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Sara Herling


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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 23
Sign: Libra

City: Mineola
State: New York
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/6/2005

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Sunday, November 11, 2007 2:10 AM

Current mood:  content
OK, so, since people have been requesting my Christmas gift list, here it is. BTW, I know some of these things are pretty expensive...those things I've added specifically for my parents to get me (well, to consider getting me), so don't worry about them.

***Please note, I'll be changing this list (adding more things) as time goes on, so be sure to check it again later.

Trick Fairy, Size L
Jew-ish, Size M, Style: Girls Casual Tee, Color: Baby Blue
Jagshemash, Size S, Style: Guys T-shirt, Color: Teal

Video Games
Dance Dance Revolution: Hottest Party (Wii)
Wii Sports (Wii)
Super Mario Galaxy (Wii)
Guitar Hero: Any of the games, plus the actual guitar
Bully (PS2)
LocoRoco (PSP)
LifeSigns: Surgical Unit (DS)
 
Hot Topic
 
Sock Dreams
Thursday, October 04, 2007 7:28 PM

Current mood:  bouncy
atwilightfaery: the only bad thing about cheddar cheese is that it makes your mouth taste like ass

JustAnAsian27: im sure theres some guy out there who says right now "why cant i just have a girl who will share my deodorant with me, so it can sooth our souls?"

a twilight faery: i don't like crusty, stiff undies

scherzo7solenne: i sure i couldn't do it i'd be like i don't see the word taco any were this isn't spanish

atwilightfaery: like an orgy, but without the sex

Tra3388: yes, but from pics, anyone can see that you are teh hooterz

JustAnAsian27: she has low self nasal esteem 

atwilightfaery: guess what! i got an offensively suggestive myspace message from a black guy! my first one!!!!!

JustAnAsian27: but no one wanted my pickles and i was like SARA!!  EAT MY PICKLES

atwilightfaery: why can't i just be a lesbian?

JustAnAsian27: ive just been playing sudoku and i had nothing to say about 7 minutes in so called heaven

atwilightfaery: well, my guess is that he would be rather shocked, then just surprised, then turned on

Tra3388: a gay male twilight faery

atwilightfaery: yes, boobs certainly can deaden a conversation

newyorkpsychoo: uhhhoh boner status

atwilightfaery: i am poor, and this is why i can't buy my own underwear

puzz3dmaster: so if i want to hit on a girl, i should ask about helping them in the shower? i'm off to the mall to try this out!

atwilightfaery: she's like, the lesbian version of me

puzz3dmaster: why was i voted best father o.o

atwilightfaery: i've never had a sexual experience with a girl!!!!!!!!!

scherzo7solenne: i want to grow up to be a waffle but i don;t think is going to happen

a twilight faery: she's not just a lesbian, she's also an incestbian

Tra3388: what is the answer to world peace?  how much wood can a woodchuck chuck?  why are you sara? :-P

a twilight faery : rob is interested in: men

Necromancer920: ive gone out in nut huggers too

a twilight faery: she brings out the lesbian side of me  

Tra3388: like self-love of your words, instead of your genitals

a twilight faery: and i just discovered $10 in my cleavage

Tra3388: <3 naked jew groove 

a twilight faery: i wonder if you can have sex in fetal position

Monday, September 24, 2007 11:34 PM

Current mood:  relaxed
First off, let me start out by saying I REALLY don't need any gifts from anyone. Seriously. Your friendship is all I ask for, and it means the world to me. That said, Tracey asked me to make a list of stuff that I want for my birthday. I feel like a brat asking for stuff, but she asked...so here it is.

T-Shirts
Teen Girl Squad, Size L: http://homestarrunner.stores.yahoo.net/ihacronevboo.html
Biotech, Size L: http://www.spreadshirt.com/shop.php?op=article&article_id=2143056&p=1
Meh, Size L: http://www.thinkgeek.com/tshirts/ladies/8aa2/
Geek Love Poem, Size L: http://www.thinkgeek.com/tshirts/ladies/724f/
Do Not Want!, Size S: http://www.thinkgeek.com/tshirts/frustrations/9648/
Solution, Size S: http://www.thinkgeek.com/tshirts/science/8408/

Video Games (feel free to get the used version)
Mario Party 8 (Wii): http://www.gamestop.com/product.asp?product_id=230005
Wario Ware (Wii): http://www.gamestop.com/product.asp?product%5Fid=230003
Cooking Mama (DS): http://www.gamestop.com/product.asp?product%5Fid=180211
Thursday, September 06, 2007 6:42 AM

Current mood:  indescribable
Category: Life
Oh, love is a crazy, messy, fucked up thing, isn't it? I'm so scared...so, so scared...I just don't know what's going to happen...but, I've made up my mind, and I am going to ride this train until it stops...wherever that may be.

