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Tuesday, August 19, 2008 

Current mood:  excited

Check out Invincible's 1st video!!!!! Also, make sure you pass it on! I got just about 10,000 friends and a number of you play peek-a-boo on my blog. Do what you gotta do and check that out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FxZbpbCKKL4

 

Friday, July 25, 2008 

Current mood:Reflective...
Category: Life

Wow.. she and I are the same age in the same community, run in the same circles and do the same things. I'm a bit reflective today..My condolences to the family.... we lost such a bright light.  Life is too short..

http://www.baltimoresun.com/entertainment/custom/today/bal-to.kswift23jul23,0,6536752.story

baltimoresun.com

'Club Queen' remembered

Listeners, colleagues mourn 92Q DJ K-Swift

By Sam Sessa

Sun reporter

July 23, 2008

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It was a day of music and mourning. Yesterday, downtrodden callers and DJs on hip-hop station 92Q shared heartfelt memories of their late colleague Khia Edgerton, better known as K-Swift.

Edgerton, 29, died early Monday morning of neck injuries after jumping into an above-ground pool at her home, the state medical examiner's office said yesterday.

Dubbed the "Club Queen," Edgerton trumpeted the Baltimore club scene on the air and in dance halls up and down the East Coast. She introduced a younger audience to the fast beats and dirty vocal tracks of Baltimore club music - one of the city's signature sounds.

Yesterday, grief-stricken DJs at 92Q celebrated Edgerton's life and coped with her death on air.

"It's been therapeutic for me," said morning show host Marc Clarke. "Baltimore is letting it out. The only thing we can do is talk about it. If you don't deal with it and don't grieve, it will hit you when you least expect it."

Callers flooded the station with an outpouring of grief yesterday and Monday.

"People like K-Swift are the true celebrities of Baltimore," one caller said. "When you say Baltimore, you say her name."

As a DJ and mixer, Edgerton worked toward a national distribution deal that would place her albums in record stores around the country. She signed with Unruly Records several years ago, which was a step closer to that goal. Less than a day after her death, the national deal went through, according to Unruly Records co-founder Shawn Caesar.

"Last night could have been that announcement," Caesar said yesterday. "Instead, all this stuff went down."

Monday night, hundreds of Edgerton's fans, friends and family gathered on 92Q's parking lot to mourn and remember Edgerton's short but accomplished life. Station DJs, her mother, Juanita, the Rev. Jamal Bryant and others eulogized Edgerton's pioneering career as a Baltimore club DJ and her warm personality. Fans penned farewell messages on a large card dedicated to Edgerton, and Baltimore-based R&B singer Paula Campbell performed a gospel song.

Organized via Edgerton's MySpace page, the vigil started at 6 p.m. - the time her radio show Off the Hook normally began.

"It brought the Baltimore community together and K-Swift's family together to memorialize her and honor her," said Howard Mazer, the station's general manager. "It was really moving."

Edgerton's death stunned fellow DJ Tavon Smith, known as DJ Tigga. He grew up listening to her radio show and seeing her at shows around the city.

"She was the face of club music," he said. "There won't ever be anybody who can take her place or fill her shoes."

During a party at her house early Monday morning, Edgerton jumped into her shallow above-ground pool but did not resurface, according to police reports. Her friends later pulled her onto an adjoining deck and called 911. Edgerton was taken to Good Samaritan Hospital, where she was pronounced dead.

Neke Howse, host of the midday show on 92Q, choked up when thinking of a future without Edgerton at the station and in the Baltimore club scene.

"I'm not looking to replace her," she said. "You can't replace her."

sam.sessa@baltsun.com

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Tuesday, June 03, 2008 

Current mood:  artistic
Category: Music
Check out the conference! It's going to be amazing! If any of my blog readers are in the midwest that weekend, The ANoMoLies would love to see you!

http://alliedmediaconference.org/program/music
Wednesday, May 28, 2008 

Current mood:  artistic
Category: Life

Well most of you know I'm a mixed breed.  Funny, with so many of us mixed folks out there today this is just making the headlines. Cheers to Louie Gong for making this an item of discussion. It's  a great opportunity to have real dialogue I must admit.. take a read when you have a moment:

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Multiracial Americans surge in number, voice

Obama candidacy focuses new attention on their quest for understanding
 
By Mike Stuckey
Senior news editor/MSNBC
 
updated 5:46 a.m. ET, Wed., May. 28, 2008

If you want a good glimpse of the multiracial experience in America, get inside Louie Gong's skin.

