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Age: 18
Sign: Leo

City: pasadena
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 5/30/2006

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Saturday, January 01, 2011 

Category: Friends

meet my best friend






she'd put yours to shame. you probably don't understand her (it's okay - not many can).
you won't comprehend our friendship. things like us aren't dime a dozen.











in fact, we're pretty rare.



adrienne shier is my sister.
(she's the same color as me and i don't think our blood could be anymore perfectly matched.
there are things you'll never understand (common sense makes it clear that humans are incapable of interacting without enmity, the gluttony of indulging on the universe far too much is something even i cannot seem to wrap my fingers around).


our friendship is the first thing you'll never get a chance to experience.




though i can hardly let you fathom how much she means to me.
(count to ten, you might discover something surreal).
i have never once had someone as great as she is, and i'm sure you can see that.

this girl is my life.
it's kinda fun being friends with her.


who ever knew that being serious wasn't fictitious?




see what i mean?






you'll be lucky enough to be divulged - we live in a world where nothing matters but our stupidity (of laughter), knowledge (of brain teasing and crude facts), imagination (where everything is free to roam), and love... because who says friendship could be anything without compassion for one another?
(pst.. hey woolf, eat your heart out.)



love isn't a secret you hide.
you cannot do the same for friendship.






it is something to share.





for the world to envy.





thank you adrienne. i have realized what it is like to make others jealous.



you're name is forever engraved into my heart.



i have spent months trying to find a person to tell my innermost secrets to, to laugh and ridicule the faulty of mankind that encompasses our nature, to smile at gourmet food buffets we can draw together within 10 minutes, to scream at the horror fest that plays in the background of our minds while we're too busy replaying anecdotes of reliving the fondest memories in our hearts; to find a person to share the world with in their own eyes.

people say we're crazy, but they cannot understand our friendship is more than those pitiful seven letters you carelessly toss around, replaying events that try to deem yourself worthy.

(well, what're you waiting for? prove YOUR friendship for somebody).





i will cross bridges and swim oceans to see her.
to laugh...
to smile....
to enjoy...
to live...
the way i do when we're put together.



write an essay, narrate a story of hectic troubles that evolved something of yours.
say a haiku through 17 words that truly mean nothing to you.
become blissfully unaware of your surroundings.


eat your heart out, if it helps.






for now.. you can envy what i have.





i'm a lucky girl whose best friend is just like her.
i'm a girl who just got lucky.


we're just like you.


except we're better.



november 2006.




and what we have is real.


so fuck you if you don't like who we are or what we do best. i live for four reasons: myself, god, family and her. adrienne is my sister, ask my parents or her mother. we've been through more than you can realize and you do not have to attest to whom we've become together.




all i know is that she is me and i am her.

we have made it this far and we're not going anywhere anytime soon.



so get use to it.





oh yes, keep pretending and faking you know what i have.
how LUCKY i am and how JEALOUS you pretend not to be.


when i told her forever, i fucking meant it.


roll your eyes, ignore the fact that yes, yes i have everything YOU dont have.
everything you WISH you had.
everything you will NEVER have.
everything that i EARNED.
everything that i TOLD her and trusted her.
everything you could NEVER justify nor comprehend.
everything you CANT seem to wrap your puny and incompetent brains upon.
everything you SHALL NOT deceive and make a mockery of.



i've learned and seen dozens of friendships crash and burn into a swallowing abyss. every piece of what i've seen has made me so grateful for my sister and best friend that people think they've gotten. best friends have come and gone in my life, but adrienne shier has been my everything for so long i refuse to see my life beside somebody else. she completes me and you will N E V E R come close to understanding just exactly how much this kid means to me. for everything we've been through, we make you and your so-called "best friend" look like SHIT. for everything we've done together we put you to S H A M E. for all that i've done for her i will make you look worthless. for all she means to me your best friend will make you look like a pair of FUCKING STRANGERS. keep pretending you have what we do because the odds are, you will never be so blessed and peaceful quite like we are. adee "monkey toes" shier-rodriguez is M I N E so FUCK OFF and find your own hetero lifemate. i've found mine and it's made me know exactly why my most close and private friendships have worked out with anybody else.






keep lying to yourself, honey.


we'll always do it better.








friendship created by denise and adrienne.
(that soon transformed into family).





say something worthy of our friendship. just try me. hurt her and i will make sure it's the last unfortunate event you will ever encounter.



