This is was the coolest thing ever. . .

At the Ride for Dimebag Darrel 5

Pantera - Fucking Hostile


Vocals - Corey Taylor  - Slipknot / Stone Sour
Guitar 1 - Phil Demmel - Machine Head
Guitar 2 -  ME!
Bass - Jason R
Drums - Vinnie F'n Paul  -  Pantera

. . . Sitting in a dressing room in Calgary Canada I am more saddened than I can remember in maybe the last 5 years

Call they guy whatever you want. . judge his actions, judge his judgments, and judge the man any way in any language you want

But. Michael Jackson was the best

There was no one better

There never will be anyone better. . People don’t try anymore. .
You can take any pretty loser who can’t sing who has a good smile and sells records and make him a star

Just look at ANYONE on the charts today

Today we lost a part of music history, a legend, and the greatest pop music artist there ever will be.

The things Michael created on “Thriller”, “Off the Wall”, and “Bad” will never be matched.

By anyone ever.

Michael Jackson was the best.
People believed in Michael Jackson who didn’t believe in Jesus

And that my friends is a legend.


God Bless Michael Jacksons music , his soul , and his legend .

That can never be replaced.

Rest in Peace Sir

God bless your soul.



Zach Myers & Shinedown

Ill Write more later . . . I got a text from a friend today . .
This Morning rather
Of someone going through a breakup after a REALLY long time.
And he gave it the gool ole' college try.

My feelings on this are {Despite the things i used to bitch about on here before i grew up} . .Sometimes. Maybe . If you Truly walk away with knowing you gave it all you had. . Then you didn't really walk away at all. The connection just dissolved and that's ok because, it happens . . . But if you gave it all to your past. you have nothing to fear in the future. . . I know that now. . Im happier in life and love than i've ever been . . And It truly took a major meltdown and getting my shit (Heart) Ripped out. . and having it put back together by maybe the most wonderful person walking this earth with no hidden agenda except she looks at me the same way i look at her. . . And I'd tell you how we look at each other. . But I Can't ..Because there aren't words. . .

So in some aspects of your life. . .

As Cliche' as it is. . .

. . . Somtimes goodbye is a Second Chance . . . .

But, 

You will be OK. . . I promise. .

If you dont believe .

Just Wait. . Like I did. . .

And now I Smile everyday waking up to what i get to wake up to. .

Heres to ya friend.  . . .

. . . .

Here comes the heartache
The move out date
The excuses for my friends
Here comes the reasons i have to justify It was better in the end
Here comes the last time I'm gonna kiss you
And the first night sleeping alone
Here comes the hardest thing........... we've ever known.

Well I know that you're sleeping
I can always hear you breathe
Don't you think its about time that we talked?
I hear you got a bad feeling
And I Feel i do agree
And i know how hard it is to be
The easiest thing to love
And Making up will never mean enough.....

So Here comes the heartache
The move out date
The excuses for my friends
Here comes the reasons i have to justify....... It was better in the end
Here comes the last time I'm gonna kiss you
And the first night eating alone
Here comes the hardest thing ..........we've ever known.

You've went away for the weekend so we could figure some things out.
How the hell did it ever come to blows?
Some people find happiness .......and others are just happy to find...
One more reason not to get love or give it in return.
But No .....You cant lose fire when there is nothing left to burn.

Here comes the heartache
The move out date
The excuses for my friends
Here comes the reasons i have to justify It was better in the end
Here comes the last time I'm gonna kiss you
And the first night Drinking alone
Here comes the hardest thing we've ever known.

All i wanted to do was do what you wanted,needed.
But that never did much for me in the end.
Now all we have to do.........
 is  wait it out.

So this the heartache
This is the move out date
These are the excuses for my friends
These are the reasons i have to justify It was better in the end
This is the last time I'm gonna kiss you
And the first night being alone
THIS is  the hardest thing we've ever known

. . . . Wether its 7:15 , 9:25 , or 2:55 PM . . . Its a 5 Minutes before i go out to do the only thing i dreamed about doing as a kid. . {.And when i was a kid. . . It was what all my heroes did . AND it was just a fucking dream . . I never dreamed when i was in the TOP row of the Pyramid Arena in Memphis Watching Jimmy Page and Robert Plant that one day. . some kid. . . in some city. . would be in that SAME seat. . wanting to be me. . . .}

Now. . Back to the 5 Minutes. . .In that 5 minutes. . .Im the kid from Memphis,Tn who i just mentioned previously. . .Im shy , Sometimes Insecure , A Family guy , A Son , A Brother , a Lover , and a good friend. . .I dont get paid for this part of my day . . being me. . . .being who i always am . .

