"hushhh..." she repeated, "..yes."
the wind takes my breath
as the page takes print
as the canvas wears paint
letters like leaves
words like wings
there is a rhythm to this wind as it ticks along my spine
seeps beneath expression and the deepest pores
of praised flesh
calling the shiver chill by name
ineffably moaning namelessness
this wind keeps its own beat
tapping my foot erratically... as i sit
pacing circles round expectation
silence keeps
fillings stolen from a grave robber's tomb
silence borrows
footsteps ..and the rustling decay of unbound paper ...
lightly disregarding the smell
of impermanence
silence clings
with cool indelibility to still
these moist lips
like ink pricked skin
owning the verse of ages.. lost and lost
found and found
tugging my ear (again) with gentle teeth and warm exhaling
..the rabid music that defies the cage of my rapid heart
murmuring the slowwww growth of time:
and ..what.. is mine
(mine. mine is mine is..)
mining diamonds to better barter golden claims..
to martyr silvery myths ..
i am his, possessed.. my lover is my luck
my companion for all midnight maybe
making me co-pilot of conspirator's cravings
my advocate and the devil's truth
making me the (angel) i have never been
always
and, as i would ask love not to fear
i am marked to death ..sick with youth:
it's the wind, not i..
it's his deathless breath commanding all waves
his twisting violence shaking house and breaking bough..
it is his caress quivering my limbs
it is the wind, not i
as our souls mingle equations amending fickle elements
reckoning unspoken promise
we are the dance of flame on frost and even more so constant
i beg him: "Gust!"
i have yet to break
i will bend and thrash
always
to be shaken-- taken apart
made whole
to suffer the concurrency of beauty
sown blind to mind cornerless corners
to pattern shadowless shadows
upon depthless depths
to gasp the jewels of dawn like birth
i am so awake in his eyes
that i might never have dreamed
©caitlin ann, 12/01/06