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Benjamin Michael Mathews


Last Updated: 12/15/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 22
Sign: Pisces

City: Görlitz
State: Sachsen
Country: DE
Signup Date: 12/30/2004

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[04 Oct 2009 | Sunday] 
Hmm so just after linking to my new post and suddenly my website disappears! fuck! I don't know when the last time I backed it up was...

There goes the watcher's log for now at least...

Updates on the situation soon.
[04 Oct 2009 | Sunday] 

Category: Life
I am currently working as a security guard in an incredibly freaky, abandoned Hospital in Germany. As you would imagine this is both terrifying and extremely interesting experience. So far a lot of stuff has been going on here, weird stuff, and as such I have started to keep a 'watcher's log' which I am posting online on my website. So far I have posted my first log, but I have another written and roughly 1 gig of photos, several drawings, and quite a lot of film shot. As time goes by I will not only be posting written blogs but also video content and more.

Check out the watcher's log here: www.michaelmathewsart.com
[06 Jun 2009 | Saturday] 

Category: Life
so I'm finished college!!
What next?
A transition period of some kind...

I have many thoughts, but yet to test my options.
Film, teaching, and later in life maybe part time counselling. For the moment I will probably have very few if any jobs of interest open to me though, and also visiting my dad in july which fucks everything up- completely in the way of everything-of starting anything right now. but hopefully should be good - give me a reason to fix up the division DVD and try translate it.
I guess tomorrow I will come up with some plans, i guess I will tidy up the division DVD and make some new related art and hopefully t-shirts for now though.

recession is sounding depressing-had to listen to the radio on the bus on the way home - gives me some idea of what I can expect. Will prob be difficult to find a job.

how is everyone?

[08 May 2009 | Friday] 
Just over a week ago was the trinity ball battle of the bands - I went along to record noise machine and interview them - ended up recording some of the funky after party stuff too. Wanted to just give a small sample of the band and what they are about, the 'sex party' starts here:


There were some other really great bands there that night too, including: Rosie Ellis :D, Octane theory, Jooles King, and she's the fastest. I also have uploaded the video of She's the fastest - they had the guts to jump of the stage and rock with audience- wicked! Also hugh is another class mate - and it was a brilliant surprise to see his band there.


Perhaps more to come - there is some more odd stuff from the noise machine after party that I would upload. Might see about uploading more after exams. Will be selling a new version of division at the 'dark summer market' dunckerclub july 12th, and ayacon, england this august. :D Also hoping to make some clothes merch.
[24 Sep 2008 | Wednesday] 

Category: Art and Photography
Click on the below link to go see my film, it should be worth it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-lZyhhT4eE
Rock and roll/punk inspired anime/Animated short film litered with grafitti, containing anime, 3D animation, Live action. When Atsushi Crowley moved to Munbim, he forgot the life he behind him, changed his name and started a band. However All this changes when Jill comes from Atama City to find him.2 Original soundtracks by Noise Machine.Stars Toshiharu Fujita, Zia Holly, Daniel Bergin, Maeve Delargy and Benedicta Knoblauch.My first animated short film- The DVD with loads of extras is now available- you can find this and more of my stuff on my website www.michaelmathewsart.comDVD contains the alternate soundtrack version, behind the scenes, a 30 minute tutorial on how to make a short animated film, director commentary, and cut scenes.Other than the working on the film I have been stuck down here in louth minding my sister for alot of the summer, I was working in graphic design for some software, and I went to see my dad and make some stock imagery for the film and the sequel in Berlin for a bit... I am back to college at the start of october.:p its been awhile... I know. sorry.Hope you find the film interesting- and if you know anyone who you think might find it interesting- please forward the link on to them.all the bestb
[07 Mar 2008 | Friday] 

Category: Blogging
OK, none of you probably remember me... I used to be your semi invisible friend before study and art killed me and turned me into a ghost (a friendly ghost, much like casper, only I dont look sperm).
 so I don't visit this place and certainly haven't updated my myspace site in awhile... for instance- I obviously do not work out 3 times a week anymore and I do not consider myself a nude model anymore- unfortunate about the earlier, fortunate about the latter (esp. for those of you cursed with any ability to mentally visualise things).
I am 21 today. This means I have to procrastinate- for many people this also means they have to go and spend large amounts of time in a pub- I tried this yesterday (well more like 15 mins- after a few hours will college friends). pubs- i stand around- try and talk to people- fail because of the loudness of the music- try and dance- denied because to dance when noone else is dancing is thought insane, and insanity is frowned upon; and lets face it, the stupidly loud music alone in these places is generally NOT enough to keep you entertained over long periods of time.  
always busy, I take it upon myself, i know... feeling that because no one else has all my amazing abilities, that I must take on everything (see how humble I am). S2S P.R.O. (and an incredibly active person in S2S in general), Trinity arts workshop committee member (this is newish- I consider myself their most amazing consultant who they give all access free stuff to-hell yeah!) but I am also working on two films- one an animated film for filmmakers, another with the rest of the Trinity undergraduate placebo research group. The latter has been particularly annoying, because they are not being very professional about it and have shown an inability to take it seriously. I have however communicated this to them- but the problem is, as always, there is a limited time frame, and as always, there are ver few opportunities for us all to meet together.
I may upload the screenplays for these films soon though, and perhaps, after I go and rent some films, I will spend the rest of my 21st doing some art for the animated film- posters, more developed character sketches, if those fail (they require alot of patience, finish and attention to detail), just story board stuff. Last year I had the excuse to be alone because I was studying for scholarship exams, this year I am just alone because I have been an omnipresent ghost for so long, that although everyone has a sense of who I am, those I have had a real sense of closeness with- all this was established long ago- is it now a memory- we can hardly ever meet- I hope those memories of me don't fade... when I am not so busy- i will miss you very dearly.
I hope too that I can help foster new memories of me and establish a sense of real closeness again- and still manage to keep things moving.
Entertainment- yes- I can give you that for your time here. I have a new comic of mine, that is in press, BEFORE PUBLICATION!!! dare you look upon it and make a small deep monotone "ha" sound to it's amazingness!! DARE YOU!!
also, Michaelmathewsart.com and michaelmathews.deviantart.com - perhaps my only physical existance in your worlds has been in the digital representaitons of my art, not quite as extreme and entertaining as having hot chocolate in a cafe no doubt, but still!! maybe another day? hot chocoloate anyone? or maybe even greentea and food at my place?
 