. Uh oh . . Now its 9:29 . . . . . Panda Hands me my guitar. . "Fist Bump" . {Hey man have a good show} . . I know every light in this place with 20,000 people is about to fade to black really quick . . When that happens . . Well. . . They scream . .and I . . Well I . . Hmm . .Ever Seen "the Hulk?" . . . well thats what happens. . .

I can steal everything from you . . just by looking at you . . .I can make you mad. . I can make you happy. . I can make you hate me . . I can make your boyfriend hate me. . .
Im untouchable,Unstoppable,and have NO concerns . . Sometimes my attention will switch when ONE girl is in the crowd. . and sometimes i feel like im just playing to her. . Im ok with that . . . Well or so it was. . .thats kinda starting to head south .. . .and thats ALL that this post is about. . and at the same time. . its nothing that this post it about. . .

I love the fact that . . if someone had the WORST week ever. . .EVER . .and when the lights go up . . .They leave with us making that persons day better. . and in the end . . THAT it the big picture. . THATS why i do this. . Ive been that guy . .

Now . . rewind. . .

Its 5:30 . . You see the security gaurds line up . . plus its fucking 10 degrees and YOUVE been out there since noon . . Or its 100 degrees and youve been out there since 9 am. .
Work sucked. .this is what youve been waiting for all week . .
I was that person . . I waited forever to see bands i wanted to see. . in the freezing cold. ..
Some people out here can lose track of that . .
Girls , Booze , Drugs. shit . . anything .. Ive never done any of those out here really . .
But shit sometimes i still lose sight of it. . .

So . . its 5:30 . You seem them line up . .Metal Detectors in hand. . DOORS ARE OPEN. .
You shuffle in. . .You get a beer. . You go look at Merch. . . You buy a shirt. . pissed that you have to carry it around the whole show. . but HEY! last time you waited.. and they didnt have your size . . You sit there. . .and WAIT .and WAIT. . Opener goes on . . They were good. . I didnt know they sang that song. . "Yea me neither" . You start talking about what you think we will open on . . .What we will close on . . ."Are they gonna play Simple man" . .NO were not . . You talked about how energetic the last show was. . .

Once again rewind to 5:30 . .
For the last 2 weeks . .guess what you DIDNT know . . .
When you were sitting there talking. .waiting . . . .
I was sitting there with you . .
Thats right. . .
When you LOSE sight even for ONE minute of why your here. . .go to the other side. . .
and i did. .
Ive been out there with you guys .. in a Hoodie , a hat . Maybe a scarf . . Sittin in almost the top row. . watching you file in . . cause it makes me feel like a kid . . .waiting on a show . . I dont look at my watch to see when someones goin on . . I dont care. . .I just wanna be there. . .

the last few days have been tough on me . . Im human . . I make mistakes. .so does everyone. ."NO i didnt cheat" . . Idiots.
But i did over react. .
But. . I took this person back when they did the same thing . . .and never regretted it . .

But you cant stop someone when they dont want YOU anymore. . . . when youll do anything for them . . its kinda like what i said earlier. . all the glamour is nice. .

BUT . . its when i make that ONE guy/girls day better. . .
The bigger picture is . .L.O.V.E
And if you cant see that. . .Im sorry. . im Happy in life. . . .and i love you and never want it to fade.
Cause im happy.

Tonight in Youngstown,Ohio. . I had the night of my life. . .Firing on ALL Cylinders . . one of the best shows ive ever had. . .
I plan on having a ton more. .

With or without you . . .

I love you . .and wish you well . .
But I am HERE. . have been HERE. . and wasnt going anywhere. . .
But tis up to you. . .

and thanks to YOU guys. . .you keep me spinning. . and i LOVE you all. . . .. so next time . .look up in the stands in the Arena. . shit you may even see me. .

P.S . . Its 9:30 . . . LIGHTS OUT! . . you want it. .? . . You want it ??? . Well . .
HERE it is . . .

_________________________________________________________________

Magnolia Me


You wrote all your notes . .
And you made your plans . .
Leavin your head in the clouds
You settled your heart on a ramblin man
And all your wonderin now . .

