If it wasn't for music I don't know where I would be right now.  You know what I mean, when your life sucks and nothing you do makes it better until you hear that song that just lifts your heart, mind, and inner self.  A song so great that you actually forget about your troubles, and worries and just loose yourself in the music. 

       Life isn't the greatest right now for a lot of people and everyone gets upset and depressed.  Especially in these times of uncertainty.   But I know you all have your music. 

     I guess you can say that music has saved my life, not a god or person.  Not like I was gonna kill myself but I have been in pretty shitty spots and had nothing and no one around except the music.   I only mention this because I am in a pretty shitty spot right now and feel the weight crushing me.  While I can persevere anything, I just feel as though I am a lost soul meant to travel through time alone with no purpose. 


      Sure I have a loving and beautiful G/F. but I am not attached to her and her not to me.  We are individuals with a bond and connection.  We still have our own demons to face and sometimes no one else can help you except the music.

I just felt like sharing with everyone, its not like me, but I want to move on in my life and I have face my demons now or they will catch up with me later.

Peace all

Never forget the music

Randy C.

So I found out a few tattoo shops around town are looking for apprentices.  Anyone who knows me well, knows that I have a passion for art and a talent as well.  Those who know me very well know that a few years ago I attempted unsuccessfully to enter into the field of Body art.

Other than playing music, I have wanted to be a tattoo artist since I first saw my father getting his first and only tat done when I was 10 years old.  I just hope that I have what it takes to be an Artist. 

Yeah I am just hope I can make this happen it would be fucking awesome.  Besides I have wanted tats since I was like 14 years old and have just never had the money to get them.

PEace
RAndy C

Why is it that no one tells how shitty life will be when you get older they all sugar coat it like its a goddamn game or something.   OF course for some people life was never shitty!  And if it is its because there fucking paradise has a few fucking screws loose oh bullshit.  I have seen bullshit.  I was homeless at the fucking age of 13 for fuck sake how many of you out there can say that!

All I face is BS BS and more BS and sure that's how it goes well I am tired of how it goes.  The only reason it goes that way is because you brainless automatons follow every goddamn thing on the planet.  The government, Society and the whole fucking world have it all wrong. 
So if you ask me if the world is gonna end on 2012 I say yes, because no one seems to be getting the point of life and its not being a fucking tool in a fucked world.  So we'll all get wiped away.  So what ever force, power or even entity is behind our existence, will erase us all and start again because we are not do things the right way.

I really hope that on 12/12/2012 this whole wretched fucking world comes to an end because all I see is greed, hate, corruption, and lunacy. 

All I fucking feel anymore is hate, greed, and insanity.  I never use to be a greedy person I never even gave a flying fuck about money I was pure, a pure spirit(not a soul. a soul is  shitty religious  hogwash. 

So I will be making some very big decisions in the next few months and I'm sorry if I hurt the people closest to me, but anyone who knows me knows I am such and Empathetic person that it almost kills me and so I cover it up with a fucked sense of Apathy.

I'm not gonna kill myself(I'm not a whiny infant).  But complete and utter Isolation is a possibility.  I have tried living in the real world and getting a job and paying my bills and being denied schooling(yes denied, if you wanna know ask me I am not gonna talk about it now).  So fuck it life is to short to waste on people and there fucking bullshit.  I see everyone I know fight and whine, argue over nothing dislike for ignorant and arrogant reason such as a music, or clothing.   WAKE THE FUCK UP THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS OUT THERE THAN THE WAY SOME ONE LOOKS, THEIR FASHION SENSE.  OR THERE TASTE IN MUSIC.   STOP MAKING BARRIERS AND START TAKING THEM DOWN!  


So I end this rant with a little poem I wrote its incomplete but who's cares the world is more incomplete than this poem.




My spirit is heavy with throe
planted from years ago
a pain that has no end and
a rage that seems to grow with
every breath

WHEN WILL WE WAKE AND SEE
OUR WORLDS NOT WHAT IT SEEMS
PERPETUATED IGNORANCE
ALL KEPT IN THE DARK
BLINDED FROM THE TRUTH

OUR EYES SEWN SHUT WITH HATRED
NOT OF OUR ENEMIES
BUT OUR BRETHREN


OUR MINDS JADED BY IGNORANCE
GREEN IS ALL THAT IS SEEN


CORRUPTED WITHIN, THE GREED
HAS LEECHED  INTO OUR
SOULS

WHEN WORDS OF WISDOM AND PEACE
ARE OVERSHADOWED WITH WAR, HATE,
WEALTH AND POWER

IS THERE ANY HOPE LEFT IN A FOOLS WORLD





 

To star off I am not a holder of several degrees, I am not a Politician. I am a human being and my name is Randy Cool. This is not a essay about conspiracy, but merely a different perspective.

I have seen, just as all of you have the events that took place on Sept. 11, 2001 and look on in disbelief. I sat in my classroom wondering why anyone would have done such a thing and upon my asking, everyone I had talked to said "Its terrorist Bin Laden hates America and Freedom." I was skeptical the more and more I watched and the more I researched. I seen the footage live as it happened and I seen the footage untampered I know what I seen. Parts of the buildings exploded as though bombs were placed strategically. But I again brushed it off thinking no way its probably just dust or pressure build up or something other than what I was thinking.

I know for a fact that this country manipulates its own people. Its not that hard to believe. Is it? You watch T.V. and you see skin and bone models telling you this is how you must look if you want to be in. Role models such as Brittany Spears half naked dancing on stage, that all little girls seem to love and adore. A nation where despite a starving world, we are among the fattest people. A nation that has and probably never cease telling lies. A nation where our money isn't even in the control of our government( this may be either a good or a bad thing)but controlled by private bankers. So I ask you is it really hard to believe that a Government that thrives on fear, money and power, that they would Destroy and kill several thousand of our brothers to enter into a war with no end, A WAR ON TERROR. What is the enemy? Anyone freedom hating individuals who would threaten our great nation. Well Ladies and gentlemen this is and internal war. There is no fucking way to win it. The war on Terror is just an excuse the take away our civil liberties. And have we not all seen it done already.

Now I close this with two statements. Right now your home can be searched without you even being present, you can be detained for no reason and even tortured. Just on the suspicion that you may be a terrorist. Is that how you want to live? What happens when they start going after us. This is part of the patriot act. IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME THEN GO AND READ IT, ITS THERE AS PLAIN AS THE SUN. IN BLACK AND WHITE.
I know end with this quote and just to show that you have red this I am gonna leave who said it off and I want you to go look it up.
"An evil exist the threatens every Man, Woman, and child of this great nation . We must take steps to ensure our domestic security and protect our Homeland"