Hello all long time no chat... or write. Things are going good for the most part. I am awaiting news on a new job with a security company I am just waiting for my crimanel Back ground check from Galveston County and my drug screen to come back and I am all clear. Yay. I have had an eventful year, Severel times spent down on the beach getting sun burnt, and wet. I moved from Detroit back to texas and I was releived to be out of texas. GO LONG HORNS We wont the Red River ralvery for the first time in 5 years. I got to see project 86 do a 5 song sit in july it was epic for the most part. I missed them in October though but I know there will be more times to play along. Some good movies came out and some I wished I didn't even waste my time and dollar with. School is going great for me right now, hopefully I can get out of this C- up to a B- by next week so yeah I hope yall are good.

njoy

So I woke up at 1:30 this morning and it felt like I was being checked by something... I couldn't move it was a strugle I had to fight what was over me holding me down. I finely got up and went to the restroom. then I made it to the kitchen to fix me a fresh Ice cold drink. and I had two large figures. not ghost or people but dark shapes standing over me... I am sorry this was not a Nightmare... This was more like a demonic surrounding I woke up 3 more times with it trying to get me. Till I finely got on my iPod and put the Butcher by Project 86 on I felt more at ease... yes that was it... I felt peaceful

Have you ever wanted to find something that could really speak to your soul. You know, when your a punk, emo, metal head freak like me, sometimes it might be hard to find something that you can bang your head to and just release praises to God above and the saving grace of Jesus. well I have found a good one. Pick up the Destroy The Runner cd "I, Lucifer" and if you have the time and cash pick up there "Saints" album if you want it just a notch bit harder. But I couldn't quite review this cd in anyother way then this
 
"I, Lucifer" Montage
Take this breath in my chest I crave death and nothing less, Slit my throat cause I am better off dead. Was I given straw to build this house, tell me why the hell did my walls fall down. Take these hands turn them into weapons, change these plans and make them into yours. Take this man and turn his site from demons. All I am is wanting you more. Now I see whats been hidden inside of me. I'll never question you again. Outside they hear a different song then inside. If your drawing lines you can get off our side. We want to be wrong if what you say is right. A Fire is burning inside of you and they've tried to put you out. You'll findthat possibly maybe you might die but not on your own. I carved a pic of you into my skin, I showed everyone that I never sin. just because I bleed like you I am not a man. I am not of this world and you must understand. We've triedto cover our eyes and ears, but we can see with our hearts and its the greatest view from here. one question started off and now there is more. are nswers found in hats of thorns? What is the point? He has give us a choice, we'll flip a coin and rejoice, rejoice, we will rejoice

Um Wow I just gotten a touch from the spirit. all of a sudden. to this my joyues ones.Things are strang as they seem as it is or is it just me. Mind plays a confussion trick on me that I can not seem to place. I spare my time and all that I have to waste. that is very little and you are my groom to be. Touch me as a reach out to you. You know I will not fear, they can not touch me.
 
All this bogusness in my head I will not find your answers any where but you. Why do I do what I do, I find my salace in you. Resting in your images the arms I will feel sprayed around me. I flee to my refuge which is in you and you take everything wrong in this world away. away. away. That is not a mistake I had to of paid.
 
Sometimes when I feel wrong, like Ive fallen flat on my face. I will be here never waiting for you cause you are already there with me.
 
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Just some rent and raves of mine tonight well not really just some random thoughts of God. I FEEL LOVED

Ok so this is it. I was talking to manny of people over a period of time and I always sit any of my profiles to in a relationship, and I have always been aske dy people if I was single and I would say yes I am single. But then later they would ask about the relationship part in my profile. so here is the deal, In the even of God's ending of existance, I will remain in the closest of relationships with him, God will never cease to exisit so there for warning to all. My GOD OVER RULES ANY ONE OF YOU
 
"Love Song"
 
[1st Verse]
I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves.
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done.
I've never climbed the highest mountain,
But I walked the hill of Calvary.

[Chorus]
Just to be with you, I will do anything
There's no price I would not pay no
Just to be with you, I would give everything
I would give my life away.

[2nd Verse]
I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
All of those dreams are an empty motion.
It can never be done.
I've never swam the deepest ocean,
But I walked upon the raging sea.

[Repeat Chorus]
Just to be with you, I will do anything
There's no price I would not pay no
Just to be with you, I would give everything
I would give my life away.

[Bridge]
I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love.
How I died upon the cross for your sins.
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I give you
But I promise, I would do it all again.

Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay no
Just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave my life away.
Just to be with you.

Life is strange as tears fall down inside of you ya know. Never knowing what to feel or believe about different things. But the events that have produced around me, the past year or 14 months. I am strong and will stand for my self and not allow anything to break me down
 
"Waisting Time" By Red
 
You found me here, waiting for your chance
You would reach inside and take all of me
You watch your lies smother me again
But now you can't!

Don't even try your wasting time
Jump back I'll beat you down and turn around
I'm fighting my way through you
Push you away, I'll never break
Come back ill beat you down
It's over now
I'm turning my back on you

I turn around, there you are
A blink and a flash back to you again
You push me down tried to steal it all
This time I pushing back!