 
[14 Oct 2007 | Sunday] 

Current mood:what do feelings feel like?
Category: Art and Photography

13/10/2007 New articles, graphic design, anti-fanart and fanart of me!!


A michaelmathewsart.com update


So much is happening that I thought it was best to post this before it mounts up further. Ok so I have just loaded up two new sections articles and graphic design. There is a bit on them now and I have two new advertisements of mine, just published, and an article of mine, just about to be published; I'll put them up too as soon as possible. In the articles section I have a new anti-fanart image and article entitled "dragonball z kicks Naruto's ass". Because lets face it, any author that can get away with putting an innuendo in the title and pitch of a cartoon for teenagers can get away with anything. Click here

Also, not only have I made anti-fanart of naruto, I now have "fanart" of my own. Thats right! someone made a pic of me! :D. Well actually just a present from a random person. I reminded them that they are doing much better than me on Deviantart and they made me this picture. Present for Mr.Michael Mathews by ~leoslittlebride on deviantART




fuck its 1pm and ive done nothing useful today so far.
let me know you exist, post a comment!
[14 Aug 2007 | Tuesday] 

Category: Art and Photography

I launched a website!click here

So, im here again...
ANd I have been working on a few projects:

Firstly Im working on a music video with a band called fanny pack on a song called crazy bunny- if you like weird or alternative stuff- you will love this (hopefully)

Secondly Im writing up a proper script for a proper length comic thingy that I hope to work on.

Thirdly I just launched a website www.michaelmathewsart, and Im signing my works with that address from now on.

Fourthly: Im writing for and illustrating two magazines- the articles will be on my website AFTER publication, the illustrations right after I do them.

Fifthly: i just finished some logo designs for a student counselling service and also a billion euro property management company in germany.

Despite all this I am poor as hell- none of this stuff has been paid for and I havent had work in three weeks... gotta pay the rent soon. [profanities go here].
Please console me by commenting on my work/this journal and making me feel it was a worthy cause. OR you could watch me go utterly insane, record it secretly and then put it up on Youtube...

An animation I made last week

www.michaelmathewsart.com

this link is proof that there is a god more existant than yours.


michaelmathewsart.com
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[18 Jul 2007 | Wednesday] 

Current mood:  crazy
my first video and bonus featurette v2

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Back from berlin, not so much to say. I intend to make more films in the future- but with less of reality in them, and more of my strange imagination.

a comment would be appreciated!! :P
[29 Jun 2007 | Friday] 

Category: Art and Photography

The comic portrays climate changed Ireland in the year 2100.
We rely on technology for everything and it's efficiency and the change of climate in Ireland means that we now live in a perfect time, with blissful weather, great lives, and a minimal amount of work. What's more everything seems to be on the way to becoming even better, or at least, even more extreme. However, if you follow everything to it's inevitable conclusion, the bottom panel is what you get. The point is that we are living in the future now, and although things might not be as obvious as they are in this comic, we are all ignoring the obvious consequences of what happens when it continues to get warmer, and we become continually dependent on tools. We eventually we become unnecessary for the tools to function, and we lose the need and ability to control eventually.

This is a comic I have made for miscellany magazine in trinity.
I have never read the magazine before... and yet i have written an article for it and done this and may or may not be the illustrator for the next magazine. Whether or not any of those things will come to pass is unknown however, as although they asked me to illustrate, i asked for money to pay for my materials, and although they are looking for a change in image- my article is extreme undiluted, undeluded, hippy trippy psychological ...stuff... and as for the comic... its not very political, it has some gore (although i did decide to have the entry wound rather than the exit wound on the corpse showing), the meaning is not superficial, and its a little silly.
Hope you enjoy it anyway.

I will post the article, and probably an uncut version too, after it is published. Have to fear the demon flying internet surfing article thieves apparently.

By the way in case you didn't know, my recent suggestion of biscuit based therapy was banned.
Biscuits are apparently beyond the budget of poor old trinity college.

a censored finished version will instead appear in the student diary on the time table page, also designed by me... as is the new logo and name (this is what was formerly peer support network... the end result is a compromise of what i wanted and what the counsellors and overseer of peer support wanted).