OH RIGHT. stop stealing our lines and what i've said in this blog to summarize your pretentious, cheap, artificial, deplorable, petty, preposterous vendetta you have so-called claim to be your concept of "best friends." trust me, what you see, what you hear, what you perceive.. this is what a R E A L friendship looks like.

so FUCK OFF, and find your own words to categorize your friendships. stop stealing my expressions of feelings and trying to pass them off as your own. you ain't fooling me, so stop pretending to fool yourself.

:)









THIS IS THE SERIOUS BUSINESS RIGHT HERE.
so here's the deal...


i've been a changed girl for the past few months, but the past year has been mind blowing.

so let me justify some things that you will never quite understand. it's ceased to phase me how much everyone wishes they could grasp what I. and if you think you do: THINK AGAIN. truth is, i fail sometimes and underestimate the marvel of what a true friendship is. i've burned bridges, crashed and burned, and made several mistakes that pushed entities against me. i'm a royal fuck up with a heart of glass, a deviant model citizen, and a big ol' mess that screams "blissfully unaware" across her own smudge of canvas. i've been through hell and back, and believe me.. what you see is what you D O N ' T get. my title is rightfully MINE and i've earned and gotten my fame through my perspiration, tears, and frustration among mankind. those friendships that claimed themselves to be notoriously my "best friends?" like a pair of star-crossed lovers, everything fell to pieces and never more am i blessed for the fate that i was given. life was inconceivable, of course, but only do i truly find remorse in the understanding that my life was to change for better. take note that i have many flaws, but priceless trinities to maintain and goals to uphold, but i am still WHOLE and less than generalized. my edges are never clean, yet jaded from the reminiscing of nostalgic memories that burn into the eclipse of an engraved heart. my eyes see for all that it is worth, and i am given something new to withhold and value above all other materialistic possessions pitiful beings seem to cherish and find to fit on a scale of being endless and timeless. i was given a friendship that defined a morality of mankind that not only i can barely find a stream of consciousness in, but confines others to attempt and mutate in their own matter (but pity, matter is never created... thank you, mayer for the creation of the first law of thermodynamics).

and i'm QUITE aware that i've stated the factual evidence to support my claim that everything about my best friend is naturally perfect. in fact, i'd be struck if I don't confuse you by the profound knowledge that i've stumbled across thus far in trying to show you how much more AMAZING my best friend is than yours. let's face it: this is what it will truly boil down to in the end, after all. let's just tally up how much more i've learned from her than yours. oh right, i don't have to mark up much because quite simply, half of the explanations i give you WONT matter and i will STILL have everything YOU will never earn from one perspective outlet to your meaningless and boggled existence. i’m stunned half of you would even dare
FIGHT ME AND TRY TO ESTABLISH YOUR VENDETTA IMMEDIATELY. COME ON, I AM FUCKING W A I T I N G.




oh, of course. you can't. possibly because, by statistical confirmations, my best friend is still everything you can ever imagine and more.
my best friend is still twice as amazing as yours.
my best friend is still three times as funny as yours.
my best friend is still four times as gorgeous as yours.
my best friend is still five times as sweeter as yours.
my best friend is still six times as kick ass as yours.
my best friend is still seven times as closer as you(are to them)rs.
my best friend is still eight times as talkative as yours.
my best friend is still nine times as interesting as yours.
my best friend is still ten times as imperfect as yours (because imperfection is a more credible possession to feel blessed for).
my best friend is still eleven times as great as yours.
AND
my best friend is still one hundred times as mine as yours.

beat it kid, when you try to calculate the numbers.. they fade away to black as you find the perplexities of this universe more relevant to you than your own best friend. "huh?! what is this slut babbling about?!"" i am a mind reader, oooh yes. you better believe it, although you cannot see it. truth is: adrienne, you are forevermore my soulmate, lest people begin to find perversion factoring into their primate minds. let me justify that adrienne is my one thing that i could live for, die for... the paradox universe that pushes me into a plastic bubble of the universe. she makes, breaks, and is all that i am and more. my best friend is quite possibly the only thing that you will never be capable of earning, and i've earned her so go find out on your own exactly how much a person can value a true friendship like we do. we've been through all there is, and we're still struggling and managing the strife for enlightenment to the end of the world and BACK. while you configure your mind, i am busy enjoying the ride of my life.


face it.
we confuse you.
we amaze you.
and we simply exist.
but you don't have to like it,
you just better live up to it.


thank you for everything, adrienne. i am now capable of understanding just how much of a complexity our situation is and find solstice in every moment of it. you are all i need, and my best friend and everything i am blessed with on this earth. you are my world. you are everything.

you are the matter that the first law of thermodynamics described that could not be destroyed.
you are my best friend.
forever.

