today marks the soft release of versions 1, 2, and 3 of
HOW I REALIZED MYSELF... i am extremely proud of my over two years of work on this project, and sincerely hope that you take a moment to download and enjoy some of the sounds i have made, equally the possibilities... keep in mind there is still one version, the final version yet to come..

rather than blah blah blahing here, i will write my reasons behind this style of soft release over on
my Word Press Blog
so if you havent been privy to what How I Realized Myself is now is the time to catch up...

but, in case you arent interested in my politics and just want the sounds simply follow the below links and have at it.

Each .zip file are the entire track by track versions of each recording, a text file for track description, and some JPEGs for you to put in your media player of choice or whatever you like. all versions are free of charge...hosted on MediaFire

how i realized myself Version 1, 2, and 3 quick link



Or one can go here: I AM NOT A CELL PHONE ACCESSORY



i do humbly ask that you consider a donation to me
in any denomination you wish, via PayPal

keep in mind that in donating money to me, you are funding an artist that believes there is more opportunity in transparency, in all aspects, than in any other system of ownership, in any aspect. i think my work proves that, and will continue to prove that. Also, my life outside of art, as an advocate will prove this ideal as well.

i would like to specifically thank my friends Joel Davis, Jason Kuhlman, Carlo Dean, Dina Carpenito , Leigh Burton , Christopher Miller, Ableton , and all the kick ass bands, artists, writers, and randoms that i have come to know via this space...
THANK YOU - i hope to see you soon

David Wilson
Oakland CA USA 13 April 2009

What is ownership, in terms of the internet? How does this affect artists in the long run?

Well, there are several schools of thought at this point, lets briefly examine a few, particularly pertaining to data, software, hardware, and internet infrastructure.

There is the open source culture, that believes in sharing of knowledge and ideas to create a product that is superior because there are more minds and more influences attributing to the product itself. Ownership, in this sense, I believe is less tactile and more truly artistic, in that one can use a product developed by open source methodology to his or her specific advantage, even improving upon the product to fit their specific needs and benefits, then sharing this with a group to be expanded upon. This can be considered a scientific approach to developing because things can be openly proven or disproved , used and abandoned, improved and customized endlessly.

The mainstay of the open source culture is free and unlegislated sharing of knowledge, software, and ideas with the aim of creating a supremely well rounded and customizable product. HOWEVER, the doorway into this culture I believe is KNOWLEDGE, and that to participate in this culture in whatever context, you need place aside a few entrenched ideals, especially if you are an American.

Another ownership ideology is that of the civilized internet, such as the one current French President Nicolas Sarkozy seeks to create within France. This "civilized" internet aims to put ownership and legislative rights in the hands of internet service providing companies and law enforcement officials, to create regulations and laws targeting "pirates" of digital copyrighted material such as movies, video games, music, television shows and digital medium. Sarkozy presents a three strikes law, in which internet service providers are given the legislative jurisdiction to terminate software "pirates" internet service accounts if they are found guilty of exchanging, hosting, or downloading copyrighted material.

Now, we can examine this law and see the reasoning behind it and agree in some aspects. But is Sarkozy protecting products, or knowledge?

A major point of contention with persons who have any kind of education about the internet is that, the INTERNET IS NOT A PRODUCT TO BE GOVERNED by anyone, internet service provider, government, or ANY type of business. The internet, was invented and developed at universities as essentially an educational and scientific tool during the 1960s. To govern the internet with legislation or ideology that blankets it as a commodity is EXTREMELY worrisome, and something that anyone who uses the internet (which is everyone) should take deep concern over.

So, Nicolas Sarkozy which came first? The internet, or digital file compression?

What comes next?
Continued open source internet development, or a banishment of creative ideals by legislation that protects business, even if those open source creative ideals have benefited the entire world?
Depending on your morals, ethics, and education, I'm sure you are shouting your response to your computer screen as you read!

Lets move onto another aspect of digital ownership, that of hardware. We can tie this ownership aspect into the discussion of Nicolas Sarkozys' ideal, in creating the association between an internet service providers ownership of the hardware and telecommunications infrastructure, and their belief in the right to be able to govern that domain. Again, if one looks at this situation objectively one can see the reasoning behind creating and legislating a "civilized internet".

But this ideal begs the question, which came first, the internet, or internet service providers? Who developed things first and what ideal was used? The answers to that are very clear and undeniable.

Another ownership aspect is that of companies such as Nintendo and Apple. Who have brilliantly used their ownership and development of hardware to protect their ownership of a digital medium. If you examine briefly each of these companies latest products, the Nintendo Wii and Apple Itunes respectively, you get a sense of how these companies protect and own their digital products. This protection comes in the sense that they individually own the rights, software, and knowledge base related to the hardware that presents and operates their products. These companies protect that ownership very aggressively.

So, this said, where does this leave us, the artist?
Slave to hardware?
Slave to ownership?
Slave to copyright?