"I'm Nooksack, I'm Chinese, I'm French and I'm Scottish," Gong tells viewers of a multimedia piece he placed on YouTube to help spark discussion of multiracial issues. "... When I was a kid, I drank my Ovaltine with real milk, and my cousins and I liked our fried rice with salmon."

At the same time that the nation's growing diversity and changing social attitudes are helping to swell the ranks of multiracial Americans at 10 times the rate of the white population, the presidential candidacy of Barack Obama, son of a black man and a white woman, has brought new attention, curiosity and discussion to their experiences.

Obama has faced an endless barrage of questions anchored to issues of race and class, from his ties to the Rev. Jeremiah Wright to whether, in his own words, he is "too black" or "not black enough." As Gut Check America engaged msnbc.com readers in this re-emerging national conversation on race, it became clear that multiracial Americans offered unique perspectives on the topic and that the nation is far from entering a "post-race" era. 

Gong, 33, is on the leading edge of what he calls the "modern multiracial movement." A founder of the Mixed Heritage Center, a Web-based resource collection for multiracial Americans, Gong is also vice president and a key spokesman for the Mavin Foundation, a Seattle-based advocacy group for mixed-race people and families. As the educational resources director for the Muckleshoot Indian tribe's college near Seattle, he is able to tailor programs to Native Americans of mixed heritage. He teaches classes and workshops on the topic and is helping prepare a museum exhibit on the mixed-race experience set to open in Seattle in the fall.

Obama candidacy drives new interest
As Gong's schedule attests, it's a busy, exciting time for folks who have worked for years to win understanding and acceptance of the unique path trod by multiracial Americans. "Barack Obama has stepped into the picture now and is shining a floodlight on these issues," Gong told msnbc.com.

With interracial marriage illegal in 16 states until 1967 and racist sentiments against it remaining to this day in some places, the number of biracial and multiracial Americans is relatively small at less than 5 million. Although it includes a number of high-profile celebrities and athletes like Tiger Woods, Mariah Carey, Derek Jeter, Vin Diesel and Halle Berry, it's well under 2 percent of the nation's current 302 million residents.

"There's kind of a lot of hype that makes people think there's more, but there aren't," said demographer William H. Frey, a senior fellow with the Brookings Institution.

Officially, the number was even a mystery until 2000, the first year the U.S. Census Bureau allowed Americans to say they were of mixed race.

Census counts vary
Even now, there is confusion over various tallies offered by the federal agency. Some surveys, including the 2000 Census, allow respondents to choose "some other race" in addition to every possible combination of all recognized races. That inflated the count of multiracial Americans to 6.8 million.

But the agency's annual Population Estimate Program, considered its most current breakdown, does not include "some other race" and results in a count of Americans who claim to be of "two or more races." Based on birth, death and tax records, the figure "really is our official estimate of total population and population by race," said Census spokesman Robert Burnstein.

The most recent data, released May 1, shows the number of Americans of "two or more races" was 4,856,136 as of last July. The headline, though, is growth. Up from 4,711,932 the previous year, the tally indicates a 3 percent gain, which is 10 times the 0.3 percent growth of the white population in the same period and three times the overall U.S. population growth of about 1 percent. It's about the same as the growth rates of the Hispanic and Asian populations.

America's mixed-race population is up 25 percent since it was first calculated in 2000, while the nation's overall population has grown 7 percent in that time. Although still small in real numbers, the multiracial category is larger that the combined total of Native American Indians, Alaska Natives, Native Hawaiians and Pacific Islanders.

One thing in common: marginalization
Such statistical exercises bring a warning from Gong.

"One of the most important things to understand is that the multiracial population is not a racial or ethnic group," he said. "What we are really is a long thread that runs through the spectrum of race.