And I do love him. I do. I didn't really completely realize it until tonight, but...I love him with every fiber of my being. I love him. I love him. And I'm scared out of my mind. But I know real love only comes every so often...and I know I must just follow my heart. And he has my heart in his hands...it is his, whether he wants it or not, and he may do whatever he wants with it, and whatever happens, I'll always be able to pick up the pieces should I ever need to. Because I am stronger than any situation I can get myself into. But my mind is made up and there is no turning back now. I just want him and that is all. I want him and his love and all that he has to give me. Just him and nothing else. And when he asks me what I want...that will be my answer. It is my final answer and it has never been so clear.

I am going to be OK...repeat...I am going to be OK...must just keep this in mind...
Monday, September 03, 2007 5:35 PM

Current mood:  worried
Category: Life
So he wants to finally meet my friends. My friends are awesome. He's awesome. So they should get along famously, right?...Then why am I so worried?!

Maybe it's because I don't remember the last time I wanted anything or anyone so bad...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007 1:31 AM

Current mood:  sad
Dear Grandma,

It's been 14 years since you left and I'm sorry to say I haven't thought about you as much as I should've since then. As time has passed, you've been on my mind less and less, but I want you to know that I still remember the short time we had together like it just happened yesterday. Those were the best days of my life. Mom used to say you and I were like two peas in a pod. She always saw the same things she disliked about you in me. I know I should be happy to have ever had someone like you in my life, but for some reason I just feel disappointed and sad and angry all at the same time. Above all, I feel deprived...robbed. Why did you have to leave us? I feel so selfish for saying this, and I don't mean to yell at you, but weren't you thinking of all the people who needed you? I needed you. I still need you. There are so many things I never got to say to you, so many questions I never got to ask you. There are so many things we should've done that we never did. You didn't get to watch me grow up. Didn't you wonder how I'd turn out? How David would turn out? If we would grow up to be the kind of people you wanted us to be? You always had great expectations for us. You wanted us to be kind and gentle people, the type of people anyone would be proud to have as a friend. Grandma, I'm almost 21 now, and I wonder if you've been watching my progress in this life. I wonder if you've been watching me grow and change and if you're proud of the person I've become, the person I'm becoming. I know I'm far from perfect, and I know I'm still just a child, but I truly believe that you're watching me from heaven and I wonder if you're smiling...I wonder if you're happy with the choices I've made. I want to know what you'd have to say, what advice you'd have to give me...but I will never hear your voice again in this lifetime. Do you know how much you meant to me? I wonder if I ever told you how much I loved you...how much I still love you. I never really thought of you as a grandmother, but I don't think you ever really thought of me as a granddaughter, either. You treated me as if I was one of your own, instead of just as your son's daughter. I have pictures of you and me in my photo album upstairs, and every time I look at them the memories come rushing back and the tears flow down. Do you remember what a crazy child I was? I'd run around like a maniac and fall and scape my knees, and you would rush over and scoop me up and break out the Band-Aids...my favorite picture is the one with you and me sitting on your couch, with my knees bandaged up and you painting my nails. Do you remember that? No one could dry my tears faster than you could. I had more fun with you than I did with any of my friends. I've asked my parents about you a million times, and you truly were an amazing person. I hope I can become half the woman you were...I just wish you were still here to help me become that person. You never got to teach me how to make dumplings, or how to speak Hungarian, or any of the things I wish we could've done together. I only wish we would've had more time together...I feel like so many things were left unsaid, so my things left undone...

Grandma, not a day goes by that I don't miss you. I love you with all my heart and soul, and nothing could ever change that, ever. I hope and pray that you're up there in heaven waiting patiently for the day we meet again.

I love you forever and ever, always and always, no matter what.
Sara
Monday, August 06, 2007 7:38 PM

Current mood:  determined
I would hold you all night long and never utter a single complaint if it meant it would ease your pain just for a moment.
Thursday, August 02, 2007 2:52 PM

Current mood:  happy

So I decided to do some research on my astrological sign, Libra. Here are my findings from astrology-online.com:

"Libra is the only inanimate sign of the zodiac, all the others representing either humans or animals. Many modern astrologers regard it as the most desirable of zodiacal types because it represents the zenith of the year, the high point of the seasons, when the harvest of all the hard work of the spring is reaped. There is a mellowness and sense of relaxation in the air as mankind enjoys the last of the summer sun and the fruits of his toil. Librans too are among the most civilized of the twelve zodiacal characters and are often good looking."