These are strong words, but a case can be made towards the fact that copyrights, hardware, and infrastructure ownership are currently left in the hands of entities or governments that CAN AFFORD those rights, and afford the development towards achieving a product. Where does that leave me and you? Most of us, unfortunately, are not in the tax bracket to be able to afford a software or hardware development team.

Today, I announce my small step to advocate an advancement in American creative ideology, that of a more open sourced approach.

Beginning next year, I will operate a non-profit organization and will allot a once a year , $2500 award to one artist, band, unclassifiable artist , or collective that I see potential in advancing an open source creative and developmental philosophy. The artist or collective that receives this endowment will be expected to post their creative output on the internet by way of a website that I will provide, allow for free or pay as you like download-ability, and to share and document their creative processes, opinions, triumphs, failures, and results.

I seek to bring awareness and acceptance of this process, and to prove that within this process a superior artistic product can be achieved, by individuals or entities that are not creating with a marketing angle, or being sponsored, or legislated by major corporations, or government entities.

David Wilson
21, November 2008
Oakland, California

This morning, not feeling particularly well, I decided to brave the rain and jaunt to my local market for some comfort food and electrolyte stocked beverages. The weather accommodated me very well, rainy, humid, a bit cold a bit hot. Or, that could be my body temperature talking. As I came to a busy intersection that preceded my places of capitalistic interest (guarded by socialists selling newspapers), I came upon a woman, a bit shorter than me, middle aged, white hair, glasses, very resolute, holding a NO on Prop. 8 sign, dripping rain water from its edges. Previous to her, I had passed a group of younger, much hipper looking men, standing under cover from rain, holding the same signs and inspiring drivers who were coming off the 580 freeway to honk in support of voting no on Proposition 8. It was a very , very loud intersection.The woman dutifully approached me as I was waiting for the little white, LCD man to tell me to walk safely across the street."Are you registered to vote?" she asked, huskily. "I sure am." I was sweating, I had a fever. I had a hair cut yesterday so I was a bit shy.She excitedly bounced her NO on Proposition 8 sign above her head and offered a suggestive, poignant grin towards me. I smiled in turn and gave this repose:"You know, I can understand both sides, why someone would vote yes, and why someone would vote no."Hoping that would inspire a conversation….She pondered , " I've had many , many interesting conversations today, especially with those who are voting yes. But the one thing that I have been getting a lot of today is respect, from both sides. And that's the way you make change, by letting the other side see your point and considering it. That's the only way."We continued a pleasant conversation, the white LCD man gave me the all clear, I patted the woman on the back and told her to keep fighting the good fight. A bit later, I passed the same busy intersection, shopping bags in hand, umbrella over my head to find a slight, middle aged man, wearing an army bomber jacket, functional practical brown shoes, average jeans, and bouncing a No on Proposition 8 sign slowly above his head. Drivers echoed past him, some honking, most ignoring. He was alone, clothes soaking wet, large umbrella glistening over his head. Standing quietly.I stood about ten feet away from him for about 3 minutes, again waiting for my friend mister white LCD man to tell me to safely walk. But, I felt his pride, I felt his belief. And, I actually considered giving him some of the raspberry fruit tape that I guard with my life. But, I moved quickly on as the rain had intensified and I was sweating. I walked toward my neighborhood...My experience this morning aside, consider this.The fundamentalism that supports proposition 8 is religious. Defining marriage as a union between a man and a woman has its roots in religion. You cannot argue this fact.When you see PROTECT OUR CONSTITUTION VOTE NO ON PROPOSITION 8, this is a very accurate statement. I think the forefathers of this country had in mind the FREEDOM to practice any religion we wish. NOT TO BE GOVERNED OR MANDATED BY ANY RELIGION. You can make a case that this is the very reason a group of English renegades sailed across a vast ocean to colonize uncharted (or previously believed to be uncharted) land. I respect you if you are a person of faith. But I ask you to consider this when you cast your vote in regards to Prop 8.Today, you can walk down the street and encounter a homosexual person who respects your opinion on why you feel your belief should directly affect and complicate their lives.The point being is today,YOU CAN PHYSICALLY INTERACT with a homosexual person, group, or couple.If you believe that your vote for Prop 8 "protects" marriage, consider the HUMANS that your vote would directly affect.Also consider, that you are voting on a proposition that has its roots in ancient PHILOSOPHY, penned and rewritten over EONS of time to suit culture, and instill fear upon commoners. Sound familiar? (paging George W Bush)Again, very clearly, I respect your religious beliefs. But I can call my gay friends right now, sit down to a cup of coffee with them, and talk about how I will vote regarding all of the California Propositions. Unfortunately and regrettably, I cannot do the same with Jesus Christ, Allah, or any deity.

part 1 new york city......




















