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Last Updated: 12/4/2009

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Gender: Female
Sign: Capricorn

State: Ohio
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/17/2006

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28 Nov 09 Saturday 

Current mood:  naughty
Standing on the edge of lust
Crying out for fulfillment...
Never again with you.

Impaling my heart
No words could say
When the end comes.

Stomping down on my needs
Using me for the benefit of
A taste of false paradise.

Like a drug we come back
Time and again lost in
That nasty ritual...dead

Sex is a formality
For the game we play
The blood on the sword.

Tell me again when
Has the heartbeat of love
Stopped for us?

Will I ever see the
Heart of love reign
In our lives again?

Or will the stench
Of false lust
Brand us the whore?

~Raven
28 November 2009
Currently listening:
Returner Yami No Shuen
By Gackt
Release date: 2007-07-02
6:49 PM 
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24 Nov 09 Tuesday 

Current mood:  apathetic


Marz And Raven Pictures, Images and Photos

This is how I am feeling these days...darkness has come in and I feel like I am the Raven once again.

I lost my damned job AGAIN. This time, the person who "let me go" was just plain stupid and ignorant.

I truly believe that the woman wanted me gone from the get go...oh well...wait til they get a load of my unemployment claims...

I have a job interview tomorrow, and I am just plugging along towards getting back on my feet, so I wish this woman well...and I will let Karma deal with her...it already is...lol

I am listening to Warchild, Sherrilyn Kenyon's brother right now...he is awesome: http://www.myspace.com/warchildone
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This week is Thanksgiving week, and while I am glad of it, I still hope it gets over with soon.

I love my family, but being around them for more that an hour usually grates on the old nerves...lol

I am back to writing poetry again...or at least polishing up what I have started. I am glad of that. It means that side of me hasn't completely gone into hiding.

I will be completely lost in the land of the Fae soon, and I plan to write a bit from that angle...I sure do have time...lol

Currently listening:
Unleashed
By Warchild
Release date: 2007-10-09
8:05 PM 
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24 Nov 09 Tuesday 

Current mood:  artistic
For years I have wondered
Lost and quite alone,
Creating a world in
Fantasy and light....
Never really here,
And never really there.

My dreams have changed
Or reshaped themselves
To include many successes
And many failures along the way.
I continue on be what I am
To continue to grow and learn.

I have seen friends come
And I have seen friends go...
I watched love live and
I have watched life extinquished
Before it had the chance to
Be what it truly could have been.

Wishes came and went throughout
A life lived between happiness
And sadness, pain and joy
To be granted and denied
As the Goddess saw fit.

I have lived a life
Filled with joy and wonder,
I have denied myself many times
And I have indulged myself
To the point of excess...
But I have strived to forever be.

Each day, each breath I take,
Every person who has come along
Has taught a lesson, shared themselves
To me, about me and about themselves.
I am me, that is all I can be, I live, I learn, I teach, and I am....

For each lesson I have learned
And each moment I have lived
I know that I will continue on
To give of myself, but that's
Not all I will do.
I will never give up on me.
~Raven
Currently listening:
Unleashed
By Warchild
Release date: 2007-10-09
7:48 PM 
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20 Nov 09 Friday 

Current mood:  devious
I cannot stand this game we play,
Circling each other waiting for the
Wounds to begin bleeding.

I hate the way you look at me,
Ready to say the words that
Make me scream in agony.

Trying to find a way out of this mess,
You block the doors
Making it impossible to leave.

I score your flesh and heart
With viscous words, hoping,
Pleading for you to go away!!

In reality, the way you
Make me feel
Really pisses me off.

Tell me how many more games
Must we play before
This hellish eternity is over?

Trapped in this gilded cage together
Shards of glass scattering the floor
The remnants of angry words spoken.

A bloody mass we leave each other,
As we wait for the end....
The last whip lash to fall.

I really wish you would go
Take your twisted thoughts
Of what love should be.

Take that black heart of yours
Throw it into the pits of hell
And let this pain die in peace.

~Raven

20 November 2009
Currently listening:
Back Against the Wall
By Cage the Elephant
Release date: 2009-02-03
4:59 PM 
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11 Apr 09 Saturday 

Current mood:  artistic
It's been a long time
Since I have stepped through
The realm of light and rhyme.
I have been lost in the shadows
A pain and sorrowful reality for me.
 
To think that this is where my heart
Has always longed to stand and love,
Playing with the images in fantasy,
In worlds where moonlight and
Fae children laughed and danced.
 
How I have missed this place where
I  could fly and dance with the Raven
To talk and create in artistry with
My Warrior King and all his fancies.
 
When this day is done, to the pages
Yet I will turn my attention,
Shedding the blanket of reality
For the realms where
My dearest Moonchild plays
Within my heart....
And he is calling me home once again...
My Warrion King, my moonchild....
~Raven
11 April 2009
 
***can't be too certain of this, but the poet may be back along with the versemaker....time will tell, and I welcome her home!!!
Currently listening:
Returner Yami No Shuen
By Gackt
Release date: 2007-07-02
4:31 PM 
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11 Feb 09 Wednesday 

Current mood:  inspired
 


On quiet reflection I think
Of what it means to be me.

I sit and think...
And think some more
Of all of the things
I want to see in me.

On quiet reflection I think
Of what I want of me.

I ponder and ponder...
And ponder more
On all the ways to
Change, grow, live.

On quiet reflection I think
Of where I eventually want to be.

