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Stephanie Moore


Last Updated: 12/23/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Cancer

City: Eaton
State: Ohio
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/1/2006

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009 

Current mood:june 5th 2010
well alot has been going on since i wrote last so.. i thought i would catch everyone up.

* im engaged to my best friend, my world, my everything. *

i came home.. saturday oct. 10th from work... there he was down on one knee with an empty box.. he asked me to marry him and we went and picked out my engagement ring that night =] we started tellin everyone. i havent been so happy in my entire life. allen makes me think that life always gets better.. but i dont see how my life can get any better than this. my life is absolutely amazing!

so from that day we have been talkin about the wedding already... lol. we set a date for august 14th, 2010.. but then decided we didnt want to wait that long... =] lol. so we changed it to june 19th.. then realized someone else was gettin married on that day.. so we changed it again...and the date that is in stone.. for gatlinburg, tennessee is ** JuNe 5th 2010 ** im so excited and so ready to be his wifey!!! the reception will be the following saturday which is ** JuNe 12th 2010 ** <333

im just frustrated... everyone is tellin us to make the wedding our own and we are but yet some people in the family are tellin us they wont be able to come b/c we arent havin a huge wedding up here. well we are tryin to save money and tryin to help everyone else out just alittle bit. i cant afford a huge wedding and neither can my parents.. and me and allen decided on gatlinburg no one told us to have it there.. it was our decision and its what we are going to do and if you cant make it to the wedding then we will see you at the reception. Gatlinburg is just less of a headache.. and its just gonna be easier on me and allen it will stop alot of the fighting b/c a huge wedding was already starting to stress me out.. so this way its just easier.. and its going to be beautiful.

im so ready to start our lives together. im so ready to be his wife and take his last name. <333 im just so ready to spend the rest of my life with him as my husband!! =]=] which june was alot closer. lol.
 
but thats all for now. ill keep you guys updated when things start changing!!




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Friday, September 11, 2009 

Current mood:just venting..
well lets see here.. alot has been going on since i wrote last. me and allen finally got a house. pretty stoked! im so excited to be movin out on my own. =] well our own! haha. we arent leavin this wonderful county.. haha. =] our house is beautiful! were moving into it this weekend.. and im so flippin excited i cant stand it. were pretty happy. some people may be mad at us for the decision we have had made but they need to get over it. we made the right decision for us! and if they love us then they should be happy for us! kinda weird everyone isnt happy for us. some people think we arent doing the right thing.. others think this is the best thing for us! so who knows. its just really annoying when we are so happy and yet someone tries to mess that up. im not sayin names and im not pointing fingers but it would be nice if people would just be happy for us! some people look down on the situation b/c we arent married.. well get over it. times have changed.. and just because we arent doesnt mean were going to walk away from each other. me and allen are in this forever and i just wish some people would be happy about it.

but anyways.. im so excited to finally be starting my life with allen. this house is just the first step =] but def not the last!! haha. but its almost 6am and im starting to get really sleepy again. i just needed to get a few things off my chest!

but my life couldnt get any better and im not going to let people get us down!!! =]=]=]
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Friday, August 14, 2009 

Current mood:just mixed emotions!!
well lets see here.. the last time i wrote one of these i was kinda bitchy.. so ill make this a nice suttle one i guess. lol. not much has really been going on.. just trying to figure out things for mine and allens future. as you all might know by now we are gettin ready to move into our house.. pretty stoked. were just waiting on it to get finished. pretty exciting if you ask me. its way out in the middle of know where. so bonfires.. are fine with us!! we dont party.. so its all good.. but alittle bonfire here and there wont be a bad idea.. and it gives us a chance to see all of our friends. =]