When your time is coming .
And I give you my word .
Its just all your expecting of me . .
Borders on the obsurd

So if you feel that your waiting for nothing
Then some time might be good on your own.
When I finally see . . what I came here to see. .
Ill get back . .to Magnolia Me . .

And your say that your tired
And your patience is worn thin
And im quite sure .. that's no lie
You long for a home . .And a yard full of kids
But I know its not the right time . .

Its just not fair . .
When I cant rasie myself . .
I just cant stand you living . .
With nobody else. .

So if you feel that your waiting for nothing
Then some time might be good on your own.
When I finally see . . what I came here to see. .
Ill get back . .to Magnolia Me . .

I know what you said . .
And I gonna try .
But ive gotta plan of my own
And I never quite say . . what you wanna hear . .
But ill never leave you alone . .

Its been a weird ass few Months . .
Had the 1st single on our record go to 1 . .
Record Debuted at 8
Mountain Highs and Staggering lows i guess you could say
I went through alot of emotional term oil with the girl i love more than anything. . .
Thought alot of things in haste that i probably shouldn't have
Jumped the gun a few times . .
Over reacted a few times more than I jumped the gun .
But the truth is . .Right now . . backstage at some festival in Kansas City,Mo
Im happier than i have ever been in Life,Love,and Career . .
With this girl i had to grow up and learn the past is the past . And sometimes you have to make it that
I was NEVER good at that . .at all . .I have a ridiculous memory . .amongst my band mates thats what im known for.
So I dont forget anything . . But when you get older i guess and you have the goal and the light in front of you.
You say to yourself " Self, . .{sorry thought that was funny} You say . .Self, Whats more important here . .Being Happy and growing up and realizing wrongs. . OR . holding grudges , Bearing useless crosses , And digging up bones that really don't matter anymore" I picked the 1st one . And It made me happy .
This shit could go down in flames or rise to the top of the mountain.
If you shoot for the star you can hit a cloud . . If you shoot for the moon you may hit a star . .
And im ok with that . . .
plus i miss 5 am Wal-Mart Trips, Trubo Time, 6 am Water gun fights , Chasing my English Bulldog named Ketel around my House at 4:30 am because he's the worlds biggest cock-block

. . But if its great . . i wont mind that either . . .

So . if it crashes and burns . . Ill make a guestlist of some people who want to say " I told you so"

And if it doesnt . . .

Well . .

He who laughs last......

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

As Im sitting in the lobby of my Salt Lake City Hotel . . the frequent familiarness of people checking in to there rooms or shitty business types here for meetings stumble in smelling of vodka,stale cologne,and smoke . .or the flight crews checking in till maybe 5 am till they have to fly out again . . I started to write a blog about nothing and everything I suppose. . You make ask yourself. . . Self . .

Why the fuck is he in the lobby? . . well internet in the last few hotels we have been staying in shit to be nicest about it . . Back to flight crews . .it even pisses me off to see them now . . My ex G/F is a flight attendant so maybe it more has a sad sore spot than an actually anger . . .

Since were on that . .thanks for all the comments and emails . .tons and tons of emails . .but what I forgot to mention in some of this is .. people are human and shit doesn't work out always as you want , plan , or hope for that matter . . and theres no need to publicly bash . .as I stated previous . .killing with kindness seems to work . . I was a FAR CRY from perfect . . in a not so perfect relationship set in a not so perfect world . . I made my mistakes I started stupid silly fights that were of no use . .sometimes just to have something to do . . .And making "Well at the time MAYBE Were" false accusations . . But to me they turned out being true . . I did some shitty stuff . . Hey im human aren't we all . . {But if you know anyone who isn't . . please have them email me . .im interested } . . But Nothing compares to the ultimate sin in any relationship . . Infidelity . . being Unfaithful I suppose is a better word since I wasn't Married to said individual . . I did a lot of fucked up shit .. but never that . . That's something I had to live with the nightmares of this person doing . .but . .once again . . Humans . . Doesn't make it right . and all the excuses in the world don't make it right . OR change it for that matter . . And the carelessness behind it all . . and the lies , lies , lies . . to my face . to the phone . to this to that . . I mean . .it got re goddamned diculous . . once again . .relationship is a people thing . . and PEOPLE . . are FUCKED up . . but it takes 2 . . God bless ya all . .once again . .im no saint . .

