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Gender: Male
Status: Engaged
Age: 25
Sign: Aquarius

City: Dallas
State: Texas
Country: US
Signup Date: 12/23/2004

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Saturday, August 25, 2007 

I love her more than anything in the whole wide world!!!!!!
joel=happy
very very very very happy.

Monday, June 25, 2007 

Alright, so…

It's been however long since I actually had anything to say in here. Actually a lot could have been said but I'm lazy and have more important things to worry about than myspace blogs.

Residence:

I living with my mom still, I think I mentioned moving in there in my last blog. That is about to end though, yay! I'm moving in with Caroline on Aug. 1st. It will be a huge change for me but I really think it's going to be the best thing for us. We are so fucking happy together its sickening. We found a great two story loft apartment out in Lewisville. I'm already making plans on what we are going to do with it. Im very excited. Parties at my place for anyone that wants to drive out to Lewisville. (it's really not that far at all)

The place has 9 pools, 2 stadium seat movie theatres available to anyone that wants to use them, free of charge. A dog park (we are getting a puppy ASAP) and a bunch of other things that made us jump at the chance to live there. Anyway, enough of my apartment commercial.

Caroline:

She is by far the best thing that has happened to me in… well, forever. I knew it was going to be something like this which is why I wouldn't give up when all the bad shit happened. I just wish that the others involved could have seen why it was so important. Sigh, c'est la vie. I haven't spoken to sean or john or any of them since that all happened. Every once in a while I feel like calling him to see how he's doing but I doubt he'd answer or be cordial even if he did. Sucks.

Anyway enough with the depressing part. I'm going to marry this woman. I'm 100% sure of it. I've felt love before but not like this. It's the same in a sense, but before I was an asshole and she and I just didn't get each other. I guess we just didn't fit it the long run. Caroline and I do, we are perfect for each other. She's bringing back a lot of my childhood which I didn't realize how much I miss until now. For a very long time I haven't been able to remember anything from about age 12 and before. Now I'm starting to remember all of that, random things, the good memories.

Employment:

I got a new job, again. This one isn't a contract job though!! I finally got a permanent position. No longer working in frisco (although it would be a lot closer to the apartment if I was) I got laid off from my temp job at Fujitsu and began talking to an old coworker that I worked with at ITC. She got me the job. It's with a power company that does all the power for Illinois, Missouri, etc. Feels pretty nice. Great pay and I think I'm making a very good impression. Chanda(my old coworker) is my lead so that makes thing's pretty easy to handle because we already have a decent relationship. Everyone else in the company is around my age which is quite nice. (No malice towards me because I know more than the 40 year olds like with most of my jobs)

Entertainment:

BONNAROOOO!! Jesus I had a lot of fun. Took off 4 days of work and drove to Tennessee to go to Bonnaroo. It was absolutely amazing. I think I'm making it a yearly thing. My mom want's to go next year. Saw Tool, THE MOTHERFUCKING POLICE (long story with that one though L ) Brazilian Girls, Ben Harper, Lily Allen, Hot Chip, Ween and so many others. You wouldn't believe how many people were out there. Felt like Woodstock. I can't wait till next time.

School: Caroline is going to UNT this coming semester which is why we moved to Lewisville. It's 23 miles to my work, and 23 miles to UNT so it's about the most central location we could find. I don't really think I'll mind the drive but we shall see.

I'll be finishing my bachelors and more than likely beginning my masters at UNT as well. I'm not sure that I wanna stay in Lewisville that long. Hell, I'm not even sure I wanna stay in Texas that long. I guess it all depends on where Caroline's physics/bio-chem stuff takes her. Who knows at this point.

Summary:

There is probably a whole hell of a lot more to say, various happenings and interesting facts but as of now this thing is pretty damned long (it has been quite a while) and my train ride to work is almost over. Speaking of which, my bus was late which made me miss my train more than likely making me late. Oh! I got another car. The BMW is still sitting in the garage waiting for me to work on it. I want to keep it. Tt doesn't need a whole lot of work, under a grand and it will be fine I just needed something reliable for the time being. I got a 95 Nissan Maxima with less than 80k on it for 1000 dollars. It's nice having family friends. Thanks Ginger! It was running fine but now I have to replace the battery cable. It had been sitting for quite some time so I guess some things are to be expected. I can't complain for a thousand bucks though.

