enlightenment once before and whether or not he stayed true to his guides, his source will forever be lost and forgotten of what he as an individual and human truly wants.

Enlightenment is in the eye of the bolder, guided within the hands of its master, and followed through from the source. In simple context, follow your own path to enlightenment, don't be guided by anything but the source of your heart, do not follow anything you do not believe in and make yourself happy amongst your own wishes and your own follows of how you see life, the universe and everything. A true enlightened person would know that a human's limitations is what makes them unique and what makes them mortal, anything within a higher expectation would simply be asking for immortality down a pathway of misguided interpretations and unhappy travels. Love knows the path the heart must take, follow its path and life will have its own rewards.

Lyrics to Falling Down :
Uh-oh

You walk and talk
Like you're some new sensation
You move in circles
You don't need an invitation
You spend your money
You can't get no satisfaction
You play it right so you can get the right reaction

It won't be long, my darling
Pick up the phone, nobody's on it
Where are your friends now, baby?
How's anyone suppose to be there for

You (you)
And you're falling down
The world starts spinning out
You (you)
And you're falling down
Now it's not all about
You (you)
And you're falling down
You know I'll be around
When you're falling down, falling down

What's out of place when you look into the mirror?
The truth is blurry but the lies are getting clearer
Your eyes are fixed, your smile is so elastic
You gave me roses but they're all just made of plastic

It won't be long, my darling
Pick up the phone, nobody's on it
Where are your friends now, baby?
How's anyone suppose to be there for

You (you)
And you're falling down
The world starts spinning out
You (you)
And you're falling down
Now it's not all about
You (you)
And you're falling down
You know I'll be around
When you're falling down, falling down

(Smile for the camera, everybody's looking at ya)
(Smile for the camera, cause they're all about to trash ya)
(Smile for the camera, camera, camera, smile for the camera
Who's gonna catch ya?)

You (you)
You (you)
And you're falling down
The world starts spinning out
You (you)
And you're falling down
Now it's not all about
You (you)
And you're falling down
You know I'll be around
When you're falling down, falling down

(Smile for the camera, everybody's looking at ya)
(Smile for the camera, cause they're all about to trash ya)

Stuff I've never told anyone!

Clothes:
1. I hate wired bras
2. I wear size 7 undies
3. I hate thongs or g-strings
4. I hate wearing socks to bed.
5. My measurements are: Bust-36-38C/Waist-31inches/Hips-40inches
6. I wear size 8-9 in shoes and a size 7 in sandals
7. I hate wearing warm colors
8. I hate scarfs
9. I hate turtle necks
10. I don't like wearing glasses other than sunglasses

Food:
1. I hate cucumbers
2. Dairy products such as milk or ice cream make me dehydrated
3. I love dutch chocolate milk
4. I don't care much for strawberry flavored anything, but yes I like strawberries
5. I hate the grid strips on bananas
6. Things reheated or have freezer burn disgusts me
7. I now am obsessed with loving banana peppers
8. I hate meat on salads or on pizza
9. I hate thin crust pizza
10. I hate croutons

Hair:
1. I don't like it when my hair flips out
2. I wish I had longer hair
3. I wish I would look good in black hair
4. I would totally wear dreads or 80's wigs.
5. I hate how thin my hair is or that it falls out easily
6. I hate my forehead so I cover it with my bangs, the reason why I love bangs!
7. I don't know why I cut my hair.....It makes me sad now...
8. I hate headbands and hairclips
9. I can only put my hair up in a ponytail close to my neck, not the top of my head.
10. I wish I was more bold with experimenting with my hair. 