"The only thing that bonds us together as a group is the common ways that we're marginalized," said Gong, who himself "had a very dynamic experience with race" while growing up. Reared on tribal lands by his paternal Chinese grandfather and Nooksack grandmother, his home life was steeped in Native American culture and tradition. At school, "I was poked and prodded" into a more Asian identity because of his last name.

As mixed-race Americans, "although we don't represent a consistent experience, the way society has tended to respond to us has been consistent," Gong said. "Those are the issues that we rally around."

Despite their growing numbers, multiracial Americans and their family members say society's response to them often remains a mixture of ignorance, judgment and downright rudeness.

Dr. Maria P.P. Root, a psychologist and researcher on multiracial families who has worked with the Mavin Foundation, has catalogued "50 Experiences of Racially Mixed People" as "a launching point for sharing, discussing, laughing, debriefing, and educating." The list covers everything from the ubiquitous, insensitive "what are you?" question asked of multiracial people to them being told, "You have the best of both worlds."

"Gut Check America" readers shared hundreds of observations and anecdotes via e-mail and interviews with msnbc.com to illustrate their own experiences.

Confusion over racial identity a common issue
For many, the confusion of others over their racial identity is the biggest, and thorniest, issue.

Take Sara Dale, a 33-year-old daughter of a black mom from Jamaica and a white dad from Pennsylvania. Caucasian in appearance, Dale said she has often been the recipient of racist comments about African-Americans from white co-workers and classmates. "People just assume that I'm white when they see me, so they talk freely around me," said Dale, a resident of Boynton Beach, Fla. "As soon as the conversation turns a certain way, I start getting really nervous. I'm not a confrontational person but I feel like I have to say something."

Or Evelyn Marie Lewis-Keene, 42, a health-care worker from Huntington, W.Va., whose father is an African-American and whose Hispanic mother was born in Puerto Rico. "When they ask what race I am, I don't check black or white," she said in an interview. "I can't deny my mother and I can't deny my father." But others can and do, often elderly white residents at the care home where she works who plug her neatly into their racist stereotypes. "When a patient gives me the N-word, you know what I say? I say, 'Wait a minute, if you're going to say it, get it right, because you can't deny my mom.'" And she insists they add "Rican" to the slur.

It comes from all sides. Lewis-Keene says her mother was disowned for a time by her Puerto Rican parents because she married a black man. And Lewis-Keene believes some members of her father's family treat her mother disrespectfully because her English is hard for them to understand. "You can't choose your family," she said with a sigh.

'You have a choice to be white or not'
Non-mixed members of multiracial families face their own special struggles. "When you're in a biracial family, you have a choice to be white or not," said Mary Semela, a white mom of two biracial sons who is married to a black immigrant from South Africa. Semela, who lives in of Ellicott City, Md., said some members of multiracial families can grow so weary of stares and questions when they are with their relatives of different colors that they'll intentionally go to public places alone at times. "You have that choice just to walk away from your family," she said, adding that she would not do so herself.

While her husband and sons have faced the all-too-familiar trappings of white racism against blacks, Semela, 51, said her sons also are seen by some African-Americans as less than full members of that community because, with their father a recent immigrant, "they don't have slave heritage."

Despite that, her older son, 20, a scholarship student at Colgate, "feels very anchored as an African-American," which is in keeping with the view of Semela and many other American parents of biracial black and white children that "as soon as your kids are old enough, they are black people in America, they are not half of anything."

But that view is changing, said anthropologist Marion Kilson, who wrote "Claiming Place: Biracial Young Adults of the Post-Civil Rights Era." Kilson, who is white, is also the mother of two biracial daughters and a son. She has been married for nearly 50 years to Martin Kilson Jr., the first black professor to receive full tenure at Harvard.

New resources, support seen
"I think there's a generational difference," Kilson, 72, told msnbc.com. "My perception, when my kids were little in the '60s, was that biracial Americans didn't have a choice about their racial identity, that the wider society would view them as being African-American." Because of that, "I thought it was important to emphasize that they were African- American."

"Now, people have an opportunity to proclaim all of their racial identities," said Kilson, who is at work with colleague and friend Florence Ladd on a new book about rearing biracial children. "One thing that's different for younger mothers today, there are many more support systems, quite a number of multiracial groups that exist, that involve parents and children, Web sites, clearly there are books that weren't available before. There's a lot more out there to support them today."