On lighter Notes .. as im writing this . .Shinedown has the 1 Rock Track On the Charts . {Stands up and says FUCK YEA!} Also the 1 Music Video on the FUSE Rock Countdown . . Cause lets face it MTV only plays programs of putting 2 people in a room hoping that one of there respected significant others will cheat on either of them and then only to confront them later . . or shows about some teenage guy or girl . wanting you to publicly humilate there said parent by going on a date with them that is set up by producers . .F that . . I cant watch that shit .. . makes me wanna punch people in the throat

Today we rehearsed with a Symphony Orchestra in Salt Lake City , Utah for a show we are performing tomorrow night outside in the middle of Downtown . .It was TRULY amazing and one of the reasons I exist on this earth . every day I realize how much I love being in a band with all of these guys . . we challenge each other daily . and its truly a gift . .and hearing songs you play . . with a FULL orchestral background . made me feel like I was watching U2 for the first time . . or one of my other favorite bands. . .it was truly amazing . .ALSO

We did A LOT of press Video stuff today . . Tons of stuff for the website , Hastings , Also Nick and I Recorded an PSA for Trojan CONDOMS for there new EVOLVE Campaign . Being the only 2 single guys in the band we felt it was only right to make it funny and as informative as we could . . seeing how protection is a VERY important thing in this day and age { COUGH COUGH Wont mention anyone or anything COUGH COUGH}. . so look for that soon enough.

I got to spend 12 days at home . .that felt like 3 . . And other than all the drama bullshit going on . . it was AWESOME . .My {Big} Little Brother turned 18 while I was home .. that was kinda trippy . . and awesome . . I played a Zach Myers band show for the 1st time 7 years And a Fairwell show AND an acoustic show in the same night . . people have been asking for the setlists as well from those shows . .so here ya go..

Acoustic:
Please Bleed
The Drugs Don't Work
Not Meant to Be {1st time ive ever played that one}
Keep on Moving
Angel from Montgomerey
Romeo & Juliet * W/ Patrick Dodd
Hallelujah

ZMB:
My Way Down
Working on a Building
Shame , Shame , Shame
Yield Not to Temptation
Jobu
Crosscut Saw
8-27-90
Jimi Hendrix Medley

The Fairwell:
Your Last Song
The Worst of You
Save My Life
Catch my Breath
Untitled
Beauty of Falling Down
The Best thing you never had
This Goodbye
Hold On Tight
_______________________
The Freshman * Just Chris and I


So there ya have it . .it was good being home with my family .. but im glad to be back out here. And away from the bullshit I went through at home . .you guys {And girls} cheer me up daily . . I wish I could bring the Ketel Man out here. . But. . Hes a Bulldog . .and he'd eat everything . . . Ill write some more later . . .This tour is going great . . Some cool festivals and headlining shows . . AND WE GET TO PLAY MEMPHIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YEA . .

Love to all of you . . .

Cant wait to see you guys soon . .

Ill leave you with this .. We played it with the Orchestra tonight and I never knew how much since it made in my life till right now . . .



Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that's the way I should go,
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
I left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I'd be able to say
I merely visit on the weekends
I lost my whole life and a dear friend

I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried


Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't wan't you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way

I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be,
You know I've led my life like a gypsy
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried

I'll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life... And you know I tried.


Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't wan't you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way
So, I'll be on my way
So, I'll be on my way

Wed. Dec.5th . 2007 . R.I.P

So as most know . . .Ive had an obsession with Schizophrenia for a long time . . and ive always been fascinated by things like that . . Schizophrenia / Bi Polar Disorder . Amnesia . Things that can happen to where you lose a part of you and can become someone else. . .

But recently got my fare share of the scariness of it . .

We were in LA making the "Devour" video . . .I got a call saying my little brother "Whom if you dont know me . . is my life and best friend and i would take a bullet from a tank for" Was in the Hospital . . he is Polar opposite of me in some ways. . .he loves music . has long hair . . BUT . is 17 and 6'1 and can probably beat ANY of you at ANY Sport invented . . .Me not so much ..
I watch sports and love playing Tennis and Golf . . .He was playing basket ball and Jumped to dunk and fell 10 feet and landed on his head . . . being 3,000 miles away i lost it . .and almost broke my hand on a wall . . . But then they said he has "Retro Amnesia " if you dont know what that is. . .its short term memory loss of the mind . . he would call me . . .and talk to me . . and then call me back 20 minutes later not remember he talked to me . . it was scary . . its all better now . .

but the thought of that made me ever more into this subject and ive been reading all about it . .and feeling way more sympathetic for the people who have family member with this . . and having to deal with it . .its scary . .

but alas . . i enjoy the people who pull through it . .and can live theyre lives . .

remember theres always a tomorrow. . .and its always better . .

