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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 37
Sign: Sagittarius

State: Georgia
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/27/2004

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Wednesday, August 05, 2009 

Current mood:unsure
Category: Writing and Poetry
Letting go of something
I never truly had
Not sure if it was right
The thought of it makes me sad
I think of her all the time
It makes the pain worse
Can't get her out of my head
The memories intensify the hurt
What did I do wrong
To deserve this pain in me?
Did I make a big mistake?
Or was it never meant to be?
I really thought she was the one
but now I see she's not
Why didn't I see it before?
Now, a broken heart is what I've got
Currently listening:
Greatest Hits
By Journey
Release date: 2006-08-01
Monday, June 22, 2009 

Current mood:  enlightened
Category: Religion and Philosophy
I'm a true believer in "GOD", or a higher power...I'm also a believer in the GAIA theory, the theory that the Earth itself is a living entity (it certainly isn't DEAD!).
What does the term "Mother Earth" mean to you?

I'll never forget in March 2003, when we illegally invaded Iraq, the record breaking number of floods and tornadoes that swept the nation soon after.
Our mother was very upset, and she was showing it! Now, that we are inches away from invading another country that we shouldn't, the weather is changing again, and more strange things are happening! We're getting high temperature records, low temperature records, and "new clouds" are making themselves known.
I also believe that sometimes God (or nature....take your pick) actually speaks to some people.

While the worst flood in my area since Watergate was taking place, late one night, I felt like I was having what appeared to be to me as a very intense panic attack. I felt like I was on the brink of insanity, or shock or something. I had never felt this way before. I had an intense feeling like the world was going to end soon. It was like I was in some sort of strange transe, yet I was very aware of what was going on around me. I was watching tv, and even though I could absorb the words of Marilyn Manson being interviewed on a late night talk show discussing the release of his live dvd "Guns, God and Government", and later, the showing of the movie "Bachelor party", I was at that time experiencing very vivid visions if front of me of floods, tornadoes, earthquakes and nuclear missiles exploding. I didn't understand at the time why I was having these visions. This was 2 years before I became a "truther", so I knew nothing of secret societies, false flag operations, and the New World Order. I was your typical blind sheep, wanna be rock star that believed everything our government told us. But yet, I had this experience...
About 4 years later, I was lying in bed thinking about the situation of the world, and being spiritual like I am, asked God out loud to show me what is going to happen in the near future.
He didn't actually "show" me anything, but....
You know the feeling when you're scared, and the hairs on the back of your neck stand up? or on your arms? Or the feeling you get when you know something dangerous is coming at you?
Well, multiply that feeling by about a hundred, and you might understand the sensation that came over my body. I've never been more afraid in all my life before or since.
I try not to take organized religion too seriously, nor the Bible for that matter, due to the fact that it's over 2,000 years old, has been edited many times, and contains books by many authors that don't always agree with one another, if you read closely.
However, I have always taken "Revelation" and "Daniel" into strong consideration, and paid close attention to world events in modern times, and can't help but notice the similarity of the words in those books to relations of what is happening in the world today.
Maybe the prophets John and Daniel were liars or crazy, but after the experiences I've had personally, sometimes I think, maybe they were dead on!
Currently reading:
The 9/11 Commission Report: Omissions And Distortions
By David Ray Griffin
Monday, June 22, 2009 

Current mood:lost
Category: Writing and Poetry
Embedded within, the center force
The pump of life, to feed the soul
Made for love, but not always used in that way
The giver of oxygen, to warm the body
The pulse within, the throb throughout
Sometimes it seems it may stop any day
The thrust from inside, gives the breath
The pounding it does produces excitement
As it assists in every breath you take
Seemingly tireless through every emotion
somewhat invincible in many situations
However, it seems that this organ was destined to break
Currently listening:
Overcome
By All That Remains
Release date: 2008-09-16
Thursday, June 11, 2009 

Current mood:  discontent
Category: Writing and Poetry
Black flowers are blowing in the wind
The sun has turned dark
Misery fills the air in the skies
And even blackness covers the larks
Endless unmotivation fills me
A task to get out of bed
No seeming reward for the effort
Yet, nightmares fill my head
Darkness comes at me from the ocean waves
Harsh wind blows at me with spite
Red rain that comes from Hell
Drenches me day and night
The world seems to try to destroy me
As if I'm an evil demon
No mercy from anything or anyone
Laughing as they leave me bleeding
Always selfless as often as possible
An innocent victim, done no wrong
Attacked repeatedly with no reason
I was the target's bullseye all along
Currently listening:
The Rules of Hell
By Black Sabbath
Monday, June 08, 2009 

Current mood:  melancholy
Category: Writing and Poetry
Arguing back and forth
A whirlwind of confusion
Not all paying attention
To the words you're choosing
Blindly protecting yourself
While constantly hurting others
You repeatedly say one thing
And always do another
Put the blame on all your friends
For your problems at hand
We all try to help you
But you don't seem to understand
The problem lies in you
And your fear of everything
It causes your lack of trust
Then the hearts start breaking
Forever going in a violent circle
It continues as long as you let it
You can ignore it all you want
But I will never forget it

