I keep trying and getting rebuffed. Well that is not entirely true. I try once, get rebuffed, quit for 2 months and then try again. Thing is I don't take to well to rejection. Of couse no one really does, so in that am just like everyone else. But the fact still is that I don't take to well to rejection. So when I try and get rebuffed I becomes increasingly harder to try again. The worst is when I try, get a positive reply, make plans to utlize that answer and then, on very short notice, and told "No, were very sorry but we can't use you, someone/something better has come along. Maybe someday in the future when we have no better options we will fall back to you, but only until we can find someone better." The truly sad part is that every time I am there waiting for that call.