i have learned alot over the past two and half years.. prolly more than i should have learned so young.. but its life. ive learned that you never know when your going to leave this place called earth.. so you should live your life the way you want too. and yeah you may be in a rocky place at one point and be on cloud nine the next.. its just a little thing called life. and when you think you have hit rock bottom just remember someones life could always be worse than yours. so dont think your life is over when something that happens and doesnt make sence. it will all turn around eventually. believe me.. i know first hand. i thought that i couldnt live anymore.. i thought my life was over.. i lost my friend.. the one person i always looked up too.. and the one person i knew would always be there for me to help me, to guide me, to support me.. and then i wake up one morning and he is no longer here. he is gone forever. his face and his body is gone but his memories will live with me forever. i used to think that he was the worst person in the world (( b/c he was so mean to me )) but as we got older and spent less time around eachother.. i realized he really wasnt that bad.. and he did some of those things just to pretect me. he didnt want to see me fail, he didnt want to see get hurt. he was the best friend anyone could ask for. i still wake up every day thinkin he is going to call.. or walk through the door.. but now im starting to realize that will never be. one day i will get married and that man will have never met him.. and my children would never meet there uncle stevie! it makes me so sad.. to know that my children will never get to meet the most amazing man i had in my life growning up. and b/c of my brother im pretty sure i have turned out to be a wonderful young woman. =] and im pretty sure he would be very very proud of me. but then i turn around and i meet the most amazing man i have ever known. and he has helped out in ways you couldnt even imagine. he is my best friend, my soulmate, my one and only. he has turned my life completely around i dont see my life without him in it. we have had our ups and downs but thats in any relationship.. but we always manage to get through them.. and now neither one of us is going to walk away from eachother. he is the most amazing man.. and i cant wait to see where our life together takes us. charles david allen worley is the love of my life.. and that will never change. its like my brother sent him here to take the place of the hole in my heart. =] and i thank my brother everyday for sending me someone who makes me so happy.. and makes me smile no matter what. and im so glad to have allen in my life.. b/c honestly i dont know where i would be without him.. prolly still hangin out in the bars.. not gettin anything done.. not wanting a job.. b/c im wanting to party.. but now.. its all about me and him and starting our future together =] and thats perfectly fine with me.. i wouldnt want it any other way!!

so now on to something not so sad.. im starting to figure out what i want in life.. i know i want my amazing boyfriend.. but i mean job wise... and everything else. so now here we go looking for a job.. i havent had to do this in almost 2 years.. and now its like im learning how to walk again. lol. i hate tryin to look for something new expecially when you were so comfortable in an enviroment for so long. but oh well.. im sick of feeling worthless.. im sick of people thinkin im just livin off of allen. b/c thats not the case. its just hard to find a job right now when you dont have a degree.... of some sort. but i will find something. i have faith in myself. yes i have bills.. but me and allen know we want to be together for the rest of our lives.. so we are planning our future together.. bills, car payments.. everything. its not just MY MONEY and HIS MONEY.. its OUR MONEY!!!! so i do collect unemployment.. and it might be enough for me on my own.. but it isnt enough for us.. so thats why im lookin for a job. i need to help us out more than unemployment could. so we will see i guess.

well this is kinda a long blog.. but im awake and all of this just starting coming to me after i read a blog from someone else pretty much saying.. dont rely on someone else to make you happy... you need to make yourself happy. and i am happy.. but i am happier with allen.. and if you know me then you know that. you know there isnt a such thing as a "perfect relationship" but if you know me.. then you know that me and allen are really meant to be.. and we help eachother out in ways no one else could ever help us. were just perfect for eachother!!! i love him with all of my heart!

but its time to try and go back to sleep before best buy comes to set up the wiresless router.
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009 

Current mood:kinda crabby!
ok ok so here it goes. this isnt going to be a total bitching blog.. but it might turn out that way.. just sayin whats on my mind.... so here it goes...........