I dream, and I dream...
And I dream some more
Of what I see in
The not so distant future.

On quiet reflection I think
Of what it means to live as me.

I sit and think...
And think a lot more
Of the person I am now,
And the one I was before.

On quiet reflection I think
Of all the love given to me.

I cry and I cry...
And I cry some more
With happy tears for those
Who have always seen me.

On quiet reflection I sit and think
Of all the love I give to thee.

I laugh and laugh in
Happy joy of all of
The friends I embrace,
Those of my growing family.

On quiet reflection I think
Of all that I am.

I sit and I think
Of all the things that
Make up me, and I think
It's not so bad to be me...
~Raven
2 November 2007
Currently listening:
East To West
By Made Popular By: Casting Crowns
Release date: 2007-08-17
11:04 PM 
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16 Dec 08 Tuesday 

Current mood:  electric
Things are changing,
My world is ever moving,
I turn around and
I turn around again,
Everything changed,
Yes, but everything
Has stayed the same....

I see you cry out,
We are ever within
Each other's hearts
By the light of the moon
No farther apart than thought.
You cry out and I can see you
I know that soon we will return..

Things have stayed the same,
Yet is different in my heart,
I hear your pain, and
I sigh in frustration
I cannot reach you,
Who is so far away and
I am hurting with your tears...

I hear you say my name,
As softly as the wind blows
I know my lover of the Moon
Calls out in vain for the one
He knows is somewhere
Looking through the night
Wanting and needing him....

Things have changed, I know it is true,
I have come back to the One my heart
Has always heard, time is not relevent
When your revenge was obvious
For my heart, time and time again,
You have come forth to avenge
The love of your beloved....

My moonchild...

~Raven
Currently listening:
Returner Yami No Shuen
By Gackt
Release date: 2007-07-02
7:11 AM 
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16 Dec 08 Tuesday 

Current mood:  artistic
I shall always dance within the light of the Moon,
A child, I shall ever be, one touched
By the Greatest Love.

I shall always dance within the light of the Moon,
A woman grown, I shall ever be, one longing
To live by the Greatest Mysteries.


I shall always dance within the light of the Moon,
An elder I shall always be, one gifted
By the Great Wisdom.


I shall always dance within the light of the Moon,
A part of Her, an ever growing child
Of the Great Celebrations.


I shall always dance within the light of the Moon,
A part of Him, an ever learning human
A part of the Great Deity.


I shall always dance within the light of the Moon,
A Goddess I shall ever be, three in One
One in the Great Me...


~Raven
Currently reading:
The Darkest Night (Lords of the Underworld, Book 1)
By Gena Showalter
7:03 AM 
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16 Dec 08 Tuesday 

Current mood:  savage
Walk through the dream with me.
Tell me exactly what you see
In this true delighted fantasy.

Sing the song of delight.
Listen to the sounds of lovers' light
And dance in merryment through the night.

Run through the greats dreams.
Show the world that true light beams,
And then you'll realize what it means.

Dance the the heartbeat like a drum.
Fell the vibrations through veins it will hum,
The heart and mind will not be an unequal sum.

Dream so sweetly, shiver and sigh.
The way one does when snow and sun is night,
The shivers of love give off those feelings that are just right.

In loves warmest embrace be so bold.
A lover's heart you will always warmly hold,
As the story of love continues to be told.
~Raven
Currently reading:
The Darkest Night (Lords of the Underworld, Book 1)
By Gena Showalter
6:51 AM 
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29 Nov 08 Saturday 

Current mood:  creative
This is the time of year that makes or breaks the human race....Christmas.

Everyone is making that mad dash to, from and in the malls, trying not kill themselves or each other in the process...enough to make anyone cringe.

However, as Advent comes on, I find myself in a position of becoming the thing that I always ask for....an example of love and charity.

A friend of mine in Brooklyn New York has two daughters with Cerebral Palsy, on is 2 today and the other is 7....they were evicted from their home this week, because of some sort of apartment code violations...I don't think this had much to do with them, but with the manager/owner to begin with. However this was legal.

My friend and her husband and children live off of what the state gives them for the girls...and in doing that, she does little things through the year to save money for the girls' Christmas...however this year is completely different.

My friend is using the money she saved for Christmas for a hotel until they have a new home in January.

This means no Christmas for the girls....or not....miracles happen, and sometimes they aren't just give by God or the angels, but by human hands.

I will do what I can for her family!  I have another friend who wants to help as well.  I just hope that she is kept in everyone's prayers and thoughts....a reminder that not everything goes according to plan, and sometimes you just have to roll with the punches, and accept the love and support  of others....and each other. 

It's a humbling thought, and it's a humbling feeling to know that I am doing more than just sending a young friend in California money to go to an anime convention, or handing a homeless man on the street a $5 and wishing him well, this is full out!! This is something that I have never done before, but always knew that I would someday do....

If just feels great, I am getting into the spirit of the season as I speak...I have to, Santa can't be Scrooge at a time like this, now can he? Of course, I am a she and not a he...maybe we can change his name...lol Just kidding!!

You know, I may never get the chance to come face to face with this friend who lives in New York, I'll ship Christmas to her, and I may never meet the girl I helped get to that anime convention, and I may never meet all of you who have given me hope, but that's alright because I have met everyone in my heart!!
Currently reading:
Acheron (Dark-Hunter, Book 12)
By Sherrilyn Kenyon
Release date: 2008-08-05
1:28 PM 
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