Ok, pulling up to work now. I miss you guys that are actually reading this. I have a new phone, message me for the number if you want it.

Monday, March 05, 2007 

WOW....today was absolutly surreal. Never thought it was possible for anyone to have that little respect for a person. I got a call from john (my other roommate) today. Turns out while I was gone he and sean packed up all my shit, piled it into cars and called me to ask me where to put it.


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Who the fuck does some shit like that? John said its because he didnt want me coming into the house while he wasn't there because of his "legal reliability"

Since when did I become a criminal? I guess I was never aware.


So after 30 minutes of me freaking out trying to figure out where the hell im going to put all this shit with such a small timetable i call my dad and explain the situation and he allows me to bring it back to his house.


They brought all the shit over and john and his friends moved it all to my shed. Sean bolted as soon as he got there. Probably due to the fact that caroline was there.
Normally I would have been cordial in that situation but fuck it.


They moved everything while i sat and glared at them not lifting a finger. I gotta give myself props on keeping my anger in check though.


Sean (and john too), you guys are dead to me. I want nothing to do with you. After the phone call i got from john and the initial thoughts of putting your head between my foot and the curb I felt nothing. And I WILL feel nothing for you for the rest of my days. You now, and forever after, will mean nothing to me.





On a good note. After everything that went down today, I still had the most amazing night. Caroline was able to deal with a pretty hefty panic attack that left me in tears and bloody from the punching bag without batting an eye. We eventually left my house and came back to my moms with a 40 dollar bottle of wine and watched what the bleep do we know and discussed the differences between quantum physics and super string theory. It's so nice to find someone that is as intelligent as she. Someone I can have conversations with and not feel like im talking over them. She amazes me and I really hope it continues.

Sunday, March 04, 2007 

Looks like i'll be moving to an apt by myself as soon as my tax return comes in. I was kinda hoping to buy a car with it but it seems as though I have no place to live at the moment. If you read my last blog (the one that just said dammit) then you would be wise to assume this is regarding that previous post. My roommates asked me to leave this morning. Well moreso just one of my roommates. It' selfish, childish and all round just FUCKED up.


I've fallen for a girl. Pretty damned hard actually. She makes me feel something that I havn't felt in 3 years and its strange. But with that comes all this bullshit. My roommate likes her. She doesn't like him. Well... fuck. It's too late now to do anything about it anyway. Sean already resents me for her feelings toward me in the first place.
It was never my intention for her to like me or for me to like her. They never had anything other than friendship and now they don't even have that because of me. Or so it would seem. I honestly believe that were another woman to come into his life and be as much of a friend as she was to him that he would feel the same way about that girl. But what to do? Absolutely nothing. At this point there is nothing I can do.


Fuck it


Sean and John called me to the house this morning to "have a sit down". I don't even know why I was there. John wanted to know my feelings on the situation. Well I've made them pretty clear, Sean is being immature and selfish and he needs to get over it. I can't help that she doesn't like him.


The "sit down" was more of a statement of "you are no longer welcome here" by Sean. Why even ask what I want out of the situation? What the hell would anyone want. I'd like to keep my friendship and my home. My desires mean nothing in this situation so there was no need to try to address them.


Sean, you have made a horrible mistake and one day you will see it and its going to be much too late. Our friendship was worth more than your pride in this situation. I'm sorry you couldn't see that.


I care very deeply for all of my friends and thier feelings, but I will continue to look out for myself as well. If that means completely discontinuing a very long friendship due to thier inability to see things from an outside perspective (or one that is above the mental age of 12) then so be it.


I didn't ruin this, you did.




Yes I just aired a bunch of bullshit publicly on the internet. Flame me if you want, I don't really give a shit. I'm pissed off.