my life as of now couldnt be better! things with allen are finally coming together and i cant wait to see where our life together takes us. he is the man i have always been searching for. he is my world. my everything and most of all my best friend. i couldnt ask for a better life or a better friend than him. we are living at my parents house well.. for the time being.. lookin for a house.. thats our next step. then who knows where that will go... =) i have the most [a-maz-ing] friends anyone could ask for. they have helped me out in more ways than you could even imagine.
*erky* thanks for always being there when i needed someone the most. your are more like my sister... and i couldnt ask for a better a friend than you have been. i know we have had our differences.. but that hasnt changed anything.. we are still [besties] and that will never change. i cant wait to meet gracie! =) i hope she looks just like her mommy!! hehe.
*FAMiLY* i honestly dont know what i would do with out them. they have always been there for me and they always will be. they just want me to be [happy] and for once in my life i finally found my [[happiness]] and thats with allen. my family absolutely loves him... and i LOVE them for that. and at the end of the day.. your family is all you really have. my fam[ily] is amazing.. i love them all very much! we have been through so much together and yet it has made us all so much ((stronger)) i wish it wouldnt have happened this way.. but it did and i know me, mom and dad all thank them for everything they have done!

i guess you realize who your true friends are when everything seems to be going wrong and you turn to talk to them.. and wow they are there. and you realize they never were. they like to say they were but you know that they werent.. they just tried to make themselves look good and they just tried to be a better person but in reality they were a shitty friend and they never deserved your friendship to begin with!! so i guess what im sayin is.. i put more effort into our friendship then you did and in the end i get shit on. go figure... right?! i did everything i could for this person... i put more miles on my car just b/c we never took hers.. and yet im the one that got shit on. i bought her stuff all the time when we went shopping b/c she didnt have the money. i bought us food when we went out to eat b/c she didnt have the money.. b/c she had bills to pay. well your not the only with bills. i even bought her stuff after i got laid off. isnt that a load of shit.. but its whatever i guess. im over the bullshit and over the drama that came with her and our friendship. i may not have that many friends anymore.. but the one friends i do have mean the world to me and they are the only ones that matters b/c why.. b/c they were there when i needed them the most and they have been there through EVERYTHING!!

ok so maybe this did turn into a bitchy blog.. but oh well.. just needed to let somethings out! im gonna go get things ready for moms party tonight!! later!!
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Tuesday, May 26, 2009 

Current mood:my life is A-MaZ-InG
so i just realized.. alot is changing in my life..


me and allen are looking at houses! which is super exciting!! =) our life together is just starting and i absolutely love it! i cant wait to see where our wonderful life goes!! <3 and some things have happened that i would have never expected but oh well... its life and its our life and its amazing!!! =)


but on top of the good stuff there is some bad...
i have realized that the people whom i thought were real friends really werent. and the one person who always said they would be there... turned out to be the biggest two-faced person i have ever met. so with that said.. im done. you mean nothing to me. you were never a true friend. your someone who talks shit about everyone they know they turn around and act like there best friend and im sick of it. ive learned a few things in the past 3 years and thats not let the little things get to you... but from all the shit you talked.. and all the shit you said.. FuCk iT! our friendship is nothing.. obviously it never was.. and now it will never be ANYTHING! im done. i have a better life now.. and im lovin it. and nothing will ever change my amazing life! and now you are completely out of it.. so it will be 100 times better.


my family...
we are working through all of the shit we have been going through.. but they are my life and i dont know what i would do without any of them. they are amazing and my family is the best anyone could ever ask for! we have had our ups and downs... but you know.. its life and you just have to roll with the punches.. and you just have to keep on truckin.. so yeah.. my life is absolutely A M A Z I N G!!




so now im growing up.. and things are finally going the way i want them to. and im just so happy to have an amazing family, an amazing boyfriend, and his amazing family! my life cant get any better than this! =)
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009 