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Saturday, January 02, 2010 

quotation devices.

people always ask what gets me through the day, through the week, and through the year. these are a few quotes that i thought up myself that might enlighten you to be a better human being that i am always striving to be. they've pushed me up through the worst of times, gotten me to accept the best, and made me ponder in the bad downfalls. i can't guarantee that my words will inspire you, but hopefully, to someone, they might change their day... even for a second.

some of these were result of my hidden journals, some might be from conversations with others. few were the result of a heart break, and many were from my ability to see the good and beautiful of this world that i live in.



if these help you, thank you.
i am very blessed my words can touch people in ways i never learned until i taught myself.


every quote has a different font as to show where every quote begins and ends.


I believe in the sun even if it isn't shining. I believe in love even when I am alone. I believe in God even when He is silent.

Sometimes I talk quieter just to see who is still listening.
Sometimes I walk away just to see who will follow.
Sometimes I fight just to see who is still standing at my side.
Sometimes I cry just to see who will help.
Sometimes I screw up just to see who is willing to fix it.
Sometimes I write just to see who will read what I have to say.
Sometimes I hide just to see who will look.
Sometimes I let go just to see who will go and hunt for me.
Sometimes I am who I am just to see who is still there in the end.
Sometimes I exist just to see if you will exist with me.

I'm not afraid of the dark because of what might be there, I'm afraid of the dark because that's all that might be there.

Nothing in this world hurts more than falling in love. Nothing causes so much pain. If I could choose between the emotion of love or the fateful opportunity of death, I'd choose to die. Love stings, bites, and hurts and we pay a high price for the ones we love. It freaking hurts before it is through with you because, well, I really ought to know... I fell in love with you.

To love is the greatest mission but to be loved is the greatest accomplishment.

It is simple to forgive those enemies who ruin your dreams, but it is hard to forget those friends who silenced themselves.

You've hurt me, you've made me yell, you've put me through hell and back, you've used me, you've told me lies, you've fed me lies, you've made me work harder than anything else, you've made me, you've broken me, you've tortured me, you've made me laugh, you've made me happy, you've made me cry, you've made me angry, you've made me sad, you've thrown me around, you've given me hopes, you've crushed my hopes, you've promised me, you've broken those promises, you've given me chills, you've given me the ability to vomit on impulse, you've told me bull, you've trusted me, you've lied to me, you've done few things right, you've done everything else wrong, you've made me do all the work, you've put everything on me, you blamed the fall on me, you've made me alive, you've made me into a walking corpse, you've taken everything from me, you've punctured my lungs, you've given me breath, you've taken those breaths, you've been selfish, you've been shameless, you've made me do things I scarcely love, you've made me do everything else I regret, you've done more things to me than ANY other human beings combined... and the one thing else you've done but never realized in entirety? You've been yourself and you've broken my heart.

Take a stand and fight for those who can't, because someday, someone will take that stand for you.

Cuando encontras amor, encontras dolor. No puedes sentir si no tienes los dos juntos.

Face it - we confuse you, we amaze you, and we simply exist. But you don't have to like it, you just better live up to it.

I don't believe in falling in love; somehow, I just managed to trip right into your life.

"I may call her mom, but she's the best blessing God ever bestowed on me."

Kiss and make up because that's what love is about -- finding new boundaries and reinventing the limitations.

I may not be the genuine, honest, caring, and selfless person I dream to be.. but I will continue to chug onwards, to push myself, to leap towards that goal. I will never give up to be better than what people expect of me. Never doubt yourself; never give up.


When you broke my heart, your reasoning was that I deserved better.
When you told me that I didn't have enough time for you, your reasoning was that I was the selfish one for devoting myself endlessly to you.
When I cried, you said I needed more than you could offer me and that you were "nothing."

But when someone's happy and their heart is swelling with satisfaction with who they spend their days with, how could there be anything better out there in the world?
Please give me your reasoning to that.

Be strong even when you can't feel the energy to stand up for yourself. I'm sure there are plenty of others who will be strong enough to pull you up.

Be selfless, be caring, be forgiving, be full of spirit and liveliness... and don't let anybody take that away from underneath you.

I'd like to meet someone whose appearance will capture my attention, but our personalities will win our own hearts. That person with beautiful eyes, to look for the good I see in all beings. For their beautiful lips, to speak words of purity and charity. For their graceful poise, to walk side-by-side with the knowledge that we're in it all together. For a gentle thought, only to be found in deep notions of one another.

No matter whether he's with her or not, just smile. Smile because you know that not even her - if she might even be the girl of his dreams - can love him the way and as great you felt you did.