Indeed, it's a veritable boom time right now, said Gong, who recently attended a Northern California gathering with leaders of 13 groups that work on mixed-race issues. "There seems to be a sense that it's time for the modern multiracial movement to expand into new fronts," he said. "College campuses in the past have represented the low-hanging fruit" for those interested in organizing multiracial Americans. Various groups represented at the summit are looking to expand their efforts into other institutions and corporate venues. Gong is particularly interested in multiracial members of low-income communities.

A tricky issue for organizers like Gong is apprehension among some leaders of minority communities that a new focus on multiracial identities could lessen their numbers.

"If we look at what was important for communities of color during the civil rights movement, it was solidarity," he said. "Solidarity served African-Americans and Native Americans very well in the past so now we see a desire to maintain ethnic solidarity still playing out, especially among older folks. We're worried that we're going to dilute the voice we have if people identify as being black and white or Native American and black."

So while drawing attention to the needs of mixed-race Americans, "We really need to respect those communities' needs to maintain ethnic solidarity," Gong said. "Those needs are very real."

Frey, the Brookings demographer and author of a February paper on "Race, Immigration and America's Changing Electorate," said that while "race does matter" in U.S. elections, it's often hard to figure out just how. With the nation's single-race minority groups skewing Democrat but still vastly underrepresented on voter rolls relative to their overall numbers, he said, the impact of multiracial voters is especially hard to divine. "They're really pretty small numbers," he said. "We're going to have to look down the road quite a bit before they're going to become a major factor."

Inspiration drawn from Obama candidacy
But Americans from multiracial backgrounds and families (some 5 million Americans are married across racial lines and millions more are members of racially blended families) seem universally happy and proud that a biracial man is the front-runner for a major party's presidential nomination. Over and over again, in e-mail and interviews, regardless of whether they agree with his politics or intend to vote for him, "Gut Check" respondents said they were heartened by Obama's candidacy.

"I like Obama," said Ken Woodward of Wichita. "This is something that I've always dreamed of, someone who has the issues down pat, not just running as a black man, but running as a man who is sort of all of America, not just the black race but every race," said Woodward, 61, a black man who has a son and daughter with his white wife of 27 years.

Lewis-Keene, the West Virginia health-care worker, said she sees Obama as someone who is "wholly true-hearted in his feelings of unity from the simple fact of where he comes from. … I feel like he is the kind of person who would be able to solve conflicts with others countries just as well as here in the United States."

Despite the positive feelings from the Obama candidacy and other strides, ambiguity and confusion over racial identity will persist for many mixed-race Americans, said Gong, a fact experienced even in families such as his own that have been multiracial for generations. The palette of cultural diversity has often been smudged by outside influences like "all these federal policies that were designed to deconstruct native identity," such as off-reservation boarding schools, the Indian Removal Act and urban relocation programs.

The ambiguity caused by such policies made planning a recent funeral for one of his aunts a bit of a puzzle, Gong said. "We did an eclectic ceremony, which is now becoming a family tradition, where everybody had a piece of the ceremony. It was in a Catholic church, based on the reservation, and we had a traditional Coast-Salish funeral song, and also a Shaker Church ceremony."

The lesson is clear, said Gong, whose own excitement and enthusiasm for America's changing colors is indomitable: America's melting pot isn't going to create a bland, homogenous porridge so much as a deeply flavored, spicy stew.

"Mixed race isn't post race. It's not less race. It's more race," Gong said. "In order to dialog about mixed race, we need more understanding. It's not a dialog to forget about issues of race."

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008 

Current mood:  artistic
A good friend of mine is doing this blog. If you are uncertain of where you are in your life and want to get a sneak peak into careers you've only dreamed of or had nightmares about.. check it out!  http://iwantyourjobmaybe.blogspot.com/
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 

Current mood:  tired
Category: Life

Planning a Trip? 20 Cities Global Warming Might Melt Off Map

Wed, 05/14/2008 - 3:00am by CitizenSugar
279,771 Views - 67 comments

Got your passport and itchy feet in search of a vacation destination? Consider this first. It's not a scared-straight story on global warming I promise — it's a traveler's perspective on how the world's climate and it's info served up like a gorgeous guidebook — and, I'll admit, food for thought. ProTraveller put together this list of 20 places that are ripe to change dramatically if the world heats up — and it's a where's where of dream vacations.

