So on Daughtry's new CD there is a verse in No Surprise that is not in the radio edit and it completes the song.

Mostly because it's that last dig you want to say when ending a relationship to make the other person hurt by telling them and reminding them of what they will miss. It's placed perfectly at the end of the song.

"The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep"

It's a great CD by the way.

the bull in me dislikes big changes, and waking up by 5:40 in order to get to the gym is most definitely one of those changes.

So I've spent the last three weeks trying to figure out what schedule would work best for me since I moved to Team Disney. First the move to Team Disney has now added additional travel time and a 15 minute walk to and from the building. So that was another adjustment, so I didn't feel to guilty for not hitting the gym.

While I adjusted I at least did my pushups to failure at least twice a week. It's a good overall upper body workout.

So I was freaking Goldielocks and tried working out in the morning, at lunch and after work. The ultimate goal is to make sure I've had dinner between 6:30 and 7:30. Anything later is not good. On days I don't workout, hitting that time tables is easy but I felt bad for not making gym time a bigger priority.

Turns out the morning works best for me. I roll out of bed, throw on some shorts a shirt, wash my face, brush my teeth and pack the gym bag with work cloths and hit the door. The newest trick I learned for the get up and go attitude is chug a couple glasses of coffee before brushing the teeth. Ah caffine my best friend but not a fan of coffee breath. :)

So after trial and error this seems like it will work best for now.

I'm starting to feel better and accomplished. Working out is the only thing that seems to keep the head clear. So just need to make sure I'm in bed by mid-night so I'm not so sluggish.

I'm glad I have years of practice of being out late and getting up early to be functional in class and work. I just had to adjust the times.

Staying fit is not easy but the persoanl and even the superficial rewards are so worth it.

Thanks for stopping by.
Ben

so the AT&T comercials have always irritated me and I never really gave it any thought until right now.

The whole commercial is based on being concerned on burning all your minutes. They are trying to sell their roll over minutes but when the son tells the mom that he tossed them out because they were old, she freaks out a bit.

How is that effective marketing? It makes me wonder just how expensive their overage truely is or how few of minutes you're given on a monthly basis that you have to be concerned for the roll overs you're able to keep every month.

All I have to say is that with T-Mobile is I'm never concerned with my minutes. Now grant it their phone selection is not the best and getting 3G has taken forever which I still don't have yet but the one thing I don't have to be concerned with is how much I talk on the phone.

So AT&T that commercial sucks and the fact that my contract is coming up with T-Mobile maybe I might shop around or keep this service for many more years.

Just had to get that out there. One of my epiphany moments.

Catch ya later.

So going to keep it short because, well I'm tired and I posted some pics but being my first Gay Days single was awesome.

Plus my friends weren't as structured with where we need to be.

The down side was that there was no Pleasure Island but the up side is it forced us to the night pool parties, which I enjoyed. :)

I've been off since Thursday so back to work on Tuesday. It's been a weekend that I won't forget and loaded some pictures here and on facebook.

I didn't get to meet my MASS friend but did meet a whole bunch of new people. Oh yeah and Chris Rockway is a hot man and charming in person.

I gave him my Rainbow Mickey Head pin. It looked good on his black briefs. :)

Thanks for stopping by and I will catch you soon.

so this cute guy and I got into a discussion while I had him wrapped tightly in my arms because he was shivering from the semi-cool air. How could I let the boy keep shivering. :)

Anyways...he made a comment that demonstrated his youth and at the same time hope....the thing is...we are still struggling for equality and he needs to realize that.

He said I don't go to any of the gay places....I just hang out at normal places. So I do have to give him props for coming out to an event but we are far from being treated as normal.

In some circles we are treated as normal and equality but think about this and ask yourself this...those people who treat gays normaly....outside of the "safe" circle what would they truly say? What do they truly believe?