Face:
1. I wish my lips were bigger
2. I wish my eyebrows weren't so bushy
3. I don't like my ears showing
4. I don't wash my face nearly enough but I still have great skin and no acne!
5. I wish I wasn't so plain looking, more animated!
6. I like my nose the most
7. I hate my forehead.
8. I have a triangle style of brown dots on my face
9. I have a small bump in my nose
10. I don't have a double chin

Body:
1. My boobs are different sizes
2. I have athletic calves, it makes me sick...
3. I have thunder thighs, it makes me sick...
4. I have weak ankles
5. I hate body hair (underarm, kooch, legs)
6. I have a birthmark on the under part of my left thigh
7. I wish I was skinnier or didn't have a gut
8. I hate my upper arm flabs...
9. I like it when my shoulders are seen
10. I have a Spanish tan on my arms

Other:
1. I like fuzzy leg warmers
2. I like 50's-80's fashion
3. I do not have any piercings or tattoos
4. I can't ever find sensible shoes
5. I fear amputation and the unknown
6. I have an inny belly button
7. I wish I could pull off cyber goth/punk wear
8. My fingernails never grow perfectly straight
9. I don't wear make-up or nail polish
10. I like necks and how pretty they look, I'm a vampire. xD

Future Wonders:
1. I wonder how wrinkly I will get when older or when I'll start to get wrinkles
2. I wonder what age I will die at
3. I wonder how I'll die
4. I wonder what it will be like in the future
5. I wonder what color my hair will turn into.
6. I wonder if I'll ever get a disease like cancer, diabetes, or Alzheimer's
7. I wonder if I'll get arthritis
8. I wonder who I'll eventually be with for the rest of my life
9. I wonder if I'll die before or after my friends
10. I wonder how I will change in the future, what my likes, dislikes and personality will change into.

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Hayao Miyazaki Movie Info

16th July, 2009 - Posted by jonpei -

So I Decided To Tell You Odd People Some Things About Me.  Ill add alot more to this over time.