Heh heh. ;)

"They have elegance, charm and good taste, are naturally kind, very gentle, and lovers of beauty, harmony (both in music and social living) and the pleasures that these bring."

That is so true.

"They have good critical faculty and are able to stand back and look impartially at matters which call for an impartial judgment to be made on them. But they do not tolerate argument from anyone who challenges their opinions, for once they have reached a conclusion, its truth seems to them self-evident; and among their faults is an impatience of criticism and a greed for approval. But their characters are on the whole balanced, diplomatic and even tempered."

That's probably true, for the most part. I can be rather stubborn when it comes to people challenging my views or opinions. But that last sentence is also true. I still consider myself very open-minded, and I always take other people's views into consideration. I am pretty bad with taking criticism...but it helps me to improve myself, which I'm always trying to do. So balance really is key in my life - everything in moderation. I believe this is what makes me so adaptable. And even-tempered is DEFINITELY me.

"Librans are sensitive to the needs of others and have the gift, sometimes to an almost psychic extent, of understanding the emotional needs of their companions and meeting them with their own innate optimism - they are the kind of people of whom it is said, 'They always make you feel better for having been with them.' They are very social human beings. They loathe cruelty, viciousness and vulgarity and detest conflict between people, so they do their best to cooperate and compromise with everyone around them, and their ideal for their own circle and for society as a whole is unity."

OK, this entire paragraph is SO ME. I am definitely the most empathetic person I've ever known. I feel like I have a bond with people in general. I don't know about the psychic part, but definitely, there is a bond there...with certain people more than others, of course, but definitely with people in general. I am your classic example of an extrovert, and I do loathe cruelty, and I love compromise, so long as it doesn't leave anyone with a bitter taste in their mouth. I'm one of those retarded "change the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race" people. I'm a true idealist, to the fullest extent, and an absolute optimist. This is how I know I'm going into the right career field.. it's perfect for me!

"Their cast of mind is artistic rather than intellectual, though they are usually too moderate and well balanced to be avant garde in any artistic endeavor. They have good perception and observation and their critical ability, with which they are able to view their own efforts as well as those of others, gives their work integrity."

This is true to an extent. I do have an artistic mind, but I like to think I'm also a bit intellectual...after all, I'm going into the science field. (Again, the theme of balance.)

"In their personal relationships they show understanding of the other person's point of view, trying to resolve any differences by compromise, and are often willing to allow claims against themselves to be settled to their own disadvantage rather than spoil a relationship. They like the opposite sex to the extent of promiscuity sometimes, and may indulge in romanticism bordering on sentimentality. Their marriages, however, stand a good chance of success because they are frequently the union of 'true minds'. The Libran's continuing kindness toward his or her partner mollifies any hurt the latter may feel if the two have had a tiff. Nor can the Libran's spouse often complain that he or she is not understood, for the Libran is usually the most empathetic of all the zodiacal types and the most ready to tolerate the beloved's failings."

And this is what makes me so good in relationships. (Not tooting my own horn. I'm just very confident in this aspect, and I'm also going by what I've been told in the past.) I'm always willing to accept differences, so long as they don't harm the relationship. But, in love with love as I am, I'm not promiscuous, definitely. And here again empathy is mentioned. Balance and empathy: two main themes in the life of the Libra.

"The negative Libran character may show frivolity, flirtatiousness and shallowness. It can be changeable and indecisive, impatient of routine, colorlessly conventional and timid, easygoing to the point of inertia, seldom angry when circumstances demand a show of annoyance at least; and yet Librans can shock everyone around them with sudden storms of rage. Their love of pleasure may lead them into extravagance; Libran men can degenerate into reckless gamblers, and Libran women extravagant, jealous and careless about money sometimes squander their wealth and talents in their overenthusiasm for causes which they espouse. Both sexes can become great gossipers. A characteristic of the type is an insatiable curiosity that tempts them to enquire into every social scandal in their circle."

Oh, yes. I certainly can be quite frivolous at times, I'll be the first to admit it. I love to laugh and be playful and have a good time, let loose a bit. But I know when it's time to sober up and be serious about things. Flirtaciousness...yeah. I'd consider myself a flirtacious person.. I'm naturally so interested in people that sometimes talking just leads to flirting, and I don't see what's wrong with that, as long as nobody's feelings get hurt in the process. Flirting is just displaying attraction to someone, it's no big deal. As for shallow...well, sometimes. I appreciate beauty and tend to distance myself from uglyness, but really, who doesn't? The rest of that paragraph...yes, for the most part. Naturally curious, naturally gossipy. But never to a very extreme extent.

