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Jasper H



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Age: 18
City: Nassau
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February 11, 2008 - Monday 
it's been a while since i last posted a myspace blog...
yesh it has indeed =]

not a lot i'll write here...
i love God...more than i thought i could
i want to worship him with everything, and spend all my time in His prescence

He's the only one i trust.

lately...as of about a week ago...
i started developing this...feeling...
that's strange to me
even though i felt it before...
i think it's when you like someone?
that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach
that smile on your face
you know right?

well if that's it,
and not the cheese sandwich i'm eating...
then i hope it's really meant to be with this guy
he's awesome
great body
Christian
lovely personality
man he's all i think i want in a guy
i dunno about his academic skills though...

his name?
well...
that comes later...i guess...
but
i like him a lot...
and that's all you need to know.

xoxo...
-jasper elisabeth
6:24 AM 
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December 5, 2007 - Wednesday 
When it rains for real
The sky turns grey
When it rains for real
It brightens my day
When it rains for real
My life seems at peace
When it rains for real
I get perspective on lease.

It rains on my life.
The cold rain comes down.
Splashing on my heart,
It's like shockwaves.

When it rains inside,
I get the chills.
When it rains inside,
I want to take all the pills.
When it rains inside,
My heart's a mess.
When it rains inside,
I feel like death.

Rain pierces my soul.
It makes me feel like I'm old.
Sometimes,
I close my eyes, and it's better in the dark.


-jasper elisabeth.

Currently listening:
Sound of Melodies
By Leeland
Release date: 15 August, 2006
3:19 AM 
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November 7, 2007 - Wednesday 
I haven't written anything like this in a long, long time.
But then, I haven't felt like this in a long....ancient time.

Out Of Love
-Jasper H

sometimes i still feel like i should be there
but i can't
because the things i know
are keeping me away from you
you are not the one
and i want to cry myself to sleep
but the question is
"will it really be worth it
if i waste my time with you again?"

please try to understand the way
i really feel
emotions can be hard to understand
but if you listen just to hear the heart
i hold inside
maybe you could know
maybe
if you can...

i dare never to call your name
because i can't take the pain
it was fun the way you
used to smile
but now
you've changed too much.

i fell in love
with everything
about you when you loved
the me that's real
not something fictional

in case you didn't know
by now
i will just say it
i don't love you
anymore.

it's not me,
it's you
it might be both of us
but with autumn
came the icy chill
covering what was
stomry weather
pathetic fallacy
i was the pawn
and you were the game

if i seem distant
that's just because
i really am
i don't hate you
far from that
i just can't see your face
without it hurting
my heart, you see

so please
don't be displeased with me...
Currently listening:
Stop Me
By Mark Ronson
Release date: 09 April, 2007
2:55 AM 
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October 27, 2007 - Saturday 

Current mood:  calm
Category: Life
This is the story about how I fell in,
how I got caught,
how I got taken up
into this place where
life without him is
nonexistant.

I'm not sure if I will
ever understand why
This happened
But all I know is that it did
And that I'm glad
That it happened

He may not be
The hottest guy in the world
But he's still beautiful
He may not be
The most sane guy around
But he's still amazing

I fell in
On his birthday
That's so
different.

He didn't know

I didn't know either.

Eventually
we both found out
what was going on
It was
intense
I never felt more
alive
than I did
at the very
moment
that I fell in.

It was great
for 4 whole months
then along came
exams...

It sucked
I died inside
I nearly killed him too

But I realized
That life can be
fair
Not just, but
fair.
If it wasn't
he would've left me
at the bottom of that
cliff
where I dangled with my
heart.

He's still here


Thank God...
Currently watching:
Freddy Got Fingered
Release date: 23 October, 2001
3:03 AM 
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August 4, 2007 - Saturday 

Current mood:  contemplative
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

How Much I Hate Mainstream Media

[& all their opinions]

Mainstream media is mostly the reason for our stress. All we want as the future for this world, as teens, is to make it all better. What are they doing to help?

For one thing, they are giving us a lot of bad options. Have you ever thought about what everyone wants from you?

