So- Wonder how you've been? It's been a minute since I've updated. But, enough about me... How are you, whoever is reading this? Let's take just one second for that...

K. Enough. I'm good, thanks for asking. Life has been full of nice lil' surprises, and some of them not too nice. But, still, life has been full...

Life has required extra patience, focus, and cautiousness (which have been noted, and appropriately ignored). It all has it's rewards, which feel great for awhile. Pivotal, Pivot point. My focus must be on the ever budding future. I must not hide. I must grow up (and be famous?)

Let it fall, let it fall...

I'll always be a Cry-Baby. But, on the artistic front, I feel mad inspired to create. On the physical front, I feel good and confident, but tired.

OH- and the brokeness as in I have no money doesn't help at all.

Temporary situations, my friends. And we will make it...

So- Work = Good.

Future opportunities= Good.

Love= Good.

Sense of well being= Good? Good.

Am I overthinking everything about my life way too much, like a mothefucker? Will it stop, this stupid fucking nagging voice in my head that is full of positive doubts?

Why, oh why must I feel this way?

Cuz, that's what needs to happen sometimes.

No matter what, we're cool.

I'm good. I'm cool as a fan. I'm fresh. I'm fly. I need a cry, a hug, a trust fund, and some luscious high I'm not yet experiencing right now.

No matter what, we're cool

..

Boy i think you've come home
Open up the door and step inside
So many people who feel the way you do
Your sweetest dreams have always been denied
Lock the past into a box and throw away the key
And leave behind those days of endless night
Everyone is waiting
Everyone is hear
Step out of the woods into the light

Everybody loves you here (x4)

Boy you've been on the wrong road
Wearing someone else's shoes
Who told you you were not what you were meant to be?
And got you paying someone else's dues?

This is the place for you just look around this room
Is anybody here made out of stone?


Down among the heretics, the losers, and the saints
You are here amongst your own
You've come home (x5)

Look at this hole inside your heart
No one can ever fill
It's like the Grand Canyon
Look at this gap that's opened up
Between you and the world
It's like the Grand Canyon
Look at this hole inside your heart
It's like the Grand Canyon
The Grand Canyon

Everybody loves you here (x4)

You've come home (x5)

This is a song by Tracey Thorn off her solo...

The line "everybody loves you" has been said to me so many times in my life it's uncountable... It's usually said in a reassuring way, however. When I'm doubting my superhero like abilities, or admitting a mistake, the response from almost everybody has been "it's o.k. everybody loves you". or, go do this and don't worry "everybody loves you".  It's been a confidence booster to me, if anything.

So, this is my theme song, cuz now EBTG is telling it to me again...

Baby, you understand me now
If sometimes you see that I'm mad
No one can always be an angel
When everything goes wrong you see some bad
Well I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood...

The life we lead, will always lead us
And we pray that he, will never leave us
It's the price we pay, I guess that's the reason
Why my grandma sang, we all need Jesus [2x]

Misunderstood, don't let me be, misunderstood
Misunderstood, don't let me be, misunderstood
I'm just human...

I cut the singy parts out of the Common song entitled misunderstood...

Hs raps are great, just not appropriate for what i take from this gorgeous rap hymn. I'm not a coke sniffing stripper (yet) nor am I a troubled thug...

I'm just a multi faceted, introspective, self hating but on the verge of greatness, attention craving superstar... yeah, that about sums it up... Oh, and delusional too. I'll exxagerate the fuck out you... That's a promise...

Chancey thinks yer the best, and has had a crush on you all school year, from afar...