. . These lyrics touch on that alot . .about someone with a schizophrenic brother . . and about how it can affect a relationship . .

Ill write more about me later . . i need to do an update. .

No need to be here . .
No card to card to clock in .
And I swear somebodys watching .
Where I go and where ive been .
Oh, Brother I can see moses . .
And all the things he did for you .
Oh , Brother I've been hearing voices
. . That im probably not supposed to . .
How will I walk steady . if the ground is to come alive?
Oh How will I be ready for the world another time. .??

Oh, Alien You'll be just fine . .
You've always been beautiful to me.
Oh, Alien pay us no mind . .
You haven't the light to hold to see . .

Am I another slave now. .
To the screaming in my head ?
Or is it pretty strange now. .
How the moments gone and fled ?
Oh, Brother I gotta tell ya . .
That something here is wrong. .
Oh, Brother I gotta tell ya . . .
This place aint what I thought .

Oh, Alien You'll be just fine . .
You've always been beautiful to me.
Oh, Alien pay us no mind . .
You haven't the light to hold to see . .

I know I aint gonna live forever
And I know you feel the same
Youll see it when your older
No life isn't a game anymore
So thank god were together

Heres the interview i just did . . .Enjoy



This month in Stereovibe UK we caught up with Shinedown touring guitarist Zach Myers, to discuss his project of the last 7 years the Memphis,Tn (U.S.A) band "the fairwell" . Myers started the band in 2001 after touring the globe with his own blues project "The Zach Myers Band" . After touring with many other acts such as other Memphis,Tn Alumni's Saliva, Breaking Point , And Jacksonville,FL favorite sons Shinedown, Myers is putting finishing touches on his own project.



Stereovibe UK : What's currently going on in your world these days ?

Zach Myers : Currently we are mixing "the fairwell" record with Skidd Mills (Skillet,12 Stones) and working on it a lot . Also getting ready to start Shinedown rehearsels here In the next week or two.

SV-UK : " the fairwell" has changed quite a bit from the original line-up in 01/02 tell us a little about the changes ?


Myers : {Laughing} umm. Yea there has been lots of changes. I was joking with Chris (Allen – Rhythm Guitar / Vocals) about that the other day . I think now were at 4 Drummers , 5 Bass Players , and 200,000 Guitar players {Laughs Myers} but I think we kinda zoned in on the core of the band with Chris and I . and bringing Michael Mcmanus in on this record really kinda opened up a little bit of room for changes as well.

SV-UK : How has the writing process as a band grown from when you first started til' as of late.

Myers : More life situations on my part I suppose . I've gone thru a lot and kind of revamped my thought process a little on ways to look at the world and the people around me. For a while I wouldn't let anyone in but now having new friends and seeing the world over , there are way more things to write about . I now can write about girls everywhere in tons of countries { Myers Laughs Jokingly}

SV-UK : Any here in the UK? {Laughs}

Myers : Im sure there are a few

SV-UK : What gear was used on this record. In comparison to your live touring rig with Shinedown?

Myers : Umm I actually didn't use my main Bogner Uberschall on as much of the record as I thought I would . There were a lot of Mesa's and Marshalls ,Koch and a few Fender's I believe . As for guitars I think we may have went thru every Paul Reed Smith I own and that's insane in its own right. A few 70's telecasters , about 6 or 7 Acoustics , A Danelectro 12 String, a Taylor, and maybe a few Les Pauls . As for basses I used a lot of my Ernie Balls , a few Laklands , and a Fender. I mean other than Michael doing drums , Skidd, Chris and I played EVERYTHING on this record . It was a cool small group operation .

SV-UK : You guys are known as a harmony vocal powered band , How do you come up with that for each individual song?

Myers : Its mainly Chris and I . We will sit around and write or I will write the song and bring it to him and he is kinda the harmony guru and can find parts anywere . Till were in the studio and Skidd is starring at him about missing parts {Laughs}

SV-UK : What is your favorite track so far on this record ?