Current mood:depressed and missin him </3
so today is two years and it still feels like yesterday. it doesnt seem that long ago i lost my brother to the nasty ice storm in kentucky. but i have grown as a person and i do believe i am a better person than i was two years ago. i have grown up so much. i just doesnt seem real at all. it still feels like he is going to walk through the door. it was so hard today when i went to the grave with sarah and watchin my grandma and grandpa letting go of the balloons they put out there. everyday gets easier but then sometimes it just to hard. i miss him more and more everyday but then i realize that everyday that goes by is one more day im gettin closer to seeing his fantastic smile again. =) i love him and miss him more than anyone would ever know.

i just want to thank all my wonderful friends and amazing family for helping me through these tough times. without them i dont know where i would be. they are simply amazing!!! thanks guys!!!



well i just wanted to write a little bit but im going to go spend time with my family. talk to you all later!!


i LOVE all of you!!!!
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Tuesday, December 02, 2008 

Current mood:inspired
my cousin wrote this about my brother and i just wanted to share it with everyone b/c this is steve to the T. i never thought that anyone else looked up to him like i did. but my cousin indea is right... so i just wanted to share this with everyone...


Steven Craig Moore ♥
there are some people who are just different. theres something about them that sticks with you. whether it was their smile, or something they said...their attitude, or maybe their eyes. they make you feel good without complimenting you. you remember them because they left an impression on you, and you hope that someone will look at you the way you look at them. he was one of them. he had a laugh that was contagious and a personality that would blow your mind*. his heart♥ was big enough to fit everyone in it, and his happiness came from the smallest things. people like him leave footsteps through your heart and give you a thought of what perfect might be. and the footsteps are deep enough, and the thought is amazing enough to last forever*.






** indea- thanks for writting this about my brother b/c it is completely true! i couldnt have said it better myself. love ya hun! **
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Friday, November 07, 2008 

Current mood:random thoughts.
so i dont even know where to start to even begin. alot has been going on lately. like with the new president. spending all my time with allen [which is amazing]. then with holidays coming up and not having steve here. wow everything is just fallin into place again and it scares me.

the new president scares the shit out of me. im not sure we are ready for what has just happened. but i guess we will have to find out. im a republican all the way. MCCAIN-PALIN!!! but shit happens i guess. maybe he is what we need but then again im not sure we are ready.

allen. wow where do i even begin with this most amazing man i have ever met. he is honestly the perfect match for me. we are both complete smartasses but at the same time know when we need to calm down and be serious. he makes me laugh when im at work just by sendin me a text or something even when he knows im havin such a bad day. im so glad he walked into my life when he did. he is just simply amazing and i dont know what i would do with out him. im so glad he is going to be by myside when the holidays come b/c i dont want to go through them alone and i want to go through them with him. =) <3 and what can i say me and allen have a puppy and he is the cutest little thing ever. he's so lazy and playful at the same time. he keeps me laughin everynight when i get off work slippin and slidin all over the hardwood floors. =)


holidays... lord here we go again. not sure what to do again. everything is changing and everyday feels like its flyin by. its our second thanksgiving with out steve. its our second christmas without steve and yes for some reason it feels just like its the first. not only are the holidays coming up but then it comes to a day that i will never forget. jan 21st. i cant believe its been almost 2 years. it just doesnt feel like it. these past 2 years have flown by and they dont seem to be slowing down anytime soon. but i guess that is life. it doesnt stop for anyone. it keeps going and going and going and you just have to learn to move right along with it.


for once im tryin to make the best of my life. im realizing that i need to just be my happy self because steve wouldnt want me to be down all the time. so now im livin my life to the best as i can and just learnin everyday is just a chance to be here. and im just livin hoping god will let me live to the next. god puts us through obsticles because he knows we can make it through them. at the time you may not think you can but believe me he wouldnt put you through it if he didnt think you couldnt handle it.


sometimes you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.


ok ok.. well im gonna go get stuff done before i get ready and then when allen gets into town i can see him before i go to work =)
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Friday, August 08, 2008 

