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Gender: Male
Status: Married
Age: 29
Sign: Libra

City: KANSAS CITY
State: Missouri
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/22/2006

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Thursday, February 14, 2008 

Current mood:  bored
Category: Life

Ok so generally about the last thing I do is worry about my Myspace. I think the only reason I set it up in the beginning was to look for a certain person to see if they had finally died yet ( LOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGG bitter painful story, not going there). My job at the time allowed me some certain leisure to mess around with it, but when that changed, I just seemed to have better things to do with my time when I was home. Most people that I care to know whats going in my life already know, or know how to get me.

However, I did make one mistake. Last spring my wife and I split up briefly (maybe about a week all in total). In spite, I changed my profile around to reflect my newfound seperated/singleness. However, once things were worked out...I forgot to change it back. Apparently this led to some family members across the country getting very worried, especially when we didn't speak often on the phone. I've since fixed my profile, but have yet to post any updates.

Most of you by now know how things are going for us. We had some communication problems, which we still work on day to day. I would say for the most part things are going quite well for us. We just worry about the bills, but then hey, who doesn't?

This last year has been a huge year for changes for us. About two months after we split, we found out that we were going to have our first baby. This was quite a shock for us, but definately a big and wonderful thing. Our only concern was that it has happened when we have been at our worst financially. We spent most of the last year living with my brother as we lost our home, both our cars, and other problems. Needless to say, Rent a Center is the devil. In 4 years I spent almost 36,000 yes 36,000! and only have a dvd player, bedroom set, and coffee tables/end tables to show for it. I want to cry to think that both cars could have been paid off and still had our home if not for our wanting all those "things".

So far Heather's pregnancy has gone about as well as can be expected. We found out we are having a girl. Her name will be Riley Lynn. Every test they have run has shown that she will be completely healthy. Heather had some blood pressure issues early on, but those cleared up after a month or two. Her expected due date is currently around March 27th. Yes that means I have about a month of freedom left, I know. Please dont remind me. Anyone know of any good deals on shotguns and padlocks?

We moved out of my brothers and into our own new place a few weeks ago. We still dont have a car, but there is an easy bus route for me to get to and from work right now. I work for the 10th District Federal Reserve Bank now, so should be able to support us all for a while until after Riley is born and Heather is ready to go back to work.

There really isn't a whole lot much else going on right now. I'll stay in touch as I can, but until I get internet at home back on, who knows how often I can get on here.

Monday, September 04, 2006 
Ok, so recently my buddy Red and I were going through some old stories, letters, poetry, yadda yadda. I came across a few things that I thought was good enough to share with others. Not to mention that the person these poems/songs are dedicated to is here on Myspace. I REALLY hope that she comes across these. Maybe even comments. Share her lies with the rest of the world. Am I bitter? Completely. I have had bad relationships in the past, but never did I allow myself to be so completely sandbagged as I did with E.S. My only consolation had been that she was going to be dying a violent death in the near future from illness, guess I was lied to about that too. Shame, she deserved it. But I digress, on to the literature:

Drip

Blood stains on the carpet
Red drops dripping from the blade
Let me show you, how much I love you
Since you showed me
How little you fucking cared.

Drip

You never listened in this bed
Against a void of cold I lay
A wall of silence that would not fall
My silent screams now given voice

Drip

I said I love you, I took you to my ed
I played your body
While you played my head
You left me in the cold
You left me for that prick
Scream at me all you want
All I'll say is... Drip

Here in this room
Here in this bed
Devil's Blood coursing through my viens
As I think now
As I bleed now
Will you try to save the day?

Drip

I look into your eyes
But they just stare past
Even in death
You fucking just can't look at me
A question at your lips...
But all they do is drip.

"You"

You took me from my life
You saved me from myself
Now there's no one else
All I have is...you

When did everything change
Nothing about me's the same
A fucking marionette
To your masochistic mind

You pulled hard on my strings
You left me to hang
Until, you come back home I'm
Gasping for air because of you

When did everything change
Nothing about me's the same
A fucking marionette
To your masochistic mind

Save me from my savior
Free me of this freedom
Every thing that used to be
Is dead to me..
Or am I dead to it?

Picture this
You and me
It will not happen
I can see, only me

Something wrong
There are no strings
I'm all alone
Nobody here but...you

I have a couple more, but I have to figure out where I put them. So I will probably post them later. Enjoy!