Sure, it seems easy enough to use a couple of masks for different stuff, but where would the real you be in all of  that? I like what Jon Foreman sings in Switchfoot's "Awakening"

"Here we are now/ the desperate youth in pain...we're awakening"

We are all on a search for what we believe in; for who we really are. But now, a lot of what we turn out to be is determined by the media and what the adults think. It's time that we stepped out and said "Hey, I won't take it anymore!"

We need to stand up for ourselves, and not let other people determine who we are. A lot of us always tell others not to follow the crowd. But it seems like the crowd has really given us much of a choice. What if individuality was the crowd?

As the next generation, we totally need to stop taking the filth the 'crowd' throws at us. Those celebrities sure, we like them and they're the 'beautiful' people. But we don't see them at their worst. We don't know what goes on behind closed doors.

Why should we let pop culture or just culture define us? We should have the choice. Yeah, I know we need guidance; but to everyone; don't you think we should have the right guidance?

I don't know about anyone else, but I think flashing naked images or degrading, crime-endorsing images and lyrics in front of us is not good guidance. In this age of knowledge, I'm sure there are more things than just sex, violence and drugs for us to learn from.

I'm chasing after Him. I'm going for Heaven for real.

That's all.

 

Love you,

Jasper

Currently reading:
Miracle Workers, Reformers, and the New Mystics
By John Crowder
Release date: 01 May, 2006
12:30 AM 
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August 2, 2007 - Thursday 
What if God had a MySpace page?
What if people didn't kill other people?
What if Christians didn't hate others?
What if there was no war?
What if we could all just live together peacefully?
What if racism was punishable by law?

What if we just forgave instead of holding grudges?
What if you died tonight?
What if we could actually rely on the government?
What if the world could actually be a better place?
What if everyone remembered to pray?


What if you forgot God?
What if God forgot you?
What if Jesus came back right now?
What if you knew that someone loves you?
What if you had peace?

What if you could change the world?
What if you changed the world?
What if you helped someone for a change?
What if you knew the truth?
What if you did your best?

I just had to ask all those...
Currently listening:
Rival Factions
By Project 86
Release date: 19 June, 2007
10:41 PM 
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July 28, 2007 - Saturday 

Current mood:  calm
Psalm 34:8
Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

I got back from camp around 1am and just checked in with some people and started to rearrange my life again. I'm so thankful to God that I made it back safely with my two sisters and the other campers. It's amazing what can happen in just one week, and how people can change in such a short time!

I have a new big brother who is a great man of God. He blessed me with a book that is really good. I won't even put it down

While I was at camp, I had a real conversation with my God out loud for the first time in a long time, and I realized just how much I missed Him, and how meaninglessly lost I am without Him. Without God we are nothing. If we don't give Him everything, we don't have anything. So that's why, from now on, I'm going to continue to seek Him out and read His Word. No matter how weird it may seem, obedience to Him will always be first in my life because I know that once He's first, everything else will just fall into place as He takes care of me.

To everyone out there that isn't sure if God is real, I'll tell you a little story.

There is this girl who I know quite well. She was foul-mouthed and rude. I'm not sure who it was that led her to do so, but she prayed and asked Jesus into her life. I've spent days and days with this girl. She hasn't cussed once since I've seen this change. I thank God for that.

And if you still aren't sure, I'll tell you another.

This guy nicknamed Stutter for his speech disability was made fun of every time he spoke. A couple of the counselors prayed for him after he became a Christian. Soon after, he was reading the Bible. Everyone stopped and listened to him, waiting for him to stutter. Not ONCE did he stutter while he read the Bible. Thank God!

When I recieved Jesus, I got the Peace that passes all understanding. In other words, once you have His peace, everything else becomes so much easier for you in Christ. All you have to do is just ask Him, and He'll come to you.

The Bible says that if you confess with your mouth that  "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved [Romans 10:9].

"If you look for it as for silver, and search for it as hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the Lord, and find the Knowledge of God." [Proverbs 2:4-5]

Christianity is not a religion, it's a relationship that you must maintain. Just like you'd talk to your friends and family, you have to stay in close contact with our Best Friend. He's not just our Lord, He's our Friend. He desires to be closer to us than anyone else. He created us. God loved us so much that He sacrificed his ONLY SON to die for us in the most humiliating and painful way possible. He suffered for us, died and went to hell for us. If you got sent to the principal's office, for something terrible that you did, and someone you didn't even know came up and said "I'll take the blame, and the punishment." I know you'd be eternally indebted to that person.