Current mood:missin you like crazy today =(
so last night i got a phone call from someone i havent exactly talked to you alot lately.. and well.. he told me i have an additude. yeah i do.. its b/c i have to defend myself everyday... i dont have a big brother do that for me. i have to do it all on my own and its really hard concidering my brother did it 20 years. but this person just told me to keep my head up high.. well obviously i have.. im still here. ive held my head high and so proud for the last 19 months.. im pretty sure i can do it for the rest of my life. im so sich of everyone always tellin me.. how good were all doing and how much they miss steve and everything else. b/c believe me NO ONE will ever miss steve as much and me. austin. mom and dad. thats it. and it pisses me off when people sit there and tell me that the whole thing with steve really got to them. well try livin 20 years knowning your brother is gonna be there... when you get marrried.. when your parents get old and gray and pass away. then when you both have children. but you know what reality slapped me in the face. he didnt make it to my 21st bday. he didnt make it to his 23rd. so when someone sits there and tells me to hold my head high and eventually it will get easier and eventually days will come around and it will be easier... yeah it might for everyone else.. except jan. 21st comes around every year. march 3rd comes around every year. christmas. thanksgiving. easter. days when he should be here. and not to mention my bday. my moms bday. my dads. austins. yeah every year there isnt just 2 days i think about steve will be a hundred. and something will happen and ill sit there and be like this isnt right steve should be here. so when you tell me you wont foget him but you will forget the pain and it will get easier and kiss my ass. b/c right now i dont think it can get easier. it hasnt yet.. it just keeps gettin worse. i miss my bubby being around alot but i cant bring him back even though everyday i wish i could.

just remember dont take anything for granted b/c you never know what that something or someone will be taken away from you!
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Tuesday, July 08, 2008 

Current mood:life goes on.. with or without you
my life as of now and forever. im gonna start doing EVERYTHING for myself. im not going to listen to what everyone is saying. im gonna do what i want to do. and if someone doesnt like that then "fuck them" b/c im done. im done with the bullshit. im done with being hurt and im done gettin screwed over by people that "care about me" well if you care about me.. then you will understand. im done with how some people tend to treat me. im done with it ALL. im done with always being the person that is always crying b/c people decide to walk all over me. im sick of it. for once im going to just live my life and see what happens. im gonna hang out with my friends and just go with the flow. im not gonna push anything. if something happens it happens. im just so sick of being played. i need a good guy. i need someone who will LOVE me for me and not expect me to change anything about me. YES i can be a bitch.. but shit i am a girl and i do have feelings and you may not see that.. but usually im a bitch b/c someone has been me be one. yes i have loved and lost. but i would have rather loved and lost then never have loved you at all. im going out of my mind thinkin about all the shit i have been through the past year and a half. and honestly there is only a hand full of people that have "actually" been there for me. they know who they are and if they hadnt been here... i wouldnt be here. =) so i thank them. b/c my life is gettin better but at the same time it isnt. i just cant seem to be happy and its killin me. im ready to be happy again. but that day will come. im just not gonna push it. when it happens it will happen. so until then im just gonna live. laugh. and love.


so this is kinda a long blog... but i just needed to say i have my own life. my own problems and im sorry for bring certain people into them. but you know that is the only way i have learned to deal with shit is to talk about it. so i will leave you alone.. and if you ever need me ill still be there for YOU. i just hope that you will still be there for ME when i need you.

im moving forward and not lookin back. im not going back down the same roads i have before. im just gonna keep truckin and if something comes around and someone walks around the corner .. then we will see what happens. but until then im just gonna work my ass off and do things for myself. b/c thats what i need to do. i need to do things for myself and make my brother so proud of me. and the things i have accomplished. =)


well im going to go get ready for work. just needed to let a few things out.





i love all my friends and my family that have been here for me.. and just know i will always be there for you. i am finally realizing who my "TrUe FRiEndS" are. and my true friends are amazing and i wouldnt trade any of them for the world. i LOVE you guys and thanks a million!!!! =)
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