Myers : It's a toss up between 4 {Laughs Myers}. Ummm I cant choose "Beauty of Falling Down" , "Diary" , "Untitled –(Dying for You)" , or "Save My life"

SV-UK : What are you currently listening to in up to 10 bands ?

Myers : Perspective , Joe Firstman , OLD Country , Lucero , Matchbox Twenty , U2 –Always listening to U2 , Seether , Jeff Buckley , Son Volt , Foo Fighters , Placebo , Thriving Ivory.

SV-UK : If you were stranded on an island and you could have . 1 guitar , 1 amp , 1 movie , 1 book , and 1 record .

Myers : {Laughs} wow . Best question and toughest ever . Umm. Wow . My 54' Fender Strat , My 1962 Fender Bassman , Halloween –of course ,Path Of the Warrior –By Lucas Estra Shultz , umm wow 1 record . Otis Redding – Live!Otis!Live!

SV-UK : What is the craziest thing to happen to you since you joined Shinedown ?


Myers : I don't know if its big in London but the website TMZ


SV-UK : Oh! Yes we love TMZ its our new drug over here


Myers : {Laughing} Yea I was on there . {Laughs} for some stupid ass reason.


SV-UK : Would that be the Scout Taylor-Compton Incident ?

Myers : {Laughs} Wasn't this a music magazine 5 minutes ago? . Umm yes that we are friends and we had been hanging out in Hollywood a lot and going to dinner and someone took a couple of photos of us holding hands at a Sushi place It wasn't a big deal . But it was crazy.

SV-UK : That is interesting . Well Thank you for your time and the best of luck with all your future projects hope to see you in London again soon.
Myers : Cant wait to get back . Thank you guys



"Schizophrenic Love Songs Volume I" is due in stores in May .
and the yet to be titled latest release from Shinedown is due out in May as well.
You can also visit "the fairwell" at the bands myspace address
The Fairwell

And Shinedown at
Shinedown

So i was just vibrated awake with my Caller ID saying . Eron.Hawthrne Heights . . .

It didnt feel right . . I had JUST spoken to Him and Casey Calvert on thanksgiving because they were going to be playing here next week . .

I answered to something totally horrific and me praying it was april fools day . .

it wasnt . .

Eron was hysterical and told me that Casey had taken a nap after Soundcheck . . . then Eron tried to wake him up for dinner . . .

My really good friend Casey Calvert Died today . . . . . . He was 26 years old . . . .

I really and truely dont have much else to say . .

I met Casey a few yeas ago at a festival . . and he sat around in our dressing room playing guitar with me . .and we hit it off instantly

Last year we played Dallas Edgefest with them and a bunch of other bands . . .Casey woke me up at 9:30 . by crawling in my bunk . . .i dont know who let him on the bus . .haha. . but they went onstage at 10:15 am . .so i watched there set . and then we ate breakfast. . .and hung out all day . .

I was still pissed he woke me up . . .haha. . .

He was funny , He was energetic , He was a great guitar player , Most of all he was a great person . .

and hes already missed . . . . .



Life is Fragile . .

"Make every door you walk through a living work of art "


C.Calvert
81-07


God Rest. . .

. . . So im sitting here . . . on the floor in my apartment in LA . . . Packing. .
And if any of you guys know me . . I hate LA . . I really do . . Always have . .
If So . . .Why do I feel like im leaving part of me here? ? ? ?
This place almost feels like home now. . I have a lot of friends here . .
. And it sucks to leave them . . . . I feel like ive grown so much out here to . . I don't know why . . I learned how to deal with little tiny things differently . . .

I also learned how fucking snoopy and nosey people could be .. and got a little taste of the fucking people who stalk you when you go eat dinner with your "Friend" just because the both of you have made a name or done SOMETHING / ANYTHING in your life. . .people think its fair game to talk about shit that REALLY isn't there business. . not that im famous by ANY means .. but I cant even imagine what some of those people fucking go through . .why marriages get wrecked. . ruined. . cause of fucking pricks who have a laptop and a camera =Present company excluded= hahah..

So yea . .basically scout and I had a bunch of internet shit happen . .kinda lame. . some people need to mind there own fucking business and lay off message boards….