Currently listening:
...And Justice for All
By Metallica
Release date: 1990-10-25
Saturday, June 06, 2009 

Current mood:Disenchanted
Category: Writing and Poetry
As it peers through my window, it warms my face with an annoying heat
I don't want to look at it, even though it doesn't hurt my eyes
It seems to torture me with it's very existence,
Though I cannot seem to live without it.
I am unhappy when it's here. I am unhappy when it's gone
I want to get out of the path of its rays, but I have nowhere to go
On clear days, I wish it were cloudy
On cloudy days, I wish it were clear
It feels like it burns my skin without tanning me
It is feeding and starving me at the same time
I can't stay awake. I can't stay asleep
It nurtures me, yet it is killing me
Sometimes, I want to destroy it
But I would be lonely without it
Though with it, I am misunderstood
Get it away. Take it all away
Please God kill me, so I can live forever in peace
Currently listening:
The Crimson Idol
By W.A.S.P.
Release date: 1999-02-09
Monday, May 18, 2009 

Current mood:  crushed
The Earth itself seems still.
All the motion is on the surface
Every creature is vivacious
each with thier own purpose
The birds are chirping
The beetles are thumping
The veins of the Spring season
are pumping
The fish ripple the streams
The bugs swing the leaves
The gentle Spring wind
Sways through the trees
All the animals experience love
The way it was meant
Some send signals of song
Some leave a scent
Some are different though
Unique in their own way
Some spend their lives together
Some ultimately slay
There is one creature
That doesn't always cherish its mate
What first appears to be love
Can be construed as hate
As its counterpart approaches
Everything seems to be fine
As it itends to offer affections
This action could be its last time
As he mounts his lover
The passion begins
With strong hopes of bliss
His life will end
As he begins the mating
Getting lost in their feelings
Just before the climax
She begins the killing
Whipping around and 
Biting off his head
Before reaching the pivotal point
He is now dead
The impregnation is all that is left
No pleasure for him
She takes it all for herself



  
Currently listening:
Danzig III: How the Gods Kill
By Danzig
Release date: 2007-11-13
Thursday, May 14, 2009 

Current mood:  aggravated
Category: Writing and Poetry
It creeps into your life when you least expect it
It's front is so strong that you can't reject it
It crawls into your head and plays with your mind
Manipulating every space, leaving nothing behind
Using all for it's gain, wearing it away
Inside your heart is where this demon plays
Your thoughts in it, it's hands in you
There will be nothing left when it's through
It seduces you with soft voice and song
It tells you that it'll never lead you wrong
It assures you that everything is fine
You thought you could see, but you're really blind
Wraps it's arms around and clutches your soul
So tightly until it gets total control
It lies to you sweetly, clouding your judgement
To it, this action is very incumbent
You trust it blindly and surrender yourself
When all is done, you'll trust no one else
Currently listening:
Motley Crue
By Mötley Crüe
Release date: 2003-04-08
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 

Current mood:  betrayed
Category: Writing and Poetry
Outwardly, so comely
Inwardly, self centered
A soul that's dirty,
Dried and withered
She plays the game perfectly
A conspiratorial thinker
And I've taken her bait
Hook, line and sinker
A game of attention
Of adoration and tener
A game of deception
Where only she is the winner
She leads me to a place
That seems like eternal peace
But nothing at all like it
Not even in the least
A place of confusion
A place of mistrust
Where the results of circumstances
Are completely unjust
As I trust her words 
From her soft, calm voice
I embrace her emphatically
As it appears there's no choice
She abuses my trust
As I pull her in
She awaits the inauguration
of submission to begin
She digs her claws in me
Ever so painful
Once a feeling of love
Now the emotion is dreadful
Totally at her mercy
I'm completely defenseless
Her words and her actions
Seem to me so senseless
She holds me down
And tears my body apart
She dives into my chest
And devours my heart
Currently listening:
God Hates Us All
By Slayer
Release date: 2001-09-11
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 

Current mood:  betrayed
Category: Writing and Poetry
At first sight, so tempting
At first taste, so sweet
Very appealling to me
But only a little I shall eat
She tempts me to taste again
She tempts me to eat more
But I know I can't
Or else I'll fall down on the floor
She tells me she's fair
She tells me she's safe
But to take more of her
My throat will be chafed
She begs and pleads
She insists and purges
So, I accept until
I can't control my urges
Tied up in submission
Enveloped and enthralled
A little is not enough
I simply must have all
As I indulge in it more
It goes straight to my head
I feel as I'm in Heaven
as I fall down dead
Currently listening:
The Neon God, Pt. 2: The Demise
By W.A.S.P.
Release date: 2009-01-06