1. I am a sweetheart.
2. I am sensitive
3. I am Bi. But I prefer women.
4. I am for allowing a woman to keep her choice in abortion even if I feel it's wrong to abort.
5. I do not smoke or drink, I can drink, I just choose not to.
6. I have never taken drugs, not even medical drugs.
7. I never use tampons.
8. When finding a person, I am shallow to appearance and personality, but I'll love them if they are my friend and I care about them deeply.
9. When I first meet someone I am shy and quiet.
10. I am anti-violence.
11 I love green apples and the flavor.
12. I change like the seasons.
13. I follow my own path. I don't follow others but I don't lead anyone.
14. I don't deal well with death.
15. I am a pun-addict, and a dork. xD
16. I have two best friends I have kept since my childhood that I am really close with.
17. Its hard for me to find a partner, I'm unlucky.
18. I am a moderate liberal, but in the name of the first rule of politics, I do not get involved!
19. I believe everyone is beautiful in their own special way. Really.
20. I love Anime.
21. I used to want to be a home designer, but I moved more towards art in manga creation.
22. I fear amputation
23. I don't want children but I will not abort if it happens, I will adopt though!
24. I prefer cuddly cats to grumpy dogs, and I prefer Big dogs over small dogs.
25. I am a HUGE gay pride rights activist.
26. I get pissed of easily but usually don't show it unless I am driving.
27. I wish the whole world had Religous Tolorence.
28. All my friends are artistic in some way or love anime.
29. I LOVE yaoi and yuri.
30. I get neckaches ALOT
31. I am a Female.
32. I don't believe at love at first sight or online dating.
33. I abbreviate my curse words ALOT.
34. I am very indecisive.
35. I love making people laugh.
36. I have selective hearing.
37. I hate emo people, people who whine and bitch and then talk about themselves nonstop
39. I will pick my friends wisely when I go out drinking.
40. I love the rain and cool autumn breezes.
41. I am picky in food when it comes to how fresh it is.
42. My favorite movies are comedies or kid movies.
43. I am phobic of seeing a live in-person penis.
44. I am ambidextrous.
45. When I'm bored, I eat.
46. I love rainbows, stars, hot pink with black and white.
47. I hate regular milk, it makes me dehydrated.
48. I'm protein-intolerant.
49. I worry too much.
50. I love 80's music and techno.
51. I want to be a man, yes it is true.
52. I would let a hermaphrodite woman woman fuck me. xD
53. I am a lazy person.
54. I hate the X-Men movies other than the Wolverine one. They did not protray the characters like I like them.
55. I cough up mucus in the morning.
56. I don't know how to comfort others, but I do feel bad they are in pain.
57. I love punk/cyber wear but I don't think I can pull it off.
58. My best feature I think is my nose.
59. I was raised Christian but never really believed in anything about it, I just did it as a school class, I am now Atheist. xD
60. My dreams are random and out of control.
61. I try to stay healthy but I wind up still being average and overweight. =..
62. I physically show my anger by rolling my eyes.
63. I am attracted more to guys with blonde hair.
64. I still have crushes on past-crushes.
65. I like singing in the shower.
66. I love my stuffed animals especially Sakaki. <3
67. I wish I had a flying car already. =..
68. 21 is my lucky, favorite and cursed number. I see it everywhere!
69. Everytime I look at the clock it is either 2:21, My birthday, 9:11, the tradegy of America, 7:11, that's a given right there and 7:07 It's LOL backwards. xD
70. I enjoy cartoons waaaay too much!
71. My favorite comedian is Steve Carell
72. My favorite director is Mel Brooks
73. I daydream alot!
74. I am a tomboy true and true!
75. I am into harems, tentaclerape, cowgirl styles, anal (yes I would want it), and gay love!
76. I am not into missionary, it's used too much.
77. I do not hate certain people anymore.
78. I feel I am not an interesting person or have an exciting life.
79. I miss Uncle Paul.
80. My clothing style has become more punk-rock.
81. I hate how small my lips are.
82. I hate people who can type well or use too many abbreviations online.
83. I hate guys who randomly ask if I'm single or say I'm hot on myspace.
84. I love coconut cream pie!
85. Cookie cake or brownies are my favorite desserts.
87. I wish I could live on Neptune. My element is water!
88. I have no medical conditions.
89. I love anything R A I N B O W.
90. I only get sick once or less a year.
91. I am not allergic to anything, as I know of.
92. I love apartments more than houses.
93. I love zombie games that are funny!
94. I hate those who think guns are necessary, there are other types of defensive weapons out there you know. Blunt tip arrows and bows, grab them!
95. I hate rap or hiphop. Funny rap songs like Ultimate Showdown I am into and I can memorize it easily!
96. I will not follow you or your taste or opinions. Although you are entitled to them. And I will listen happily to them.
97. I would move to Vermont, gays have more rights there and I love the scenery.
98. I wish I had a motorcycle/moped.
99. I have grown out of my shell into a newer, more outgoing person.
100. I like to draw hands and feet.
101. I miss having long hair.
102. I miss the good ol' days!
103. I want to know what my blood type really is. Apparently O is recessive to A and B but my parents were O and A, but that means I am an O, but which one was negative and positive.
104. I wish my balls were bigger, then I could do what I really want and not care what people thought.
105. I wish I was taller and skinnier!
106. I love to laugh.
107. I hate egotistic people.
108. I hate candy.
109. I am skiddish of little critters.
110. I have grown out of liking pork and now fish. I hate the taste now!
111. I am glad my art is getting better!
112. I would move to Grapevine. My friends are there, the mall is the best, and better community!
113. I hate people who randomly talk to me on facebook messenger like they think I will respond willing.
114. I have had way too many phones. =..
115. I hate gold!
116. I love Family Guy, Futurama and Seth MacFarlane to peices! <3
117. I don't want to age anymore.
118. I can't stand crowds and slow drivers.
119. I hate Naruto to death! Him and his posse. But Haku and Kiba I'll keep.
120. I hate the endings to some animes. =..

I am going to be open about how I feel right now, I wont' be vague or leave anything out, I will formally explain this and to a specific person. I don't care who reads this, and I don't expect comments or opinions. Just read!

Dear Daphne,

I just want to let you know that I have fully grown alot of respect and admiration for you, your art, and your photography. I have no grudges, no hate, and no annoyances that concern you. I have fully moved on and even though I don't expect you to gain any respect, admiration or get over any grudges, hate, and annoyances you have over me. I just want to be open and say that I don't hate you anymore, I haven't talked bad about you in weeks, I haven't thought negatively about you or tried to get into your personal life at all. I have gained alot of respect, consideration, and admiration for you and your talent as an artist. I am not trying to get on your good-side, pull your leg, insult you, mock you, or try to crush your hopes or dreams, neither do I want to kick you when you're down. I don't want to technically be friends, but I don't want to be enemies anymore. If you still have grudges against me, that's fine but I have learned I must fully move on, forgive and forget about the past like I have with Katie and accept life that you are a person too, you are a human being and an individual. You deserve life like the rest of us and happiness as well. You don't have to be my friend, you don't have to like me, but to fully gain tranquility and peace, one must mediate all the negative energy out and breathe in the positive energy.

