Why am I always hopeless romantic? Does it make sense to me if there is no point I could find that cute girl with the great heart, but it's not easy to find that girl for me, but it still doesn't matter to me which the personality is the key than you think you are looking good on your own. So, I am just trying my best to find out where to find that beautiful girl. You know, of course, I am a happily single since almost 1 year. For the god's sake, I will be turning 24 years old. So, do you honestly think I am still young, ain't i? All of my co-workers are single from Express, but they are just enjoying their life, and this is just going to take some time. Maybe I could get my ex-girlfriend back (Charmaine), but I really don't want her to get hurt, and anything else. I really mean it, but I don't fucking know where the hell she is or she is gone already. I actually know that she is still attending high school in Las Vegas which she is a junior (15 years old only). However, I still love her as always, and I gave her necklace that means a lot to us for making a promising and wishing our dreams, but it seems that it didn't probably work out between us because we seem don't talk to each other anymore, and I was trying to text her a few times, but she said she couldn't text me anymore on her phone because she has too high bills, but I understand what's she saying. You have no idea how innocent she is. I guess, things has always changed, but sometimes future could be changed.

And.... my New Year resolution plans is to buy a used house or apartment, going back to University of Nevada Las Vegas if I save up the money as well, then I would because I make more money from Express. It was thanks to my co-managers and stock managers that gave me more hours and for what I've done it. I mean it. I learned a lot from them since I was hired on October 14th at the Forum Shops for orientation, then a few days later, I'm glad that we finally got to know each other. And I really hope that I would probably buy a used car or NICE car....but my friend from Sanrio at Fashion Show Mall wanted me to buy motorcycle becasuse we should race our battle. ha ha ha. Let's see what's going to happen.

Yeah, I major in Biotechnology if I try to study too harder like people at UNLV, but theres a lot of regrets that things I had to do in my past. I used to live in Washington, D.C. for one year which I used to be umemployed, and they were too expensive there. Plus, I attended Gallaudet University there too, but for some reasons, I didn't like it very much. That is why I moved back to Las Vegas with my family again, but it was just a good experience. You know its normal when some people fucked up on their own.

However, I am trying to find good dance stuido for salsa this year, hopefully. So, I could find sexy partner in my dreams. hehe. There's nothing to say that much about it, but I guess I have to find out what's going to happen in the near future. There's always next time, and my hopes.

CAUTION: THIS READ IS LENGTHY

I haven't vented in a long time, & i feel like i need to do this.
especially since i'm so passionate about this.

what does dancing mean to you? i wouldn't be able to say but i can tell you what it means to me. dancing is my soul. the life that is responsible for my current being. dancing is my utopia. i've never been so involved or so passionate about something before in life except my singing. i take a look around and what do i see? no place for my passion. no love for MY LOVE. i knew living here in vegas, that the dance scene wasn't big. shoot, when i first  moved i wasn't even into dancing. but now that i am, i take a look around and i get sad. there is no "SCENE" to call home.

 i joined a group that fueled my passion & i was surrounded with people who had the love that i had.over the past year, the dance community in vegas has made a lot of changes, it has evolved. i see more competitions, i see more showcases. it brings a light to my heart because, finally, the foundation for my passion was growing.

as the light in my heart started to burn, a wind threatened to blow it out. i have so much love for my fellow dancers. i admire them because they share the same passion & love that i do, something that not everyone will understand. but it is those very dancers that break my heart. but this is not to all dancers. it seems that here, dancers don't carry the love or RESPECT for their fellow dancers. the dancers who are a part of the same community.

it doesn't matter what kind of dancer you are; bboy/bgirl, house, choreo, modern, tap... IT DOESN'T MATTER, we are a community of dancers. we share the same love... so shouldn't we share the same respect for each other? do we not all work as hard as the next person? do we not beat our brains to create pieces? do we not all practices as hard we can?... so what is the difference? the style of dance we do? the level of our dance capability? that should not be an issue.