Anyway . .Joey and I got a lot of work done out here to . . im REALLY proud of that . .
We maintained. . .We got along. . that's good .. I feel like I have a new true/REAL friend . . And with him im starting to realize how people thought about me . .and I was preaching the whole time to people who thought I was a fucking prick . .that . ."Im just different. . and difficult at time" and hes the same way . . but I think that's why we are so close now. . . . were 2 people that aren't ON all the time . . Sometimes we need you to shut the fuck up and fuck off . . we think a lot .. so that's where that comes in . .

But anyway . .we got a lot of songs done . .Best Recording/Writing trip ive been on in a while . .

Barry and I hung out a lot . .that was cool . .

Got to hang with my boy T-West. . .hes always a good time . .

So back to my soul being a little left behind in LA . . .
I grew so much in this time ..
Situations happened. .that happened. . period . .some were great. . some were bad . .some will continue . . I brought some friends closer. . Pushed some away . .I guess im just wondering if the "Push to Pull" ratio was the right one . . .but for some reason I think I did the right things. . saved some people from getting hurt . .and probably myself to . . .Something grew out here. . heavily .. and I like it . . A LOT . . =)
So as I sit here packing . .. A LOT of shit .. since ive been here so long . . .and my shopping addiction has called for me to ship stuff home . . .cause. . .yea well . .i bought a lot of shit . . .i guess im just having an emo day . . .blah . . Its funny coming out to LA . I was thinking WHOOHOOO no girl drama for a while .. then I get here and had more than I needed .. wow . . .im done with that . . . .PS . . Theres some STUPID fucking shit on TV nowadays . . .Read a book . . .My fuck. . . .

Ill start writing more of these things . . .i keep getting emails . .but I truly have been stupid fucking busy but I will . .when I feel the need to be witty. . and ya know . = Theres NO shortage of dumbass mother fuckers wondering around the planet in flip flops and khaki shorts right now. . what the fuck is the world coming to . .and most of them feel the need to operate motor vehicles on the 101 free in Los Angeles . ."Goddamn I cant wait to get back on 240 in Memphis = Sorry . . that was my rant . . . .

Anyway . . .Over it . . .

So to . . . the pro's . .for writing songs with us and putting up with our bullshit . .i know were a handful . . . Mike Green , Simon Wilcox , Jason "Space"-aka the mutha fucking MAN , Jon Ingoldsby , Holly Brook , Dave Basset , Kevin "Bro Poker Bro" Churko . . . Thank you guys . . . your now family

Now to my old and new friends. . who are Honerary inductees of the Memphis Mafia now . . since you drank our sweet tea . .and we showed ya how to eat like southerners. . .

Tony "Mother fucking" West , Scout <3 Taylor <3 Compton AKA the WORST driver/parker ever .=) , Holly Brook " She gets 2 cause shes on both sides" =) , Kevin "Don't stop believing" Martin , Gavin Brown , Sarah <3 Dope , Kimmmmmmmm , Courtney Cordera , Murry , The Dirty Kings , Matchbox Twenty, Black list Union , Chris Daughtry. . The Staffs at - The Rainbow x 100 , Frankie and Johnnies Pizza , Sushi Dans , The Belmont , The Burgundy Room , Fatburger on Ventura , ALL the Mels Drive ins , Carnies , Carls Jr's Criss Cut fries on Ventura , Swingers . . . Thanks . . .

Thanks you guys . . .

Now. . with the aforementioned . . .Heres to LA . . And "most" LA girls . . if you think im talking about you . . . . I probably am . . .



She draws the costume correct in thick, black and red eyeliner.
She's too young for the club but the guys at the door don't mind her.
The boys are all lining up for their chance to wine and dine her.
She thinks she's working the scene,
but she's caught up in a web full of spiders (and all the drinks they buy her)

She don't like cocaine, baby just likes how it smells says maybe you can drive me home if you
want.

Then you wake up beside her saying "baby I think you should leave..."
She had a really rough night, she got too high, now she can't breathe
and if the ambulance comes you KNOW they're gonna bring the police,
so you wrap her up tight, put her to sleep beneath a willow tree
and your hands are clean...

She don't like cocaine, baby just likes how it smells says maybe you can drive me home if you
want.

So go out and have your fun tonight,
you might as well go out and raise your glass to life.
Go out and have your fun tonight,
you might as well go out and raise your drinks to life,
'cause we're ALL going to Hell...

And so now we can see how easily we become hopelessly tangled up
in the very webs we've spun.
So give me one last line and I promise you I'm done -
This is the story of how "ONE" night can weigh a ton.