Saturday, March 03, 2007 

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Friday, February 16, 2007 

so yeah, its been a while since i last posted and a lot has happened. As far as the break in goes, mike got his car back, thats nice. I didnt get my shit back. AT least not through the police. I found the ring and the laptop. At a pawn shop. I bought it back cuz police involvement sucks. the tables still missing but i got a new one from my dad. That was quite nice of him.
Female situation still sucks. Still don't know how to handle that shit. It seems I don't know how to let things go, maybe someday i'll learn but until then i'm just gonna be completely fucked in the head once a week or so. I boced everything up tonight and put it in the attic. I'm sure that will help. If you have no idea what i'm talking about as you read this don't worry about it.
Went to the church tonight and ended up having a fucking awesome time. Met some really cool people and got pretty fucking trashed. Sean had a not so good night and I took acre of him.
I feel bad for him but on the other hand, i've been there, and being able to be there for him makes me feel very good. I like being able to be a good friend. It makes me feel needed. I'm sure theres some sort of psychological bad thing about that but fuck it. It;s good to feel like someone needs you. I don't give a shit what freud says.
I got in a wreck last week. That fucking sucked. It's a very strange feeling to see your life flash before your eyes. You start to think what it was worth. Somehow, in that 15 seconds before you slam headlong into a car at 50 miles an hour you are able to see everything that has happened to you, and you understand it. You understand what it was all about and what you did wrong and you realize that it's all nothing. None of it matters as long as you are still alive and can continue to have those experiences. Good, bad, happy, depressed. It all makes sense and you see that it was all worth it once its over. (the experience that is.)
Nothing is worth crying over, nothing is worth dying over. It's all just part of what makes you who you are.
I understood that at that moment, now i don't. I'm sure someday i'll get it again, till that day, i hope it all works out.
Im done reflecting. Goodnight to whomever actually reads this. I'm sorry for the typo's if any.
-Joel

Thursday, December 21, 2006 

My car was stolen this afternoon 12-20-06 from my apartment's garage. The apartment is located on Park Lane, in Dallas, near Abrams. A neighbor says she saw two men leave in it between 4 and 5. One was identified as a black male between 6' and 6'2" 160-180 pounds. If you see this car or know anyone that has please contact me or the Dallas police dept.

cell) 214-766-5906
work) 972-262-3332

pictures can be found at myspace.com/redtower


please repost where ever you can
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I am posting this for my roommate. Our condo was robbed earlier this evening and they made off with the skylark, my denon turntables, a laptop, a crate of hip hop records and a diamond engagement ring.
The tables are denon dp-dj151's. These tables are somewhat rare and are no longer made anymore so not many people have them. I doubt anyone has any they are willing to sell.
The Buick is also extremely rare and in ivory white even moreso, If you see or hear about either one of these items please notify me or him.
Thank you
-Joel

 

 

 

Monday, November 20, 2006 

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Saturday, November 11, 2006 

These are some of the pics from the Fire show at the lounge with Johan Geilen.




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Tuesday, October 31, 2006 

Well I'll be goddamned. This weekend was fucking greatness. Actually these past couple weeks have been pretty damned good. Been living with my mom for the past month or so since ive been "sans car". Engine be broke. Actually not completly, just not doing well enough to drive from Dallas to Frisco everyday. I forgot how much I actually liked my mother. This is the first time I've spent any length of time with her since I moved out when I was twelve so it's a nice change. Been hanging out with stephanie a whole lot. We started dating a couple of weeks ago I think. Thats going quite well. We all went to Meltdown on saturday which was off the fucking chain. So many people there. Dylan and Hive rocked the shit out of everyone. Rabbit in the Moon has the most insane stage show of any live EDM act I've ever seen. Fire, guys spraying sparks everywhere. Bumblebee in a giant fucking bunny suit on stage running around. A gigantic clear beach ball thing with someone inside it rolling around on top of the crowd. Just fucking greatness. Met a lot of new people and got to see some old faces that I havn't seen in a good while. My velvet goldmine/ziggy stardust costume didnt work out. My cock was just a little bit too obvious to not get arrested for public indecency. Alas. So instead, keeping with the theme, i dressed up like a tramp. Haha. That went over quite well. WTF is with it? I got hit on by more women dressed as a fucking woman than I ever did as a man. I think thats just what I'll have to do from now on. If you ever wanna pick up women, go as one of them. I swear, it will work.
Work Work Work Work Work. I feel like thats all I ever do but hey, at least im making money. I'm paying rent on the condo, paying my mom for food/gas/helping with the bills, and I still have money to spend which makes me extrememly happy. Who ever says money doesn't buy happiness has never been fucking broke.
To anyone who actually reads this, if i've seen you in the past month or so.. thanks for the good times.