part 2.....Electronic Sub South.... Gainesville, Florida































thank you

this was a short trip in length but not in hospitality and life changing experiences.
thank you eternally elijah and meredeth and kitties for everything.
thank you Christopher Miller, Lenny Pearlman, MR. Spagandy, ALL @ ELECTRONIC SUB SOUTH
The Viirus , Bo & Frankie , the girl who kissed my neck, Danielle , Rebecca , and the man bitch girl
Indigo Vox for huge kind words , oddknock for comin' round
el zombo ,  the ludovico technique for kicking huge amounts of ass.
thank you the twins for amazingly nice , kind words and for letting
me tell you a story about the song…and huge thank you to the girl
on the subway for being and not being….the face on a cloud
on an aeroplane….on the face of a building….
thank you to all @ Splice and Monkeytown, Williamsburg Brooklyn NYC.
thank you greg…kerry and Massive Music NYC for use of studio

thank you WE ARE A ROOK

thank you  Fin Riggins , the NY Howl , Steve and all at Goodbye Blue Monday ...
easily one of my favorite places in NYC...

thank you humidity.
thank you harry potter fan bartender girl for telling me about how
Andrew Meyer really is

the crane technique was used only in the brandishing of sword
hands and was not used in the harm of wayward gators.

scrate

Anyone I may have forgot I was drunk…..
thank you Neptune café for gunners shit and a trough of food..

thank you to the lady on the airplane for the shoulder rub
no thanks to fuzzy bunny ears
no thanks to no fly lists
no thanks to illegal honey

and now.....from the cell phone in no particular order...

CHEK OUT MORE PIxxx ON ELIJAH B TORN's TOUR BLOG

January 4 Brooklyn New York - Goodbye Blue Monday
Elijah B Torn / Jack Ryon Trio / Flight Orchestra / The Holy Experiment










JANUARY 5 ---- Travel / Rainy Day









JANUARY 6 -- Electronic Sub South -- Gainesville Florida
Elijah B Torn , Neuborn , Flight Orchestra , Disco Viirus


















JANUARY 7 -- ELECTRONIC SUB SOUTH -- JACKSONVILLE FLORIDA
Disembodied Voices , Sidecar Racer , Elijah B Torn , Flight Orchestra






















NIGHT OFF








a new song by we are (a) rook


JANUARY 10 -- VIVA LA FRIDA -- Tampa , Florida
Flight Orchestra , Elijah B Torn , Biepang , Alto Clark














TRAVEL










JANUARY 11 -- Electronic Sub South -- Orlando Florida
Flight Orchestra ,  Elijah B Torn , A Scissors , Mr Antonym
















JANUARY 12 -- EyeDrum Gallery -- ATLANTA GEORGIA
Elijah B Torn , Flight Orchestra , R. Garcia and the Nerd Parade
























JANUARY 14 -- Churchill's Pub -- Miami Florida
CANCELLED SHOW
We did not perform after the folks at the venue decided to alter our deal Darth Vader style, AKA our payout terms. they told us the night we arrived. thanks to Brendan/Wicked Dream Foundation , Renzo/Hydroplane , Voice of Reason
and Revolutionary for sticking with us......

sorry to anyone for inconvenience we'll be back to MIAMI under propper terms soon




















-=- TRAVEL -=-















JANUARY 16th Warehouse Theater , Washington DC
Flight Orchestra , Elijah B Torn , Black O.P.S.





















thank you..

first of all MASSIVE hearts and thanks
to Mr. and Mrs. ELIJAH BLUE STAR TORN , family , and friends.

then of course...
Mr. Christopher Miller aka Electronic Sub South
Mr. Lenny Pearlman
Mr. Scrappy Fontaine ET AL
Mr. Brandon AKA How U DOin'
Mr. Spgannnnndy fine like sour KANDY
Mr. and/or Misses Beings from KLYSTRON 7 et al
Mr. ZOMBO
Mr. ALTO CLARK aka Ben + Feny (merci merci merci por vou)
Ms. Ruth
Ms. E-Lora
Ms. Sherri (no, how U doin!)
Ms. Cindle aka beautiful bug
Mr. Adrian
Mr. Gabe
Mr. Jack aka Sephiroth Chorus
Mr. Brendan AKA WDF
Mr. Renzo AKA HYDROPLANE
Mr. Revolutionary
Ms. The Voice of Reason
the lovely Ms. Neda and friends
Mr. U Skrate??
Ms. Tonya at the Peacock Room
Mr. Allen and friends at Eyedrum Gallery
the beach
the forrest
the City
nameless friends , well wishers , supporters whom have said hello
anyone if ive forgotten your name its my fault but  i heart U all

the Bands
CONTRA - MIDAIR - ABSTRACT
ALTO CLARK
VIIRUS
NEUBORN
DISEMBODIED VOICES
SIDECAR RACER
JACK RYON TRIO
BIEPANG
A_ SCISSORS
THE NERD PARADE
MR. ANTONYM
THE HOLY EXPERIMENT
BLACK O.P.S.
all of which fukking KILLED IT in a major way.. as major as humanly possible

the TECHNIQUES
the crane
the wounded crane
the baby crane
the drunken crane
the mating crane
the dancing crane
the duck
the laughing duck
the sckrate duck
the fallen swan stance (only to be used in a last resort)

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honourable mention to coffee , various sour candy , the two second south beach angel , and cuban food

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and thus we go in to that good, good night
if i have forgotten U i heart you majorness






no thanks to the brick