Well im sitting here.
in florida, orlando.

in this run-down house that never sleeps.
I have work in about 5 hours.
and i cant sleep because someone left the vaccum running.
hold on.

No someone is using it.

I got a car, 91' volvo.
the gas gauge doesn't work, and the MPH one jumps every now and then.

I bought it with my own money.


I dont know what to say right now.
im not pissed about living here.
kind of helps,
kind of kills me.


this fucking vaccum is still runnig.
i need to go to sleep.
its almost 3 fucking am in the morning.
and i need to go to work soon.


what the fuck,


Sorry.

Orlando's new.
I got a car.
'91 volvo.
$700.
if you ever buy something that expensive. and you look at the bank recipte, its a scary thing.
61.30 to your name for 2 weeks, gas and food money.

im going to make a trip up to south tampa and new tampa,
need to scrape up some money for gas and shit.

this'll probably happen in a couple of weeks.. i'll get settled into my job, get uh couple pay checks, pay off some people, then head up there.

tell me if i can stay at your place, i hear it's illegal to sleep in a car.

but orlando, nothing to say about it really.
i live in a really trashy place now, you really have to watch what you say.
crime's alot bigger, shits more deadly.
its not that bad though, just more real.

from what i hear, all of this shit that's been happening, it'll just better me in the future if you look at it the right way.

I don't really care, im just in orlando to make money,
cant have fun over the summer when you don't know anyone in 407.

But moving from a mid sized house to a really small house in the middle of the ghetto is a real shock.
really opens your eyes to tell you the truth.
im diggin' it.

i think that once i get out of all of this stuff.
get a couple G's in my pocket im going to move around.
kind of nomad this shit.

yeah..

im moving to my fathers house right when summer lets out.

eurotrip was canceled.

its pretty much the end.

 

im really sorry to you kids in new and south tampa.. but i wont see you guys for a while. if ever again.

 

so if you read this, id advise to organize a final meet.

because i'd like to go out with a bang.

 

later kids.

I want you guys to know.

that im going to be moving far away.

i kind of guessed this..

my mom and my relation ship would eventually go to hell, you know.

 

but what im trying to say is that this morning.

i was told I had three choices.

1.Go to boarding school in cleavland. spelling.

2.Go live with my father, he's a coke-addict who lives in orlando.

3.Go live with an Aunt in Texas.

 

for all you people that know me, or see me in school.

i dont have a phone anymore.

cell phone that is.

929.4363 is my house phone number, i dont know if im home too much, but its worth a try.

hell, its not like im actually going to get that many calls out of this.

 

sorry, im in a really bad mood right now.

i've been skating around for a while, deposit'd a check.

$896

 

back to the issue of my parents.

my mom, who i live with, wants me out of the house for good.

this is going to happen over the summer.

 

what im lobbying to do is live with my father in Orlando.

being that he's how he is.. i can get away with alot down there.

what im trying to do, is get the child support checks, that my mom will be sending.

taking those checks and living in an apartment in new tampa.

 

now the thing is, i don't know my father's cellphone number.

mostly because of the loss of my phone.

 

where was I..

 

well thats kind of the plan.

 

but im really rock bottom right now.

this is probably one of the worst moods that i've been in for a while.

 

im at a library at the moment.

I dont have any internet at my house.

lovely mother took it, not comming back.

 

I really wanted to get this posted mostly because i want whom ever is reading this to know whats going on mostly..

 

ive been skating around alot, other than working.

and just finding really peaceful places and just well .. being there.

 

i think that im running out of things to say.

by the way, ignore that blog that is under this one.

it makes no sense to me, it won't make shit sense for you.

 

i dont know.

really.

shit..

I had alot typed.

but just hit a link..

and its gone.

 

 

starting over.

 

 

ok this is whats up.

Ive been informed.

by my mom.

that im paying for the rest of my stuff from now on.

its messed up..

 

eh.. atleast im not one of those yuppies that gets all their money from their parents ..

 

haha yuppies

what a good word.

reminds me of guppies..

which reminds me of south tampa.

 

man fuck..

 

Ive been chilling with a couple diffrent kids..

its cool, although

yeah.

im thinking about when i do get my car.

to pay 200some bucks a month, that pay to own thing..

need you guyses input on this.

now that I have to pay fully for a car, I need some advice.

 

but yeah devendra..

good music.

 

 

a list.

of what im listening to lately..

radiohead

devendra banhart

gorillaz

peter tosh

matisyahu

dj shadow

elliot smith

kottonmouth kings

mirah

the pixies

TI.

 

isn't it sad that i couldnt remember i had been listening to?

I actually had to look back on my mp3 player..

 

man.

this world is ending..

 

i dont even know anymore really.

im done saying my shit.

 

ask me something.

 

Its really late tonight.

its friday,

1.43 am.

wait, its saturday.