That's the thought that has me worried because on one hand I think I can only truly depend on "heterosexuals" to stick up for my rights. Even some friends that I've known for years still think I'm living in sin. somedays I think my Mom still believes that.

But I don't let that hold me down. I get up and speak my mind as best and smartly as I can and that's what this weekend is about. Being out and proud.

We are a sub-culture for every culture out there. We've existed for generations and will always exist.

I believe those who believe it's some "choice" we've made to be gay....well they might have a little gay in them or they would not even be able to comprehend the fact that there is a choice to be made.

How can it be a choice when it is a part of who you are?

The choice is wheter you want to conform to the society at large or not. For my non-U.S.A. readers...the states have this ideology that homosexuality is wrong and a sin.

A sin to be how God created us....in his/her eye. With love.

So on Saturday I will proudly wear my red shirt at the Magic Kingdom to be counted.

Because I am here and yes believe it or not I am queer and I want my equal right that I have to pay taxes on yearly.

So first I'm excited that the weekend is almost here but second I get to see someone who is important to me.

Just one of those chance meetings that have an impact on your life.

Every year it is a great weekend and I'm always sad to see it end but this year I'm just going to focus on enjoying the wave.

No dating someone...just all about me and friends and acquaintances.

So c'mon down for a good time. :)

now wheter about myself or about new situations, I'm not sure and I'm afraid of getting stuck.

My current feelings right now could all just be coming off a good month in April and right now with a social lull that has nothing but rainy after rainy day.

Now I will say this past weekend was fun but the end result still leaves me wondering why I tend to find people either not in the here and now either physically or emotionally.

Yeah Gay Days is literally right around the corner but once the buzz is gone and all the people leave it's still going to be the same thing here.

As far as other things....well all I can say is during the day I think I'd rather spend my time banging my head against the wall. The situation leaves me feeling drained because it's sort of like having to do the thing twice. I guess it's the scientist in me that has me all irritated. Let the scientist get to work come back with the hypothesis and the work and just have others proof it. Don't question why the type of paper or font. To keep myself safe that is all I can really say about the topic....just wish everyone wasn't so damned politically correct and using the word "particular" instead of the real word of outright stubborn. Time is wasted having to conform and with this waste of energy so goes the creativity.

Which then goes to why I haven't blogged. Believe or not I have been doing some writing and have had "discussions" but none have made it here. As it is it was is a struggle to be on here right now but I'm hoping to find focus and to clear my head with a good rant.

In truth the reason why I'm here is I needed a different outlet tonight...however as I type this I'm wishing I had just gone to karaoke but then again I would still be stuck.

So self reflection is good and it's been a while since I've thrown a pity party. So working on my second glass of merlot and listening to some music I write.

I know things will turn around....it's just the waiting I find extremely annoying.

So what I will work on for now will be those things I do have direct control over and not waste time trying to change those who cannot change because then you "both end of with egg on the face."

At the same time I'm going to open up all options...ah the advantage of being single.

I will be politically correct and say I'm glad to still have a job and leave it at that.

However, I do need to find my place in the world and maybe I have explored all options in Orlando, with a gray cloud on some days but some days you need the shade or the rain. I guess deep down I am an optimist.

I'm not going to make any quick decisions but I do need to make sure I am centered but also take a ride on the wave of fun knoown as Gay Days coming. Who knows maybe I'll me the one who is meant for me.

So I'll end on that note/thought. Because I won't find them without being out and about. For tonight I'll sleep easier, plus I think I'm still recovering from this past weekend...which if it was a preview for Gay Days...well I'll be a busy bee. :)

Good night and thank you for reading my rant. I'll try to write something that will irritate those uptight people out there who believe in being hypocrits and judging and damning others...which if I'm not mistaken is a sin because in the end it's God that we answer to and not our neighbor.

God and Jesus wanted us to be happy as long as it didn't harm his other children, our brothers and sisters. But there they are determined to ban marriage in the name of their God and religion. Speaking as a Catholic...what right do other Catholics have to deny a homosexual marriage when our faith is based a man...yes a man, it says so in the Bible, who never married?