In that same manner, Jesus took our sins on Him on that morbid cross, and went to hell to conquer death, hell and the grave. He fought Satan and defeated him. So you don't have to be scared of what the devil might want to do to you. He's powerless unless God frees him.

Just think about all that Jesus did.

Then think about if you died right now, where you would go without accepting Him. The Bible says that all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.

What if Jesus came to take all His people to heaven? What if all that tribulation stuff you've been hearing and reading about was real? Where would you go? What would you do?

Make that decision today. The Bible tells us that no man knows the day nor the hour that Jesus is coming back.

If you've made a decision to accept Him, you can just tell Him. If you need help, just read this out loud:

"Jesus, I'm a sinner. I've broken Your heart, and I'm sorry. Please forgive me and come into my heart, and my life. Help me to clean up this mess that I've made, and make things right with the Father. I believe You died on the cross for me, and I'm so thankful for that. God, I thank you for sending Your only Son to die for me. I thank You for allowing me to be Your child and to be part of Your people. In Jesus' name, I pray.
amen."

That's all! You're now a part of God's people.
What next, you ask? Just like Jesus said to the rich man, "Obey the commandments" Or like He said to the leper, "Go your way, and sin no more". Read His Word daily, and pray to Him. Listen for His voice. Anything that you need to take care of, or you need to fix, trust Him and ask for His help. God is always there for you, no matter what.



In Christ,
Jasper <3
6:47 PM 
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July 2, 2007 - Monday 

Current mood:  mellow
No matter how hard I try
What I do
I just can never write that word

I want to, but I can't
I have to but it's hard
I'm scared to say that word

Those words that I want
To say, so badly
I can't just say those words

You know that I can type that word
I can type that word quite well
But I can't write that four-letter word

That word that I'm supposed to say
Those words that I just learned
I shouldn't say those words

Symbolism is fun
<3 or even "heart"
Won't sub well for those words.

I wish that I could say those words,
Or even write them
But, unfortunately, I can't write or say that word.

-Jasper H
11:43 AM 
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June 29, 2007 - Friday 

Current mood:  cheerful
Ten Good Reasons To Smile

1. God let you breathe you first breath this morning. You woke up alive, when hundreds worldwide will never get another chance to.

2. You ate something today, and if you didn't you most likely will.

3. You have a roof over your head, provided by someone who loves you enough to do so.

4. There are people on this planet who love you.

5. Your face looks so much better when you smile because you use less muscles to do so.

6. Kinder words come out when you smile.

7. It could be a lot worse.

8. You have a chance to live life the way you want. You're not anyone's slave.

9. You show self confidence and that you're friendly when you smile at someone.

10. Jesus Christ got himself brutally killed on the cross to save you. He went to Hell, beat Satan and took away the keys of death, hell and the grave. All of that just so everyone could have a fair chance to go to heaven and be with Him. Jesus rose from the dead to prove that he did what he did. And if you want to question that, think very carefully before you do.
3:25 PM 
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June 21, 2007 - Thursday 

Current mood:  cold
I'd like to thank everyone for an awesome school year. I'd like to thank all the teachers that gave me credit for being something in life, or at least attempting to be. I'd like to thank everyone who believed in me this year and throughout my life. In the end...I'd like to thank everyone for everything they've done; especially the bad things that bettered me, and helped me to be bolder.

I'd like to think that some people were blessed by me this year...but it's hard to think so, as I've been selfish.

I'd like to apologize to my parents for failing them, and not being 'good enough' for you. I'd like to apologize to my parents for letting them believe I was someting I'm not. Sorry, mom && dad...but, there's really nothing you can do for me anymore, unless you are willing to continue to believe in me.
I'd like to apologize to all the people I've run over to reach where I am today. To all the friends I've hurt, to all the people I never paid attention to, I'm sorry...it's nothing personal.

Most of all, I am incredibly apologetic to all of you who I let down.
I'll probably never reach your expectations.
8:57 PM 
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