I've learned that my life consists of three words and I can never get them out of my head: I love you. And I don't think that'll ever change.

Happiness exists wherever your heart wanders off to be alone. Embrace it and never let that moment go.

I see you -- I see right through everything you do and I still sit here and take it because when you put yourself on the line for someone, you love them. And I regret the feeling of knowing I gave you the advantage to see inside me when all I did was see right through you.

You can't stop living, but you can always quit dying. I can live forever through memories, but only with death does it suddenly end. It's just a matter of perspective.

I live to love, but I love to live. I think I prefer the latter, honestly.

I'm better than her and honestly babe, I always will be. As selfish as it makes me... I will always be better than the choices you make because I've made your choices before. I should know, I dated you before.

Truth exists where the heart can act selfless.

Competing can only last as long as someone is foolish enough to think they are better than anyone else.

Where there is strength, there is weakness.
Where there is courage, there is fear.
Where there is hope, there is apathy.
Where there is life, there is death among us.
Where we are, there is no here.

Believe what your heart tells you, not what logic says. Statistics can only go so far.


They shouldn't ever be considered mistakes. They are more like the fundamental blocks of your conscience. When you retry something, you've learned from it - not made it a fault.

Don't misconstrue a pang of guiltiness as a sign of weakness, it is only your conscience discovering where your heart lies.

Stay true to yourself, follow your guts, and be real. Don't follow the molding of what you should be, follow the ideal of what you desire to be and be happy.

I'm falling up; it's better than down.

To live is one of the most rare acts, to look back upon your life and reflect on what you gained on being on earth, to see how lucky you were to walk this planet. I have not reflected on much; but truthfully, when it comes down to it, maybe someday I will be able to turn around and smile at the embrace of life. To paint the world a different color and show myself I haven't changed the world, but I've made an evolution in the world. Dream away.


Art is pure of heart, it's all the world has molded itself into without acknowledging it. A writer does not write, but tells a story of what has taught a lesson. A musician does not write a love story, but recreates memories of what pushed them through. A sculptor does not perceive a model for what it is, but defines the characteristics that shine through. A photographer doesn't just capture the moment, but creates an embrace for the brief chance of compassion. A painter does not draw the world, but imagines what the world is like in their vision. An artist does not depict the world, but finds understanding and compassion to what is worth it. Art has a soul of it's own '' it has emotions, feelings, actions, and meaning itself. People do not understand it, but we, as the population, have no use to justify what it is; art does not have a reason to bare it's arms and explain what it is derived from. It's a philosophical life, itself; art will always exist, but never be explained to a point where everyone can decipher it. Accept it for what it is, art shows the beauty of the world for what it is.

I want to say thank you -- not for being my friend, but being who you are.

I'm not afraid to die, I'm afraid to acknowledge how many people take advantage of life. Only then must God cut us short and make us see in the afterlife that living was the most righteous gift of them all.

I once loved, and lost. I once lost and found courage. Courage enough to know that my lost love for you is now your withering courage for realizing you can never have that great love in return.

Life's a series a turns. It's just a matter of which turns you take to make the proper path you should travel by.

I could care less if my friends think I need a guy who will pamper me or cater to me; I really don't need that because it's useless when it comes down to it. I really don't want another guy because my eyes have only been for him. My heart has only belonged to one person at a time and right now that is him.. and for me, that has always been enough.

Religion may be a fallacy, propaganda may be scorned lies, pictures may be recreated... but faith is not, and never shall be, invented. It simply exists.

You know you have a golden friendship when your friends want nothing but your happiness to brighten up the world, even when their world is overpowered by shadows.

Face your fear -- even if it is a reflection. Allowing them to realize you show no fear, they can no longer limit who you grow to become.

Everybody is an artist in some way or another. They don't see it, but I sure do. It's just a matter of perspective. It's good to appreciate their own creations, nobody can ever steal that from a person.. no matter how hard they try.

When you see the world as an ugly place, full of greed and debauchery, created by miserable human beings with vendettas against the weak, wrath brought upon the innocent, distilled by blood shed, fought through wars of evil and unjust... but still find time to show the beauty of it everyday - you are an artist.

Be who you are, never be who you shouldn't be. There is a reason you are the way you are.

It was painful to have loved, but I know that no bliss in this world can compare to that infinite feeling of adoration from another. Love is a paradox and you can't help but love how much you hate it for loving it on its own.

Believe only what you have grown to learn; the rest shall simply fall into place.

All things cannot be understood; I'm not meant to be understood. As far as I'm concerned, I understand half of what I should understand. When you understand all things, does not the beauty of all things fade away?