I must admit I love your art, your improvements, and your originality. I will be blunt and say, yes you are hot and sexy in your photography and I do envy the fact on how photogenic you are. I have promoted your site in ways, especially giving links on my sites to your account for others to go to and see. I will give you as much credit, as much praise, and as much considerate critique as I can, whether in my head or on your site. Which brings me to this:

Yes, I am TheCook. I wanted a way I can give my positive opinions about your artwork and what I honestly thought about them. Everything I have said, I have meant and was not in anyway trying to fool you. I considered it a fake alias, I'm just there as a random spectator or your art, I am not somebody different and thus I didn't tell you precisely who I am, I never lied about me or what I thought. I was vague in who I was, I wasn't going to lie to you if you asked me straight up front about who I am, yet I wasn't ready to let you know who I was precisely. I did it so I could give my positive, honest, and truthful opinions about what I thought about your artwork, try to be nice, supportive and praising to your art and you. I knew that if you knew it was me, you wouldn't be yourself. You wouldn't be honest and as nice back like you are with your watchers. I wanted that experience. I wanted you to not think I'm there just to get your goat or to torment you. I wanted you to be honest with me in return about my opinions, without the need to be annoyed or aggravated that I was there in the first place. I also thought that you would probably think I was spamming you and would delete all my comments knowing it was me, when everything I have said I have meant and was willing to support you and your art for all that it's worth.

If you read this, you are welcome to comment, you are welcome if you feel insulted or annoyed with me for creating that fake alias to delete the comments or allow me to post as myself afterwards. I won't think it's rude. I have unblocked you from DA and MySpace, and even though I don't care one way or another if you try to add me, if you allow me to join your website, or not as loving, nice, and positive as you are with the rest of my comments on your website. I don't expect you to give me anything of equal exchange in return. I just want to be honest and truthful about how I feel towards you, which is not as negative and ruthless as it was before.

You are an amazing artist with so much talent. You are a good person with pure intentions and honest, outgoing charms that anyone would be welcome to come across with. You are good-natured despite your short-temper and you are very supportive of others and loving towards them as well. I don't think poorly of you and I will say sorry about anything I have done to you that I did in the past. I don't ask that you be my friend or try to be nice in return, I just hope that you'll one day forgive and forget too and try to be as you are like you are with others that you either don't know or truly love. I don't know when you'll read this or when things start to chance on your website, but until you read this, I would like it if you give me your opinion about this, but until then, I will continue to be TheCook till you let me know you know it's really me. I won't lie to you and I won't try to torment, torture, be rude, be annoying, or try to pick petty fights or start any drama with you. I am not doing this to pull your leg, I am doing it to finally get over anything bad relationships I have with others, whether I know them or not. I have noticed you and I like the same things and would probably be close if we gave a true friendship a chance, but when that happens and I'm not sure it will, I will be friendly and nice to you in person.

Hypothetically speaking, if I did see you at A-kon, possibly with Monica. I would go up to Monica even when you are there and wave and say Hi, I was actually hoping to see you at A-kon but since I didn't, I couldn't. However, considering my shyness, if it was just you, I may not wave or say hi or randomly go up to you, unless we just happened to walk by each other spontaneously. That's how much I have gotten over everything, I am fully open to being myself around you and to be nice, considerate and loving towards you like nothing ever happened. I just hope some day, you could possibly do the same because you can't truly be happy in life, if you are still unhappy about things and I don't want to be the cause of your depression or anger, I want you to be open to the full experience of happiness whenever it comes, despite what I do, what you think of me, or if I just happen to be close by. So please, be happy to the fullest extent you possibly can, don't let my existence bring you down, it's not worth it.

To achieve enlightenment, one must first sacrifice their sinful nature for the sake of others. One must give up their pride and forgive oneself.

