I feel very depressed at the moment now. I was thinking about someone... someone I lost 7 years ago. A brother of mine. 7 years ago my mum, aunt, cousins, my brothers and I were involved in a car collision when we were heading for the cinema. We were rushed to hospital immediatly. I had 2 broken legs after the accident. Then two days later I was told that my second brother, Michael died. He was brain dead and he couldn't survive because he had ashma. I felt that my life was torn apart. I'd just lost a piece of my life. Forever. A month later I lost my grandad though I didn't know him that much. Then in 2005 Eddie Guerrero, a pro wrestler, died from a heart attack. When I heard about it I was devestated. He was one of the greatest wrestlers that ever stepped into the ring and now he's gone. Two months later I then lost a music teacher from cancer in the blood. He was a really great music teacher and without him I wouldn'd like Queen. Of course I never heard about his sickness 'cause he didn't want us to know about it. That was four people I lost. And I now feel that my life's pretty fucked up now. I don't think it's worth it anymore. I feel like killing myself now. I just wanna get this off my chest. And now what's the point? What's the point in living if I'm going to lose more and more loved ones until I'm the only one left?

Last week my family and I were heading to New York City and it was just the best holiday I ever had! It was completely huge and different from Ireland. Our fight took about 7 hours. SEVEN HOURS! That was long!!! Anyway on our first day we went to Rockefeller Plaza to go to the Nintendo World Store and that was good fun! We also gone to place like the Statue of Liberty, Time Square (ooh that was class), Central Park and of coarse the Empire State Building! We also went to Oceanside for a wedding but we got lost and missed it. Afterwards we went to the party. Loads of people were drunk though. If anyones reading this and knows how to put photos on blogs let me know and I'll put them in on my next blog! Thanks!