Behind the silence
I hear your screams
Behind the tears
I know your dreams
Behind the man
I see the child
Behind closed doors
I drive you wild
Behind the lies
I know the truth
Behind the sadness
I see you...........







                         

You will find the stains of my tears
Where I stumbled and fell
Scratched my knee's as I knelt
In the thorns there in hell
I picked out the splinters
Of my shattered heart
Counted everyone of them
Looking for a brand new start
A sliver of hope , in the blinding blue of doom
A piece of heartbreak , the sun shinning through
In the laughter in your eyes.......
                         Thanks for the smile   : 0 )

Life is based on a series of conclusions drawn as the pages of our days are written.
Did you start today with an empty page ? Is your page a continuation of yesterdays story?
How do you expect the ending to change when the story your writting today is the same as yesterday's headlines. hummmmm , just a thought .....
Have a great day today and a better tomorrow :)
                                                     Melody

Solitary contentment is a form of self discovery
Yeah but so is playing with my toes...

Bouncing ideas off a brick wall...
Tends to get you knocked in the head

Distance makes the heart grow fonder
 ahhhh,. But a foot in the ass makes it grow wiser ..

I've been through this before...
is usually followed by,.,
Woah, you screwed up worse than I did !

                 Yeah, this is what's running through my head,.
                     ( and YOU thought you were screwed up ! )

                             Melody :)

You can't walk through your future with one foot in the past.
 ( this is why we tend to go in circles ;)
          

  Death is ceasing to exist or even possibly a transformation . Our only proven shot at immortality is in the memories of others. I don't subscribe to the proverbial it's all part of some supernatural plan. That there is a "reason" for everything. There is not. Most things happen simply because we're human , tragic things happen because our body simply isn't created to weather every storm . I believe everyone has a right to their personal belief system basically whatever gets ya through the day as long as your not inflicting damage to the earth or the people that inhabit it, rock on with your bad self ;)  . I don't think God ever intended mans interpretation of his existence, I believe this rational is man made and not of God. I don't believe there is a all mighty plan. I believe we exist as long as our body allows. I do however believe most humans have souls and that energy is what continues after our brains and body ( we) die. I am not who I am due to the facing of some all mighty judgment at the end of my time, I am faced with the way I affect others throughout my life and that's what counts in the end .

                                         Melody :)

In the scope of things I've come to think I need to accept there are things so much larger than myself. While this may sound strange, and worth "preaching" to me over, please don't. I have my beliefs and I am at peace in that aspect. The aspect I'm speaking of is a much more human oriented one.
 For the first time in my life things are spinning beyond any contribution I can make to essentially  make things a little better.  I liken it to the "feeling " a single flower must have in the midst of a hurricane.  Altho I am an active participant in life and those living around me, and share in their life's issue and take them individually to heart. I can't seam to accept sometimes there is just nothing I can do to ease the path for those I love  ( that single flower) , I watch from the hilltop as waves come crashing down, a helpless observer to life's harshness .
 Like an oncoming collision, your eyes and heart are riveted to
  altho you , a pedestrian can do nothing but scream in a hystirical attempt to stop the oncoming tragedy unfolding in front of you........... It's your family in the car.......
With this window into my mind, I will close for now...
  Hold those you love close....
                                              Melody
 
 

http://lostgraveswhereflowersgrowintucson.blogspot.com/2009/01/to-my-friends-and-now-family.html

Maggie,
A stranger to us , now a precious part of our life our family.....
And so many more...they just don't know it yet !
More of Kim's story and this wonderful blessing....
...check out the link...copy / paste if it doesn't work...

Ray and Audrey funded the trip for Kim and Gerald in Dec....what a wonderful thing to do for Kim......It's doubtful they will ever understand the enormity of their kindness ...but we do ;)

                               Counting our blessings :)
                                           Melody

Talk about cheap therapy....wow....this is an idea to help everyone see today for what it is...
As Kim prepares for the inevitable , she carries with her a small journal , writing as though each day is her last.
This is something everyone should do.
 Talk about seeing things in a different light...
Just pick up a notebook....write your "last" letters, write what you find beautiful in the world, write what you will miss when your gone, write your impressions and depressions as if today is the last chance you will have to make your imprint on this earth....
Reflect on your words...Think about goodbye....forever....
Blessed we are to have today , there is no clearer picture than our own reflections ....
                            Blessings,
                               Melody