I found two notes last night in one of my "How to Draw Manga" books that I remember from at least 9th or 10th grade. I reread them and they brought so much memories, yet more importantly, insight. After reading them, I now understand a little bit about why my enemy hates me and probably still holds a grudge. All this time, I could not figure out why she would randomly lash out at me for no apparent reason or find the nerve to let go of the past and move on. I now understand.

I remember receiving these two notes, them both personal notes you receive from high school that expresses your own feelings to another. They were both about the crush she had on me, the trust she had relied on me, and about why she was bi. She told me she had just gotten out of a relationship with an ex-boyfriend and that the reason why she was bi was because men scare her sometimes. I remember my responses and considering how much of a soft-hearted person I am, I am not one to neglect, to turn down, say no, or hurt one's feelings and because of that I led her on to believe I instantly felt the same way when I should have told her, I need time to let my feelings for her in return grow. It then came down to the kiss, my first kiss and it was with her. I now see why she of what I thought randomly attacked me just because I said "thank you" for the kisses and for comforting me that night. I had told our friend, Katie, what happened and I guess I somewhat betrayed Daphne's trust. However, she jumped to conclusions and started the war, while I unintentionally started it as well.

I thought long and hard about the reasons of why she hates me till this day. All this time, I thought her random moments of hate and grudges were because Katie had broken up with her as a friend and returned to me and she hated me for it. I have to say I know how she feels, because I felt that way when Katie left me. However, I now see that the deeper reason of why she still hates me is because I betrayed her trust, practically led her on and got her hopes up and then eventually crushed them when she was the most vulnerable. Even if that wasn't my intention I can see now that she thinks it is. I now have a new understanding of my enemy and I believe that all of this hateful grudge, the cat fights, and the petty drama was all because I unintentionally started it, leading her on and crushing her feelings, lying to her and myself that I was truly okay with it so fast, that I loved her instantly in return when really, I don't believe in love at first sight. So I lay down my walls for two seconds, not to become vulnerable but simply to say, "Daphne, I am sorry if I have hurt you after those letters you wrote to me in high school. I now understand why you hate me so much. I don't expect you to forgive me or openly tell me that you accept my apology, I just simply want to say I am sorry. If I hadn't led you on and been honest with the start, then none of that drama and shit would have happened. We wouldn't have pulled Leggy by the arms in a game of tug of war, and we wouldn't have hated each other till this day. We could have been friends and we could have been close, I know it. We have tried to cure old wounds and trying to act as friends, but in the end I now see why you can't forgive me. And I don't expect you to. I am just sorry for all the things I have done to you, the things I have said, and the for leading you on when I should have told you the truth. I am sorry."

I am not trying to make amends with her, I am more on the lines of amending ties with myself. I cried last night after thinking back about all the mean things I have done, mainly to Katie. I know we have started a new chapter in our friendship, rekindling the good ol' times we shared and that now we have forgiven each other, but now I am having to forgive myself. I am not a person to lash out at people, to do them wrong, or break their hearts. I do not know what came over me and I apologize for being selfish. I know I have been forgiven by Katie, but now I must forgive myself. Even if I can't believe how things came out to be, I guess things happen for a reason and even though they were terrible things, I guess it was just meant to be. Maybe we were suppose to fight, to take a break from each other, to mature and grow up from our selfishness to finally see that our friendship was something we need to cherish, to hold on to, and if it took all that petty drama and fighting to do it, then maybe it was for the best. Like you said, you like how I am now, how much more mature and unclingy I have become. Maybe I needed that moment of my life to be an awakening to not only to myself but to our friendship as well. I know you have forgiven me and I don't ask that you comfort me as I try to forgive myself, but suppressing the feelings of realizing all the mean and terrible things I did to you has given me a reason to cry and maybe I need it in order to mature more and finally move on.

So, to both of you, I am sorry. Even if one has forgiven me and the other I don't expect to forgive me one way or another, I am truly taking down my pride and being considerate of your feelings simply to achieve enlightenment in life, to finally be free from the burden I call the past in order to accept the future as it is. I am literally waking up from that nightmare and facing reality with all the scars that lay on my body, not from the inflictions you guys may have done but of the ones I did to myself. Our scars will always remain for a reason, we just need to accept them, to show them off and show that they were needed in order to mature, grow up, and get rid of our selfish ways.