HYPOCRITES.

EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU.

WHO AM I TO STAND HERE AND SAY EVERYONE ELSE IS A HYPOCRITE WHEN I PROBABLY DO THE SAME?

IM NOT GONNA LIE.

I AM SOMEWHAT. SOMETIMES.

BUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME IS I CATCH IT.

I CATCH MYSELF.

AND STOP IT.

YOU, ON THE OTHER HAND, TRY TO COVER UP YOUR HYPOCRICY WITH LIES OF YOUR "KINDNESS".

NOW, EVERYONE AROUND ME KNOWS HOW I LOST THE WEIGHT. THEY EXPERIENCED ME THROUGH IT. I WAS A TOTAL AND UTTER WRECK (ONCE AGAIN I'D LIKE TO STRESS HOW MUCH IT WAS THE SITUATION OF KYLE, NOT THE KID HIMSELF).

NOW. I AM NOT BULIMIC. NOR DO I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER OF ANY SORT.

YES, I DO HAVE AN EATING DISORDER IN MY BRAIN. I WEIGH MYSELF SO MANY TIMES A DAY I CANT EVEN KEEP TRACK. IN FACT, I DONT KEEP TRACK BECAUSE I DONT REALIZE HOW MUCH I DO IT UNTIL I REMEMBER HOW I KEEP TRACK OF MY WEIGHT SO THOROUGHLY TO BEGIN WITH.

IF I WERE BULIMIC, YOU'D HEAR ME VOMITING. IM NOT ONE TO PURGE QUIETLY. I GAG AND CRY.

IM NOT ANOREXIC; IT'S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO NOT EAT--I LOVE (YET, HATE) TO EAT.

ONCE AGAIN, IM NOT GONNA LIE. IVE TRIED TO BE ANOREXIC. IVE TRIED TO STARVE MYSELF BUT I CANT GO ONE DAY WITHOUT EATING. ITS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME.

IVE TRIED THE VOMITING THANG. I DID IT 4 OR 5 TIMES OUT OF MY WHOLE LIFE. DIDNT WORK FOR ME. I HAVE TERRIBLE TEETH AS IT IS AND I DONT NEED THAT TO DESTROY MY TEETH EVEN MORE AND MY THROAT.

BUT THE THING THAT PISSES ME OFF?

AT WORK, EVERYONE ACCUSES ME OF GOING TO THE BATHROOM CONSTANTLY TO THROW UP.

MAYBE I HAVE ANOTHER PROBLEM THAT I'D RATHER NOT DISCUSS. THAT DOESNT INVOLVE ANY MENTAL DISORDERS. A PHYSICAL PROBLEM PERHAPS?

EVERY TIME I HAVE TO TAKE A SHIT, I HAVE TO DEFEND MYSELF AND TELL THE WHOLE WORLD, "CANT I TAKE A FUCKING SHIT WITHOUT BEING ACCUSED OF DOING SOMETHING IM CLEARLY NOT DOING?!"

AND THE HYPOCRICY OF IT ALL IS THAT EVERYONE HAS BEEN TELLING ME, "YOU HAVE A PROBLEM. WE'RE WORRIED ABOUT YOU. WE WANT TO HELP YOU."

WELL. APPARENTLY NOT. BECAUSE ONLY ONE PERSON TOLD ME TO MY FACE. AMBER KERNS. SHE ACTUALLY WOULD WANT TO HELP ME IF THIS WERE A PROBLEM. EVERYONE ELSE JUST USED THAT KINDNESS EXCUSE AS A LIE TO COVER UP THEIR GOSSIP HABIT.

THUS THE MOTIVE IS IMPLANTED!

COVER UP YOUR SELFISH GREED, YOUR SILLY HABIT TO PROGRESSIVELY SPREAD RUMORS AND GOSSIP UNCONTROLLABLY BY!....

USING THE "WORRIED" CARD.

YOURE NOT TRYING TO "HELP" ME....YOUR TRYING TO HELP YOURSELF, TO MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT GOSSIPING BECAUSE YOU DONT LIKE GOSSIPING  WHEN ITS ABOUT YOURSELF.

TAKE THAT INTO CONSIDERATION NEXT TIME YOU REFUSE TO CONFESS.

CONTROL ME, BABY

I'M YOUR PRIDE AND JOY

I'M YOUR LOVE AND PAIN

CONTROL ME, BABY

YOU'VE LICKED YOUR WOUNDS AND ME YOURS

YOU TOUCH ME WITH YOUR LIGHT

AND KICK ME WITH YOUR DARK

CONTROL ME, BABY

UNTIL MY DAY OF RECKONING ENDS MY DAYS OF REASONING

UNTIL YOUR NEXT TASTE OF SATISFACTION FALLS UPON YOUR LIPS.
 
