At long last and in a somewhat out-of-the-blue manner, the Sunshine Man and the Wind of Changes album has been completed and as of 18/11/2009, I've released it. Yayness!

You know what happens when akktive carbon completely fades out? This is what happens. I've just read up on my last post and laughed it off (aw, man...). Lots of time had lapsed, lots of things had happened, and it took a while, but now I'm feeling extra lucky again.

So yeah - I'm into game development now and, keep our fingers crossed that it all goes professional very soon enough indeed. I've been working on a framework, XRhodes, that aims to facilitate game development to some, and now I've finished my first game, Pitchblackoids (based on the framework), and working on some more.

See you at the download section, I guess? (Pitchblackoids is available for Mac OS X and Windows.)

akktive carbon isn't dead, no sir. but it lives a very strange kind of life indeed. one which resembles death in many aspects. now not so much the underlying Gyorgy Straub!

me, I had the time of my life in these months. I spent this almost half a year with my girlfriend, who's the best human being I know. I've been working on my game programming project, Lumbering Dream Interactive, and my game framework. I've replaced my royal, but exceedingly shitty (stop press - it's broken!=) ) acer laptop with an iMac.

I've been missing akktive carbon somewhat, but I've been missing the drive to carry on too. funny thing, that. the akktive carbon orchestra -- forget it (if you remember, that is=D). Sunshine Man And The Wind Of Changes, the album -- expect a free download (and it's still going to be of the fresh versions of the songs, and with three yet unreleased songs). New songs -- I've got inspiration for some, but they will probably be game soundtracks if anything.

hey, good times were had.

EDIT: I'm collecting msn and skype accounts now. No, it's not my job. No, I have my own skype and msn account. Yes, I want to remain in touch with you guys!

I keep the faith, I keep thet distance, and more or less I kept myself to about one release a month recently. of course it isn't such a mechanic thing, neither can you schedule creativity - however, the lack of new tracks on myspace/IAC doesn't mean a complete lack of new tracks whatsoever. I've been working on new projects and they fall into three category:
1, non-äc stuff (it's still hard to separate when the project still consists of one member=) ), namely game soundtracks.
2, äc-stuff beyond Sunshine Man And The Wind Of Changes (whee, there's beyond).
3, stuff for SMATWOC which is gonna be kept a surprise until release (this includes three new tracks plus a new version of an old fav).

Hmm... äkktive cärbön is completing it's tenth round around the Sun one of these days. And today is the present for the big day. As today, again, Life proved that äkktive cärbön isn't dead (as I though it was in the last couple of weeks).

I'm working on the last couple of tracks for the first real äkktive cärbön LP, Sunshine Man And The Wind Of Changes, and I seem to possess the inspiration for the next LP (It also has a name already). Dead certain, the inspiration will come and go, like it always does - but it's nice not only to be on the way, but feeling like it too. Sometimes I was missing that.

Now ten years, for what? Not for SMATWOC, certainly (the idea is from mid-2006). However, I kept stuff personal, all the time. A lot of attempts had turned out to be a no-go, and very few do I really regret (and none I can name... so that's how very few) - also very few lived to see the light of day in a form or another, and although I'm certainly not happy with all of them from a technical standpoint, I'm at least happy enough with what they are spiritually.

Lyrics... I always used to struggle with lyrics. There's only one of my songs I've written lyrics from, and that's a very un-serious piece (it'll be on the LP). The rest, well -- I'm still insisting on writing lyrics, not at all costs, for some of them. Others will do nicely without words as those in this ten years' timespan. They have emotions, memories embedded in them all the same.

As for SMATWOC, nothing you've already heard will be the same on the album. Not exactly the same, that's for sure. More than that I'm not telling.=) (One piece of info: there is a song with the same name as the album.)

It's coming!

nothing serious -- I gotta have it done. it's not very accurate either, but --look?

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after a couple of shocking recent experiences, I've learnt something new. of course, it isn't factual knowledge, it's just a real life experience support every beneficial (=true-to-Life) concept and theory needs.

those who know me, know that I'm quite impatient towards myself, towards my life, the things I'm creating in my life. äkktive cärbön included. yeah, I'm exigent (no, it isn't the best expression to describe the trait that one cares for the quality of their work), and so many times I've missed the opportunity to come to a stop and take time enjoying what I've created rather than worrying about it being incomplete.

it isn't only what Osho says about the beauty of incompleteness (vs the deadness of perfection), but also the fact that just like everybody else, I am special, and as such whatever I do, I'm the best at doing it my way. (for those who get the impression that I'm a self-absorbed prick: it means that you are special, and as such whatever you do, you're the best at doing it your way.)

yes, the first real album "Sunshine Man And The Wind Of Changes" is coming to completion. yes, the second one is already concieved in my heart/head. yes, in the meantime I'm working on a 2D action-adventure game set in a world I'm creating (about nothing is closer to my heart).
and yes, I'm still juggling all this with quite a demanding and nearly full-time job of quite a big (humane) responsibility, so there's a long way to go, but who cares?
I've got my whole life for it.

(I'll go now and listen to my new Nuyorican Soul LP -- I've chosen it blindfolded, so keep your fingers crossed.=) )

Last post I've been  pondering how to separate György Straub stuff from äkktive cärbön stuff. Well here's the philosopers' stone: I'm not supposed to, what with all things interconnecting and intertwining and all being One.
One for the heart.
One for the mind: I'll post personal stuff here only if it affects äkktive cärbön in any manner. And be truthful: all is One. Suck on this, mind, BEWM!=D

Alrighty, serious now, and on topic. This is going to be damn easy: love like that doesn't exist. Period.

Now let's (not) spend some time and ponder why does love have to be so fucken fragile, why does it take so much courage, why is it hard not to get embarrassed, even scared when someone loves you. I'm not pulling up Vonnegut's stuff about being told "I love you" feeling like someone pointing a gun at you. I'm talking about the fact (it does look like one) that you can't love someone who revealed themselves in near their full complexity, honesty and purity. Paracelsus says "to know is to love" (stop wondering how much older people I'm gonna quote - they have a point, which is already more than what most of the people of today can tell about themselves)... Why does everybody beg to differ, or for that matter, just differ?

Awh, man... today, along came a realisation, which answers the question, and renders all the above futile, pretty much like pointing out factually that the sky is blue. For some, it will be repetition of words -- however, the emphasis has shifted, and the meaning of the words has deepened over time. Here it goes: we're only bound to a human form, so we live a human life, and have human problems.

Enjoy what's there to be enjoyed and worry not over passing moments, for that's all there is.

EDIT: forget about the words. I mean it.

this is more of a György Straub blog than an äkktive cärbön one, I don't know how long can/will I keep mixing the two (what with me stating äkktive cärbön is the brainchild of (and not merely 'is')" me).
at any rate, I'll go ahead and use this space to say everything I otherwise can't.

terrible feeling that. makes me wanna cry like a wolf. and wreck something.
how fucken lonely can you get? how alien can you get? why is everybody so numb, and once so, why do I fucken mind to ask for a little time, when I do the speaking, and not the listening? or is that why? but most of all, why in god's holy name does all of it hurt so much - why does it matter at all, to begin with?

freedom is to let go of things. in fact, the only freedom. I can't be free of dependencies (we're One, remember) - but I can be free.

Aw man, was it ever worth waiting! Master Faalb has finished doctoring his remix of Shiner. And it's fucken brilliant. Listen to it here.