Humans are unconditional liars, deceivers, tricksters in the most genuine fashion; more so, there is no urge to destroy them on their ground.

We live to die, but we die to acknowledge others of the traces we marked upon the earth.

I shall and will never disband myself from my friends because somebody cannot learn to accept mistakes and differences.

People are always like, "Blah blah blah, I'm optimistic," but when something unfortunate happens... they cry, whine, and mope about it. But I just look at things and smile cause things happen, you know? Bad things are natural. You just have to look at it and go, "This is life. This is MY life." and walk away. The world's a bad place, but I love being alive... just breathing air and being here. It's a wonderful thing. And still, no matter which perspective you take, life's got this funny way of working itself out. You could have all you ever wanted; but, in the end, you'll still think it's never enough. People are naturally unsatisfied creatures. Things are just meant to be funny and ironic, just as evil and vile or caring and wonderful. What's the point of living when it's too serious? Or never feeling the gift of emotions God gave us? Or the sensation of being selfless? Life will never let you escape without tears, but you'll laugh in the same with a kind heart. That feeling never goes away: the feeling of knowing you have lived once and for all.

You know what is ironic? The one thing I fell for this boy over seemingly makes me a wreck.

Only through our melodies can silence shout louder than a whisper.

Trust with all your heart and logic, but apprehend only with the heart. If you disagree with your heart, and not your logic, you will learn forgiveness the easiest way instead of struggling with ridiculous assumptions.

You can be wealthy in money as long as the economy holds strong for a person, but to be wealthy in life... well, I'd much rather have that.

They are the strangest of creatures, the most hurtful, boastful, crude, awkward, and pitiful... but we can't help but adore the imperfection that God created.

We are nothing but corpses - living in a paradox of a twine between life and death. Composed of flesh that accept fabrication, deny the reality, and dwell on things that would not matter in 20 years. I walk among the dead with a beating heart, warm blood, and functional body parts because I am everything they cannot be. We're all indefinite - twists and turns of what human life can and should not be. Deny it not, forget it willingly, and forgive with passion. People have no true meaning to life until they finally realize that their meaning IS life. Love is what souls covet, ghosts cannot let go of, and what your inner demons cannot fight off. They are weak and you are immune to what the world holds for you. Take chances and roam among the ghosts - you might surprise yourself to find out you are one in a thousand ghosts who has the blessing of a soul.

Only after living have I unfolded the mysteries of my world, the lengths that I have been burdened with and nurtured from beginning to finale. Through all negotiations, I've given my last breath to discovery my lengths, my strengths, and my downfalls. Yet, only with these revelations have I found no promises nor guarantees that will assemble or deface the problematic future I must overcome, what we all fail to dream of; only memories and wishes can carry the wisdom that we discover of ourselves and no longer of what should be there. I have seen the brighter side of suffering, at last.

And it is beautiful, indeed.

And by with this, speak easy; think solemnly. Fear nothing, but cower at all superstitions. Only with paradoxical matters do our tongue whisper a scream, but only with this do we shut our eyes to find ourselves opening a new world.


Gaze within, look outside.

It's all beautiful within the ugly.

I find the beauty and wonder of this world and life as we know it every single day. All it takes is one little object to really open my eyes to how gorgeous this world is... and how much we belittle it.

People disappear. You all clearly see that where life births, death evaporates.

You should never need a reason as to why you are in love with someone. Once you find a reason, paradise found with them soon becomes paradise lost.


You'll always be the happiest when you realize that nothing in the world compares to the one emotion you can never explain.

"This is his day; the day where the daddy's girl allows her father to become the daughter's daddy. It reverses from love."

You are all lucky and blessed to have people come and go in your life; they create an entirely molded world for you to view through a looking glass, to share a piece of yourself with everyone else.

Don't let a stranger misguide you with an uncanny idea that will unveil itself to be untruthful and miscalculated; free yourselves from routine and get out in the world and seize the day.

War is only three letters long and peace is five. Doesn't it take five fingers to a hand and create bonds, rather than three?

Do not be successful for someone else to envy one another, be successful for your truest nature. Only then do we find the essential beauties of life.
Freedom is seven letters long and so is friendship. It is no wonder that both go hand-in-hand. Only with freedom do you get the privilege to meet the most inspiring friends of your lifetime. Enjoy that freedom, it can only last as long as you feel the warmth.

You don't need to believe in anyone. As long as they believe in their own ingenuity, that is all that accounts for their existence.





if these quotes have some meaning, thank you. so long as i can keep smile's upon people's faces... i have truly lived after all.


if you need anything explained, i'd be happy to :-)
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