Hmmmm, what to write about? I haven't actually written in a while, I did some bullshit with lyrics not too long back but that doesn't count. The last few weeks have been kinda different. I've stopped talking to some people as much and I've started talking to some a lot more. I've been to the river like 5 times in the last 2 weeks and I look like an overweight lobster at the moment. I still can't find a job though I will be going out and looking more on monday so maybe that'll go good, though I'm pretty doubtful. I've been talking to an awesome girl named Angie lately, she's fucking amazing lol. I'm hoping I'll get to go out to the river a bit more before too long and burn even more and inevitably end up with skin cancer most likely. My 360 recently got the red rings and that's pissed me off beyond belief. I'm hoping to get it fixed before too long or risk losing my mind. I'm not really sure what else to write about at the moment so I'm gonna go ahead and stop, I hope this holds you over for now =P

But for some reason I can't really get sleepy.

"Put the bullet in the barrell, Take the safety off ,Keep shootin' at the devil in the moonlight"



"I know there's better brothers,but you're the only one that's mine"


"You think you've suffered well you ain't seen shit yet ,the pain won't set in for a long long time. I've fought off angels with my hands behind my back,I've set the heavens all on fire"



"It's like one of those chinese kites flying in the wind,and then some kid with a shotgun sends a bullet through it"



"It all makes sense, we're capable of beauty. Through sounds which makes one cringe.
The dogs only hear us now."



"She was a mink handjob in sarcophagus heels"



"She screamed love is such a strong word. I said what if we took a word,deciphered the innocence,And, well, um, fucked? Say what could you do?"



"Let this colony know in the name of the dead we're coming"

probably more to come later?

 

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People. [don't tell their names]

10. I can't stand the sight of you
9. I care about you more than you you can imagine....but oh well I guess
8. No more breaking stuff, ever
7.Run as far from here as possible
6. You're an awesome person, wish we hung out and talked more
5. What ever happened with us?
4. Steer clear of anything off the net
3. Go on to do great things
2. slow down with the cake, you'll end up in a gutter before long
1. Hoot Hoot
Nine things about myself.

9. I'm listening to Death Cab For Cutie
8.I have several piercings and a tattoo and plan on more
7. I plan on joining the military
6. I'm not a fan of spiders
5. snakes are cool though
4. I love living alone but hate it at the same time
3. I need a job
2.I want more guns

1. I think I'm becoming paranoid out here

Eight ways to win my heart.

8. Be yourself
7. don't take pity on me
6. don't tell me I'm basically your silver medal lol
5. don't hate the stuff I like
4. have a good sense of humor
3. don't always take things to heart
2. know that I'm a stubborn/ignorant person and keep that in mind
1. Be a fun person


Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

7. my future
6. needing a job
5. music, always a song in my head
4.friends
3.is my phone going off?
2. What ifs, lots of those
1. is there a point?

Six things I do before I fall asleep

6. get stuff off my bed
5. clean up(hygiene)
4. turn on my tv
3. check my gauges
2. tell Tiffany good night lol
1.wonder what I'm doing tomorrow


Five people who mean a lot. (in no order whatsoever)

5. Me Madre
4. My brother
3. Tiffany
2. Autumn
1. and the other large amount of friends I can't name because there's not enough numbers lol

Four things you're wearing right now.

4. Colored Converse
3. Jeans
2. Pancho Villa shirt
1. red glass gauges

Three songs that you listen to often.

3. Al the Killer
2. Styrofoam Plates
1. But the Nuns are Watching
Two things you want to do before you die.

2. Become a Cop
1. Canoe the Mississippi

One confession.
1. I can't seem to have any luck with females

I'm going....at least someones happy when they blog.

Along with another person I guess it's rant time? I never really have anything to write about so that's all I can do on here. Lately things have kinda sucked....no job....bills.....kinda lonely. I had a job for a while, for a while I mean two day, shortest one I've ever had. I still have bills, and the money which I've saved to pay them is slowly running out. As far as the lonely thing goes, well I live alone out in the country in a decent sized house for one person and the person I'm trying to start something with just doesn't seem to be that interested. I do have some good friends though that I can still talk to and hang out with so that helps a bit, but as anyone knows, it's just not the same. I've been having an ok time I guess though other than that shit, but I've been to Waffle House way too many times in the last month or two. Though the company there, friends not the workers, is usually quite lovely. I need to get something going in my life, I feel like I'm stuck in the worlds biggest rut and it's not cool one bit. Well shit, I think I'm gonna go walking, maybe that will aid in my struggle to gain a companion. 