Here's part of their list, and some info that caught my eye:


  • Great Barrier Reef, Australia
  • Virgin Islands, Caribbean
  • Cook Islands, Pacific Ocean
  • Galapagos Islands, Pacific Ocean (pictured here)
  • Belize Barrier Reef, Belize
  • Red Sea Reefs, Egypt
  • Tokyo, Japan — This major international city is in some serious danger; its temperatures have been rising five times faster than the average global warming rate around the world.
  • London, United Kingdom — Scientists say that the city could be underwater as early as within the next one hundred years.
  • New York City, USA
  • New Orleans, USA
  • Jakarta, Indonesia — The capital city of Indonesia has already experienced serious flooding last year, which many believe was a direct result of the climate change affecting the world. With more than twenty million people living in its metropolitan area, Jakarta is a city that has a lot to lose if the global warming issue continues unabated.

With Britain already having its warmest May since 1772 and alarming weather becoming a mainstay, it's nice to be reminded of the beauty we need to take care of — sans PowerPoint. (Sorry Al.)
Source

http://www.citizensugar.com/1626527?ybf1=1

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 

Current mood:  tired
Category: Blogging

The 11th Annual
New York City Tattoo Convention
May 16th, 17th and 18th, 2008

SHOW HOURS:

Friday 16: 4pm to Midnight
Saturday 17: Noon to Midnight
Sunday 18: Noon to 8pm

Tickets available at the door
ON THE DAY OF THE SHOW ONLY.

~ NO ADVANCED TICKET SALES ~
 
TICKET PRICES:
One Day Ticket -- $18
Two Days Unlimited Access -- $35
Three Days Unlimited Access -- $50
(Tickets available ONLY at Roseland
and ONLY on the day of the show)

http://www.nyctattooconvention.com/tickets.html

 

Thursday, May 08, 2008 

Category: Music

ilana invincible's record release!!!

May, 8 2008 at Southpaw (w/ ANOMOLIES, Abeer, Indeed, Tiombe Lockhart, Jocelyn de Leon, + more)

125 Fifth Ave, bet Sterling & St. John (B/Q to 7th Ave, M/R to Union, 2/3 to Bergen), Brooklyn,

Cost : $12 adv / $15 door (18 + with ID)

5th Element & Emergence Present: The Human Element & Album release party for INVINCIBLE, SHAPESHIFTERS LP FREE ENTRY WITH PRE-SALE VOUCHER

Tickets: http://www.spsounds.com/ Human Element – artists creating change Featuring – INVINCIBLE // album set featuring special guests Waajeed (PPP, bling47), Wordsworth, & Finale (Detroit) ANOMOLIES // NYC Abeer // Palestine/Slingshot Hip Hop Indeed // De La Soul affiliate Tiombe Lockhart // NYC/Platinum Pied Pipers Jocelyn de Leon // SF Bay DJs – Laylo // Liberation Lounge / NYC Chela // New Girl Order / NYC/NC Flavorfull // Unemployable NYC Dance Crews – Fox Force Five // NYC MAWU // NYC The Ingines // Philly Rockafella + Full Circle // NYC Visuals – Cece // Trust Your Struggle / SF / NY Toofly + AM // Younity // NYC Hosted by – Eternia // NYC + Toronto Herawin // NYC / Juggaknots Sponsored by – FUSICOLOGY, EMERGENCE, DOPESWAN, and ALLIED MEDIA CONFERENCE

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 

Current mood:  thirsty
Category: Blogging
I just didn’t have the patience to count all the days. I know its been over 600 days of bloggin’ and what???!!! I’ll count and edit my subject line with the proper dates later...

What’s important in life? I’ve been in a very reflective mood lately. I make money.. I do every activity I want to do, but it’s still not enough. I’ve challenged myself far more than anyone can possibly challenge me.. but still its not enough. Nothing is ever enough.

