when the mission is done and i'm back at the shop, i take on another role that has yet to be put into my job description as lead tech support for the flight. from printer issues and computer resets, to troubleshooting and configuring programs, i'm constantly on call. 

i do whatever is needed at the shop, and after a week of work, on friday nights i'm often found passed out nearly unconscious in bed getting a few winks worth of sleep before being woken up by a friend at around midnight or so inviting me over to hang out with the group for a while. 

however, of course not all places are without their problems. i am constantly looked down upon by a particular co-worker who see's me as nothing but shit, and in an attempt to bring a boost to his already overly obese ego, tries to knock me down every chance he has, as if i'm supposed to revel in his superiority, when in fact i've succeeded in alot of aspects where he failed. i went through basic military training, busted my ass, and had i have done 10 seconds better on my run, i would have been given honor graduate status, whereas THAT fucker couldn't hack it and was sent to the 319th medical holdover squadron and put in "fit flight" over issues he could easily fix, and stayed there for six months on top of being recycled once he got out. he too was reclassed but he obviously either doesn't give two shits about what he does unless he's outshining another or he really is stupid as hell, because when he got here, he spent somewhere to the tune of 3 or 4 months down in the training area taking forever on his cdc's, not meeting deadlines or anything and it took me less than 30 days to get out of there and be 33% done with them. he even tries to make it seem like he's some badass for having a horrific childhood and a father who is ex- delta force. it doesn't fucking matter how you're brought up, what matters is the person you make yourself to be later on, which in his case isn't working out too well for him. couple that with the fact that every other word that is said from that ignorant retard just slams down hard on my "don't freakin' push this!" button and you've got the makings of a bad one-on-one working relationship.

that, along with one or more issues that are not to be spoken of have left slight imperfections on an otherwise great time here. and though a few particular gripes are present here and there, i still have to say the good outweighs the bad. i'm blessed with many friends old and new, i'm looked upon in a good light by my supervisors(hell, i was even invited to a party with them on my 21st) and even for the most part by my darth vader-esque flight chief, and though there are a few problems that come up here and there, my continued path is still gaining altitude. so all-in-all things are looking bright. hell, i don't even have any debt, lol

happy? by: mudvayne

decent money coming in, a very nice place to chill

waking up, doing work, a little time to kill.

a cool and rhyming supervisor, a mentally intimidating mass

he's a retired senior master sergeant, in PT he kicks our ass.

a cool friend from my tech school, reclassed from training in SERE

had a year and a half in service before he even made it here.

a small project i'm doing, an experimental effort of sorts

have my own supercomputer, 3 towers and lots of ports.

the future now looks bright, out here it's pretty cool

and because of how work is handled, i can test my way through school.

...and yet i get a feeling as i stare into the night

inside a room of circuits, controllers and electronic light.

something deep inside that just doesn't seem too clear

an unmistakable want that i can't seem to find out here.

'till found i take to my music, within it's lyrics i do confide

something missing from within that's bugging me inside.

fuck my life....

nerd rap:

i'm a nerd, i'm a geek, i'm a techno freak
i see a  graphics card at the store and let out a shreak
i use gigahurtz to measure how fast i think
and push every system i have to the absolute brink
i'm an XP hacker and a gamer too
don't meet me on halo, or i'll frickin' pwn you
doesn't matter if it's dial-up vs. dsl
i'll still find ways to beat you, you're in gamer's hell
bioshock, system shock, and KOTOR 2
there isn't a game i wont try out, it's true
i've got 2 youtube accounts and asassinate spam
with my 512 megabytes of system ram
i'm a movie maker too so if you have the chance
check out a vid like hyperactive techno dance
i've got many cd drives, i use one as a coaster
the dvd one above it doubles as a toaster
i've got an old monitor that i made HD
so i can play all my games in 720p