i am so tired of my fellow dancers, who i admire and respect, having such big heads & hold their noses up so high that they think they're better than you. remember, you are not god, you aren't higher than anyone else. there are many talented dancers out there in many styles of dance. we all have our own light & our own uniqueness. as my vocal coach tells me, "everyone has something to learn, regardless of your level" & i truely believe that. i'm tired of dancers being in their little boxes without the care of anyone else in the world. take a look around, the world is changing, there are OTHER styles other than yours, there are other dancers other than YOU. there are so many out there that can be GREAT, but choose not to become that because they choose to live in their box. OPEN YOUR MINDS. please. & i promise that it won't hurt. again, this is not to everyone.

i've met so many dancers who are supportive & encouraging. it is those people, who help me strive to be the best i can be. it is them who sheild the fire of passion from the negative wind that tries to estinguish it. honestly... if there were more dancers like that here in vegas, our dance community will not only grow... but will GROW TOGETHER. & that above all, that's what is important.

thank you for your time. & please let us rethink the way we carry our egos.

Well, I'm actually sneakingly researching on my dream car on the internet that I need to find the right car like Mrs. right woman, you know. I think I will possibly buy a new car on between December 2006 and February 2007 or until my birthday. I will see what I can do, but I am, hopefully, sure that I am just starting to save up the money how much I earn my income for just one year from Anchor Blue. I could make about 700 dollars every month and I make 6.50 an hour and 30 hours a weekly. You do the math. However, I am thinking of getting Acura RSX and Honda Civic and it depends on the year and model, but still, I am not decided yet. My managers really don't want me to get suffered like that, but they knew that I worked harder for them, With this company, it was thanks to Paul Tran, and Eddie taught me a lot for what I've done to them. It is surely an easy job for now. I currently work at Anchor Blue in Meadows mall. Feel free to visit me there sometimes. Please understand that if you could use my employee discount when I must get off at 3pm or 4pm, just because that is the policy. I think it would be 50iscount for $20 or over except you can't buy it where it is located clearance area between men and women. So, just to let you know that I couldn't get a new job at Victoria's secret because it was a failure for my phone survey about their invterview process is a telephone assessment, and the reason why incomplete survets may casue the job application to be rejected but I really hate this. Of course, it sucks for me. I learned my lesson already, but next time, I will probably apply it there again after 4 months or so. Anyway, I am still looking for a other job or so.

Yeah, this is my mission and I need to finish my mission this year. Maybe, I would be able to move out to southwest area of the town in Las Vegas for condo or house. I also need to find a realtor about a new home. I really need a place to live on my own or be roommate with a great person or whoever. Who knows. I need two things that I might buy Dining room and the furniture. It would be really nice to look everywhere else around my new home. This will be reality seriously in my dream, but I may be a hopeless person.

I will try to go back to University of Nevada Las Vegas (www.unlv.edu) for the future, but I already miss my old friends there on the campus. I haven't seen them for a pretty long time ago, and I think they will have a better life than me, but hopefully, I will probably graduate from college. Give me time to consider that I need an answer to find a real career, but come of think of it, I am majoring in biotechnology. I am telling you that is really long story about Washington, DC college where I attended at Gallaudet University. Log on to www.gallaudet.edu . So, I used to live with my former roommate named Witold from New York state, at the dorms and he is really smarter than the way I am and I have lived there in Washington, DC for one year, but I had visited Washington, DC many times when I was too young. Of cousre, I would always remember that place and sure, I would visit there sometimes if I could take someone else to see own his/her eyes around the city. Well, it seriously costs more money for tuition and out of state if you think you can really afford to pay enough for college, and shit, but no freaking way, it's not easy to make a living and use my common sense. I just realized a lot now after all. I just came back to Las Vegas and transferred UNLV from there. Otherwise, I'll get fucked up. Ha, but not really. It shouldn't be a problem with that.

I am truly happy doing what I want ..

when I want to lol

I get to date different girls, make new friends and meet new people

Hopefully one of you will catch my heart.. and when you do .. you will know it!