AquaVenus was born as a fully grown woman in the year 2000. Cosmic dust mixed with the sun and the sea and some eighth note triplets all combined to form her embodiment. Much to her relief there was no past to contend with, and until now, no future either. But then a question materialized; could I should I would I play some music?

This musical desire started as a personal quest to learn how to play. Music was like a seed planted in her DNA that was activated late one night. A singer, a musician, a bass player, a person, a persona, a band; AquaVenus above all else is in love with music, all kinds of music.

Exploring the parameters of music in the early days with zeal and zest, she played in various rock bands and once even at the 1996 Olympics in ....Atlanta.... with band called boobytrap. Her biggest concert ever happened at the 1995 Atlanta MidTown music festival playing for 10,000 people. It was a blast! And then the band fell apart

Goodbye cruel world, she said and formed an electronica duo which then played at Skip Willimason’s art opening at the Eye Drum gallery. No one came, but it was still very cool. Skip Williamson’s art shows are always good for meeting strange denizens of the world. I guess his art is the bug light that attracts all us crazy moths. I’m srill trying to get him to remember the cool couple who are creating a Lollapalooza in ....Costa Rica..... I want to play it of course!

Perhaps you think I am confused sounding on my page these days with many styles of music in various states of polish and un-polish. Yes songs like Let It Die are rough ideas that I just impulsively uploaded. Hello! This is just me looking for myself. Am I here? I tend to find myself in the art that I do, without even knowing I am looking. And maybe precisely because I am not.

People ask me all the time when I will play out again. It’s a valid question I ask myself often. I am starting to visualize it so perhaps it’s coming soon. Ever since I decided to learn how to record my own music, it’s been a serious and ongoing endeavor to bring it up to a professional sound. Capturing perfected scenes of beauty, hope and tragedy in the ear is a wonderful thing. But after a time, I see it causes a blatant counter reaction in me that simply blasts out in the form of “I just don’t care what notes I play” bass anddrum jams.

So this is the dichotomy you currently hear on my page… pretty polished songs side by side with free-form musical expressions from my deep unconscious. I am starting to toy with what sort of live show this might create. Will it be the sounds of perfected beauty that reside in my head? Will I be able to achieve the carefree aggressive bass playing that happens when no one is looking? I guess I’ll only be satisfied when I can have both.

I’m a new kind of crazy every week, whatever sort will it be next?

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How can you expect to change, if you don’t actually change? Expect my feelings to change. Hey, got any spare change? Oh any occasion is an invitation so I’ll just lay it out there: I’m reinventing my sound. Yes, I’ve found myself back in love with electronica music. But I’ll always want the sound of a live band, so it’s finding the right mix, and ultimately just finding my own musical freedom.

Now that the sound has had time to settle in, I’m recording again. I’m doing jazzed-up retakes of some of the songs posted here, and sayin’ hello again to the world of trip-hop. And like fine wine, I expect these changes soon to be self-evident. So please check back.

Oh I know I seem like one of those people who just wants it all, and I admit, I do. But I am more inspired than ever these days. It’s like being in school for the last three years learning to read and write music. Then when finally let loose with the freedom to roam, you make your way back again, to do it your way! Life can be a fascinating journey if you look at it from different angles…

So say hello to the new page. It’s springtime in space! Can the cold heart of man be warmed by love, or not? Spring is the romance of nature, although I find fall pretty romantic too... Nature is our touchstone with the rhythms of the world. Acknowledge the natural rhythms of life. Music itself is the mirror of natural rhythms for many people, and this has a big impact. 

Music makes harmony accessible. It might even help us learn how to get along! The tonal sounds in music can harmonize the energy fields of a large group of people. The task at hand is bringing ourselves into harmony with the natural flow of the world around us. It makes sense to do what you can.

Well I just wanted to say hello again. With spring right around the corner, I’ve got that hopeful feeling something good will come of life, if only we make it.

Hmm contemplating the lure of zebra stripes leads me down paths I don't where they might go. And sometimes I'm curious about it, like right now. So maybe it started when I was a teenager. I had this black-light poster of a punked-out and pierced rainbow colored black light zebra. It was cool and I stared at it a lot under the black light. Maybe those neon stripes singed my brain.

I am

A million little deaths

Before I understand

The consequence

A million little deaths

Accompany me

On my journey

At the end it begins again

A million little deaths

Keep me company

So I don't feel lonely

A million little deaths

Comfort me

When I'm lost and

Remind me of my purpose

A million little deaths

And some big ones too

Help me understand

That I am