So I guess I'm slowly finding my center...the fight is slowly coming back....and something tells me when I get there, watch out world cause I have quite a bit to say.

:)

Good night again and sleep well because I know my God appreciates and loves everyone for how they were created.

Forgive the spelling mistakes, I typed this from my phone on the mobile site.

Not going away for long but will be working today through Thursday from the Disney Wonder.

It's my second working trip but as with any business trip there is a little down time which I'll take advantage of.

So I'll post pictures when I get back.

Have a good one.

I believe this text should be self contained.  There were previous comment that sparked this text.  Message me if you would like the other text....but I did start this discussion.
I hope you deleted the one with the spelling mistakes. :)  I'm in between with all the policies going on. 
What it comes down to is we would be worse off if nothing is done; is it right?  who has the answers and those without the information only vague facts....should they be openly protesting.  that's one of those rights I think we still have but is the right question being asked. Should the president sit still and do nothing. at least he's not trying to start a war.  and considering the actions of the last president....war is to benefit the many...not the few contractors that were allowed to participate.  that's what has been missed the last 8 years. 
Traditionally war had brought profit to many but it only brought it to the few....so that is something to think about considering the "World Wars" profited many and for the good of all...but the last eight years of war profited only a select few and with few results.  It divided the country and spent many of our dollars.
How does the country recover and has anyone but the current administration provided real numbers on how to get us out of it? 
I'm sure I have your blood boiling and I do apologize for that but I don't appreciate such a pivitol moment in our nation's history being tramped on because they cannot have original thought.  If they called it anything else that would be fine but they have trashed the purpose of the original tea party.  that is unamerican.  look it up. 
they might as well take the constitutuion and trash that too.  the tea party was for our freedom from an oppressive giant.  dues need to be paid if you truly want to live by the creed "united we stand."  sleep on that statement before responding because I try to live by that....but so many consider that a socialist quality. 
How many times have you repeated those words? "united we stand."  do you live by them?  do you believe in them? 
really? 
sleep on those words because that like telling a child that there is no santa if you don't believe those words...especially if the statue of liberty says "Give me your tired, your poor, Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free."  For a nation founded for and by immigrants....how soon we forget where we all come from.
I'm sorry but all this stems from a recent conversation I had with a gay republican.  I seemed to give him something to think about.  The topic was gay marriage.  He asked what I believed in it.  I told him that marriage is a religious value and it doesn't belong in the courts or politics but since it does it come down to the fact that there are so many out there who preach "freedom of religion" but then don't practice it.  He agreed with that comment; the part of preaching but don't practice it.  So I closed as long as they want marriage in the courts, then it should be for all.  He stayed quiet and said that's a point to think about.
Again my only irritation with the Tea Parties is that is clearly demonstrates how weak the educations system is in the United States.  It is actually kind of ironic considering the last 8 years "no child is left behind" should have reinforced education and instead within the first 100 days schools across the country have to make cuts due to budget constraints based on previous actions.
You may not want to blame Bush but what it comes down to is that Obama has to take a knee jerk reaction to the current situation he was voted into to.
We can't let this divide the nation and maybe you and I are the first step.  Because I will admit, it's going to hurt but I'm not pointing the finger at anyone excpet to defend the current decisions made.  Obama admitted we will all have to tightenly our belts to get through this.  Those who cry out loud and protest right now do so because either they have not been affected yet or live in a bubble.
The reason why I say that we are the first step is that we are going to have to find some balance to get through the first 4 years, unless you are going to try to petition him out of office.  but if that's the case, i will petition to have bush tried for war crimes...so think about that first.
You and I can have an actual conversation and that's what the world needs.  I know it sucks but you also know I don't believe in that BS of "agree to disagree."  That gets no one no where.  It truely will be a give an take situation. 
However in the end "united we will stand."
Your friend,
Ben