it's been a while since I posted soooo here's what's been up with me:

I've been relaxing alot
I have a g/f that I love......lots
I'm broke
I'm happy anyway
I want the holidays overwith
I want to go snowboarding
I think my truck is getting sick =(
I bought the new SOAD cd the day it came out
I got a laptop
My neck hurts
My girlfriend is sleeping
I'm IMing  Sqwee
I want a beer
I'm gonna have hot chocolate with vodka instead
I'm going to do that now
Oh yeah and I'm updating my profile so STFU

It won't let me choose music
I think that's lame

Diamonds, Daisies, Snowflakes,
That Girl
Chestnuts, Rainbows, Springtime...
Is That Girl
She's tinsel on a tree...
She's everything that every girl should be!

Sable, Popcorn, White Wine,
That Girl
Gingham, Bluebirds, Broadway...
Is That Girl
She's mine alone, but luckily for you...
If you find a girl to love,
Only one girl to love,
Then she'll be That Girl too...
That Girl!

Ditto!

Bob is on the radio, my candles are lit, the nag champa, and sweet chiba are burning.  The conditions are perfect.  My brain is running a million miles an hour lately.  I have goals.......big ones, but trying to stay focused on my goals, maintaining the tools that I have, that are so neccessary for my goals to be achieved, and trying to cope with a lingering depression are becoming to much for my brain to handle.  It's wearing me down.  However, there have been many things in the last week that have led me to today's realization.  One of the things I've discovered in the last week, is that something that makes me feel the best as a person, is accomplishing a goal, doing something, anything that positively affects my life.  Anything that brings happiness to those around me, those I care about, those that enter into my life.  I've discovered that I like being that person.  It makes me feel good.  It helps me get to where I want to be, which in turn, enables me to help give the people in my life the happines they deserve.  Getting to the point (sorry I ramble), in order to do those little things everyday, the things that eventually snowball into the process I rambled on about, I have to make some changes in my life.........serious changes.  I don't know if the stars have aligned with the third nebulii in the snorf galaxie or what, but for some reason, I KNOW the conditions are perfect, today, to make these changes.  So I'm afraid I won't be as frequent of a visitor on here.  Big things are about to happen. 

M. fricken W. A.

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost

It's what for breakfast.  So far my morning is good.  I believe my day will follow suit.  I have a bunch of crap to do at work today, but I'm not worried.  I'll get er' done!  I don't have much interesting to say, except I've been smiling alot lately, even though I've been sicky.  =)  Now I'm almost totally better, which should make for more smiles.  Hopefully not just from me.

Oh yeah on a different note.  Those of you who may have read some of my blogs from the past may remember some posts about my bestest friend and his wife. Well, finally after months of  zero communication, I recieved a call from his wife.  The call was eye opening and relieving, however overdue.  My thoughts and prayers are with them and I KNOW, that everything will awesome again, soon. 

wustuth deuth!

*sighs*

=)

eck!!!!

My sicky feels better but my body is sore, and I'm very tired.  I'm gonna sleep early and long.  It's gonna be awesome. 

P.S.  I need a massage, volunteers welcome!

I see you had your mind all made up,
you group of pitiful liars.
Before I woke to face the day,
your master plan transpired.
-Something told me-
This job had more to meet the eye.
My song is not believed?
My words some-what deceiving?
-Now I'm unwhole-

You've waged a war of nerves
But you can't crush the kingdom.
Can't be what your idols are.
Can't leave the scar.
You cry for compensation.
I ask you please just give us...
5 minutes alone

I read your eyes, your mind was made up.
You took me for A fool.
You used complexion of my skin for a counter Rascist tool.
-You can't burn me-
I've spilled my guts out in the past.
Taken advantage of,
because you know where I've come from. 
-my past-

You've waged a war of nerves
But you can't crush the kingdom
Can't be what your idols are.
Can't leave the scar.
I'll be your for compensation.
I ask you please just give us...
5 minutes alone

Don't let me find you Matt......you fuck!!!!!!