Don't even try your wasting time
Jump back I'll beat you down, turn around
I'm fighting my way through you
Push you away, I'll never break
Come back I'll beat you down
It's over now
I'm turning my back on you

ohh on you

Go ahead and try to stop me
Go ahead and try to stop me
Go ahead and try to stop me
Go ahead and try!
Go ahead and try!

Don't even try, you're wasting time
Jump back I'll beat you down and turn around
I'm fighting my way through you!
Push you away, I'll never break
Come back I'll beat you down
It's over now
I'm turning my back on you!

OMG part of my package came from Amazon today... Yay!!! It was a CD I haven't heard in ages. These 5 Down. Guys yall gotta check this band out if you are into Christian metal, or any kinda of metal. There first CD that came out back in 2000 was sweet. They just released a follow up in 2007 but it is not as good. The best song on this CD is Hymn. Order it from amazon.com. I found it for .78 to .87 cents. plus shipping in handling so about $5 bucks all together. Check it out. The CD is out of print and the only way to get it is off of amazon.
 
"hymn"
Spirit of addiction
Spirit of confusion
Spirit of perversion lend me your ear
Spirit of witchcraft
Spirit of hatred
Spirit of delusion I bind you now

All in the name of Jesus
I bind you up
All in the name of Jesus
I cast you out
All in the name of Jesus
I cast you down to the pits of hell
All in the name of Jesus
I bind you up
All in the name of Jesus
I cast you out
All in the name of Jesus
I cast you down to the pits of hell

Let em' have an open ear
Let em' have an open heart
Let em' see with new found sight
Let em' feel your love tonight

Spirit of religion
Spirit of deception
Spirit of division lend me your ear
Spirit of mockery
Spirit of jealousy
Spirit of adultery I bind you now
 

Ok so today I was going through a box at moms. I was looking for a cordless home phone she said might of been in there. Instead I found something totaly better. But before I tell you what I found, I need to explain why they are good things to me, important things to me, not because they are of God.
 
Last January, I broke up with an ex girlfriend of 3 years of off and on dating and a lot of hurt and finacial abuse from her. I was sickening in love with her. Well I broke up with her in Jan on the 10th of 2008. just two nights before I was in a hospital chapel praying to God, telling him that if he allowed us to split up, I would no longer trues, have faith, or Believe in him.
 
I have been a Christian now since 2004 when I got saved at my 3rd project 86 concert. I walked away from Wicca that night. I hit my knees in a mosh pit. Since then I have really learned that God works in misteries ways when dealing with his children. Each one of his children have diferent needs then the other. and there needs come at different times. Well God build my knowledge on his communication with me since 2004 when I was in California. I am knowledgeable in his word, but not quite I can't tell you where a lot of verses are I just know what they are. Well for the past 14 months God has been working on me in trusting and listining to him. You see when I walked away from Krystal last year, I didn't turn from God. I went to him and I felt peace about everything. He has built me up again. Now I am ready for my next step. and that is getting to know his word more.
Today I have found three books that I got in the late 90s. Two are devotionels. One is a book called E-mails from God for Teens. Now I know I am not a teenager, But God is the same God to me as he is to you and that will never change. He has put some Awsome Christian friends in my life that I am really close to... Steve, Angela, Pastor Brown, Em, Wilkin (Though I haven't seen him in a long while)
 
Your love, oh Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness stretches to the sky
Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains
Your justice flows like the ocean's tide
I will lift my voice
To worship You, my King
I will find my strength
In the shadow of your wings

My Breath is what I breath. I fall short time and time again. Oh what I can do with out cutting my wrest. I wont to bleed for you, I don't want to die because of you.
Maybe its time to believe in love again. maybe all that God has shown me over the past 14 months has put me into this position. Or has gotten me ready for this. I pray for his wisdom in all. I know he gives and I will take. But I hope that he gives me the strength to walk away at anypoint if I have to. So far I feel him shoving me right in to it. But my stubility is far more important. I just trust in God over any human being... I hope my Bella can understand that... I <3 You

Man I wish I could find Shaggy. I wounder if he is still a Skillet fan...
New downloads this past week so some new reviews...
Skillet- Comatose Comes Alive
This is a concert DVD from the Christian rock band Skillet. They where on tour supporting there last record "Comatose". for any fans of hard music I recomand this dvd and while you are at it pick up the new record if you haven't
Twilight
Have you noticed there a lot of movies that get a bunch of hype before and after it opens in theator. Why is this? Half the movies that do get the hype are made to sound like they are best of the decade, but when I watch them I don't see it. a Few exceptions where Batman The Dark Knight, and The Chronicals of Narnia so far... Twilight was a good movie no doubt the more I watch it the more you want it to be true. It has a really good storyline and awsome filming, and I am looking forward to seeing part two. but the hype on it... WHY???
Sexdrive
Now for fans of movies such as roadtrip, eurotrip, and american pie. You will love this one. I thought I was going to die laughing. and the Ending wasn't cheesy I knida liked the ending.
The Undborn
Now back to the hype business, This one could of used more hype. This was a good film I just regret not seeing it in theators. I am not a big fan of supernatural horrors... I like stuff that can really happen. but this movie had some sweet effects that scared the crap out of me.