I have been away so long beacuse i finall got a kidney trasplant on the 25th of october after waiting 4 freaking years and im happy to say its doing very well!  

OK so i am really considering going even blonder since I have had dark hair my whole life. Im ready to do somethign drastic, almost all blonde with only some dark underneath. Do I look hotter blonde or brunette be honest!

Sunday i drove myself to Walnut Creek to see if i could be expceted into Barbizon modeling school in SF, and I GOT IN only me and like 20 others were excepted and had the 'look' they want im so excited i start next week.....

I feel something of another world in the air, I am not to sure what it is since its been so long since I sensed its fragile existence and I am always reminded as I am once again am that I can't escape my other self. Not even in this lifetime.

I heard voices come out of my radio last night, I couldn't understand the words just mumbles, but the familiar chill and feeling filled my room. Is he free? He must be.

Something is happening....but its hard to know now that shes left my site in this world anyway, but I know she knows not even she can escape it its our destiny...

I hate my life right now im tired of being stuck in this place. Im lonley and no one seems to want to be around me anymore, tired of meeting fake people I want someone who wants me for me and wants to take the time to figure out me.

I can't keep a boyfriend, it seems because whenever I am in a good relationship and when i actually care for the person something bad always ends up happening and it gets all fucked up. No one really understands me and the one person who once knew me inside and out has faded from my life pretty much and it really is sad.

Im sick of this town im sick of my life right now that seems to be stuck in a boring lonley circle that I can't break out of.....where is my prince? I'm really starting to seriously doubt there is such a thing as a happy ending....

I am an old soul and have a  complex mind that most can't understand, I wish  someone could be at my level for once....

You may have noticed there is another profile on my top 8 that looks like another one of my profiles called TALIM TEMPST and yes it is it is a seprate profile I am going to be using as my profesinal modeling profile so be sure and add it. This profile will remain as my personal one. The link for my new profesinal profile is www.myspace.com/tamlimtempst

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you miss me?
33. Do you think i miss you?

Im tired of getting my heart smashed so im seriously upping my standards....

What I want in a man:

Hot as Hell
Sweet as Pie
Caring as can be
Romantic and flirty
Has direction in life
Financially Stable
In shape
Respectful
Religous
Sense of Humor

If any of the above sound like you you got a shot. hehe


And some of the things I DON'T want in a man:

Guys that do weed its gross
or do any drugs of any kind
Alcoholics
Gamblers
Players
Broke slackers
Afraid of commitment
Exessive partiers
No manners
Immature

So if you are any of those you can just not bother to talk to me cause I won't bother with you.