 

working at taco bell is good and bad.

im not going to talk about that shit hole.

im going to talk about my shit.

anyone ever notice how that 70s show pretty much never ends..?

ive been on and off watching it for about 3 hours now.

listening to random bits of music.

so yeah, im moving again.

shits fucked up.

fucking fuckers fuck fuck fukkererzszzz.

i dont know where, i dont know what is going on alot really.

i live in the present, not in the future.

I should be thinking more about the future, college, jobs ect ect..

but what I believe in is that tomorrow isn't promised,

so why would you hold back today.

 

I try to talk to alot of people,

but im a shy guy.

maybe reserved, being that I talk to them after I know them,

but still, for all you people that are all bleh.

you need to wise up and enjoy life..

 

talking to old friends is really cool.

new friends are cool too, but when the old bond that you had is all the same after a couple months to a year is crazy..

I dont know much about my mother anymore, and im not really trying to figure out stuff with her.

 

isn't that quite a subject change? friends to mothers'.

 

meh..

 

I watch cops alot..

yeah, that subject isn't going anywhere.

 

I believe that TV is kind of a waste of time.

 

Not having a car is really shitty..

I get everywhere on my damn board.

its nice, weather and all.

but alot of people at my school are pricks.

some days people will pass me and its pouring rain and they don't pick me up.

or its a really fucking hawtt day and they just drive by.

 

I dont like new tampa.

fuck

negativity.

negative on negativity.

fuck that, keep it positive.

 

so whats been good?

karreigh is cool, dinners alot n'stuff

keeping it in touch, not forgetting about the unforgettable drivers ed bond.

 

other people that i've met at freedom are cool.

but most of the time I dont understand people.

 

You know, I haven't met a person yet that I can totally connect with?

there's a few that are extrememly cool..

but when everyone is like ahh I have my best friend!

to tell you the truth, i've never met that person, that i've known since the first grade.

 

shits gone down,

shits gone down wrong.

 

ive moved,

and people are just fucked up.

 

I dont know whats up anymore, but its getting later and later.

and 70s is still on.

 

one of these days when I get a car.

im going to an indian reservation,

get some mockasins, spelling on that shit, and just see what its like.

 

the whole native american stuff is fucked up.

you know, back in the day..

I dont know, for all we know the past never happened.

dude, the world is so crazy, its hard to believe anything

 

religions, history, people, future, events..

everynight, I can never go to sleep.

which is why im on here.

 

but I think about death.

that probably sounds really bad.. but not in that way.

im saying, as an ending, like whats up with all the religions..

death in general, whats it like.

can you think of when you're like 80some years old, and you look back on these days, and you're like damn..

I dont even know where im going with this, it makes sense to me, but probably not to any of you.

 

literally I dread that death is one of those black things.

where its nothing, abyss..

I mean, just fix your mind on that.

 

im not ending this shit on that bad of a note.

 

I kind of ran out of things to say.

 

you know, I type online exactly what im saying.

or what im thinking.

I dont really edit my shit

which usually blows up in my face.

 

im paranoid about people.

like if they dont pick up their phones I just apply that im just annoying to them.

or if it takes them a while to awnser they're just annoyed.

 

it really gets to me, and pisses me off.

 

but I dont know, but im kind of hungry.

kind of thirsty.

 

but its 2am.

 

Fuck man, im moving.

I dont remember if I told you about this.

 

but this is a long ass blog.

oh yeah, moving. so yeah, im moving again.

somewhere near-er westly chapple.

its fucked up, and I dont know the situation with the car.

situation, that looks mispelled.

 

fuck man, whats up.

I ride my longboard alot.

It's my transportation until I get a car.

             ^ spelled wrong.

Car = january 12th.

I listen to rap and indie when i'm skating.

I try to type nice.

Like period's and all that jazz.

I don't have a good life.

Stuff has gone wrong.

Alot of stuff.

I don't have alot of close friends.

I'd like to change that, but I find it hard to trust people these days.

I like compliments

I like taco bell.

I believe in peace.

And peices of the Hindu and Buddism.

Christianity isn't really my style.

I don't have a problem with christians, unless they try to convert me.

They're like republicans.

I don't like republicans, I don't understand how it's okay to kill 30k people in Iraq.

Odds are, most republicans don't even know the actual facts.

Or they just ignore them.

let's get away from negativity.

I like alot of types of music.

not all, but alot.

indie, rock, rap, hip hop, blues, classic rock, techo, and well. music that can't be defined by a word.

I think that people shouldn't judge peope for what they do, but how they act.

When people talk behind peoples backs, that annoys me.

it also annoys me when people don't accept me.

I don't get accepted that much.

alot of people don't like me.

alot of people ignore me.

and I got a couple homies.

which is cool

i don't know where this rant is going.

I really don't anymore.

i'd put it on my LJ but no one really knows what it is.

I like that.

so i'll leave it here.

and let you lurk.

 

peace and love guys.

stay safe.