 
 
 
A FATE I WOULD HAVE NEVER GUESSED TRUE TO ALL POSSIBILITIES THE SAINTS HAVE TURNED THEIR WICKED WAYS AND BECOME WHAT THEIR NAME CONVEYS THE SITUATION TURNED UPSIDE DOWN OR IN THIS CASE, RIGHT SIDE UP YOURS TRULY WAS FINE AND DANDY YET AGAIN A FORCE CAME THROUGH UNEXPECTED SHE DOVE INTO CRAVINGS AND PASSION CEILINGS CRASHING THROUGH DEMONS SHOUTING DAMN SHE SHOUTS TO THE HEAVENS YOU'VE FINALLY DONE YOUR DEED.

WARNING FOR CHILDREN OF MESPACE AND BEYOND:

BEARS WILL EAT YOU.

GO PUT ON YOUR PAMPERS AND PUT ON A BOG DAMN SHIRT, HOOCHIES OF THE UNDERAGED.

THOSE AREN'T BOOBS, IT'S FAT.

YOU'RE NOT SEXY, YOU'RE TRASH.

SOPHIA LOREN WAS SEXY. STILL IS.

YOU SHALL NEVER BE.

THEREFORE.

THE DAMN BEARS WILL EAT YOU.

AND NOT IN A SEXUAL WAY....TO YOUR DISADVANTAGE.

NONE OF YOU WOULD KNOW SEXY IF IT HIT YOU IN THE CLITORIS. SO PLEASE STOP THROWING THAT WORD AROUND LIKE A HACKYSACK.

HONESTLY, IT'S INNAPPROPRIATLEY THROWN AROUND MORE THAN "GAY", "LOVE" AND "STYLE". IT'S A PERSONAL PROBLEM AS WELL AS A PROBLEM FOR SOCIETY AND THE WHOLE LANGUAGE SYSTEM ITSELF.

and while im on the subject of teenagers by whom i hate with a passion...

TO ALL ANGSTY KIDS:

YOURE NOT PUNK. YOU HAVE NO BELIEFS OF YOUR OWN. YOU CONFORM TO AN IMAGE/S.

SHUT IT.

QUIT TRYING TO BE UNIQUE. YOU DO AS EVERYONE ELSE DOES. THE LAST TIME I CHECKED, "UNIQUE" DIDNT MEAN "SAME".

AND JUST BECAUSE EVERY BAND YOU KNOW AND LIKE IS UNDERGROUND, DOES NOT MAKE YOU THE SHIT. YOU SHOULD BE SHOT FOR THINKING SO.

NOW. YOU "ARTEESTS."

DONT TEMPT ME....TO POP A SQUAT ON A CANVAS AND PUT IT ON YOUR FRONT DOOR STEP.

JUST BECAUSE YOU DRINK COFFEE AND LIKE INTELLIGENT CONVERSATIONS DOES NOT MAKE YOU AN ART KID.

AND MESPACE WISE: COFFEE DOES NOT COUNT AS AN INTEREST. ITS A FUCKING DRINK. I DONT REALLY KNOW HOW YOU FIND COFFEE INTERESTING. WHAT BE THE HISTORY OF THIS DELICIOUS DRANK? PRAY TELL!

ALSO. YOU KIDS DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK LOVE IS. SO DONT SAY YOU'RE IN LOVE WHEN YOU HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE. YOU'RE NOT IN LOVE IF YOURE IN LOVE WITH EVERY SINGLE PERSON YOU'RE WITH, AND YOU'VE BEEN WITH THEM FOR, WHAT, 2 WEEKS? SO YOU ALSO. SHOULD SHUT IT.

AND.

STOP THINKING YOURE "BIG KIDS" BECAUSE IF YOU'RE GOING TO GO AROUND, SCREWING WHOEVER YOU CAN, DOING ALL KINDS OF DRUGS AND GETTING TRASHED ALL THE DAMN TIME, BUT GOING TO TOY STORES AND ACTING LIKE A 10 YEAR OLD CHILD, MAYBE YOU SHOULD CONSIDER THE FACT THAT IF YOU WANT TO DO BIG PEOPLE THANGS, PERHAPS YOU SHOULD DROP THE CHILDISH ACTS AND LEAVE YOUR CHILDHOOD AND MOVE AWAY FROM THE PEDOPHILIA (IF YOURE A "BIG PERSON", THAT IS)

GOD. IM JUST SICK OF TEENAGERS.

THE ANGST, THE IMAGE, THE IMMATURITY (YET, "MATURITY"), THE WHOLE "IM GONNA GET SHITFACED TONIGHT" ATTITUDE BECAUSE ONE THINKS HE OR SHE IS HARDCORE....IT'S JUST SAD AND PATHETIC. THERE ARE NO WORDS TO REALLY DESCRIBE HOW PATHETIC IT IS. IT SHOULDNT BUG ME, YET IT DOES.