Wow, it's 2009 already? 2008 was not the best year for me, but I guess it could have always been worse. Maybe this year will be a bit better, but it's not looking good. I cleaned up the house a little today, it's looks a tad bit better but my rooms still a disaster. Not that it actually matters, I'm the only one who sees it. I rung in the new year laying in my bed watching Moral Orel by myself, I'm a wild one ain't I? I've been alone too much today and I've had way too much time to think. Think about what I've done in the last year, what I'll do this year hopefully. Last year started off shitty when Steph broke up with me but I eventually got over that with a bit of time. Then in Feb. I turned 18 and got my tattoo then went to the C&C concert on the 26th. School went by fast after that, playing Bari Sax in band and having a good 'ol time with everything that went with band really. Then came graduation, much more disappointing than I'd expected. The summer was wonderful, shooting terrible movies, driving around, going to S.C. for Comp. and just having fun in general. BTBAM came to town on Aug.2 and me and Smith camped outside rocket town for about 2 days to see them. After seeing them we got some stuff signed and headed out, I don't remember the drive home, though I did wake up parked on the side of the road at about 3 in the morning. That was great time. I got a job after that, and then a little while after that I got into a bit of trouble and stopped having as much fun. I got most of the trouble taken care of but now I'm trying to find a job since I've been laid off twice and I'm tired of it. I had a point when I started this but I honestly don't remember what it was. Anyways, maybe this year will be a bit better than last, but it's unlikely.



Llama Llama, Red Pajamas. 

Have any of  you ever though about what exactly "time" is? In all actuality it's nothing more than a measurement if you think about it. Man created the term "time". Man created the sundial, then the clock to keep up with. Man created "Daylight Savings Time" to give himself more sunlight, therefore altering "time". If time was an actual thing that one could travel through then we wouldn't be able to alter it because the alterations change every year, not even counting a leap year which throws a wrench into the whole thing. So if you tried to go back to 3:30 p.m. on a Wednesday in 1745 you could end up several minutes off, several hours off, several days off, or perhaps even a year or more off if "time" is actually a travel-able thing. Therefore I believe that "time travel" is not only impossible but improbably absurd.


I'm not going to proof read whatever I just wrote.....if it makes since then go me, if not then oh well. I just felt like rambling, so ramble I did. 

I have discovered that living alone isn't all it's cracked up to be when you can't actually have any fun. No people over, no time to fix it up, not wild crazy orgy parties, not that that last one would happen anyways. On the bright side, I will be able to do some of this stuff in about 2 weeks, I've been pretty much promised to be laid off by the 15th. The negative to that will be that I will be laid off and have no job or money.......and might have to move back in with me madre, which I don't want to do at the moment. If any of you guys have any suggestions then please to send them to me, I'm having trouble thinking something up. I thought about becoming a vigilante but I realized that actually cost money and promised nothing more than jail time, I don't want that. So I need help, help me damn you! 

Well I went to the bands competition at Trousdale County this past Saturday and they did pretty good and I had a good time. I'm doubtful I'll go to anymore though, it reminded me too much of being in band and knowing that I couldn't participate anymore kind of bothered me. I still got some of the perks of being in band like free admission and dinner but I just hate knowing that I can't do any of the other stuff like performing. This might not really matter to anyone who hasn't been in band but to me it does. The competition also brough back some other memories that I wish it wouldn't have, because the last time I'd been on a bus going to a comp or game I'd had a certain person to sit next to me. Most everyone knows who I'm talking about, and it's not that I'm like missing her or anything but it just brings back memories, like not being able to perform bothers me the same way. Other things bothered me about the competition too and I'm like 95% certain I won't be attending another one, and if I do I'll drive and just sit in the stands, watch the bands play and then leave. 

I've done some stupid stuff in my life, I know this. Who can say that they haven't though, except for those of us who are perfect and have only had a "bad check" once in their life. I honestly think this is bullshit, but that's another story for another time. Anyways, I need to get back on track, this is just me ranting because I've noticed a few things over the last week or so. If you're 18 then you're not an adult, at least until you fuck up, then they let you know. If you do good then you're still just a young kid in peoples eyes, but when you mess up you're an adult and you should have known better. There's that and then there are the people who seem to think that because I messed up once that I'm a fucking horrible person who they want nothing to do with anymore. Also though there are people that you expected to be furious with you about it.......strangely enough they're not, they're not necessarily happy with you but they're not angry. The reason they're not angry is because, they're human beings and have made mistakes too and can relate to you. This was a pointless blog but I don't know what to do, I'm just kind of disgusted with all this stuff, fuck.