"In their work the description "lazy Libra" which is sometimes given is actually more alliterative than true. Librans can be surprisingly energetic, though it is true that they dislike coarse, dirty work. Although some are modestly content, others are extremely ambitious. With their dislike of extremes they make good diplomats but perhaps poor party politicians, for they are moderate in their opinions and able to see other points of view. They can succeed as administrators, lawyers (they have a strong sense of justice, which cynics might say could handicap them in a legal career), antique dealers, civil servants and bankers, for they are trustworthy in handling other people's money. Some Librans are gifted in fashion designing or in devising new cosmetics; others may find success as artists, composers, critics, writers, interior decorators, welfare workers or valuers, and they have an ability in the management of all sorts of public entertainment. Some work philanthropically for humanity with great self-disciple and significant results. Libran financiers sometimes make good speculators, for they have the optimism and ability to recover from financial crashes."

True that.

So, to conclude: it seems I am mostly a true Libra. And I love being a Libra.

Monday, July 30, 2007 5:04 AM

Current mood:  pessimistic
Every day is a chaotic mess, and God only knows where my life is heading, but somehow being with you brings tranquility.
Currently listening:
Led Zeppelin IV (aka ZOSO)
By Led Zeppelin
Release date: 19 July, 1994
Monday, July 30, 2007 4:34 AM

Current mood:  scared
Category: Life
A conversation between me and Tracey.

[12:54] Tracey Watt: when do a bf and gf usually say "I love you"?
[12:54] Tracey Watt: like after how long?
[12:54] atwilightfaery: ...when they love each other?
[12:55] Tracey Watt: yeah, but like, don't ppl usually still wait a super long time?
[12:56] atwilightfaery: well, sort of
[12:56] atwilightfaery: a few months, perhaps
[12:56] Tracey Watt: yeesh, why?
[12:56] atwilightfaery: because love does not come quickly
[12:56] Tracey Watt: aha
[12:57] atwilightfaery: like develops quickly
[12:57] atwilightfaery: infatuation, if you will
[12:57] atwilightfaery: but love......no
[12:57] Tracey Watt: aha
[12:57] atwilightfaery: you have to cultivate it, nurture it, wait for it to grow
[12:57] atwilightfaery: it takes time
[12:57] Tracey Watt: aha
[12:58] atwilightfaery: you can't rush it. it usually jumps up on you, takes you by surprise
[12:59] atwilightfaery: one day, you just find yourself in love with that person, and you're like, "whoa, how did that happen?"
[12:59] atwilightfaery: and it usually scares the shit out of you
[12:59] Tracey Watt: aha
[13:01] atwilightfaery: this conversation is depressing
[13:01] Tracey Watt: meep...sorry...
[13:02] Tracey Watt: was just curious cuz I never understood why ppl wait so long to say it
[13:02] atwilightfaery: it's not your fault
[13:02] atwilightfaery: well, it's love
[13:02] atwilightfaery: it's not to be taken lightly
...

And a line from earlier in that conversation that's really quite depressing, but really, it sums up my entire godforsaken love life so well, it should be documented for posterity. Also, it has such a tinge of romance, in a bitter, heart-wrenching way...

a twilight faery.. (12:49:04 pm): the one person who was able to accept me for what i am...i couldn't accept him for what he was

*sigh* Bear with me, people. Those of you who know me know that this is not the real me. This weekend has been such a crappy time for me, and I don't really know why. It's like a relapse into my former self, the person I was a few months ago. I feel somehow...scared, almost...terrified, even. Like something terrible is going to happen...a premonition, maybe? I hope not...but anyway, I'm sure this feeling will be over soon, and I'll be my happy, rose-colored-glasses self again. But maybe I should stay away from people for the most part till this passes over. I feel like I'm just making people mad at me. To quote Meredith from Grey's Anatomy, "I feel like one of those people who's so freakin' miserable, they can't be around normal people. Like I'll infect the happy people." God...I can't believe I'm quoting Grey's Anatomy. How miserable is this?!

I'm sure this will all be over soon...that's always what I tell myself whenever something like this happens...everything always turns out all right...always...

Currently listening:
Three Days Grace
By Three Days Grace
Release date: 22 July, 2003