I wonder will I ever find the Utopia I’m chasing, but while reading this think broader.. think boundless. I love life, love my son, love martial arts, love men and love pushing the limits.. but my thirst for more is the driving force in my existence.. just enough is never enough..I’m greedy.. glutonous.. always desiring that which I can not have which pushes me to stretch my own limits to put me in reach or in line with Utopia. I get close.. I always do.. but I never get the prize.

Or maybe I do.. maybe I get the prize in the form of life experience, maybe I get to taste utopia everytime I jump on my skateboard...or roll around the mat doing brazilian jiu-jitsu.. or everytime I pick up the microphone, hold my son, write a rhyme.. maybe utopia isn’t a place.. but its a mental state of mind. Maybe every new mental and physical connection I make is a little piece of utopia or may be its the cherished moments that actually make utopia real.

My thoughts trap me and many of them are very seductive.. they dictate how I lead life or how life leads me.. I like to be lead.. but aggresison is my master. I’m not used to waiting for anything, so I guess thats why I’m so passionate about finding Utopia.. because since I don’t wait for life to happen and I aggressively take what I want.. I wonder why it continues to escape me...I’m hot on its trail..but I guess even this blog will suffer with an open ending.. the same way my utopian fantasy has.

Friday, February 15, 2008 

Current mood:  bitchy

Today started off to be a miserable day. I woke up late. My local cab company failed me. I called them 3 times to ask where my car was. On the 3rd time, the dispatcher tried to get loud with me and said the car was waiting outside forever.....

....If I could've reached through the phone and pummeled him.. I would have.. and EVEN THAT.. would not have been enough. Nostrils flaring I left the house.. with Nas feeding off of my energy...we got in the cab and I look over at him.. and his face is screwed up too.. I start laughing and mellow out.. then he starts smiling too.. now I'm getting back to normal.. then more drama.....

 Nas wound up getting to school 45 minutes late thanks to me. I was pissed to say the least. So now, I leave his school and I am off to work. I catch one of 2 buses I need to take me to the City....

......My 1st bus was stuck behind two road rage idiots in the service lane. There was no where to go, so we had to just wait until they finished acting like assholes. It was at least 10 minutes.. just sitting there.. with horns honking and everyone on the bus standing up like they were gonna jump out and beat the hell out of both loose cannons standing in the middle of the street.

.......I was ready to lead the pack, because by this time.. my nostrils started flaring again and I saw blood.

Finally Tweedle Dum and Tweedle Dee got back in their cars and we were moving again....I got off bus 1 to connect to bus 2 and saw bus 2 at the light...I knew I could catch it. 

I ran for the bus and although the driver saw me running, he still pulled off. I literally was one step from the door... this time I'm sure my spiked hair formed horns.. I was sooo lit. I think the 1st person that would've said something sideways to me .. would've got "the business".

.....15 minutes later and my 10 miles commute in finally began... I was 30 minutes late for work and now I am here.

It's a toss up as to how I am going to spend the evening... in pole danicng class, at my 1st gymnastics class or playing volleyball... All I know is I can't wait to be social, out and about and just enjoying the end to what I consider a START that sucked...

Yesterday was pretty good though. I did manage to pick up MEGA MILLIONS lottery tickets last night.. got a funky new doo... where I will forever look like I just rolled out of bed. It's sharp edges and messy..my mom said I look even more ANGRY with the new cut.. and she didn't think that was possible. LOL

 .....It's dark brown.. (they had to cover the red,  based on the color shift that happened when the relaxer was added) ....so red raven is on hiatus until April..

 ....and I must look about 10 years younger, because a 17 year old tried to get my number right after I left the beauty salon. I kindly told him he was jail bait.. and he told me I looked 20.. all thanks to my new Razor Cut.

....The look is still not fully complete. I have to wait on adding color for another 3 weeks, since I nuked my curls. My hair can't take all the chemicals right now. But my Stylist assured me I'll be blond and red in time for trinidad. (smiling) You guys may not get the new pics until the hair color is final.. It's not 100% what I want (until the color is added)... so you'll have to look at the "RED" me for a few weeks.

Ok.. TGIF.. and Cheers to a GRAND WEEKEND!!!!!