I want to say thank you ... "officially", so to say. So that everyone can see it ... ^^ (again *g*)

Thank you for ...
... you know what for ^^

... you know ...

<3

I want to go to Finland. I really really do.
I've seen so many picture, heard so many stories ... I will love this country. I do already, but I will love it even more once I've been there.

There are, of course, some other things I'm looking forward to as well ... some things that are just as great and make me just as happy.

But I want to go to Finland. And even though the trip is kind of planned already ... I'm still scared those plans could change. I'm still scared it will remain a dream ... I don't want it to remain just a dream, even though it is a very nice one.

I can't wait ... I simply can't wait to be in Finland ... finally ...


Oh, and I want snow!!!

... wie schnell die Zeit vergehen kann
... wie sehr man diese Zeit trotzdem genießen kann
... wie sehr man hoffen kann
... wie sehr man sich etwas wünschen kann
... wie gerne man manchmal die Augen schließt und träumt
... wie gerne man sich an etwas erinnert
... wie sicher man sich sein kann
... wie glücklich man sein kann

... wie sehr man lieben kann

Es könnte mir nicht besser gehen im Moment ... DANKE!! ^^ ...you know I mean you...

Ok, so ... I'm somehow starting to like to blog from time to time I guess *g* Even thought I think almost no one reads what I'm writing ... but anyways. I'm ... starting to like it *g*

When browsing through the Negative.fi forum I found a thread called "state 10 weird/little known facts about yourself". Since I'm not really posting there anymore, I decided to state those facts here ... and I'll just post 10 facts. Nothing "weird" or "little known" ^^ So here we go:

1. I am hopelessly in love and completely happy with that and I wouldn't wanna chance just one single thing about that situation ... ^^

2. There are some months - about 10, to be exact - I would love to forget. I hope I will someday ...

3. Most people think I am very shy. Those are the people who don't know me at all for I can be shy, but wouldn't exactly say I'm a shy person.

4. I startet playing the flute, the guitar and the keyboard and I went horse riding for about 3 years. Yes, I've stopped doing all of that (in primary school already). Yes, I sometimes wish I wouldn't have.

5. Music has always been and will always be a very important thing in my live. Even though I'm not making music on my own.

6. I've been damn scared of sparrows when I was a little child. Of sparrows ... and of trees and the "Fernsehturm" in Berlin *g*. The latter because they were just too big ... as for the sparrows ... I have no clue xD

7. My fave comic is and always will be Bambi. Hei, I even have a little Bambi and a little "Blume" (the latter is a stuffed animal) standing in my room ...  at a place of honor  xD

8. I am totally addicted to a musical called "We Will Rock You", which I have seen (only) twice in cologne and ... 16 times in London. I hope I'll see it again some day. Hopefully. How about cologne ... ? ... I LOVE that musical.

9. I really like drinking milk ... well, the bad thing about that: drinking milk always gives me mean stomachaches. I'm still doing it from time to time, though ... masochist? xD ... (NO ... Oo)

10. I can be stubborn. Really stubborn. And this can make discussions rather difficult. Yes, I'm sorry for that for I actually like discussions *g*

I've written quite some e-mails over the last few days ... but still, there is one person I would like to write to as well. I know exactly what I would write. But I'm scared.

About half a year ago, I thought this friendship would have a second chance ... I guess I was wrong. Completely wrong. And I want to end this. I want to tell this person what's on my mind and really end this - maybe mainly to make me stop thinking about the possibility of another chance ... and another chance of getting disappointed, as well.

But ... I'm scared ...
Should I ... ?

I hate having too much time to think.